Chapter 11
A few weeks had passed and there was still no word from Cas. He would check in every once in a while but it was always the same. He was still trying to figure out how she got there. In the meanwhile, Faith had become their secret weapon when it came to research. She would find them cases, do all the research and all the boys would have to do was hunt. They even would take her with them on a couple of cases, just in case they would need additional research.
With everything that was going on, Faith completely forgot that eventually she would have to leave the boys. She felt happy with them, hell, she felt like she belong and that she was finally doing something good with her life, just like her grandfather wanted for her. Okay, maybe this wasn't exactly what he had in mind for her, but did it really matter? One way or another she was doing something good with her life. But, as they say, everything that's good comes to an end.
They had just return from another hunt. They were cleaning the guns and repacking their duffels, just in case another hunt appears, when Cas showed up at the bunker.
-''Hey, Castiel. What brings you down to Earth?'' – Faith said, greeting the angel with a smile.
-''Hi, Faith. Dean, Sam. I finally discovered how you got here.'' – the angel said with a proud but tired smile.
-''You did?'' – Dean was the first to ask. How he wished Cas was lying, but he knew that Cas wouldn't lie about something like that.
-''Yes, it turns out my original theory was correct. The lightning that sent Faith here was actually an angel going to her reality. And she got caught in the remains of the angels' power which sent her here.'' – Cas was proud of himself. After all that time without an answer to give them, now he finally had good news. Or so he thought.
-''So, now what?'' – Faith asked, not wanting to know the answer. She wished that Cas would say that there was no way for her to go back, just so she wouldn't have to make a choice.
-''There's a way to send you back, but we need something from that reality. Something that has some sort of meaning to you and that is related to there.''
-''My necklace. It was a gift from my grandfather. It's the only thing that means anything to me and that connects me to my reality.'' – she said, sadness in her voice.
-''Very well. Give me an hour and you'll be back to your reality soon.''
-''Thank you, Castiel. I guess I should go and get my things.''
What no one noticed was that Dean had left the library. He didn't want her to go, but he couldn't ask her to stay either. She didn't belong there, even though she had proved to them that she could easily adapt to their world. She was amazing at research and as for hunting, she was a quick learner. How he wished she would choose to stay. In the past few weeks they had been growing closer. Talking for hours, rocking out in the Impala, pranking Sam or just sitting in the couch together watching tv. He never felt so comfortable with someone other than her. And now she was leaving, forever. It was too much for him. Climbing in the Impala, he decided to just drive. He didn't want to see her leave, so he wouldn't be there to watch.
While Faith went to her room to gather her things, Sam went looking for his brother. He knew Dean wouldn't be taking the news very well. Just as he gets to the garage, he heard the Impala's engine roaring, and he knew. Dean wouldn't be there to say goodbye to Faith. It would hurt too much. On top of the tool box was an envelope with Faiths' name written on it in Deans' handwriting. Sam knew Faith needed to read it before going back. ''Whatever that letter says, it just might convince her to stay'', Sam thought. Hopefully.
Faith was fighting back the tears as she was gathering her things to leave to her reality, but when she came across a photo they had taken just a few days before, she lost it. In the photo, she was in the middle of Sam and Dean, all laughing but there was something else in the way that Dean was looking at her. She didn't know what it was, but it didn't matter. It was too late. She had made her decision. She didn't belong there and without her in the picture, the boys wouldn't have to worry about her safety. She decided that since she was going back, at least she would let Dean know how she felt for him, so she wrote him a letter.
Faith's letter
''Dean,
I'm writing you this letter for a few reasons.
First, I wanna thank you for everything. Sure, our first meeting wasn't exactly normal but still. You have been nothing but kind and caring and I can never thank you enough for that. You never made me feel like an outsider and that meant a lot to me.
Second, please don't be sad that I'm leaving. We both knew that this day would come and that I don't belong here. I would just slow you guys down and crimple your style when you're trying to pick up some chick at a bar. (Eheh) Just remember the good times we had, please.
Third and the real reason why I'm writing this letter. I love you. Slowly, but surely, I've been falling in love with you. It wasn't something that I had planned, it just happened. I wished that I was braver, just brave enough to tell you this in person, but I'm not. I love you and I will carry you in my heart forever.
I'm sorry, Dean. I wished things could be different. I really do, but this isn't my world.
Goodbye, Dean.
With all the love in the world,
Faith.''
When Faith finished the letter, she was a mess. Just then there was a knock on her door.
-''Come in.'' – she said, pulling herself together.
-''Hey, Faith. Can we talk?'' – Sam asked, a sad look in his eyes.
-''Sure. What's going on?''
-''Dean's gone. I think he couldn't stand having to say goodbye to you. I found this in the garage. It's for you.'' – Sam gave her the letter from Dean and left. That was something she needed to read alone.
Her hands were shaking and she had tears in her eyes, while opening the letter. Once opened, she saw Dean's handwrite and a few teardrops in the paper.
Dean's letter
''Faith,
I'm sorry for not being there to say goodbye, but I just can't.
From the moment I saw you in my bedroom, completely terrified, I knew that I would follow and protect you wherever you might go. But now, you're going somewhere I can't follow and it hurts.
You brought light back to my life, you showed me how to smile and taught me how to laugh again, and for that I'll never be able to thank you enough.
I wished I couldn't feel a damn thing, Faith, because it hurts too much to lose the woman I love. Yes, I love you. I love you with all my heart and now you're leaving. I wished you didn't have to leave, but your life is there. I understand that now. You'll always be the one for me, Faith. No matter what, I will always love you.
I wish you nothing but the best.
With love,
Dean Winchester.''
