A small dose of true friendship is the secret recipe to a complete, content life.
I actually slept, all night, without a single phone call or message requiring my help. I didn't need coffee to keep me awake and Joe and Kevin treated me like a brother and not a 'boy that needs help' again.
Alright, I'm exaggerating, the sight of Jane with her new boyfriend made me feel a little down. But Macy explained that anyone who feels sorry for her and not her boyfriend is stupid. That did cheer me up.
I was smiling, laughing, and being childish. Everything I'd normally keep cooped up inside, refusing to open the door by locking the door and throwing away the key.
I guess someone had found that key.
"Oh dear, what now?"
"What? I smiled. It's not like I ate a live kitten."
Joe would use anything to make me angry, smack him and use my death glare; it's one of those funny things that are only funny, if they aren't happening to you.
"And that's why you smiling, worries me."
"Don't make me go badass on your butt Joseph"
"Don't use my name and the word butt in the same sentence Nicholas"
If I hadn't of been so full of life I probably would of hit him and sulked about it till I'd forgotten or, as Kevin liked to say, write a song and sing myself into a quiet, less painful state for everyone around me.
Daydreaming had always been a big issue for me; it's how I got to dream so big but through the last few days of freedom I'd found it hard to start a daydream and see it through because every time I started to drift away someone would...
"NICK!"
Yes, that happened a lot.
I jumped, turning on the spot to find Jane standing in front of me. As I made eye contact, her expression seemed to soften.
"I'll see you later."
I nodded once at my brother, trying to seem formal and calm as I looked at Jane again.
"Nick... I'm so sorry. What I did was wrong... I just wanted to get to know you. You're an amazing guy...I was so scared you wouldn't like me if I told you the truth."
Sweet right? No. I was over her. I didn't want anything to do with her. She never liked me, she treated me like dirt, and she knew I wasn't coping, yet she still carried on pushing me. The first chance she had, she jumped into my brothers arms. She got to me, she created a new me and well, it was hard to like a girl who would never even try.
"I'm sorry but we'll never have what we had, I don't think we can even be friends. We had nothing friendship wise before and well...it's hard to build friendship after a relationship." Yes, I was a gentleman. She may have hurt me but that doesn't excuse me and give me the right to be a jerk.
"FINE!"
As you can see, we had different views. Just one of the reasons we were never going to be friends, proper friends.
"Jane, I'm sorry, there's no reason we can't get along in class. I'm mature enough to know we both need a good education. I would never let anything get between you're future."
"Ugh. Get over yourself. I can do well with or without you."
Well, at least she had confidence.
"You're lucky I impersonated that stupid little girl. The closest you can ever get to her. Even I think she could do better."
Does that sound like it hurt? Because it did, a lot.
"Jane, can you just shut the hell up for one minute? Get your head out of your ass and think about why people like me know we can do better than people like you. You're a spoilt little brat that couldn't keep anything to yourself without holding it against someone."
"Pfft. How little you know."
You're not supposed to swear. You're not supposed to hit. You're not supposed to hate. Oh how close I was to all three of them.
"How little I know? What do you know that I don't? Who has been stupid enough to trust you with anything? I couldn't trust you to hold my bag without somehow turning it bad." Not my heart though, that just gets given out.
"Macy trusted me. Yes, you're little girlfriend."
"We're not dating. For some strange reason, she can just be friends with a guy without feeling the need to seal the deal by jumping into bed with him."
"I don't just jump into bed with people. But yeah, she's perfect, whatever. She'd never lie to you."
Oh why do people do that? They know if they use sarcasm you'll have to ask.
"I'm guessing you know something I don't."
"Mm, you catch on fast."
"What do you know that I don't then?"
Yes, maybe I had fallen into her trap but to be honest, I was going to lose either way.
"You're little perfect friend well... Actually I quiet like Macy. No, you know what; it isn't my place to tell."
"You've basically told me now!"
"Ask her about that little girl, maybe she knows something you don't. Let's see how you're brilliant, smug little mind handles that one."
I know after everything she had done I probably should have ignored her comment and attempt to make me upset and stressed but well, I'm gullible. Asking had never been an issue with Macy; I'd never seemed to make her uncomfortable with anything. This couldn't hurt right?
The urge to make them argue is very strong...
Am I that mean? No :).
One more, promise :(.
