If I had a Chance

raven1295

A/N :I do not own Transformers, just my OCs. Strong language. If there's any errors I'll fix when I can. Warning: dark topics such as suicidal thoughts. Enjoy!


(Eva's POV)

The event didn't seem to be that bad. For the men and women who serve in the military knows how to dress when it comes to things like this. Jazz left us to go help Bumblebee with his outfit so that left Avi and I sitting at a table alone. We could sit with Sam, Mikaela and the military guys but we were required sit at this table which is reserved for about seven people. I turned to Avi and by the looks of her constantly fixing herself and shaky hands I could tell she's not okay.

"Avi." She looks at me.

"Hmm?"

"Will you stop? You're going to be just fine."

"I know. I'm good."

"Avi."

"Okay, so maybe I 'm a little nervous." No kidding.

"If you say you had no reason to avoid the guy then fucking apologize and kiss him already."

"I'm not going to kiss him. I just need to clear things with him is all." I only rolled my eyes.

"Avi, be honest did he do something to you?"

"Wait? No, I- Eva why can't you leave this alone."

"Look, I don't like him. Not because of him being a dick earlier but he made you cry. Nobody makes you cry and gets away with it."

"Eva."

"If anything is bothering you, just know I'm here for you. Ok?"

"Yeah. Thanks."

"Good. Now be on the lookout for Optimus." Speaking of Optimus, where is he? If he doesn't show then we have a problem and Avi is gonna stay like this for how long we're here for. Just then a group of men came walking to our direction. From left to right, Jazz was there talking to a teenage boy, he looked 16 or 17, bright blonde hair, fair skin, baby blue eyes wearing a yellow button down shirt, black vest and matching pants and shoes. There was another guy with blonde hair, but it was a more dirty blonde, and the guy was much older. I'd say late 30s, early 40s. He was wearing a nice tan suit and some memorizing blue eyes. There's one same age as the other dirty blonde, wearing all black, with blue eyes, fair black hair and muscles hugging his shirt. Finally, in the front of the group was a tall guy, wearing a royal blue suit, mid to late 30s, fair black hair and like the others, blue eyes. They all came and sat in our table. Jazz sat across to Avi, next to him was the teen, while tan suit sat next to me, across to him was the all black then the tallest guy sitting in the middle of the table.

"Miss us?" Jazz smiled at us.

"What took you so long?" Jazz shrugged before turning to the teen.

"Not my fault. Bee here was havin some trouble with his clothes." Wait. That teen is Bumblebee? I thought he would be older than that. Damn I feel old. But if that's Bee then guessing by the way each of them are dressed by their alt form then tan suit sitting next to me is...

"Hello Eva." I turned to the handsome man.

"Ratchet?" He only gave me a smile. Then that mean muscle is Ironhide and the tallest is Optimus. Makes sense.

"Wow. You look good." Good? He's a sexy piece of...

"You, you like it?" More like wanna tear the clothes and jump on you.

"I do." His smile never left.

"You are stunning tonight." I could hear a chuckle behind me knowing it was Avi. Oh this was going to be a long night. I just ignored her and continue to talk to him, with time passing by I noticed Optimus glancing at Avi here and there but she doesn't see it. Must I always do everything?! Pulling my phone I texted the guys of the plan. After a few seconds later Bee and Jazz left the table to go talk to Sam and Mikaela, Ironhide left to talk to Will and I told Avi that I'll be back taking Ratchet with me, finally leaving those two alone.

"Are you sure this is going to work?" Ratchet asked. Honestly I hope so or else I'm locking those two in a closet and throwing away the key. Suddenly a miracle happened. Optimus got up and sat next to Avi, I saw some lips moving from both sides soon they got up and walked somewhere else.

"Finally." Ironhide said. I couldn't agree more but now that they're gone my curiosity was at an all time high and I wanted to know what was going on. While Ironhide and Ratchet went back to the table I followed Avi but stayed quiet and at a certain distance for them not to see me. Apparently Bee, Jazz, Sam and Mikaela came along to see what was going to happen. The two were talking on the balcony of the building as for me, I stayed close enough to hear but they won't see me.

"Miss Pierce." Optimus said.

"Either call me Avi or Avianna. Miss Pierce makes me sound old Optimus." He nods.

"Avi, I would like to apologize about offending you that day." Avi shook her head while looking at the night sky.

"You don't have to apologize for anything. It's me who should apologize. You didn't offend me, there were so many emotions going through my head and it got the best of me. Did Eva tell you anything about us?"

"She said you and her had no recollection of what happened while you two were eating somewhere." She sighed.


(Avi's POV)

I guess I should tell him the truth. It's better he knows than lying to his face, he is my husband. Well in my dreams he is.

"The truth is, Eva and I are not from this planet. Well, more like this universe." Optimus didn't say anything but slightly tilt his head in confusion.

"I don't understand. You are not human?" I turned to him, forcing myself to face the beautiful angel and those eyes of his.

"I am human. Where I come from you're not real. There are no autobots or decepticons roaming Earth in my universe. You guys are fiction, you guys come from tv shows, movies, a franchise. In my world it's only reality, none of this would happen in my world." Staring at him, Optimus finally understood what I was talking about.

"So seeing you and the autobots in real life, I was a little star struck. But what I did to you... I'm sorry." I chuckled as I felt my eyes water. Turning away from him to gaze at the star filled sky if only he knew how special he really was.

"Avi, is something wrong?" He moved closer to see my eyes mist. Should I tell him? I don't want him to think of me of some sad girl. However, I don't know how he will take it.

"Honestly, running away from you wasn't suppose to happen."

"Did I make you uncomfortable?" No! Never! I should tell him. No, I can't. Just do it!

"You don't know how much you mean to me." Great, I said it.

"I don't understand." Okay so, I lied about running away from him for no reason. I did have a reason. The question is, will he understand?

"When I was a kid, I didn't have any parents. I didn't meet Eva until high school and I was by myself. Surviving was my top priority, I did things I'm not proud of. I felt my life was useless. I thought... why do I have the life I'm living. It came to point before things changed for the better I wanted to end it." If I told anyone about this they would tell me things would get better, but if they said this when I was in the darkest moment of my life I wouldn't believe them.

I looked at him and told him something I never told Eva, "I wanted to kill myself, Optimus." Judging by his facial expression he was clearly surprised by that.

"I thought if I could end it then I don't have to live the life I had. The day I was planning to off myself I walked into the library and roamed around one last time. While I was walking through the kids section I heard a voice. I don't know why but this voice made everything stop. I followed the sound of the voice and it was a TV playing." He said nothing as I went on, "On the screen was a cartoon, this show had robots and there was one that caught my eyes. He was red and blue, and he could transform into a truck. Though his voice was deep, it was soothing. Almost like a blanket hugging me, just from listening to this person I felt something I never though I would feel. I felt hope. I remember watching a marathon of the show until the library closed. The last thing I remember before leaving was a quote the angel said. He said, I, Optimus Prime can never be conquered." He was speechless, I could tell there wasn't anything going through his head at the moment.

"I thought to myself that night. What he went through in losing his world and fighting in never ending battle, he never gave up. So why should I? I went back to the library the next day and something happened. I got the opportunity to read, to write, I got to go to school." By now I could feel tears being released and flowing my face with my voice breaking up.

"I-I went to school and then I met Eva. Even to this day I think to myself what happened if I didn't take a walk in the library. What if I didn't hear your voice. So long story short, it's because of you I didn't kill myself. Y-You saved me. So seeing you in real life I-I..." Words couldn't be produced anymore. I'm breaking down in front of the Optimus Prime. Great second impression Avi. Thank goodness my makeup was waterproof. Suddenly I felt something pull me in warmth. My eyes went as wide as possible. Optimus was hugging me. I only stood there in shock, but then hugged him back. All I could feel is comfort, warmth and hope. We stayed this way for maybe a few minutes before he let go to look at me.

"Forgive me. I was told doing this helps someone feel better." Blinking a few times I was unable to control the huge smile plastered on my face.

"It's okay. I actually needed that. Uh.. Thank you." He slightly tilts his head and gently wipes the last tear off my face.

"I didn't know of the impact I had on you."

"Yeah. To Eva, she thinks I'm just an obsessed fan. But now you know the truth. Just promise not to tell anyone. Please." Though I'm begging him to not tell a soul I noticed his hand never left my face. It was still there. Fangirling a bit.

"I promise on my spark. I will not tell anyone." So glad to hear it. I did something that surprised the both of us.

Yup... I kissed him. It only last about five seconds after I realized what I was doing. When I broke the kiss Optimus was frozen. To be honest my body felt as if it got struck by lighting and now it's heating up. My heart is pounding, its trying to find a way out of my chest. I can't believe I kissed my angel.

"I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me." He blinks a couple times before brushing his thumb over his lips. With the embarrassment flooding in my body I think now would be a good time to leave. I don't want to make things worst.

"I'm sorry. Can we forget that happen?" He only looked at me, still touching his lips. If he doesn't say anything in the next five minutes I'm hiding under a rock. Why did I have to kiss him? It's what I wanted to do the first time. I wanted to kiss him over and over again. Besides, he has beautiful lips, they were soft and I wanted more. No. Don't mess this up more.

"It's alright, Avi. Perhaps we should keep this to ourselves as well." Thank you. I nod in agreement. For that he gave a small smile, even when he smiles, my heart acts up.

"We should get back before people think we're missing." And so we were on our way back to the party. The moment we came back I ended up sitting next to Optimus since everyone was sitting in different seats. I didn't mind and neither did he, we talked the whole night.


(Eva's POV)

"Tonight was interesting. I'm just happy, Optimus and I are friends." Avi said as we set foot into the apartment. Once I shut the door I immediately took off my heels and jewelry.

"I told you. You had nothing to worry about. Now you two are friends and not avoiding each other." Avi faced me before walking up to give me a hug. I hugged her back.

"You okay?" She removed herself from the hug and gave me a big smile.

"You know I love you?" I chuckled.

"Of course. Love you too."

"Good. I swear Eva, I don't know what I would do if you weren't here with me."

"I'm sure you'd be fine without me." Avi chuckles while taking off her shoes and jewelry.

"I don't know about that. You know my friend circle is small."

"Yeah. Yeah. Well I'm heading to bed. Goodnight." I told her. I heard a 'night' before I get in my room and close the door. I stood thinking to myself. The conversation she had with Optimus remained in my head. All this time I thought her obsession was just a personal interest. I didn't know Optimus meant that much to her. With a sigh I changed clothes, washed my face and laid on the bed.

I can't help but feel upset and guilty. I knew Avi's past was rough but I didn't know it went pitch black. Not only I overheard the conversation but four other people heard it as well. We all left after we heard Optimus promise on his spark he wouldn't tell Avi's secret. I didn't want to stay to hear any other personal things. I made Sam and the others to not say a word and they promised. The question is... Can they keep a promise?