Chapter Eleven

Truth Be Told, Bella's Fiesty

It had been a few more hours after Jasper and Emmett left the room, and I still hadn't moved from the bed. The only thing that had moved, was my cell phone that my hands had been fiddling with. I stared at the little black, folded phone, debating enternally whether or not to call him. The pain made me not want to talk to him. I didn't want to hear his 'I'm sorry' and I didn't want his excuses either. Secretly I did wonder why he did it. But even that scared me as to what the answer would be. I always knew Edward was too good for me, and his answer would confirm it.

However, I did want to talk to him. My rational side, the side that was still in love with him, wanted to talk things out. I wanted to at least tell him that I was leaving. Discuss certain things about getting my things from the house, and places I might move. I also wanted to know who all knew. It was obvious that his brother's didn't know, which for some reason was odd to me. I didn't know for sure about Alice and Rosalie though. Alice had conviently left town, and before that had acted just as weird as Edward. Rosalie was normal though, her usual 'pleasant' self. I smiled at the sarcasm and fiddled with the phone some more.

Suddenly my phone vibrated, and I looked at the caller i.d., already knowing who it was. Flipping the phone open, I put the phone up to my ear.

"Hi." His voice was so shakey, I felt so bad for him. I hated that.

"Hey. It's weird that you called-"

"Not really" he interrupted. "Alice called me and told me that you had decided to call me, but then changed your mind. It was driving her nuts because apparently you have been going back and forth for a few hours now. So...I decided to just get it over with, and call you myself."

"Glad to hear the enthusiam." I heard Edward sigh on the other end. "I'm sorry, that wasn't necessary."

"Bella, anything you say to me or do to me is completely necessary right now. Bella, I'm-"

"Stop." I interrupted him. This was exactly what I didn't want. "I don't was this conversation to be that conversation. I'm not ready yet."

"You just wanted to tell me your leaving." He sounded so heartbroken, I almost changed my mind and ran to the house that instant.

"Alice told you?"

"Yes. Bella, I understand that you are hurting right now, and that you don't want to be anywhere near me. I accept that. I've done enough, and I don't want to upset you more, so if letting you leave is what makes you happy right now, then so be it."

"Thank you. I don't know how long I'll be gone. I don't even know where I'll go. I don't know how to go about this Edward. Should we see an attorney?"

I heard him take in a sharp breath. "An attorney? For what? Bella, are you wanting a divorce?!"

"No, no! No, Edward. I don't want a divorce. At least...I don't think I do. It's just that, I know for sure that I can't be with you right now. It hurts to much, and I do need to be on my own for a while. A long while. So we need to legally seperate."

"Bella that's not necessary. You can have full access to the accounts to use the money as you wish, and you can take anything you want. I don't want to seperate Bella. I love you. I know you don't want to hear all this right now, but I have to get it out. I. Love. You. No one but you. What happened with Tanya was a lifetime of mistakes. I really was trying to break it off with her. And then I fucking growled at you! I can't believe I even did that! I-"

"Wait. What did you just say? Did you say mistakes? With an 's'? As in plural? As in more than one time!?!" My voice had gotten a little louder at that point.

"Bella, this is really something we shouldn't discuss over the phone, we really need to talk face to face."

"No, because if we talk face to face, someone's face is going to end up in pain. Now tell me what you're talking about." I felt the anger rising in me.

"Bella, please-'

"Talk Edward."

I heard Edward take in a long, deep breath, and exhale loudly as he braced himself for what he was about to tell me. "Bella, I really wanted us to sit down and talk about this in person. I really don't want to do this over the phone, you don't deserve 'over the phone'."

"Please Edward, just spit it out.'

"Okay. Yes, there has been more that the one time with Tanya. It was five times."

"In the meadow? You fucked her FIVE times in that short of a time?!"

"No Bella. Five different times. I-...remember back when Rose told you about her human life?"

"Yes. That's when I first heard about Tanya."

"Okay, well it started then. Well, no, not then. That's when she showed her interest in me. And it never stopped with her. Once she decided she wanted to be with me, she never let up. First time was because I was bored. Second time was a few years after that, again, because I was bored. Third time was...dammit...the third time was when I left you in the woods. It wasn't because of her, I swear. I really did want to give you the chance at a happy, normal, human life. But while I was in South America, Tanya found me. And to try to ignore the pain of needing you, I slept with her again. Then she promised that there would be no more. She promised me this after me and you got back together. I explained to her how much you meant to me and that what ever happened between me and her was over. And then she came to the wedding. Which I knew she would, but the whole time she was there, all I could hear were her thoughts and all she did was replay over and over again our encounters with each other. Then at the reception, she got mad because I wouldn't talk to her. I knew she was jealous, and for some reason, that pleased me. So I flaunted you in front of her, and in the end it backfired on me. She said she was going to tell you about us and I couldn't let her do that. So then came the fouth time."

"At our wedding! Edward, how could you! And...wait...wait, hold on. You lied to me."

"Yes Bella and I'm sorry."

"No, you lied to me. Edward, you made the biggest fucking deal about not sleeping with me until after we were married because you wanted to do whatever you could to make into heaven if there were the slightest of chances. And that included saving your supposed 'virtue'. And there wasn't even one to save you asshole!"

"Bella, please, listen. I'm sorry, I promise, that to me, I really was saving my virtue. I don't consider my first time to be with her, I consider it with you! You have to believe me."

"Save it Edward. Tomorrow morning, I'll be there to get just a few things to get me by for now. I will be leaving after that, and you are never to call me." And with that I slammed my phone shut and shoved it on the bed next to me. That did it. I was done with Edward for good, and when I was ready, I would be sending him papers to sign for divorce. I couldn't believe what I had just heard. I had been lied to from the very moment I met him. My whole existence with him had been lie after lie. Nothing with him was real.


I didn't know what I was thinking. Rage had taken over and before I knew it, I had flown out of Edward's room, out into the night. I felt like one of those horses with those blinders on their eyes. All I could see was my destination. However, I didn't really know what I was going to do or say once I got there.

It took a while, but after sifting through all the books in his room, I finally came across an address book that had names of people that Edward and his family had met through the years. It was kinda funny, he actually had Charlie and Rene's address and phone numbers. After finding her address, I had to quietly go downstairs and actually find where it was. I didn't know exactly how to get there, and I wasn't familiar enough with her scent to find her that way.

I had a feeling why I wanted to see her. It was probably because I wanted to hear what she had to say for herself. Why she thought that she could stake claim on what was mine. It didn't matter anyways, I would tell her that she could have him. If he wanted to go through enough trouble to lie to me so much just to sleep with her, then obviously, he wanted her more than he was letting on. Therefore, she could have him.

As I ran through the vast terrain of land, different things occured to me. What exactly would I say to her? Would she reveal more than what Edward has? Are there more secrets? Facing her would mean me facing one of the biggest doubts I've had since meeting Edward. That Tanya was prettier than me. More desirable than me.

As I ran, a faint scent stung my nose. It was official, to me, Tanya smelled worse that Jacob. I ran slower now. I had come here on pure rage, pure hate. As I got closer, the scent getting stronger, anxiety started creeping up inside me. I really had no clue what I was going to do. I hated this woman so much. Tanya was literally the stake to my dead heart. In front of me, not far in the distance, a large white and grey stone house came into view. It looked like an old house. Possibly over a hundred years, but had obviously been fixed up. To someone like me, it looked like it had been fixed up to suit vampires. To other people, it just looked fixed up. Her scent was strong around the area, so I knew I had gotten the right house. As I approached the house, I slowed down to a walking pace. I was still trying to prep myself for the encounter.

When I got to the house through the woods, I stopped, looking intently at the front door atop the front steps. With vampire speed, I swiftly glided up the steps, putting myself inches away from the big, beautifully crafted door. Shit. What did I want to say? 'Um, excuse me, I would like to beat your face in while you tell me why you slept with my husband.' I don't think that would go over well. She was in fact, older, wiser, and stronger. More skilled. Looking at this logically, I didn't stand a chance if this turned into a fight.

I started to panic a little. I really didn't think this through. I should have not even left that bed. I should have stayed there, like I had planned. Waited it out until morning, got some of my things, and went on my way. But no, Bella's life isn't complete without putting myself in danger here and there. I couldn't do this. I'm looking for a death wish by being here. I quickly turned on my heels and started for the steps. I had gotten a couple of steps in before I stopped myself. No, no. I had to do this. I had to know why. I willed myself to turn back around and backtracked back up the stairs and shoved my finger into the button, ringing the door bell.


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