Sessions 11: Transitions
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I can't believe that it's been nearly a year since I wrote in here...so much has happened in that time, most of it being good. I wish I thought about you sooner, but after I got out of the habit of writing in you because of my wrist I...kind of forgot. I'm soooooo sorry! I found you in the back of my closet buried under some of the things I'm getting rid of and...and I thought it would be appropriate to write in you one last time even if I do have a digital diary now that I can either type in or record my voice depending on the mood. I thought it would be good to kind of close this book in my life and let you know some of the good things that has happened since you are so full of the bad things from my past. You deserve to have some good as well...
Well, I guess it isn't all good, not that anything really bad happened. I mean for awhile I hap nightmares when I slept by myself, but thanks to everyone supporting me I got over those. With that same support I was able to get through the physical therapy for my left wrist as well after it healed. It was kind of weak and hold to keep a hold on things, but for the most part it's better. I still drop things sometimes since there ended up being some permanent damage, a reminder of what I did, but it isn't anything I can't deal with. If I cut it just a little deeper I would have possibly lost all use of my hand so I'm grateful that I can still pretty much use it.
I still see Setsuna a few times a week and I go to the group meeting every weekend with Caleb as we both battle demons from our pasts, demons that still haunt us from time to time as our addictions try to come back at times. With Setsuna, our friends, and most importantly each other, it's easy for us to deny those cravings that pop up every once in awhile. Though admittedly Caleb has to have it worse since alcohol can be seen almost everywhere, the grocery store, the mall, department stores that carry any food at all and even restaurants. He has to watch advertisements on TV while drugs you might here about, but you don't really see that often. Still, there are reminders such as flour and sugar at the strangest of times.
Speaking of Setsuna...she's engaged to be married to the son of my mom's boss at Simultech. How cool is that? Setsuna is going to be very, very rich and she intends to keep her job at the school and volunteer her services at the group support meetings that my mom goes to, the ones Caleb and me go to, and all of the other ones she's become involved with. My aunt is a wonderful woman, angel or not, to still want to help people out even though they will have enough money that neither would have to work another day in their life.
And speaking of Simultech, my mom has become vice president of the whole company. With all of her hard work and dedication, she quickly climbed the ladder since she was one of the few who truly showed that they cared for the company and the people working under her while not stealing from the company. And with my mom leaving her old position...she hired someone I never expected to take over for her. Someone who had the experience, but couldn't find a job because her husband was arrested for armed robbery even though she had nothing to do with it. Jayla had proved that she was a good employee and even became my mom's right hand while Ayana became kind of like a little sister to me with as much time as we spend together with the others...usually at Mr. Olsen's pool.
Speaking of pools...I find something very ironic. Rachel got me to keep the bikini she gave me, and even convinced me to wear it. The ironic part is how shy it made me feel around Caleb when I tried to seduce him all those months ago and he would have seen me in even less if I succeeded. Hell, strangers have seen me naked when I used to...back before coming here to Heatherfield. Now...it embarrasses me a little...and at the same time it also makes me feel good to know that he finds me attractive.
Mr. Olsen...he kept his word and kept the job open for me and he even trains me in things to prep me to be a vet. He said it could be a bit of a challenge with the way my left hand is, but it is a challenge that I can overcome. And I will overcome it, I'm working hard to and I'm doing very good helping around the store and even doing little things in the examination room assisting him. I've even watched him do surgeries that creeped me out a bit, but I've overcome my original squeamishness when it comes to it.
I can't think of Mr. Olsen without thinking of his family...especially Rachel who I'm still the closest to out of all the girls. We really are like sisters and if it isn't a school night and we don't have dates, we are usually spending the night here or at her house. Her mom has been great to, treating me like a member of the family and even has me calling her Auntie...which I love.
Rachel is still seeing that Devin guy also which is kind of funny seeing how her mom was a little mad about it at first. She ended up working with him though agreeing that the neighborhood did need cleaned up, and between the two a neighborhood watch was formed. At first there wasn't much interest in it, but now about everyone in the neighborhood is involved and it feels safe to walk down the street anytime now. There are even kids playing in the park a lot now which I'm really happy about. The once lifeless looking neighborhood looks alive.
Matt, his leg healed and he's once again doing stupid stunts on that skateboard of his. Thankfully there hasn't been anymore repeats of broken bones, though he has suffered some scuffs and bruises. Of course, I kind of think he does that on purpose just so Elyon can nurse him back to health. They both are still together, very much in love, and along with the rest of the band on their way to being very successful with their first contract with a recording studio.
The Lairs...while I'm not as close to them as I am with Rachel's family, they come a close second. Tom is my parole officer...soon to be my ex-parole officer and he is always very nice to me. Anna, she is always talking to me when I go over reassuring me that I'm loved while at the same time never really talking down to me. She does have trouble sometimes I think trying to decide to treat me as an equal and really close friend or like another daughter. I don't really care though since I'm happy about either way. Then there's Chris...he is a pain in the ass...and yet you can't help but love the little brat. He gets along well with Ayana and I think there might even be something between them in a few more years.
Irma...she's still dating Martin, and as far as I know Martin has done a complete 180. He doesn't even really act pervy anymore and he seems a lot happier than when I first met him. It might have something to do with the family therapy sessions with Setsuna as his parents never fight anymore and they support him and remind him that they do love him. With their fighting stopping, and a little help, both of them have decent jobs now and Martin doesn't have to sleep in the van anymore to get away from the fights. He even sold the van and put it with the money his parents gave him to buy a used Durango. It may have been used, but it was still in excellent shape and he is very happy with it...as it Irma. Irma and me are also like sisters, though not as close as Rachel and I are, and I know for a fact the mattress in the old van always bothered her. With it gone the two have gotten closer and are pretty much inseparable now, which I'm happy about.
Taranee, I don't really know her family that well other than her meeting her mom a few times as she helped clear up some of the things in my past. She expunged a lot of things from both my school and police records, though there isn't much she could do about my current situation with being on probation. She did tell me that the records would be sealed when I turn 18 so it would be like not being on my record at all which I'm happy about. I don't see her parents at all though hardly when I go over to visit Taranee, though I do see her older brother who is really nice. Taranee and Tim are going strong, both of them coming pretty much fully out of their shell thanks to each other's support. And thanks to Tim's support, he keeps Taranee's darker side at bay reminding her that she should just be herself and not try and act like miss popularity and snub everyone in the process.
Cornelia...I never thought I would say this before, but she's a really good friend. She's worked with me on volunteer stuff collecting money for different charities...especially for abused children. And surprisingly, her father even said that he learned a lot from his own daughter as they became closer with some therapy and he became both a better father and a better pastor. Her mother is really nice to, always there with a kind word for me when I visit. And her little sister...she can be such a monster at times and at the same time so sweet. I see a lot of Cornelia in her, and despite the two sisters constant bickering, you can tell that they love each other.
Cornelia surprised me though very much when she showed up at school a few weeks ago wearing a ring...an engagement ring. This is her last year of school and Peter and her plan to get married when she graduates. And if that wasn't shocking enough, she concentrated even more on her schoolwork and rose to the top of her class. She has become like this supergirl trying to help everyone out while at the same time managing to pass everything thrown at her at school and still be with Peter. Her parents were a little shocked at first though, but they could see how much the two loved each other and they could see how much of a positive influence Peter is on Cornelia. Everyone is really happy for the two and hope that they make it.
Hay Lin...she still gets busy with working at her families restaurant, but she still finds the time to not only hang out with us, but to keep dating Eric as well. Her family are great, we aren't as close as I am with Rachel's or Irma's families, but they always offer my mom and me a free meal whenever we go there. They always show love and support to me as well and treat me like I'm someone special to them, which they told me I was. They said they were happy that I failed when I tried to kill myself, and I'm really happy I failed at that also. Yan Lin tells me I'm like a granddaughter to her...and speaking of Yan Lin, guess what. She's dating Mr. Olson which is so awesome!
Oh, and guess what, I have a pet of my own! Well, technically, it was Dean's pet to begin with. When he showed Houdini to me, that's the chameleons name, my mom freaked about me getting too close to him. Really...I love frogs, why wouldn't I love lizards to? Anyways, he saw how much I loved him and despite my mom's nervous twitches around him, she let me keep him in my room. Of course Dean comes to visit him a lot, not that he spent much time away the last month or two seeing how he practically lives here with us now, but it was so awesome that he cared enough for me to trust his precious chameleon to me.
Well so far I've told you about two engagements, but they aren't the only ones...though the third couple are getting married...in just a few short hours. My mom is marrying Dean today and I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooo happy about it! I finally have the loving family I dreamed about for so long and after today it will be official. Setsuna was a little worried about me though since the two are going away fro the weekend on their honeymoon. She was worried that I would be scared that they would abandon me like what that bastard forced my mom to do a few years ago. I know she's coming back and unlike then I really do have money to take care of myself if I wanted, but I'll be staying the weekend with Rachel and look forward to my mom and dad to get home. You now, it feels a little weird to say that...dad...I finally have a dad, a real dad. It feels a little weird, but in a good way, you know?
And get this, Dean offered to officially adopt me as his daughter! I won't just be the step daughter, I'll officially, truly be his daughter. I do have to admit that I do feel a little funny about one aspect of it, but it was me who asked for it so I can't really complain. My mom is changing her last name to Collins since they are getting married so I asked if I could change my last name to. I want us to be like a real family with all of us having the same last name. I'd feel a little weird being the only one with a different last name. I don't want to explain to my little brother about why I have a different last name. Yep, that's right, little brother...my mom's pregnant and we will be having a new addition to our family...and I can't wait!
Well, I guess that's it, I have to get going. I have to get ready seeing how I'm my mom's maid of honor...though I have to wonder who got her to pick the ugly dresses for the bridesmaids. Then again...I guess it is tradition seeing how you can't have the bridesmaids outshining the bride...not that would be possible. I saw my mom in her wedding gown before I came in here and she is beautiful. I bet poor Dean is going to have a heart attack when he sees her!
Anyways, thank you for being there for me. I know I didn't want to write in you at first, but you really did help me think about and sort through my feelings. I wanted to give you some good news for once and finish off this book of my life as I start a new book. Goodbye Wilhelmina Vandom...hello Wilhelmina Collins.
Actually...no...hello Mina Collins...a completely new start on life with a new name to go with it.
Well, that ends New Bad Girl in Town and Sessions for now. I haven't planned on a sequel right now, but who knows what can happen in the future.
