AN: I understand why Roth killed Tris but I wish she didn't. So, as a fan of fan-fictions, I found solace in many fics with alternate endings or a fourth book or something along those lines.
But I wanted a personalized fourth book. Which I will write as a fanfic. The stories still belong to Veronica. It's just to get over the ending. It's a fanfic. I have no rights over the characters, just the plot.
CHAPTER
ELEVEN
TOBIAS
I remembered the last time we did this. Tris and I went into my fears. My first fear was height. Most of my fears had transformed.
I was no longer afraid of heights or Marcus. But I still had four fears.
The wall comes from nowhere, slamming into her back, my back, both our sides forcing us together.
"Remember the first time we did this?" she asks.
"Yeah." I say as my heart thuds. Tris takes her small hands and puts it on my chest, over my heart.
She pulls my arm around her. Just like she did before.
Fear-landscape strategy. I am trying to focus on breathing. Then she pulls us both down, to make the box smaller, and turns so her back is against my chest, so I'm completely wrapped around her.
This was worse than before.
"Tobias. Arms around me." She says, her voice commanding.
I wrap my arms around her waist, and bury my face in her shoulder. She smells like soap, my soap, and sweet, like apple.
I'm forgetting where I am.
"You know most boys would love to be trapped in a closed space with a girl." She smirks.
"Not claustrophobic people, love. Not claustrophobic people." I sigh. She did help the situation but I was still terrified of small spaces.
"Tobias. Can you feel my heartbeat? Breathe with me." She says guiding a hand over her chest so I can feel her thudding heart. I took a deep breath and breathed out, repeating the process a few times and the trying to push the walls away with sheer will.
And it worked.
"You always make this easier." I say kissing her cheek.
The world seemed to stop moving as we stood watching the Bureau launch the memory serum not being able to do anything. I tore away from Tris and launched myself on David.
I would not let Tris's death go to waste. I pushed him away from the serum as Tris made her way to us.
Tris. She was right here. That was enough for us to move on to my next fear.
Tris was standing in front of me but she started to fade.
"Tris!" I exclaimed trying to hold her.
"Tobias. That's not me. This is." She says but I couldn't focus on that. She faded away. She went away from me. She left me.
And I broke down.
After a while Tris's arms hold me.
"Tobias. Listen to me. I'm right here. I will fight everything, everyone to be with you. I won't leave you this time. I'm here. Right here. I never meant to leave you. You know that. I didn't want to die." She says as her voice broke.
"Tris." I say as tears streak my face.
"Shh." she says "I'm here." Wiping my tears she kissed me making me come out of my trance to my next fear.
This was worse. The one I dreaded the most. I had a gun in my hand and a girl stood in front of me. There was a time when it didn't really have a face. But it did now. It held Tris's face. My Tris.
"No." I croaked as my hand pulled the trigger on its own accord.
"Tobias." Tris says again. She wasn't dead. She was with me. It wasn't my fault. I tried to convince myself I wasn't responsible for her death but I felt bad knowing I wasn't with her when she did die.
"It's okay." I say as the stimulation faded.
"I'm so sorry." She says.
"For what?" I ask.
"I'm the reason for most of your fears." She says.
"Hey. My fears are of losing you. You are in no way responsible." I say.
"Okay." She sniffs. This was taking a toll on both of us and we were only half way through.
"So, you still afraid of intimacy?" I joke.
"Nope. I think we got over that fear." She winks.
"So, ready?" I ask.
"Let's do this!" she says with a sigh as we inject each other again and slipped into Tris's stimulation.
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