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Sara's feet hit the cold kitchen floor and the rush of pain hit her. She had taken what she wanted, she'd always thought things through, been reserved that
Sara had gone the moment she realised where she was and she knew that Derek had helped her get there. He wasn't a bad guy; he hadn't done anything wrong,
she had, she had cheated. The guilt almost choked her, tears pierced her beautiful brown eyes. There was nothing that could justify what she had done and
one word kept flashing in her mind. slut. Tears ran down her cheeks as she opened the cupboards tryin to find that place in her mind when she thought about
Malachi, that place where everyone else just faded away. she scrambled the tins trying to find something edible but she just couldn't. slamming the door shut
she laid her head against it. She had to think to decide what she was gonna do next. she knew one thing no matter what happened everyone was gonna get hurt.
I can't move from this spot, if I do he's gonna notice something's wrong. he should notice, but he doesn't care. for all I know he gets off on stealing me
and that's all this is. That's all this feeling in my chest is, just temptation and all that shit. I don't want it to be just that I wanted to see something
better in him, I wanted him and I've had him. I don't know where to go from here. I can't be with Derek anymore but I'm not sure what me and Malachi are. I
wanted to see something there, something past his usual bullshit, I can't shake this feeling like vie made a big mistake. I don't wanna let fear take me
over but no matter but it is. Those feelings seem like such a dream right now. ignore was bliss but now its gone.
Sara slowly walked back into her living room and saw Malachi sitting on the floor up against the front window waiting for her to return. she looked meek and
looked embarrassed funny seeing as the things she'd been perpetrating only a few minutes ago. Malachi's satisfied smug started to slip away, it didn't take a
to see that Sara was upset, uneasy...guilty.
Shit I don't wanna deal with this alkali thought. He shook his head, smiled to himself knowing what was coming but something caught him. He didn't wanna let
her know but he was scared.
'What?' he shouted off all brass balls and hard-core gangsta.
Sara was a little thrown, she never ever saw anything coming, and everything caught her like a deer in the headlights. She didn't know where to look, so she
looked everywhere else. This didn't make Malachi feel any better and he showed his dismay the only way he knew how he shouted.
'shit...what the fuck is this shit?' Malachi stood up and bounded towards her, inches away from her face, 'we sorted this out, you made a choice here
tonight, you chose me,' his voice got softer as if he were tryin to persuade her that she belonged with him.
'I'm not saying that I didn't want this'.
'damn right you ain't,' Malachi got angrier as the situation got further from his control.
'excuse me...you don't own me and if you'd listen for just-'
'fuck this shit- I listen were together you can't play me like that,'
'imp not trying to, its just its gonna be hard telling Derek,' the words soothed the savage beast in Malachi.
He put his hand around her neck pulled her close, smiled and told her everything was gonna be okay. Sara fell into him resting her head on his chest she
could hear the sirens outside telling of impending danger but it was okay for now.
'where the hell is my food anyway?' Sara let out a half smile.
'you can make your own,' she said before she went off in search of sleep, laying down on her bed she prayed to god that she'd fall asleep so that she
wouldn't have to think about how hurt Derek would be, how angry. There were so many repercussions from sleeping with Malachi and she put them all off as
her thug slid down beside her and kissed the nape of her neck, he wanted some more but Sara couldn't bring herself to consciously disrespect Derek that way.
'I can't' she whispered.
Malachi wasn't up for this moping shit so he got up pulled on his clothes and put on his determined game face.
Sara didn't put up a fight to make him stay she wanted to do the right thing but she'd already blown everything to hell. Malachi slammed the door, he wasn't
what he was more pissed about her going on this guilt shit or her not asking him to stay. He could feel her slipping away from him. Fuck it!
I just wanted get some, I got it, now its time to bounce. Nothing more than that. I don't give a shit about her, I don't. I don't even know anything about
her what makes her who she is. I ain't trippin over this bitch.
Sara stood starring at the door when a bang bang bang at the door caught her off guard, she slowly opened the door, and Malachi stood straight and spoke fast.
'This ain't nothin but gettin some u got me? I didn't wanna know your hopes and fears I just wanted to try you, so its done, no need to sweat Derek don't
need to know'.
Sara stood shocked her world was upside down, everything she was so certain of a week before had turned around and confessed that it was playin her for a
fool.
'I thought we were startin something here,' Sara confessed tears in her eyes thinkin she was a monumental idiot.
'Well you was wrong,' Malachi said and braced himself to leave, he had things to do, to take care of.
Sara didn't know what was happening to her, the way she'd been feeling with him was so strong and new. it hadn't had a chance to develop, it was just going
to be snuffed out in the blink of an eye.
Sara grabbed his shoulder, 'don't belittle this, we have a chance'.
'Look-'
'no you speakin right now is gonna mess everything up, I'm used to running away, not gonna do that, just let me handle this and alotta shits gonna go down but
just wait a while and we can get this thing right,' Sara was determined not to throw away this the way she had with Derek.
Malachi gave a little laugh, 'right how longs this waitin shit gonna be?'
'the next time I see Derek I'm gonna tell him the truth, he needs to know,' Sara said looking so strong in herself.
Malachi softened put his arms around her neck and pulled her forehead to his, 'its you and me then,' he kissed long and hard before breaking away, 'I gotta
be somewhere, catch you later'.
Sara watched him walk away tomorrow was gonna be the hardest day of her life but another thought was buggin her, where did Malachi have to go. With Derek she
knew he wasn't gonna get stuck in this neighbourhood, she knew jail, drugs and drivebys weren't gonna claim him, but Malachi she knew he was caught up in it
all.
dont wanna let you leave, I dont wanna let you go,
So... dont leave me alone
Ooooooo
Now if I could just be wit you, breathe wit you, if you woulda asked me
I would leave with you I would go... around the globe as long as I know
I will be right by your side wherever you go I aint gonna let you leave
I dont wanna let you go, ooh I need you here with me
Dont leave me alone
Ashanti 'Don't Leave Me Alone'
Malachi rolled up in the early mornin to his crib nothin like p diddy's that's for sure. He kissed his momma on the cheek before he jumped in the shower. As
he placed his chain around his neck he knew he had things to do. He knew she expected something more from him but he could never deliver. he had
responsibilities and he had a rep to protect. He reached into his top drawer and pulled out his heat, sliding it behind his belt, he grabbed a few dollars
once again to his momma's dismay he rolled on out without an explanation of where he was goin, deep down she knew it would never be anywhere good.
I deal, I hustle, I beat the shit outta motherfuckers who cross me. I'm not a good guy and she's just not thinking about that is she. she's ignoring it like
she did last night. well she can all she likes but I can't I'm never gonna be the upright guy, no suit, no college for me. Just menace and mayhem.
Malachi leaned against the battered brick wall waiting for his next client and like clockwork six in the mornin along came Ronny. Thirty years old and smack's bitch. He disgusted Malachi, he smelled bad and talked shit as fluent as Tupac preached.
'Hey my man, you know I've been havin one hell of a day, my woman left me-' Ronny continued his face worn and tired.
'Look I don't give a shit, give me my money,' Malachi didn't wanna have to be there any longer than he had to.
Ronny took offence at this abrupt killer to polite conversation, 'well ain't no reason be rude'.
Ronny searched his pockets but Malachi could see he didn't have anything on him. One thought crossed Malachi's mind why would he come without money that's just stupid even for a crack addict, he knew Malachi would mess him up. Malachi didn't see it coming. The bullet ripped through his shoulder the next through his side. The blood filled his mouth and Malachi fell to the ground his mouth smudged in the dirt, he coughed hard and blood trickled to the ground.
'shit you coulda hit me, man,' Ronny complained the gangbanger to his right.
'getta outta here old man,' the young man approached, he checked his rounds before taking aim again.
'wait he might have some good stuff on him,' Ronny bent down to search him but the gangbanger kicked him.
'you want some shit go getcha yaself some money,' with those words Ronny bolted worrying for his safety.
Malachi rolled over and knew he'd brought this on, he remembered the face of the boy in front of him one year younger than himself. He remembered him too damn well. Sirens in the distance weren't coming to help him, they faded away. He groaned as the pain hit him again and again. Malachi could feel it, this was gonna be it, this was all his life was gonna be. He wasn't gonna resign himself to this, he looked around for something, anything to help him. He thought about Momma sitting at home worrying about Sara not even knowing what this mornin was gonna bring.
'You the bad guy Malachi, you deserve this,' the boy said as if to justify what he was about to do.
'Yeah I guess I do'.
2Pac
I make mistakes, I learn from everyone
And when its said and done
I bet this Brotha be a better one
If I'm upset, you don't stress
Never forget, that God hasn't finished with me yet
I feel his hand on my brain
When I write rhymes, I go blind, and let the lord do his thang
But am I less holy
Cuz I choose to puff a blunt and drink a beer with my homies
Before we find world peace
We gotta find peace in that war on the streets
My ghetto gospel
Elton John
Those who wish to follow me (My ghetto gospel)
I welcome with my hands
And the red sun sinks at last into the hills of gold
And peace to this young warrior without the sound of guns
2Pac
Lord can you hear me speak!
To pay the price of being hell bound...
2Pac feat Elton John 'Ghetto Gospel'
To Be Continued…
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