Blue Moon
Chapter 11
HSHS
Sirius flung himself down on his seat and sighed, in a terribly bad mood, he had been since the fight with James. It was all so confusing, he just didn't want to deal with any of it. And he didn't have to, he was just going to push it all into the back of his head. Harry would leave soon and he wouldn't have to worry about it. The thought hurt him more than he was willing to admit.
Sirius tried not to watch as a sullen looking Harry came into the small train compartment, he convinced himself that he wished Harry would have sat somewhere else so he wouldn't have to deal with the other boy's problems. He could have slapped himself for thinking it but he didn't.
"Do you want some breakfast?" Sirius heard the soft voice speaking to him, calling out to him but he blocked it out and turned his head away. The less he heard of or spoke to Harry the better. The boy wouldn't get his heart broken as badly if he just let him go. Let him go now before things got worse.
"Alright, then, I'll just go get something incase you want it later," he heard Harry stand up and he couldn't stop the words from coming out of his mouth.
"Don't bother," Sirius closed his eyes and tried to block out what he knew would be Harry's hurt. Turns out he didn't have to, Harry had left anyway. Thank Merlin, the Gryffindor thought relieved. Oh, he knew he was being horrible to Harry, but their were many reasons for it. He wasn't just being mean because he wanted to be, that was way off base. Sirius didn't want anything other than to hold Harry again, to finally be able to kiss him. But he couldn't.
Harry would be leaving soon, and he couldn't be with him or else they'd both get their hearts broken, he had to be real about that. Another major reason, in his mind, was that Harry was so far away from him, so much better than him. Harry deserved someone who would care for him and love him like he knew he couldn't. Sirius was a selfish person and he knew Harry couldn't survive living with him for too long. His love would only kill the boy, destroy his pure heart. He'd already proved that, with the fight they'd had.
So long as he stayed away from Harry he could save his boy some pain, even if he caused him some as well. It would all be for the best, and Harry would see that soon enough. He scoffed at his thoughts, they weren't the only reasons he was mad at Harry, that he felt his love die for the other boy.
Harry had known that he'd wanted more than anything else in the world to make up with his friends and Harry had gone and ruined everything. It didn't matter that his life was ruined so long as Harry was happy. It made Sirius' blood boil to think that Harry had betrayed him like that, after everything that had happened between them. If his friends never forgave him it would be all Harry's fault, because Lily had said that they were ready to take him back. To take him back and forgive him! And Harry had gone and messed everything up!
Of course it didn't occur to Sirius that Harry had only been standing up for him, James had been yelling at him and his mother. Harry had felt it his duty to stand up for the both of them, and most of all himself. But Sirius didn't stop to think about this, because like he said before he was a selfish boy and didn't think about others as much as he should.
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When Sirius had said he didn't want any food Harry had taken the liberty to leave the compartment and get his own food, he would get more for Sirius later. After he paid for the small breakfast, with what money he had left he went to explore the compartments, or in other words look for his parents. While munching on some sort of pastry he glanced into every different door he passed by. He ignored all the odd and curious glances he received, he didn't care what all those other people thought of him. They had nothing to do with him or his parents or Sirius.
He had made it to the middle of the train when he, while looking into an empty compartment bumped into someone. Harry was pushed onto the floor, he cursed colorfully when he dropped his breakfast as well. He looked up ready to apologize to the person he had walked into when he froze like a Death Eater who had walked into a party of order members.
"And who might you be," purred a very intrigued Lucius Malfoy. Harry could only stare open mouthed and gaping as the other boy offered him his hand. Harry was hard pressed not to spit on the boy but held the urge back, he noticed he was outnumbered, Malfoy had a few other students around him. So Harry being the, 'cautious' one he was stretched out his hand and took the older Slytherin's offered one.
"Harry Porter," Harry blurted out quickly, he mentally cringed though, he had forgotten all about the fact that he would have needed to change his last name so no one would get suspicious. Lucius' eyes narrowed slightly and he nodded his head, still not letting go of Harry's hand. Harry noticed suddenly how very close he was to Malfoy and it made him extremely uncomfortable.
"Lucius Malfoy," the boy said quickly, his eyes searching Harry's face, "Do I know you?" Harry gulped and tried to back away, he was a horrible liar, he knew Malfoy would be able to tell if he did.
Harry felt the hairs on his arm raise when he heard the oily deep voice of one of the students behind Lucius, "He looks like Potter."
"Snape," Lucius acknowledged. "You really think so?"
"Yes, he does!" Came the oddly bright and high pitched voice of one of the Slytherin girls.
"Did I ask you, Bella?" Lucius asked with a slight glare, for once taking his eyes off Harry. Her name made Harry's face light up with anger he almost tried to pull his hand out of Malfoy's grip to curse her.
"Sorry, Lucius, you know how her mouth runs away with her," the girl's soft and sweet voice rang throughout the hall and Lucius smirked.
"Yes, well you should teach her to keep her mouth shut Narcissa , my dear," Lucius turned back to Harry ignoring the gasp from the woman behind him.
"Are you related to Potter, Harry?" Harry almost jumped when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"Yeah, Malfoy he's my cousin, got a problem with it?" Harry tensed up a bit and turned his head sideways to see three fourths of the Marauders standing behind him with his mother standing proudly by her boyfriend.
"Potter," Malfoy hissed irritated, his grip on Harry tightening, Harry gasped in pain. Harry could practically hear his father growl.
"Let him go, Malfoy unless you want my wand shoved so far up your arrogant arse you walk funny for the rest of your pathetic life," Harry felt his grip loosen just a bit and Harry took that opportunity to pull his hand away, but with Malfoy having held on so hard anyways the force pushed him back and into his father, who still hadn't let his shoulder go.
"Get out of here, now before I get you expelled for hurting another student," the threat in his father's voice promised pain and Harry couldn't help the swell of happiness in his heart.
"For now, Potter but I swear I won't let you get away with this," Malfoy hissed, Harry noticed the boy's wand was clutched tightly in his hand and he told his father so with a shift of his eyes.
"Put it away, unless you want me to confiscate it and give it to the Headmaster. I'm sure he'd love for you to explain what you were thinking when you threatened to attack the newest student both the Head Boy and Girl and a Prefect? I would love to hear it, wouldn't you Lily dear?" James asked with a grin.
"I would," Malfoy practically snarled as he stormed away, felling the Gryffindor's didn't deserve any of his insults. They were far too below him for him to care anyways. Harry was only slightly frightened when he saw Snape send a glare to him and his father, though he felt no fear as Bellatrix and Narcissa walked by him. Only hate.
Harry turned around in James' hold and gave the boy a confused look.
"Not out here, follow us."
HSHS
A/N: Another chapter finished. I'm also now working on the next chapter as well. You guys are so lucky I picked this story to use all my creative juice for. I didn't' like this chapter though. It was my worst chapter yet. I hope the next one's better. Though it is typed and ready to be submitted to you as well. Give me enough reviews and I'll post it.
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-Bloody
