Chapter 11

Joe's Thoughts

Okay there had to be a first time for everything and that was the first night I had spend with a girl without doing anything with her. And yet last night seemed so normal it was almost scary. I had liked the feeling of holding my arms around her. It felt… It felt right, just right. Of course I was aware that Miley didn't think at all the same about me as I did about her, but from that moment on I knew that I was gonna be a someone in her life. What someone I wasn't sure of, but definitely a someone.

"Get some pants on Joe, my sisters are in the house if you have forgotten." – Zac said as he walked past me into his room. I quickly got into my room to get into some clothes. I thought I would eat breakfast before taking a shower, so I just got the clothes I had had on yesterday 'cause no way I was going down into the kitchen with their whole family looking at me especially Miley. When she looked at me in her room before she went to the bathroom, she just had a look I couldn't quite place anywhere and I actually felt nervous and unsecure, which really never happened to me. I was Joe Jonas for crying out loud girls were crazy about me, and me them. Well that wasn't even the point. The point was that Miley made something inside me shiver and I didn't know what the hell it was.

"So Joe would you wanna get out for a run with me?" – Zac said between bites reminding me of Miley yesterday, and I smiled of the thought. – "Well yeah that would be great if you can keep up."

"Yeah really funny Jonas."

"What you know I can beat you any day anywhere in anything." – Zac rolled eyes and I knew I was right. Don't get me wrong Zac was good at sports but I was better. I was even the one who had got a full scholarship not that they would appreciate that very much right now.

"What about you Miles wanna come too?" – Zac asked his little sister who was going back just to stick at her food without eating. I don't know but something told me she was nervous or something like that.

"Nah I'll be here enjoying the last hours with mom and dad." – she smiled as she looked up at her mother who kissed her hair, when she passed her.

"By the way when are you leaving?" – Selena asked without any interest.

"At noon. Will you guys be home by that time?"

"Sure I'll have Zac home in time, we won't run that far, 'cause I'm not sure I can carry him back anyway." – I said smiling. Their mother smiled at me and told me thanks while laughing a little, and Zac kicked me under the table. I looked over at Miley almost catching her in looking at me and I saw how her face turned light pink. That was so sweet.

"So are you done?" – Zac looked at me and I snapped out of my thoughts. I nodded and we said thanks for breakfast before we both ran upstairs to get in our running clothes. It would be nice with some air.

Miley's thoughts

I really didn't want my parents to go, couldn't the see that I needed them? I needed to feel safe and them not being around definitely didn't suit the whole safe part. Selena pushed me lightly to get me to look up at her.

"It's gonna be okay you know. Three months will seem like no time I promise you." – she smiled a smile only Selena could smile. She was so innocent, happy and just went with the flow. I liked that about her. And never was I ever gonna break that illusion she lived in. Besides if I told her my problems then she would totally gonna burst, and that I really didn't want to experience. I almost croaked in the upcoming tears when I tried to answer her.

"Y-yeah I know, I'm just gonna miss them" – She gave me a hug as we went up the stairs. I knew she only wanted the best for me.

When it came time for mom and dad to leave to the airport was Zac and Joe not come home yet, obviously. With boys you never knew if they were gonna keep their words. Not that they didn't try, it was just like nature worked against them being on time.

"Give a kiss to Zac for me okay?" – mom said as she kissed my hair and gave me a hug.

"Not gonna be necessary, they're coming right over there." – Selena pointed a little further down the street and it was clear that they were running as fast as they could. It was actually very fun to see. I had never seen anyone being faster than my brother, but Joe really was, there were several yards between them and you could almost hear Joe's laugh. He had a great laugh. Like it came deep down in his throat making a nice volume to it.

"Just in time." – daddy said while smiling as the boys came into the driveway. Zac was a bit out of breath which I reminded myself of mocking him with later.

"So you're really leaving huh?" – Zac said with his hands on his knees trying to get some air down in his system again, and Joe just stood up straight obviously enjoying the moment. He didn't seem exhausted at all.

"Can you be a good boy and take good care of your sisters?" – Of course mom had that very typical mother voice when she said it, which made Zac roll eyes and smile.

"Mom I'm not a boy anymore and yeah I'll take care of them, no need to worry. You're gonna call everyday anyways if I know you well." – Zac went over and hugged our mom goodbye, though he was really sweaty, but of course mom didn't care about that. It was easy to see she was just glad having her children under the same roof again.

"Okay sweetheart, we better get going or we're gonna be late for our flight." – My dad gave me a big comforting hug before he went over and hugged the others. I bet he knew I was anxious about them leaving us behind.

"Now Joe, you're gonna keep Zac supervised as we're away won't you?"

"Will do." – Joe said smiling, I hadn't actually realized that he now was standing right behind me, making me shiver, 'cause I could feel his breath touching my hair. I stood completely still not wanting to give anything away, but now I was more than aware of him standing right there.

So we waved goodbye, before the others walked back into the house again. But me I just starred watching after the car, following it down the road to I couldn't see it anymore, then I sighed, wiping away a tear that had escaped my really hard work of trying to keep them from showing.

"Aren't you coming inside?" – Joe asked me with a lot of worries, which made me smile. He really was caring.

"No I think I'm just gonna go for a walk. Promise I'll come home soon." – I gave him my best fake smile. It hadn't seemed for real in what felt like forever and it was like he saw through my shield right away.

"Well if you wanna wait until I have taken a shower I could join you?"

"No it's okay, I just feel like I need a little time to think for myself." – It was like he hesitated and argued with something inside of him, but then it seemed like he gave in, and just smiled.

"I'll tell Zac and Selena you went then. See you later Mi." – Then he went inside. Mi? was that his nickname to me or what was that? Mi… Strange, but well nice.

So I just walked around a little before I walked towards me usual spot down on the beach. Again not to tan, but just to think and not think. It was good at both. But what I didn't know at the time, I was never going to see the beach that day.

"Oh well if that isn't little miss to good for everyone Cyrus?" – I recognized the voice instantly. And to be honest it wasn't a voice who brought good thoughts along with it.

"What do you want?" – I didn't turn around to face the voice. I just couldn't. It would hurt too much.

"Turn around when I'm talking to you. You know it's rude not to." – I knew I had to turn around, 'cause if I didn't then it would only get even worse than looking at him. So I slowly turned around keeping my gaze down not to look directly into his eyes. His evil eyes.

"Oh you doesn't have that glow over you anymore now have you?" – He walked closer as he touched my cheek and I couldn't help it but flinch.

"Don't touch me!" – I backed away so I was out of reach. Of course he just laughed, but when I looked up I saw nothing but muckiness and ignorance. He was the cause to my pitiful situation. My nightmare and my reality.

"Now you haven't said anything have you?" – his eyes lightened as he looked down at me. And I shook hysterically my head no.

"Then why is Zac home again? Sure you haven't said anything? 'Cause then you know what happens, remember? And this time I'm not going easy on you." – That bastard hadn't even gone easy on me then. It was terrible, horrible and all the other words that fit. I felt the tears coming and this time I knew I couldn't stop them.

He grabbed my arms locking them tight in one of his hand while his other hand touched my face. I trembled terribly. His touch made me wanna puke my guts up, just at I had after that night.

"So beautiful and yet so unattractive it's sick" – He smiled as he ran his finger over my lips. He was the one who was sick. A sick, mental and horrible person.

"leave me alone, you have Vanessa." – he ripped my arm hard pulling me in so he could whisper in my ear.

"You dare tell anyone about what I have done to you, or your whole family is gonna suffer. Remember that." – He pushed me so hard that I fell down on the ground letting my tears fall free. I sobbed and cried hysterically as I heard him walk away laughing. Why couldn't he just leave me alone? He had Vanessa. He always had her. She was his, even when she dated Zac. That's what the fight was about. I knew she was cheating on him but at that time Zac didn't wanna listen to me. But I had known about it and I was gonna tell him if it wasn't for the incident.

When I finally stopped sobbing he was long gone, and I noticed the pain in my palms. I looked down and saw they were covering in blood after the fall. How was I gonna explain that? It really wasn't the best start without mom and dad. Maybe I should convince Zac about going back to college so I knew he was safe. If there was one thing I was sure of then was it, that he was gonna be the one hurt the most.

But I didn't wanna think about that right now, because I finally got him back and I needed him more than ever especially with my parents being gone.

So I got up slowly from the ground, no longer in the mood to go the last few yards down to the beach. I just wanted to get home and get cleaned up before disappearing under the covers and hopefully no one would notice.