Klutz!
Hey guys! Okay so, I'm trying to get this story done as fast as I can but not too fast since I'll start rushing it and it will sound sloppy, because I've got TWO ideas now, but one of them isn't Shugo Chara. D: SO. I was THINKING (note that I said thinking) that I should probably end this fanfic in the next chapter or two, because it's for the better, really. Don't get me wrong though! I'm starting a new Amuto fanfic after this (only downside is that I'm going to take longer to update) so hopefully it's going to make up for the fact that I'm ending this fic early. ^_~
Sooo anyhow, thank you for your lovely and inspiring reviews! After reading them, they make me want to get back up on my laptop and start typing away! :3
"Next time you think of beautiful things, don't forget to count yourself in."
"Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, and small minds discuss people."
( Amu's POV )
I stood perfectly still for a moment or two, with his words ringing around my head. It was impossible. It must be a dream. Those words would never come out of Ikuto's mouth, never. He practically ruined my life just a year ago and then he goes and says he loves me? No, it's not possible. I started to laugh hysterically, not knowing what to do then suddenly stopped after noticing his glare.
"Why are you laughing?" he asked.
"Because you're funny."
"That wasn't a joke, Amu. I meant it. You know me better than anyone, am I lying?" And then I realized. He was telling the truth. "Exactly."
"I…Ikuto… I…" I stuttered, unsure of what to say next. There was a long silence.
"I thought you knew."
"You thought I knew? After teasing and pulling pranks on me for so long? You though I knew? You obviously don't understand a girl's heart!"
"And you don't understand a guy's either! It's just that I've liked you for years, but I just realized it… A few days ago when Tadase got interested in you. I asked myself why I was so jealous to let another guy just come and talk to you. But then it kind of went downhill from then," he explained, looking in to my eyes. I didn't like it, the way he looked at me. It made me feel edgy, shy. Nervous almost. But sometimes, it was dangerous enough to make my heart skip a beat.
How was I meant to respond?
"Ikuto…" I managed to say.
"You don't have to give me your answer just yet. Take your time. But before that, make sure you make up with Rima. She's a true friend and you don't get many of those nowadays. And by the way…"
"Yeah?"
"You know when the door opened yesterday at lunch on the rooftops?"
"Y-Yeah?"
"I was suspicious about that, so I looked around the rooftops after you left and saw a member of the newspaper club snooping around. I threatened him to rip those photos up but it looks like he didn't. Sorry."
"It's not like it's your fault, Ikuto. You tried, and that's all that you can do. I thought you kissed me knowing that a member of the newspaper club was around, just to get attention…"
"Amu, I would never do that. Because I love you." At that moment, I felt like the toast I had for breakfast did a somersault in my stomach. "See you later."
"W-Wait! Ikuto!" I shouted, watching him walk away. That doesn't make sense, I could hardly figure out what to say when he was around but when he's gone I can write paragraphs on it!
"Do what I told you."
'Make up with Rima.'
There was no time to waste; the bell would ring in about twenty minutes. It would take roughly five minutes just to get to get to Rima's first class which was drama (Amu had it with Ikuto) so she had to be quite quick. She ignored all those glares on the way and when she got to the door, Amu gulped and opened the door. Everyone in the class gave her dirty looks, except her friends and Rima who hadn't even noticed she was there. Amu went up to them and stood next to Rima, who was giving her a frown.
"Hinamori, hey," Kukai greeted, not so cheerful as always.
"What do you want?" she harshly complained.
"I just wanted to say sorry, Rima! Sorry to all of you!" I apologized, bowing.
"Apology not accepted," Rima snapped.
"Rima, give Amu a chance to speak!" Utau demanded, smiling at me.
"Fine, whatever…" she gave in.
"So, what's going on with you and Ikuto?" Utau wanted to know while the others nodded in agreement.
"If I tell you this, you all have to swear on your lives to keep it a secret, alright?" I ordered.
"We all pinky promise. Pinky promises are serious business you know," they all chanted.
"Alright. Well, Ikuto kind of… C-Confessed to me today. To tell you the truth, I don't know what the kiss was about. It just happened and we got carried away…" I mumbled, trying not to stutter.
"Well that's not a surprise," Nagihiko spoke.
"What?" I stammered in shock.
"He's liked you since you guys knew each other. He just didn't know it. And then he started to love you ever since Tadase came in. Does your dense brain understand that?" Rima explained.
"But the question is, are you going to return his feelings Amu?" Utau asked with a serious look on her face.
"I don't know Utau, I really don't. It's hard to even convince myself that he likes me, after pulling so many pranks. He's gotten me in trouble so many times and it wasn't even my fault!"
"Amu, that was when you guys were eleven. Give it a damn rest!"
"But…"
"You're just denying it that he likes you. You said he said it to you in person as well, so why are you trying so hard? It's not like you even like him back so it wouldn't matter," Kukai asked.
"Don't make assumptions!" I bellowed, covering my mouth to realize what I had just said.
"Whoa whoa whoa! So you do like him? Since when? Why? How? What? You haven't drunk out of a love potion have you? Tell me everything!" Yaya quizzed while my head asked me the same questions.
"It's not like that!"
"For god's sake Amu! It's SO simple but you're making it hard, you stubborn fool. It's either you like him or not damnit," Rima complained, slamming her hand on the table.
"Rima-chan, calm down!" Nagihiko spoke, putting his hands on her shoulders.
"Sorry…"
"I know Rima, I know. But it's not as simple as that, because I'm just as confused as my feelings as you are. But that's not what I came for guys," I explained.
"Then what did you come for?" Rima asked.
"Guys… I wanted to apologize. I lied to you. I acted like nothing happened. I didn't listen to you guys yet you've all been with me through the ups and the downs and it's my entire fault. I don't deserve such good friends like all of you. I'm a lucky girl. Especially you Rima, I lied to you when we're best friends and we swore that we would tell each other everything. None of you know how upset I am for doing such a horrible thing. Will you ever forgive me? I understand if you don't because I don't deserve such an apology. But know that I will always be in your debt and nothing will ever stop me from loving you guys. You're the best friend I've always wanted, but now I've done something terrible. Thank you for always been there for me through the tough times and no matter what I'll never lie to one of you ever again!"
Every word I had said was true. No one knew how upset I was, no one. It felt like my world was breaking in to two pieces after breaking up with just one of them. My best friends are the family I got to choose and no one can replace them.
"Hinamori, you said you'll never lie to one of us again, right?" Kukai asked.
"Yeah why?"
"Then tell us… How do you feel about Ikuto?" Utau asked with a stern looking face. I froze. That was the horrifying question I was dreading. "And don't say you don't know." Damn.
"I like him…" I gulped.
"You what?" they all shouted.
"…But I don't like him."
"Oh you've got to be kidding me!" Utau shouted.
Sighing, I bit my lip and put my left hand to my cheek, not knowing what to respond with. It was confusing, Ikuto's feelings. One minute he'd be teasing me, the next he'd be saying how he'd be protecting me from any other guy like Tadase. But he probably thought the same to me; he must think I'm confusing too. It's true, sometimes I'm blushing, and sometimes I'm randomly ranting at him over nothing. But if I could understand my feelings better, everything would be okay again. Everything. Even if it meant me rejecting him, things would go back to normal and it wouldn't be so awkward between us.
"Guys, give her some space. It's not like she wants to feel that way, right?" Rima spoke up for me, coming to my side and smiling. I've got my best friend back, finally!
"Amu-chan, you need to understand something," Nagihiko started to explain.
"Yeah?"
"Whatever your choice will be, it has to be something you're making, not just because you want to make Ikuto happy or you don't want to disappoint us. If you reject him, that's alright because if he's really in love with you then he'll understand and will move on. We will understand too, no one can force you in to anything and no one can choose who you want to be in love with either so don't listen to them if they do, alright?"
"Thank you, Nagihiko. Thanks to all of you for understanding what I'm going through because it's not easy. I owe you all one, guys," I happy told them, standing up.
"Don't mention it; we're here anytime you want us, Ami-chii!" Yaya cheered.
"Amu, don't ever forget Nagihiko's words," Rima reminded me.
"Yeah, whether you like him or not is your own choose. You've got your own fate in your hands and sorry about being so harsh on you earlier," Utau apologized, patting me on the back.
"Hinamori, we're all behind you no matter what your choice is. So do what you got to do and get it over and done with, Ikuto isn't going to wait forever!" Kukai encouraged with his signature thumbs up.
I felt like I had just won the lottery. No actually, I was even happier. There wasn't a girl as lucky as me to have such amazing best friends to forgive her after telling them a massive fib. Nodding, I headed down to the basement and saw a whole crowd of people around the newspaper which was reprinted after Ikuto crumpled it up. I poked someone from behind; they jumped out of shock and ran for their life. Then everyone did the same until I blocked the exit.
"Alright you lot, just so you know, Ikuto and I are not in a relationship, get that in your brain alright?" I shouted, pointing at all of them while they nodded.
"B-But Hinamori-san, you can't say that when we've got proof you guys w-were k-kissing!" a student piped up.
"Just because we were kissing doesn't mean we're dating. You're all so silly. It's complicated right now, but wouldn't you think we'd tell you if we were dating?" they all nodded again, still frightened. "Good, now if we do-"
"Hinamori-san, would you go out with Tsukiyomi-kun if he asked you?" someone else asked. It's not like he hasn't already…
"W-Well I-"
"You're unsure about your feelings right?"
"Well… It's not like that… I just…"
"Whatever you do, don't listen to the voices in your head. Listen to your heart."
With a screeching noise, the bell rang for our first class. I ran up the stairs and curled myself in to a ball, thinking of what to do. Listening to my heart wasn't as easy as I thought it was. Nothing is easy nowadays.
"Amu?" a voice behind me popped up. It was Ikuto, holding out his hand.
"I-Ikuto…"
"What's wrong?"
"It's nothing. Don't worry, I'm absolutely fine."
"You may fool Utau with that face, but you're not fooling me. Come on, tell me."
"I'm confused…"
"About…?"
"My feelings."
"The others might have told you this but… No one's forcing you on anything. Take your time. Amu, you come above all, don't listen to those who force you in to things because they're not worth your time. If you don't like me, just come out and say it. I'd rather have that than you say you love me back because if you don't do it at your own free will, there's no point."
"I hate everyone for being so wise…"
"You are wise. You just don't show it much."
"Right…"
"Don't believe me if you don't want to, but I've stopped lying. Look in to my eyes if you still think I'm lying."
"No."
"Why?"
"B-Because…"
"That's not a reason. Tell me."
"I just don't want to."
"I'm not the cookie monster; I'm not going to eat you. Just tell me why, it's easy."
"That's not the point…"
"Then what is the point?"
"The point is…" And then it hit me. My feelings. What I had been denying all along. "Ikuto, I-"
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