Apologize

Disclaimer: I just got addicted to Platypus Evolution, and my platypuses sang "Not Cassie" to me very perry-ish

Also, no much fluff on this one, but much plot and angst, sorry not sorry!


-Jace, move -I told the weight over me- my phone just rang.

-Don't answer - he snuggled on me -ugh, I feel sore, is it always like this? -Golden eyes looked at me.

-Just the first couple times -the phone buzzed again -let me answer.

-No, don't -he grabbed my arm.

-What's wrong? -I took the phone.

-It is going to be Magnus, and you're going to leave me -he buried his face on my chest, and even though I felt bad for it, I lit the phone, and indeed there was a text from Magnus "come to the loft now, please" it read.

-I'm going to Magnus' - I declared separating our intertwined legs and arms -his text sounds weird.

-Yeah, you do that - he told me turning around so he couldn't face me - leave me here like I'm just a one night stand, just like I hadn't give you my precious virginity.

-Jace - I sighed picking up my clothes- you're neither a random one nightstand, nor you were a virgin - he smiled slyly.

-I know I'm not random, I'm perfect -he rolled over to were I sat putting my boots- go, I'll wait here.

-Thanks -I kissed him on the forehead- I'll be back as soon as I can.

-Don't tell him you just fucked your parabatai! -He yelled as I closed his bedroom's door.


-Magnus? Babe? -I opened the loft's door- what… -I saw Ragnor in the sofa, looking at me from his book- Where's Magnus? -I closed the door, leaning on it.

-Out, with Catherina -I gazed at him confused- Catherina, our friend, you know her -he told me like I was an idiot, and I quite felt like that- they are at a coffee shop, having a cup, of coffee and planning the wedding's rehearsal –he explained like I was a kinder garden boy.

-He texted me, told me to meet him here -I explained.

-Oh, yeah, about that-he showed me a black smartphone with a glittery case, Magnus' phone- sit down.

-You texted me, -I stated cautiously -that's why there were no smiley faces on the message-I took place in the nearby futon.

-Points for 'Alec-pooh' -the sarcasm in his voice was palpable as he said Magnus nickname for me on his contacts- he left his phone, I texted you.

-May I know why? -He rested the book on the table.

-You're cheating on my best friend with golden locks -he stated.

-What? -That was definitely not what I was expecting.

-I saw you two in the fair -he sounded quite calmed.

-Well yes, -I interrupted him- we were at the fair, but friends can go at fairs together, and that doesn't mean that I'm cheating on Magnus, we had already went together, we even got cotton candy. Why were you at the fair, anyways? –I could feel my nervousness as my words started to come faster.

-Oh, so you differentiate between the guys you sleep with, by the colour of the cotton candy they eat? Jace had purple, right? Magnus had eaten blue, I guess. Smart, at least.

-Why were you there? –I said completely freaking out.

-Magnus was supposed to take Catherina, but he was "so tired for doing so wonderful things with his, oh precious fiancé" –he used his fingers to quote- so I took her. Who would have guessed I'd see the precious fiancé cheating on my best friend with his parabatai, while she was on the bathroom. –He chuckled.

-I don't cheat on Magnus with Jace –I murmured, looking anywhere but to Ragnor.

-Oh, please, grow a pair and tell the truth, Alexander! –He snapped his fingers suddenly sitting up straight and something fell into my lap –I have evidence.

-How…? –I tried to ask as I looked at our photo booth pictures, kissing and making silly faces – How did you got these? Only Jace and I had a copy. That's privacy violation if you entered either of our bedrooms. And law breaking for stealing from the Institute.

-I did neither –he snapped his fingers and the photos where gone- they're magically reconstructed directly from the booth.

-Stupid magic –I said biting my lip, I was oh, so screwed.

-Now are you willing to say that you cheated up my best friend? –He said with a raising tone.

-Yes, I'm cheating on Magnus, with Jace. Is he hearing this or something or why do you need so much for me to say it? –My voice sounded so broken, I could have given myself a hug, if I didn't felt so awful.

-No, he is not. I'm going to tell him you only came to check on him, stayed only to deliver the message and left. He doesn't need to know, I hope we agree on that. –He stood up- I wanted to hear that, so I'll be justified to do this –he took me by the shirt and slammed me to the closest wall.

-Why –my nephilim training took place instinctively, so I threw a punch at him- did you did that?

-Because you're cheating on Magnus –he said after cleaning the blood from his mouth – and to make a point clear.

-Which point? That you can't talk as a normal person? –I half yelled.

-No, the break up with that play toy of yours, before Magnus finds out and I'll keep my mouth shut point. Break Magnus' heart and I'll kill the both of you –he warned sitting again in the sofa.

-You can't tell me what to do –I said walking to the door –and I'd like to see you try that.

-You have been warned. You have till the rehearsal, or I'll start making him suffer. –He picked his bloody book again.

-Whatever –I opened the door, angry at the world.

-By the way, you have at least three hickeys –he said pointing at me with his book –you should really think about taking them off.

I just slammed the door at him as a response.


I sighed on my way to my bedroom. I was tired, I hated Ragnor, I hated the world, and mainly I hated myself.

I was so preoccupied pitying myself about the whole deal, I didn't realised someone was on the same corridor till we collided and their books fell.

-Sorry, I'll pick them –I said, looking up to see who was going to yell at me Mom or Isabelle. Or if I were really lucky it would be Simon. But no, apparently all my luck was gone. I blame my stars.

-Alexander –Clary said –I can pick them up without your help –she took them away rather abruptly –I don't want them to like you better and leave me.

-Clary –I was so done with my life already – I hadn't had the chance to speak with you about that…

-Really? I was here all the time, and you seem to have quite enough leisure time –I started playing with the ends of my sweater.

-It's not like that.

-Oh really? I thought that was what you did. Keep my boy… ex-boyfriend while still being engaged with yours –she raised her voice word by word.

-I'm sorry; it was no planned in that…

-Not planned? –She interrupted me- you're lucky I haven't told Magnus, or Isabelle. By the angel, how can you live with yourself? Magnus is so excited about the wedding, your sister has been planning it, and you're fooling around with the best man.

-I don't know –I could felt the guilt eating me up.

-I don't either. Also, you have like three hickeys, are they even from Magnus? Do you let the both of them leave you hickeys?

-I… I have to take those out –I answered covering my neck with my hand.

-Who did them? –She took her stele out and I took a step back.

-Jace –I answered sincerely.

-Just for him –She sighed getting on my personal space – stay still –she drew a few runes over my neck in 5 different places –done, no more hickeys.

-Thank you –I muttered not sure of why she had helped me.

-Don't. It wasn't for you. It was for Jace. Anyway, I don't quite believe we have something to talk about on that topic, I'm quite sure of your point.

-I just… I just wanted to say I'm sorry, for you and him –I chocked out.

-Don't be. I'm not mad because he left me for you. I get it, I'm trying to forget it, I swear I am, and I still love Jace deeply. I'm mad at you for cheating on Magnus. He doesn't deserve that. I'm mad because you're a cheater, playing with both Jace's and Magnus' hearts. When you're sorry about that, you know where I am –she turned around resuming her walk like she hadn't just obliterated my heart.

-I know I'm the worst –I whispered at the nothing.

I kept walking because that's the only thing I could think about that didn't make me want to throw up. My room had the lights on, which was odd. I threw myself into the bed watching the bulb in a complete daze.

-Alec! –Jace shouted in my ear taking me out of my mental fog.

-What? What are you doing here? –I said as he climbed on top of me.

-Well I assumed, you would forgot I was waiting you on my room, so I came to wait on yours –He answered smirking like he was a genius.

I didn't answer. I just let the silence happen.

-What's that rune for? I'm sure I haven't seen it –He said pointing at my neck after he started checking me for clues on my silence.

-Taking hickeys off, you left like five on me. –I answered with an empty voice.

-Sorry, Alec. –He didn't sound sorry at all- Did Magnus notice them? -I could sense the curiosity on his voice, but also the preoccupation.

-Magnus didn't texted. It was Ragnor. –My voice derivate more to hate than to nothingness this time.

-What did he want? –He asked, surprised on the plot twist.

-To tell me I'm the worst person ever for cheating the two of you.

-He found out, how? –He sat in the bed, pulling me with him so I could explain better, I guess.

-Saw us at the fair. Also Clary made quite clearly her point on having that believe after taking the hickeys off. –I provided playing with the end of my sleeves.

-So… You talked with Clary… -He knew Clary had always been dangerous grounds for me.

-I did.

-And what do you think about you with all of that? –He sounded concerned for me, like I even deserve that.

-I believe I'm the worst person ever for cheating the two of you, and that I should be killed for my crimes against humanity. –I let myself fall again into the mattress.

-Well, too bad. It's too late to apologize. –He commented casually.

-What? –I rose to see him better; I couldn't believe I was going to get another blow from Jace himself.

-I said it's too late to apologize, you already have the both of us, and I quite believe neither Magnus nor I want you dead. –He smiled taking my hand into his.

-You should, I'm awful. I'm making you do things you shouldn't be doing. –All I could think about was that he didn't hate me for some idiotic reason, but, thank Raziel for that one.

-I'm hearing what you keep repeating about being the bad guy, but I just can't make more than sound of it. You're not bad, Alec. I blame your self-esteem and Ragnor on that feeling. –He bumped my nose.

-Jace… I…

-Listen, you once told me that you needed me, right? –He looked at me straight on the eyes- well then don't come and turn my opinions down. Telling me that you're sorry for the best time of my life.

-I'm the best time of your life? –I felt warm on my heart at the words.

-You're my life. I'd take fall; I'd take a mundane shoot or a nephilim blade for you. I'd do anything for you, and not only because you're my other half, my parabatai, but also because I need you like my heart needs beating.

-You sap –I said laughing.

-You make me one, -he seemed happy at my smile- now smile, the only one allowed to sulk is I; I'm sore as hell, -he returned to his old dramatic self- and that, Alexander Gideon Lightwood, that is your fault. –He felt on my arms like a damsel on distress.

-Can I make it up with a blowjob? –I said raising my eyebrows at him.

-By the angel! –He sat quickly- Yes!


AN: So yeah, I wrote that, hope you guys liked it, I loved that chapter so so so much. It's inspired by Apologize by One Republic. You may get a chapter tomorrow if the fudging game doesn't absorb me, but if you follow "How to save a life" you're sure getting a chapter by me tomorrow.

Love ya'!