Chapter 11
"No," Kurt said, as he slumped back down on the couch in disbelief.
"It's true, Kurt," Burt said, as he put a supportive hand on his son's shoulder.
"So that explains why Coach Sylvester has always been nicer to Kurt than everyone else," Finn said.
Rachel said, "I can't believe it."
"I can't either," Kurt said. "Dad, I don't understand. How can Coach Sylvester be my biological mother?"
"Kurt, your mother and I tried to have a child for many years, but we weren't able to conceive a child," Burt explained. "We went to fertility doctors, and even with their help, your mother wasn't able to produce enough eggs on her own to try to conceive a child through in vitro fertilization. Sue was one of your mom's closest friends in college, and she offered to donate her eggs to us. So, the doctor's used Sue's eggs and my sperm to impregnate your mother through in vitro fertilization."
"Dude, that's creepy," Finn said.
Rachel slapped Finn's arm and said, "Finn, don't say that. We're talking about Kurt here."
"Why didn't you tell me this before, dad?" Kurt asked.
"When we first started the process, your mom, Sue, and I agreed that even though Sue was the biological mother, the baby would always be your mother's child," Burt said. "Your mom wanted a baby so much, Kurt. She would have done anything to have a baby. She carried you for nine months, and loved you from the moment you were conceived. It didn't matter that the eggs were donated, Kurt. You were always your mother's child. She just glowed with excitement throughout the pregnancy. I don't think another woman ever loved her child as much as your mother loved you, even when you were still in her womb."
"Kurt, your mother was an amazing mother," Sue said. "She loved you and doted on you from the moment you were born. She couldn't have loved you more if you had been her own biological child. Your dad and I agree that the young man you have become is because of your mother. Your compassion, your heart, your capacity to love are all things that you learned from your mother. When she died, she really left the best of herself in you."
Kurt looked at Sue in shock.
"I know this is shocking, Kurt," Burt said. "But it doesn't change the fact that your mother was the woman who raised you for the first eight years of your life and loved you with her entire being. When your mom died, Sue came to me wanting to help support you financially. She wanted to ensure that you would have a happy life, and be able to go to college without worries. She set up a trust fund for you, and set a generous allowance so that we could buy you all of those fancy designer clothes that you love so much. I wouldn't have been able to afford those $800 sweaters you wear without her help. She also helped pay for your tuition at Dalton. And I wouldn't be able to send you to NYADA when you get in if it wasn't for Sue's trust fund."
"You have done all that for me, Coach Sylvester?" Kurt asked.
"Yes, Kurt," Sue said. She sat on the coffee table in front of Kurt and took his hands. "Kurt, donating my eggs to your mom and dad was the best thing I have ever done in my life. I am so proud of the young man that you have come. You are the most kind, compassionate, and loving young man I have seen walk through the doors at McKinley. You are the strongest young man I know. You have taken more crap from more people, and you always come out of every situation having learned something and stronger. You have so much pride and confidence in yourself. You are an amazing young man, Kurt, and I am so proud of you.
"And watching you sing brings more joy into my life than anything else, Kurt," Sue continued. "I was so proud to have you on the Cheerios. Watching you out front in the spotlight singing when we won nationals was the proudest moment of my life. You were just so amazing and awe inspiring. I often linger in the hallway when the New Directions are rehearsing in hopes of hearing you sing.
"Kurt, I failed you when you were being bullied by Karofsky," Sue continued. "And that is the biggest regret that I have in my life—that I didn't do more to protect you. It broke my heart to have things get so bad that you had to transfer to another school. I'm not going to fail you again, Kurt. I'm not going to sit down and watch Blaine pour more of that damn Kool Aid down your throat. I'm not going to let Blaine keep you from achieving you dreams. You deserve to achieve all your goals in life, Kurt. I will not stand by and watch Blaine hold you back."
"I don't know what to say," Kurt said. "This is so much to take in. I can't believe Coach Sylvester is my mother. Today is the first time you've ever even called me Kurt."
Sue smiled and said, "I didn't want to treat you too differently than I treat the other Glee kids, Porcelain."
"I know this is a shock, Kurt," Burt said. "But everyone in this room loves you and wants you to have good things in life. Carole, Sue, and I are going to help you through this."
"I just don't know what to do," Kurt said, and began to cry.
"It's going to be all right, Kurt," Burt said as he hugged his son. "We're going to get you through this and protect you."
"Finn, Rachel, we'll all be here to support you, too" Sue said. "You have been drugged by Blaine for months now, and it's going to take some time for you to recover. You're the leaders of the glee club. You are going to have to be strong and support the rest of the club."
"I'm the leader of this club," Finn said. "I will make sure no one drinks anymore of the Kool Aid."
Hiram said, "We want you to stay away from that boy, Rachel. We don't want him to keep you from your dreams."
"I'll stay away from him, Dad," Rachel replied. "I promise."
Sue said, "Blaine has been permanently expelled from school, but he may try to contact you to give you more Kool Aid. Do not under any circumstances drink it—not even a sip. He can't be trusted. My friend at the FBI has taken the test results to the Lima police, and they are deciding if they should arrest him."
"They better arrest him," Burt snarled.
"Is it all right if I go up to my room now?" Kurt asked. "I need time to process all this."
"Will you promise me that you won't take off, Kurt?" Burt asked. "I don't want you to run off again. I love you, and I don't want to lose you under any circumstances, even if that means letting you marry Blaine."
"I promise, dad," Kurt said. "The whole reason I didn't wind up in Vermont with Blaine today is because I love you and I don't want to lose you."
Burt hugged his son, and said, "Everything is going to be fine, Kurt."
"I know, dad," Kurt said.
Sue put her hand on Kurt's shoulder, and said, "Kurt, if you need anything, you can call me anytime, day or night. I'm here for you, and I always will be, honey."
Kurt smiled one of his sad little toothless smiles and said, "Thanks, um, I don't know what to call you anymore."
"How about, Sue?" Sue said.
"Thanks, Sue," Kurt said. He hugged Sue.
Sue held Kurt tightly as her eyes filled with tears. She whispered, "I love you, Kurt."
Kurt said, "I love you too." He pulled away from Sue and said, "Excuse me, everyone." He walked up to his bedroom and lied down on his bed. He stared at a framed picture of Blaine on his nightstand, and began to cry again.
A half hour later, there was a soft knock on Kurt's door. He said, "Come in."
Finn opened the door and said, "Hey, Kurt, can I come in?"
"Sure," Kurt replied, as he sat up and wiped his eyes.
"I thought you might need to talk," Finn said. "Are you all right?" He sat down on the edge of Kurt's bed.
"I'm a bit overwhelmed," Kurt said. "It's so much to take in."
"What are you going to do?" Finn asked. "Do you believe that Blaine is drugging everyone?"
"It seems like that," Kurt said. "He always seems to have that Kool Aid with him. I didn't realize what it was doing to me. But every time we were together, he was pouring me big glasses of it, and he never drank any of it himself."
Finn said, "I always thought it was weird that he didn't drink any of it."
"I feel like I don't even know myself anymore, Finn," Kurt said. "I mean, I won't have Blaine anymore, and now I find out that Sue is my mother. My life is so different than it was yesterday."
"You're awesome, dude," Finn said. "You're going to be fine, Kurt. You'll be going to college, and you're going to meet even more awesome people who are better than Blaine. Me, you, and Rachel will be in New York in six months, and we'll have all kinds of awesome times together."
"I know," Kurt said with a smile.
"Are you OK with Sue being your biological mother, dude?" Finn asked.
"That's really weird," Kurt said. "But even when she was a bit mean, she always seemed to have a soft spot for me. She was never as nasty to me as she is to everyone else. When I was in the Cheerios, she seemed to favor me over the rest of the team."
"Do you remember meeting her at all when you were little?" Finn asked.
"I remember my mom having a friend named Suzy," Kurt replied, "But I never made the connection that Suzy was Sue. We didn't see Suzy much after my mom died, so I don't remember her that clearly."
"Sue does seem to love you and want to see you succeed," Finn said.
"Yeah, she does," Kurt replied.
"Well, whatever happens, I'm here for you, Kurt," Finn said. "I'm glad my mom married your dad because I like having you as my brother. I love you, Kurt."
"I love you too, Finn," Kurt replied.
They hugged.
"I'll be in my room if you need anything, Kurt," Finn said.
"Thanks, Finn."
Monday morning, Kurt, Finn, Burt, and Carole were sitting at the kitchen table eating breakfast before school. No one had heard from Blaine since Kurt left him in Cleveland.
Burt said, "Are you sure you're ready to go to school today, Kurt? If you need more time for adjust, you can stay home."
"I'll be OK, dad," Kurt said. "I can use the distraction."
"I'll be by your side to help you, dude," Finn said. "We'll have an awesome day. You'll see."
"Thanks, Finn," Kurt replied. "I'm gonna go up to my room and finish getting ready for school. Excuse me." He went up to his room.
As Kurt sat at his vanity fixing his hair, he picked up a hair brush that Blaine had used to brush his hair. He could smell the faint aroma of Blaine's hair gel on the brush. He brought the brush to his nose and breathed the scent in deeply. He felt his eyes well up with tears. He threw the brush across the room, breaking a mirror on his wall. "Damn you, Blaine Anderson," Kurt said.
Kurt hurt a knock on the door, and heard Finn say, "Dude, are you all right. I heard glass break. Can I come in?"
"Yeah, you can come in, Finn," Kurt said.
"Are you OK, Dude?" Finn asked.
"No," Kurt sobbed. "How can I get through this, Finn? How can I survive without Blaine?"
Finn said, "Dude, you're awesome. You'll be OK. I'm going to help you through this, dude." He hugged his brother.
"Thanks, Finn," Kurt replied as he reached for a tissue.
"Are you sure you're ready to go back to school?" Finn asked.
"Yeah," Kurt said. "I have to get back into a routine. I have to find a new normal."
"You'll find an awesome new normal, dude," Finn said. "And in a few months, me, you and Rachel will be living in New York. It will be awesome."
"If Rachel and I get into NYADA," Kurt said.
"You'll both get in," Finn replied. "Come on. Let's go to school."
When Finn and Kurt arrived at school, Rachel was waiting for them at the front door of the school.
"Hey, babe," Finn said, as he leaned down to kiss Rachel. "You look awesome today."
"Hi, Finn," Rachel said. "Hi, Kurt. How are you feeling today?"
"Hi, Rachel," Kurt said, with a weak smile. "I'm confused, but I'll be OK, I think."
"You'll get through this, Kurt," Rachel said. "We're all here for you." She linked her arms with Finn and Kurt and said, "And when we get into NYADA, we'll all be going to New York and we'll make new friends and have new experiences."
"It's going to be awesome," Finn said.
"Come on," Rachel said. "We better head to homeroom."
As they were walking to homeroom, they heard Figgy's voice come over the school's intercom system. "All Glee Club members please report to the choir room immediately."
"I wonder what's going on," Finn said.
"Maybe we heard something about NYADA, and Mr. Schue wants everyone there to hear it," Rachel said.
"Or maybe Blaine is lurking around the school," Kurt said.
"That would not be awesome, dude," Finn said. "We better go to the choir room."
When they got to the choir room, most of the Glee Club was already assembled. They were sitting on the floor in a large circle. Sue and Mr. Schuester were also there.
Mr. Schuster said, "Come sit with us, Kurt, Finn, and Rachel."
"Come sit next to me, Kurt," Sue said.
Kurt sat down next to Sue and said, "Hi, Sue."
Sue said, "Hi, Kurt. How are you doing today?"
"I'm O.K." Kurt said. "Just taking it a step at a time."
"Hang in there, Porcelain," Sue said, as she reached for Kurt's hand. "You will make it through this. And if you need to talk or anything, please come see me. My door is always opened for you." She squeezed Kurt's hand.
"Thanks, Sue," Kurt said with a weak smile.
When the rest of the Glee club had arrived, Mr. Schuester said, "We asked you all to come here because Sue thought it would be a good idea for us to talk about what happened, and share our feelings about what Blaine did to all of us. We all need support and understanding right now, and we're going to find it here within ourselves and each other."
Sue said, "I thought it would be a good idea for everyone to express what you're feeling about what happened. All of us were fooled by Blaine since school started, and Kurt has been dealing with this even longer. It's going to take some time for us to heal from this, but you kids are all friends, and you will get through this together. Who would like to start?"
Everyone was silent.
Finn finally break the silence by saying, "I'm really angry at Blaine right now. I thought he was so awesome, and I thought he was so awesome for my brother. It pisses me off that Blaine was messing with our minds by giving us all of that Kool Aid. And I'm angry with myself for not noticing the affect he was having on Kurt before Blaine transferred to McKinley. I'm sorry I didn't pay more attention to you last year when you went to Dalton, Kurt."
"It's not your fault, Finn," Kurt said. "It's my fault for being the first one to drink the Kool Aid, and convincing Blaine to transfer to McKinley. If I didn't drink the Kool Aid and fall for Blaine, none of this would have happened."
"Kurt, Finn, this is not either of your faults," Mr. Schuester said. "This is all Blaine's fault. He's the one who got all of us to drink the Kool Aid."
"I'm angry at Blaine because what he did could have kept me and Kurt from getting into NYADA," Rachel said. "I mean, what if the Kool Aid changed my voice."
"That would not be awesome," Finn said.
"I still kind of miss Blaine," Mercedes said. "I mean, I know that what he did was wrong, but I kind of liked the way we all seemed to get along so well when Blaine was around us."
"It's OK to feel that way, Aretha," Sue said. "It is going to take time for all of us to adjust to life without Blaine."
"When I cuddle with Lord Tubington I forget about Blaine," Brittany said. "I wish I could figure out how to clone Lord Tubington so all of you could have him to cuddle with so you can forget about Blaine, too."
"I was starting to wish that I never came to the United States," Rory said. "I don't like what Blaine did to all of us, but knowing all of you kind of makes it worth it."
"Preach," Artie said. "Blaine messed with us and that is not OK. But at least we still have each other."
"Blaine made me feel like I was inadequate as a dancer," Mike said. "I mean, I always thought I was the strongest dance in the group, but the Kool Aid made me think Blaine was better than me. But he really only have that weird I gotta go pee dance move that he made us all do in every number."
"I have been praying all weekend for all of us to have strength to stay away from Blaine and that nasty Kool Aid," Quinn said. "I can't believe we all fell for it."
"I am mad at myself for not noticing," Sam said. "When I came back to McKinley, everyone was acting really weird around Blaine, and I couldn't understand why. But then it didn't matter because Blaine gave me some Kool Aid."
"Blaine really played all of us," Puck said. "I should have realized it because Puckasaurus is the player numba one."
Santana said, "Blaine is a rat bastard. I want to go all Lima Heights on him right now."
Mr. Schuester said, "Everyone has had a rough time this week, but we must support each other and communicate with each other. You've all opened up about this today. We have to continue to do that to get through this."
"Excuse me, Mr. Schue. I haven't had the chance to talk."
Everyone's eyes turned to the direction of the voice, and were surprised to see Tina sitting between Mr. Schuester and Sue.
Mr. Schuester said, "Oh, hey, Tina. I didn't see you come in."
"I've been sitting here all along, Mr. Schue," Tina said. "You just didn't see me. No one ever sees me."
Mr. Schuester said, "Oh, sorry, Tina. There is so much going on here right now."
"It's OK," Tina said. "I'm kind of mad at Blaine too. He hardly ever gave me any Kool Aid, so I didn't love him the way everyone else did. And when everyone started drinking the Kool Aid and loving Blaine, people seemed to notice me even less than they did before Blaine came here."
"How am I going to survive without Blaine?" Kurt said as tears streamed down his face.
"You're going to get through this, Kurt," Sue said, as she reached for his hand. "Everyone in this room loves you, and is going to help you through this. We're all going to help each other."
The bell rang to announce the start of first period.
"OK, everyone," Mr. Schuester said. "You can all head to class now. Your teachers know you'll be late. If you need to talk, please come find me or Coach Sylvester."
Everyone got up and started to walk to class. Kurt was heading to honors English class with Rachel and Quinn.
"I'll meet you in class," Kurt said. "I'm going to run to the bathroom first."
"OK, Kurt," Rachel said. "We'll let Mr. Barron know."
Kurt walked into the boy's bathroom. As he stood at the sink trying to make himself presentable after crying. He heard a stall door open behind him, and gasped as he saw who walked out. He spun around and said, "Oh my god, Blaine."
