I am going to keep this very brief; I hope you like the chapter!
And I don't own Glee.
Nick frowned in confusion at Jeff, who was biting his lip nervously, before his expression turned to angry again. "How dare you!" He growled, pushing Jeff away from him. "Lying like that to my face!" He said getting louder again. "How can you look into someone's eyes and lie like that?!"
Jeff looked up at Nick, feeling like he was crumbling inside. "Nicky... I am not lying! It's true! I've liked you since freshmen year!"
"Stop it!" Nick shouted. "Stop it! Isn't it enough what you did already? What do you want from me? Do you want to hurt me even more?" He said before he pulled his knees up to his chest, his eyes filling with tears again.
Jeff couldn't stop himself from noticing how red Nick's eyes already were. He wondered how much he cried that afternoon and felt sick with guilt.
"I liked you and you used me." Nick sobbed hugging himself tighter. Jeff was a bit shocked at that but he decided Nick meant the 'liked' as friends not more than that.
"Please don't think like that." Jeff asked trying to pull Nick for a hug but the brunet simply pushed Jeff away, punching his chest lightly over and over again as he was still crying. Jeff tried not to flinch.
"Leave me alone!" Nick shouted. "At least if I'm alone there's no one else to hurt me." He added after taking a couple of deep breaths to calm down.
"What can I do for you to believe me?" Jeff asked looking at Nick brokenly, he just wanted to hug him and kiss him and make everything better.
Nick shrugged. As much as he wanted to believe Jeff, he was scared. He was scared of getting hurt and... Nick didn't even know. He was already so hurt he didn't know what to do.
Jeff sighed and kneeled in front of the armchair again. "Nick... The people I hooked up with... They mean nothing to me. I know the way I behaved before we were friends was wrong, but I changed. I never actually intended to hook up with you, not that you aren't worth it, but... That's not what I wanted. I didn't want a random hook up with you, I wanted to date you."
Nick looked up at Jeff trying to think of what to do, he wanted to pull Jeff for a hug and just let himself be comforted by the blond. He still liked him, he still wanted to be with Jeff. "Why would you even like me?" He wondered out loud, only actually noticing he was speaking out loud when he heard his own voice. Nick hid his face on Jeff's chest.
Jeff smiled a bit, knowing how insecure Nick was about himself. "The real question is, what is there not to like? You're smart, you're funny, you're gorgeous, you're the nicest person I know... Besides you make me laugh, you make happy, do you have an idea for how long I didn't feel genuinely happy before we became friends? You know the things going on with my mother and you don't judge me, you don't call me coward. You see me for who I am and not the bad boy asshole everyone thinks I am. That is so much more than I deserve already and still I seem to be too selfish, because I want more, I want to be able to hold your hand all the time and kiss you and just... Be more than just a friend. Believe me, Nick, I am not lying to you. I would never lie about this." Jeff said, struggling a bit with his words, he had so much he wanted to say yet it was like he couldn't put his thoughts into words.
Nick stared at Jeff for a few seconds trying to decide if he was saying the truth or not. He looked straight at his eyes and he had no doubt the blond was saying the truth. "Why didn't you tell me before?" Nick asked his voice coming out much more calm now. He untangled himself from Jeff so he could hug himself again.
"Because I was afraid you'd freak out and leave me. But now you were so mad at me that I had nothing to lose." Jeff sighed.
Nick hugged himself tighter and didn't say anything for while as he thought. His mind was a mess but at the same time it was all pretty clear.
"Aren't you going to say anything?" Jeff asked after a while, chewing his cheek nervously.
Nick blinked and looked up at Jeff. "I… I am not sure what am I supposed to say."
"You're not supposed to say anything. What do you want to say?" Jeff asked softly.
Nick shrugged but then spoke. "I want to say that…" He took a deep breath. "I like you too… But I am afraid because I never been with anyone and I don't want to get hurt." Nick said calmly.
Jeff's heart started pounding strongly in his chest. "We can go slowly, at your own rhythm, and I promise you, Nicky, I will do my very best to never hurt you… Ever."
Nick smiled shyly at the nickname. He took a large breath. Another twist today. He hoped this would be the last, he couldn't take another heartbreak today, especially now that he was feeling warm and nice inside again. "Will you be my boyfriend, then?" He asked slowly, looking down at his legs as he let them go, sitting properly on the armchair.
Jeff smiled widely, looking up at Nick. "Yes. I'd love that." He answered.
Nick smiled and slid off the armchair to sit on Jeff's lap, hugging him by his neck. "I'm glad I let you in." He muttered tiredly. He felt completely worn out, so many emotions in one day was never a good idea.
"I would have broken in. I wasn't joking about that." Jeff said with a small chuckle, hugging Nick close to him.
"You can't break in a house. That's why locks were invented." Nick rolled his eyes, taking off his glasses so he could bury part of his face on Jeff's chest.
"You'd be surprised." Jeff answered calmly shifting so he could rest his back against the armchair, bringing Nick with him.
"How?" Nick asked looking up at Jeff with a raised eyebrow, he didn't even notice how close he was from Jeff, for him he was just close enough to see Jeff clearly.
"A simple card and in harder cases bobby pins." Jeff answered his eyes drifting down to Nick's lips, he wasn't sure if he could kiss Nick, he didn't want to push him into something that would be uncomfortable for him but at the same time he was dying to kiss him for a long time now.
"That only works in movies." Nick rolled his eyes again.
"It actually works. I thank tumblr for teaching me." Jeff smirked.
"Oh… I've heard of the website…" Nick said and then he was able to notice to where Jeff was looking. "I can see what you're staring at." He stated calmly.
Jeff's cheeks turned red, making Nick smile a bit. "So-sorry." Jeff mumbled and looked away.
"It's okay." Nick said softly, it was nothing he hadn't thought about before. He leaned slowly to Jeff to kiss him gently, feeling a bit of nervousness tingling his stomach.
Nick was glad Jeff didn't just close the gap between them, Nick needed the time to, sort of, prepare himself.
The nervousness quickly disappeared when their lips met, Nick kept the kiss simple as he had no experience and Jeff didn't push it either. Still it was everything both boys had fantasised with and more. Nick's lips were softer, Jeff's were warmer and the touch of one's lips against the other's made them both feel better inside than they thought they would.
Nick was the one to lean back, his eyes fluttering open and a smile growing on his lips. Jeff didn't move for a few seconds, a wide smile on his lips, then he opened his eyes.
"You didn't have to…" He said softly.
"I know… I wanted to." Nick replied burying his face on Jeff's neck. "Did I hurt you?" Nick asked biting his lip and running his fingers gently over Jeff's lower stomach.
"A bit, but it's okay." Jeff shrugged.
"Sorry…" The brunet sighed and kissed the skin that was under his lips gently.
Jeff squeaked a bit and flinched. "That tickled! Don't kiss and breathe against my neck!" He whined.
Nick leaned a bit back as he giggled. "Sorry." He said, but he wasn't. Then he yawned softly.
"Are you tired?" Jeff asked.
"A bit... It was a long day." Nick said resting his head on Jeff's shoulder, letting his eyes close for a few seconds.
Jeff held Nick closer. "I'll go now then... So you can go rest."
Nick whined a bit holding to Jeff. "I don't want you to go... I don't want to be alone." Nick muttered.
Jeff smiled a bit. "What about your parents? They should be arriving."
Nick shrugged. "They get late some days..."
Jeff nodded and patted Nick's back gently. "Come on, get up... I'll tuck you in and cuddle for a bit before I go."
Nick smiled and got up. He helped Jeff up and reached for the blond's hand as he guided him to his room, even though Jeff already knew the way.
Once in Nick's room, Jeff sat on his bed and Nick sat beside him. "You know, the whole point of coming upstairs was so you could go to bed." Jeff said softly after they spent a few long seconds just staring at each other with silly wide grins.
Nick giggled and moved closer to Jeff to kiss him softly. "I left my glasses downstairs, could get them for me while I change?" Nick asked as he parted from the kiss.
"Sure!" Jeff smiled widely and as he got up they both heard the front door closing.
"Nicky?!" It was Lia.
Nick's eyes widened and he froze. Oh no. No. No. No. This couldn't be happening. No. Nick wasn't ready to tell Jeff about his mothers, Jeff wouldn't understand.
Jeff frowned but then smiled. "Is that your mother?" He asked and walked to the door.
Nick got up and stumbled over his feet stopping Jeff from getting out. "Wait!" He shrieked.
"What's wrong?" Jeff asked, puzzled.
"Nicky?!" Lia called out again.
"I'm coming!" Nick called back before turning to Jeff. "Come on, let's go." He said and grabbed Jeff's hand and dragged him out of the room, he had to take Jeff out of the house before his other mother would appear.
"Nick? What's wrong?" Jeff frowned, helping Nick stay balanced as he climbed down the stairs so fast he nearly fell.
"Pfft, nothing's wrong." Nick said nervously.
"Nick?" It was Lia now. Nick stopped and turned around.
"Mother..." Nick said smiling a bit at the blur that was his mother. He didn't need to have his glasses to know she was frowning.
Lia must have noticed Jeff because next thing Nick knew she was extending her hand at him, and probably smiling. "You must be Jeff! It's nice to finally meet you."
"Nice to meet you too, ma'am." Jeff shook her hand.
"Oh please, call me Lia!" Jeff nodded. "So, Jeff, are you staying for dinner? My wi-"
"Jeff can't!" Nick interrupted Lia before she could finish the sentence. "Maybe another day, he was just leaving!"
Jeff had only time to say goodbye to Lia before Nick dragged him out of the house. Nick walked Jeff to his car, stumbling over everything as he still hadn't his glasses.
"I'm sorry for that." Nick mumbled, hugging himself since it was cold outside.
"It's okay." Jeff said but he sounded cold. "I'll see you tomorrow." He mumbled and hopped inside the car slamming the door shut, making Nick flinch a bit.
"See you tomorrow." The brunet murmured before Jeff drove away.
"Hey Nick!" Nick heard his other mother calling out after a few seconds and turned around.
"Hey mum..." Nick said walking to his mother who had just arrived to the drive way in her car.
"Was that Jeff?" Caitlin asked and Nick nodded.
"Yeah..."
"He's not staying for dinner?" She asked as she got out of the car.
"Nope, he just left." Nick said pointing out the obvious.
"I know he did." Caitlin led her son to the house. "But why didn't he stay? It would be a good opportunity to meet him."
Nick shrugged. "He still had some homework to do... Spanish homework." Nick mumbled.
Caitlin nodded. "Ask him if he doesn't want to come to dinner someday." She said and then went to say hello to her wife.
"Nicky, dinner will be ready soon!" Lia called out.
"I'll pass. It's late and I don't wanna have nightmares. Don't worry I ate in the afternoon." Nick said as he blindly looked for his glasses and put them on before he climbed the stairs to his room.
Nick threw himself to his bed and didn't have time to think about his day, he took his glasses off and drifted off to a deep sleep.
On the next day Nick drove to school and parked the car, not getting out until he saw Jeff's car parking a few spots away.
"Good morning!" Nick smiled widely but his smile dropped as he saw Jeff's face.
"Are you embarrassed of me?" Jeff asked looking straight at Nick's eyes as he slammed the car's door close.
Nick jumped a bit. "I… What? Of course not!" Nick said shook his head.
"Then what the heck was that yesterday? You didn't want me to meet your parents, did you?" Jeff crossed his arms over his chest.
"It's-it's not what you think." Nick mumbled hugging his books to his chest.
"What it is then?" Jeff demanded.
Nick bit his lip and didn't answer. He would have to tell Jeff eventually but he didn't want to. They were friends for long now and he still didn't know.
"I knew it." Jeff sighed and hooked his bag on his shoulder before he walked to the main building.
"No, Jeff!" Nick grabbed his arm and looked around before he started pulling Jeff to a remote corner of the parking lot. Jeff was looking at him, confused.
When they stopped, Nick took a deep breath before he spoke. "It's true, I didn't want you to meet my parents." Jeff opened his mouth to speak but Nick spoke over him. "But no. It wasn't because I am embarrassed of you." Nick said calmly. "I was scared of what you would think of them… Of our family." Nick sighed.
Jeff frowned confused. "Nick, if you were afraid they'd embarrass you in front of me, that wouldn't be a problem, all parents do that."
"It's not that… I… My family is not like the others… I don't have a father… I have two mothers." Nick muttered looking down at his shoes.
Jeff's eyebrows shot up. "Oh… I don't see a problem though…" He said calmly and Nick looked up. "Nicky, I am homosexual if I judged other people with the same sexuality I would be a hypocrite." Jeff said calmly. "I don't judge and I think it's pretty cool that you have two mothers who love you. That's what matters." Jeff said softly, pulling Nick close to kiss him.
Nick smiled against Jeff's lips and leaned a bit back after a couple of seconds. "Do you want to have dinner there today?" He asked and Jeff nodded with a wide smile on his lips.
They heard the bell ring and Jeff reached for Nick's hand. "Come on, gorgeous, we have classes now." He grinned a bit as Nick's cheeks tinted pink.
Nick went to his French class and Jeff to his Spanish one. They only met again by Nick's locker when the brunet was changing the books.
"You didn't wait for me." Jeff said taking a drag from the cigarette.
"Sorry, I needed to go to the bathroom…" Nick said closing the locker and leaning against the rest of them, looking over at Jeff.
"Okay…" Jeff said and stepped in front of Nick so he could kiss him. Now that he could do it, he wouldn't waste his time.
"Jeff, people are looking." Nick mumbled, red as a tomato, looking up at Jeff over his glasses.
"Ignore them." Jeff said taking Nick's glasses out of the way so he could kiss him properly.
Nick liked this, he liked to kiss Jeff, it made him feel nice but the judging eyes were freaking him a bit out.
"Jeff…" Nick leaned a bit back. "I really don't like the attention." Nick breathed out.
Jeff nodded a bit and kissed Nick's nose. "Okay… Sorry."
"Don't be… I like the kissing." Nick grinned a bit, feeling his ears heat up just like his cheeks.
Jeff smiled and moved to lean against the lockers beside Nick, looking over at him as he smoked.
"Uhm... Nicky?" Jeff asked after a while.
"Yes?"
"You haven't told your mothers about us, have you? They don't know we are together... Do they?" Jeff asked, frowning a bit.
"Not yet. I'll tell them tonight." Nick nodded. "I promise."
"Oh no... It's okay. You know... Take your time." Jeff said with a nod, taking a large drag from his cigarette and blowing the water vapour up.
Nick raised an eyebrow. "Me and my mothers have a close relationship. I don't need time to tell them... Besides I am pretty sure they think we got together a while ago." Nick said and shivered as he remembered the whole condom situation that had left Nick feeling so awkward.
Jeff bit his lip. "Okay..."
Nick frowned at Jeff. "Are you... Okay?"
Jeff nodded. "Yes, yes! I am fine... Great!"
Nick stared at Jeff for a bit before he started giggling. "Are you nervous about tonight?"
"Pfft... Me? Nervous? Please, Nicky..." Jeff rolled his eyes and reached for the cigarette to take a large drag again.
"You are!" Nick giggled and looked and leaned to kiss Jeff softly. "It'll be okay... I've told them so much about you it's like they know you already." Nick said as he leaned away, a small blush on his cheeks. He still couldn't believe he was dating Jeff.
Jeff nodded. "Okay..." He mumbled and then the glanced at his phone's screen. "Class is almost starting, we should go." He said and Nick nodded.
Jeff reached for Nick's hand and led him to the physics classroom. "My boyfriend and I are going to class together." He grinned widely.
Nick blushed and bumped his shoulder against Jeff's with a smile. "Your boyfriend." He said, more to himself than to Jeff, with a happy smile.
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