AN: Song is by Hunter hays cry with you
I wake up with a huge headache and drool dripping down my chin. Great that's attractive I think to myself. I look around and I don't see Zeke anywhere. I start looking around his place. This is a nice place, I think to myself. Then I hear something. It sounds like someone is singing. I put my ear up against the bathroom door to listen better, I know I shouldn't but I'm curious. It's my Erudite nature to be curious, so shoot me.
When you try not to look at me scared that I'll see you hurting You're not hiding anything, no and frankly it's got me worried nobody knows you better than I do I keep my promises, I'm fighting for you.
I sigh, Zeke is amazing. I love him so much but in a big brother type. I wish I loved him like he loved me but I just can't. I need to let go of Eric first before I can let Zeke in. Turns out it was easy for Eric so it should be easy for me right? HA! I've been trying for the past two years. I am still listening to Zeke sing, he is getting to the end of the song when he says you need love tough enough to count on so here I am you're not alone I'll listen to the tears give out you're safe and sound, I swear that I won't let you down. What's hurting you I, I feel it too I mean it when I say when you cry, I cry with you. The shower turns off and I hurry back to the couch. Were I was last seen, I didn't want him to think I was eavesdropping on him or anything.
"Hey, your up." I look up at him and he is just in a towel. I probably stare more than I should have, "Uh ya." He comes over and sits next to me on the couch. He is still dripping wet and his six pack is amazing. "Thanks for letting me crash here." I said trying to make small talk. "Not a problem. By the way you don't have training today. I got a call from Four." I smile at him. Good, that means I wont have to deal with Eric the Duantless leader today. "You want to go get a bite to eat?" I look back at him. "Ya sure, but you should probably put some clothes on before we leave this apartment." He just laughs and gets up to change.
While he is changing I hear a knock on the door. "Hey, Jess you want to answer that?" I here Zeke yell from his bedroom. I get up to answer the door when I see a drunken Eric in front of me. He doesn't say anything but just kisses me. I push him off. "What do you think you're doing?" He looks at me disappointed. "Come on Jess, you know I am sorry. I didn't mean anything I said yesterday. Max was just irrataiting me and I took it out on you. Come on babe let's go." I grabs my arm. I yank free. "NO." I don't like drunk Eric. I can see in his face that he is getting angry. Then I hear Zeke coming out of the bedroom "Hey, Jess whose at the..." He looks up to see Eric. They have a staring contest for about a minute when Eric lunges for Zeke. They fight each other Eric is on top of Zeke and is beating the crap out of him. I can't take this anymore. I try to pull Eric off of him, before he kills Zeke. In the process I get punched in the face. I get away from both of them, I am not sure who threw the punch at me. I go out in the hallway and I see the camera the red light is flashing. I motion to my face. Hoping that Four saw the whole thing.
"GUYS! Stop it. You're going to kill each other." I try to calm them down. But Eric is persistent. I hear Four running down the hall I smile at him when he enters in with Max. "ENOUGH!" Max yells in a diplomatic tone. They both stop. I run to Zeke to make sure he is okay. He is bleeding from his four head and his knuckles are all beat up. I look at Eric disappointed. "Four take Eric back to the infirmary." Max yells again. Four drags Eric along.
"Would you two mind explaining to me what's going on here?" Max says while looking at me. "I am sorry sir. Eric just came in and just started jumping on Zeke." I said. I didn't really want to go into reasons why. "This has nothing with the fact that Eric is just jealous about you two?" I look at him with my jaw dropped. "Jessica it's not that hard to figure out you two loved each other I maybe a leader of one of the toughest factions, but I know when one of my kids are in love." I smile at him, he pictures us as one of his own. "Zeke I expect you get yourself cleaned up. Stay away from Eric, until he is sober." Max says and turns around to leave.
"I am so sorry!" I turn to Zeke. "It's okay. It's just a scrape." Zeke said. He comes closer to me and touches my face. I wince at the pain. "I'm sorry I threw a punch at you." My jaw drops. "That was you?" He looks down. "I thought I aimed for Eric, but I guess he moved his head to fast. I just wanted to protect you and I go and punch you instead." He says while walking away from me. "Zeke. You did protect me." I walk up to him. I did the only thing that I could think of. I kiss him. This kiss is pure love. Not forceful, no heat. Just love. All of our emotions into one kiss. I swore I saw shooting stars. We pull apart for air. We lean against each other. "Wow." Zeke says.
I am now exteremely confused. I look back up at him. I can't hurt him. After what he just did for me, there is no way. "Lets get you cleaned up." I said trying to change topic. I hurry and clean up his wound. We don't say a word to each other, just looking into each other's eyes. "Look Jess. I know you're still in pain from what has happened. I want to promise you that I will not hurt you. Ever." I look into Zeke's eyes, I sigh. I can't believe I am about to say this but, "I'm sorry Zeke. A part of me wants to love you, but the other part still wants Eric. I know I am crazy, but I know him. Better than I know myself and he is a great guy. Dauntless just changed him." I look away. I feel Zeke grabbing my hand and rubbing circles. "I understand. I'm here for you if you need anything." I look up at him and give him one last kiss, and I walk away.
After leaving Zeke's apartment I go and find Tris and Christina. When I see them in the pit they both come running towards me and grabbing me into a bear hug. "Can't breathe guys." I say while laughing. They both pull away. "We heard what happened. Four told us everything, I am just so glad you are okay." I sigh "I've been better." Christina pulls my hand to the table and we sit down. "I am going to go and get something that will cheer you up!" She hurries away and Tris just sits there and smiles at me. "So, how are you really feeling?" I start crying again. "I don't know what to do. After the fight I kissed Zeke! and it felt amazing. Apart of me enjoyed it. However, the other part wanted to run to the infirmary and check on Eric." I bang my head to the table a couple of times. "Careful there Jess." I hear Four. I look up and he is sitting next to Tris. I try and say something but Christina comes back with a HUGE piece of cake. We all just laugh. "What? Chocolate is the cure for everything?" Tris and I nod our heads and Four just laughs as while he is watching us eat the cake. I decide to look up at him while Tris and Christina were to busy and he mouths. "He is okay." I sigh in relief. My heart is still with Eric, and Four knows that.
*1 hour earlier*
Fours POV
I Pull Eric into the infirmary, not sure what to do with him. I have never seen him like this. He never gets drunk. "You stay here I am going to go get the nurse." He rolls his eyes at me.
I come back with the nurse and I told her what happened. She gave him some medicine and told him to rest and that he should take it easy in the next couple of days. When she leaves I decide to leave to. "I love her Four." I sigh and turn around. "I know you do." I sit on his bed and he just vents. "I didn't mean to fight Zeke. I was just taking my anger out on him. Then I saw her. Her face bruised. That made me realize that my actions affect her. It's a responsibility that I'm not ready for. Worrying about another person. I want her in my life. I've always have. In grade school I used to picture us together. Well, that dreamed has sailed." Eric said. I just stare at him. Not sure what to say except. "She loves you too. You just have to change." He shakes his head. "I don't think I can be the man she needs. Zeke has that covered." I laugh. "No, he doesn't." I walk away to the door. "Can you tell her I'm sorry?" I hear Eric yell from the bed. "Yes, I will."
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