Can't touch this
Disclaimer: This is a fan fic and I do NOT have any rights to any of it's characters even if this is so sad.
Rating: T or M (in some cases)
Summary: When Tony gets back from having a heart attack, just two months ago, he wants to get out of his mood and goes to a nightclub where he meets his ex-girlfriend, Pepper Potts.
Chapter 11: Pain
The glass hits the floor before Pepper could say a word. Rhodey was damn serious when he asked her to get out of the room and let Tony rest.
″He doesn't want to see you.″
This is mean however you'll try to say it. Yeah, maybe devilish but not a week sign of a man who just had a heart attack.
″Fine.″ She said with a groan.
″But I won't come back. And don't say a word Mr. Rhodes. I'm out of this job. Have it like he wants.″
″But Pepper,-″
″Goodbye James.″
″Damn it.″
After two months
The Stark Mansion was utterly quiet. Of course it was quiet, just because Tony Stark was sleeping or he tried to sleep but the sheets were too smooth and the bed was empty. He was shivering but not from the cold of the bed or else, he was just shivering. He was shirtless but he was still full of sweat but on God's word, he didn't knew why his body acted that way but it still didn't matter for him, that nightmare won't stop, damn it. Damn Pepper.
When Rhodey told him that Pepper came around when he was under the effect of the medications and he wasn't aware of her presence he would just start to scream. Why couldn't he be awake to feel her hands gripping his hands tight.
It was eleven p.m and he was not feeling like sleeping so, he may have a chance to get something to drink outside of his mansion. The suit, the tie, the watch and the perfume and all was done. He didn't drive his car for over two months now but the main rule was that once you had learned how to drive you'll never forget how to.
The road was as usually, boring and long. His fave nightclub would have some nice drink and woman there so he can take his mind off Pepper for only some minutes. But was so wrong.
″Your name please.″
His mind stopped dreaming when he heard that.
″Excuse me, what?″
″Your name sir so I can let you in.″
″Anthony Stark.″
What are you thinking using your full name, stupid? He never ever used his full name. Only his mother and... Pepper.
″You on the VIP list. You can go in.″
″Thanks.″
The music loaded his mind. Oh no, a love song. One of that heartbreaker kind, who's this? Uh-huh.
″Cheer me up with a good dry martini please.″
″Do you want olives?″
He stopped to think for a moment. This was to familiar, way to familiar for him. Martini, olives, Pepper. Oh God, can't I just stop thinking of her for a moment?
″Nope.″
″Here you are, sir.″
″Thanks.″
His eyes stopped to watch the great view in front of him. The beautiful sight was only more beautiful when Pepper entered in the room filling it with warmth. But the warmth has gone while a man came after her and got her from her waist and took her onto the dance stage.
You crazy, Tony? You want to be there with her don't you?
Shut it.
I'm not the one who's talking, Tony. You mad. You mad on her. You mad on that man. You mad on you.
Shut it!
No I won't.
″Gimme a bottle of scotch.″
″Which one, sir?″
″Jack Daniels, please.″
The scotch was good enough to make him crazier.
Yeah, you really should go there and kill him. You should really kill 'em both.
Can't you just stop for a moment?
The little voice in Tony's head was full of angst and it was getting worse and worse as the Jack Daniels scotch filled his throath with pain. It's getting darker down here, and I'm getting a bit dizzy. Why did I had to do this, damn it. Damn IT! My pulse is raising and the blood is filling my ears and I can't breathe.
″Ouch.″
A strong pain stroked his chest letting him out of breath for a second. The tie was too tight and the atmosphere was too damn warm. Too many bodies, too many people, too much love. Too much pain. Too much Pepper. He let his eyes wander on her until her eyes caught his wet eyes. Tears... tears? Tony Stark was crying. He didn't cried until now, except when his parents died but it still was different. It felt different. But the pain, was unbearable. No, it won't happen once again. Not now, especially, not here where all the people could see him this way.
Tony didn't notice when the man who was dancing with Pepper earlier went to him.
″You okay mate?″
Mate? He just called me mate. And he is Pepper's boyfriend and I can't tell him anything about how I feel. He'll tell her. Tony's eyes went wide and he tried to say something but without any success.
″Who did this to you? Why're you crying man?″
A retorical question, by the way I bet Pepper told him about me. Tony closed his eyes and then turned to face this man, who was incredibly handsome but Tony didn't like him at all just because he was with his Pepper. And this was going very wrong. I don't want to explain him how much I am in pain right now because his hand is on her waist and... Painful observation however I am in doubts why'd she came over here. She knows this is my fave nighclub and it's the most expensive in this part of Los Angeles.
Damn the tears, why can't I just stop them covering my whole face?
Because you love her.
″Shut IT!″
His reaction left the man standing with him speechless.
″I'm sorry. Gotta go.″
Yeah, he's going back at her and he'll tell her I screamed at him. It doesn't matter. I can't breathe. My heart hurts. I need to get outta here.
With that said, he gave the bartender the money for the Jack Daniels bottle and now he was completely running out of the nighclub.
Meanwhile Pepper was feeling guilty for not going to him and apologize for all she's done. Jason Harrison was her boyfriend whom she met him at an art benefit and who was very kind with her. She was not working anymore at Alexis Research Facility but she found herself a job. A poor one she might add. Why in the hell was Tony here, drinking after two months since that disaster. He was not aloud to drink or get out his mansion till he was completely healed. It's strange though why'd he left the mansion in such a short time and went here at a nightclub at one o'clock in the morning. She decided to go after him, he can't drive like this, he's in pain and he's way beyond drunk.
I can't walk right. Damn it.
Tony Stark was curently in a disgraceful mood, trying to walk outside the nightclub but he had no success because of someone who was standing there looking straight at him.
″Why'd you left the house, Tony?″ Rhodey's voice came over all the people who were standing there and left Tony breathless.
″Tony?″ Pepper's voice came over the other side of Rhodey's voice.
″NO!″
His hand slipped through two people and opened the door and went straight outside with Rhodey and Pepper running after him. Hot tears and the pain in his heart caused him to stop and fall down hitting his arm while falling.
″Tony?!″
Rhodey went out for him and took him by the waist. Don't wait an answer. Just hit it.
Without thinking Tony hit Rhodey with his full power straight into his jaw, letting him scream. His quickly reflexes were pretty damn good now when he was drunk more than usually but he was not paying enough attention and he found himself in the air before he could say something or do something. Pepper was following him until Tony stopped suddenly.
″Why are you following me? Because I reckon I've said I don't want to see you ever again in my life. Should I move in Europe or Asia not to see you anymore?″
His voice was weak, sign of his pain.
″Tony, let us help you.″ Her respond was making him crazier than he actually was.
″I do NOT need your help. I've said it once, I don't want it to repet a hundred more times, Miss Potts.″
He was screaming everyword but no one was paying attention to them. Just maybe Rhodey who was now really mad on him, holding his hand on his jaw and slightly rubbing it.
″You, -″ He pointed her.
″- and you too. Don't look at me that way.″
″Broke my heart. I want to DIE.″
Nothing mattered anymore. Tears and loud sobs came over the beautiful sound of the night.
″Sometimes I am wondering why you're not here with me... okay, always not only sometimes. Everyday I'm lying to myself that you're still thinking of me.″
″Tony... I...″
″Don't. I am still having some problems, I may have albeit that post stress disorder or how in the hell you call it.″
Everyone looked at him now, but still wasn't enough to make him stop from what he's going to say.
″And I... did something very... wrong. I wished I could've died in that cave. Not to mention that thing was quite clumsy.″ He hiccuped.
″No...no...no. I really want to die, and right now because it still seems I'm in hell. I want to feel it. Pain. Hurt me. But please, kill me after.″
The words came in waves over Pepper and Rhodey's ears but Rhodey was stronger than Pepper who was now crying.
When Tony saw that, he unzipped his shirt and with a quickly move he removed his miniaturized arc reactor. Pepper gasped when she saw Tony do this as she came over him.
″Virginia Potts. I used to love you but now I don't feel anything but pain. A black hole you left in my heart and I'm not taking it anymore. I want to die. And I'm going to.″
With this words he crushed the miniaturized arc reactor under his feet.
″See? Ow, -″
He closed his eyes and he felt down.
Sorry for this being a bit confusing but I am really in a great stress now, because I have some tests to think about and it really creeps me out.
Review and thanks for all my readers!
