Not Just Another Jane Doe

Chapter 11: I love You once I love you twice. I love you more than beans and rice.


It was 7:00am and the alarm went off. Sharon reached for it and tried to turn it off, but to no avail. Andy reached over and turned it off, then got up. He kissed Sharon on the forehead, "rise and shine sleepy head we'll be late if you don't. Darth Raydor would not want to be late for work her first day back in a whole month."

"It's only going to be for a couple of weeks and then Savannah will be having the baby then I'll be home for another three months. What's the point?"

"Come on Sharon, everybody misses you they want to see you and Savannah. Besides we interview Mullaney today. He's recovered from his ...(snort)... unscheduled castration. Don't you want to see that? Also Amy has to interview Savannah on record about what Mullaney did to her."

"That's probably why she had those nightmares last night."

"Which is why you are so tired this morning. How many times were you up with her?"

"Three, I think."

"I'm sorry Sharon I would have gone in, but she always just wants you."

"Don't I know it! Alright, help me up please, I'm going to go wake her up."

Sharon went in to Savannah's room after she took care of her morning ablutions. "Hey sweet girl, it's time to get up." Sharon sat on the side of the bed and stroked Savannah's hair away from her face; she noticed that Savannah was sucking her thumb. "Come on Sweet Pea wake up." She had noticed that over the last several weeks Savannah had been regressing. The closer they came to the birth of the baby the younger Savannah acted, the thumb sucking and the tendency to be clingy. Dr. Joe said they were coping mechanisms. Savannah was terrified of the birth and nothing seemed to be helping her overcome that terror. The only good thing was, she was becoming the little girl she should have been allowed to be years ago, instead of being a grown mans sex toy and baby making machine.

"Don't want to wake up. I'm too tired," she pouted.

"I know me too, Baby. But I have the couch from the condo that we brought to my office and you can take a nap there once your interview is over. Let's get you dressed, you should probably take a shower since you have an appointment with Beverly this afternoon."

Savannah pouted at that news, but then she brightened. "Can we all wear purple today?"

Sharon shook her head, dizzy from Savannah's quick mood changes. "Yes that would be fun. It would drive Uncle Louie crazy, wouldn't it?" She giggled.

"He told me he doesn't like being called Uncle Louie, he likes Uncle Pro..ven..za!" Savannah rolled her eyes at the same time as Sharon and they giggled together. Sharon stood by for safety's sake, while Savannah took her shower. "Do you think he'll like my glasses?"

They had noticed that Savannah was having trouble seeing. So Sharon and Andy had taken her to an optometrist. The eye doctor was tall and had a sparse mustache and beard. He explained that sometimes pregnant women had trouble with their sight because the body was putting everything into growing another life. He had been startled by Savannah's age, but had not asked any questions. He had just looked a bit sternly at Sharon and Andy. Especially Andy.

"Stop! You just stop looking at them like that, right now! "Savannah, stomped her foot and shook her index finger at him.

"What do you mean young lady?"

"Stop looking at them like they're the ones that did this," she made a gesture at her very pregnant stomach. "They didn't! My uncle did it. They saved me! In fact she shot him in the nuts," Savannah partially yelled then nodded dramatically. "And she was sick when she did it too." Pointing at Andy before continuing, "he calls her his Wonder Woman!" She made a show of batting her eyes and holding her hand to her chest theatrically but then she grasped their hands and smiled at them both with admiration.

Sharon didn't usually blush, but she blushed profusely then. Putting her face in her hands and shaking her head. "Savannah, this is not the time or the place..."

The optometrist tried hard to keep from smiling. "Well, sounds like you've got good people taking care of you now."

"I do and I love them and they love me! They are going to be my new parents," Savannah said pride-fully.

"May I pick out my glasses now? We're going to meet my brothers and my sister for lunch and this baby is always hungry." Savannah sighed dramatically with that statement. Sharon flattened her lips and turned away as she bit her bottom lip to keep from laughing out loud, her shoulders shook with silent laughter. Andy was barely suppressing a laugh as well.

Remembering that day, was it really only just yesterday? Sharon smiled at Savannah how she loved this little girl. She brought such laughter and joy to her life. Had it just been four years ago that her life had consisted of going to work where she was hated and coming home to an empty condominium? Just waiting for her children to visit. Occasional shopping trips with Gavin and Andrea, but mostly solitude and a bottle of Chardonnay or Merlot or sparkling Peach Moscato depending on her mood and how bad the day had been. She had been soo lonely. Although at the time she had thought she was happy, not lonely.

Then Rusty had come into her life and she had realized how lonely she had been. He had broken down the walls around her heart and then Andy came into her life and more walls had come down. Rusty was growing up, but now Savannah and pretty soon Sophia Rose Claire Flynn were in her life. "We'll have to see won't we? I'm sure he'll love them, especially since they make you look so much like me." Sharon finished helping her get dressed in a purple gauzy dress with ruffles and lace. Then she smoothed Savannah's hair down her back and away from her face.

"You do your hair, it smells like Rusty and Emily are making pancakes for breakfast. Now let me get dressed and make sure Andy puts on a purple shirt and tie," Sharon said tapping Savannah's nose.

"Mama," said Savannah.

"Yes, Darlin?"

"I love you once, I love you twice, I love you more than beans and rice."

Tears came unbidden, to Sharon's eyes. "I love you too, my sweet girl more than I can ever express."

An hour and a half later they were walking through the doors of the Major Crimes unit. Sharon's heels could be heard clicking, the rest of the team all stood at their desks waiting. "Hello Captain, welcome back!"

"Why, Thank you everybody. What's all this?" She was referring to the cake and balloons set up on an empty desk.

"Well, you've been gone quite a while and this is Savannah's first time here, so we didn't want you to think we didn't have a sense of occasion!" Amy smirked at her.

"Oh you!" Sharon smacked her lightly and then hugged her. Then she made the rounds of the entire squad hugging them and being hugged by them.

"Thank you so much, everyone!"

Louie Provenza looked at the people in front of him, "well it appears we didn't get the memo."

"What Memo was that Uncle Pro..ven..za?" Savannah said cheekily.

"The memo that said we were all were all supposed to wear purple," he then pretended to do a double take. "Well, who is this I see? Is this the Captains mini-me? Or is this my cheeky little monkey?"

"Both." Everybody laughed as the white haired Lieutenant Provenza who everybody thought of as the cranky curmudgeon smiled and gave Savannah a side hug. She smiled back up at him and leaned her head on his arm hugging him back.

Sharon said, "I'll be back everybody, I have to talk to Chief Taylor then we'll have our cake. Andy, could you get drink orders?"

"Uh, sure."

"Well Savannah, we'll be having our little talk soon, just give me a minute okay." Amy said and disappeared around the corner.

Savannah nodded as she was leaving. She sat in the chair beside Louie and looked up at him through her lashes. She had a sketchpad and was drawing him. "Uncle Pro..ven..za, can I ask you a question?"

"Sure, what is it little mini-me?"

She really did look like the captain her hair had been cut like Sharon's, in layers and she was wearing glasses that were exactly like the captain's. She was even wearing a little black jacket over her purple dress and sandals with a reasonable heel of less then an inch.

"Is Mama, Daddy and ev...everybody in the squad going to hear what I tell Amy?"

"Well your mom, dad and DDA Hobbs. Why do you ask? You've already told them everything, right?"

"Yes, I have but it's just that I've been trying to be real good so they won't remember the bad things I've done. I...I don't want them to...to remember me like that."

"Savannah, it was not you doing the bad things it was all on him he was the adult. He was the one impregnating little girls and selling the babies. He was the one doing the bad things not you."

"He...he was going to sell her? So that's what he meant! That's what the money was from! He made it sound like I was getting a prize for being the youngest girl to get pregnant! I had said yes, but I didn't really think I could get pregnant. I did though almost right away. I didn't understand that he was going to sell her. I thought I was gonna have a real live baby doll to play with and then...I...then I saw her and I realized it was real and I was too young to have a baby!"

"Savannah, what did you do with the money? How much was it?"

"I used it to get across country. Oh no! Does this mean Mommy and Daddy can't have Sophia? I used the money he got for selling Sophia to get here and I can't pay them back!" She felt tears start to fall and she got up and ran as fast as a very pregnant 12 year old can run. She found the nearest bathroom and went in closing and locking it behind her. Suddenly there was a scream.

"What was that? What's going on Lieutenant? Where is Savannah?"

"She is in the bathroom down the hallway, you better go after her Sykes!"

"Why?"

"She was upset and she ran to the bathroom. We just heard her scream! I don't think she should be running in her condition, she may have fallen and hurt herself! The Captain and Patrice will never forgive me. Not to mention Andy."

Sykes shook her head at the lieutenant and went to see about Savannah.

As she ran down the hall Andy came out of the elevator, he had gone for a coffee run after getting everybody's orders. "Amy, what's wrong?"

"Not sure, Savannah got upset and ran into the bathroom them we heard her scream. She may have hurt herself! She locked the door."

"Savannah, Honey it's daddy, open the door. Are you okay?"

"No! Daddy I can't get up and I'm all wet. I'm sorry I didn't mean to, it just came out all the sudden and I slid and fell down. Daddy, I'm scared!"

"I know Baby, we're gonna get you out. We need a key."

"A key, for what? What's happening Andy? Where's Savannah? Is she in there? Here, here is my key that's the executive bathroom. Will somebody tell me what happened?"

Andy used the key that Sharon handed him to open the door and rushed in, He found Savannah on the floor he looked for blood, but didn't see any right away. Somebody call an ambulance!"

"They've been called! Is she conscious?" Asked Tao. "Don't try to pick her up, she might have a back injury."

"Mommy! I want my Mommy!" Savannah screamed as a contraction hit her.

"She's conscious."

"Right here, Baby!" Said Sharon, Louie and Amy helped her get down beside Savannah. "Where is that damn ambulance?" Sharon yelled.

"It's coming Captain."

"Mommy! Ow ow it hurts! I feel like I'm being split in two!"

"Breathe Savannah breathe watch Mommy, he he he he hoo hoo hoo he he hoo hoo hoo."

Savannah tried to follow Sharon, "hee hee hee hoo hoo hoo" there were tears in her eyes but she started to laugh. "That sounds funny, Mommy."

"Yes I know! It does sound funny, but do it anyway. It helps you get through the contractions. Where is that ambulance? Hold on to my hand baby."

"They are here, Ma'am. Let them through." Tao started to tell the paramedics the salient facts. They put a backboard under her and a neck brace talking to her letting her know what was happening. "Mommy and Daddy go with me please! Ow ow hoo hoo hoo hee hee hee hoo hoo hoo hee hee hee, you're right Mommy it does help."

Sharon was holding tightly to Andy's hand as they got into the back of the ambulance, "we're here, Baby."

"I'm scared! I...don't want to do this! I don't want her to come out yet! I'm not ready!"

"Sssshhhhh Baby it's okay, it will be alright! Just try to relax."

"I can't relax! I'm scared!"

"I know you're scared. Sweetheart, hold my hand and tell me what do you want to do after the baby is born, hummm?"

They finally got to the hospital and Beverly met them at the door, she asked for Savannah's vitals and the baby's. The paramedics recited them and she told them to take her to the elevator they were going to the surgical obstetric department. "Will we be able to go in with her?" Sharon asked.

"Up to a point, you can be there while they prep her but this is emergency surgery, I don't know what I'm going to find in there. I don't know what I'm dealing with so we'll be putting her under anesthesia."

"No! I don't want to go to sleep! I want Mamma and Daddy to be there! Please!"

"Savannah, I know we discussed that possibility, but this is a different situation we can't do it that way. You'll go to sleep and when you wake up, it'll be all over."

Savannah cried, "but what if I...don't..wake up?"

"You will wake up, Darlin! You will! Don't worry." Sharon was having a very hard time keeping it together. She brushed her tears away; the terrified cries of her daughter were breaking her heart. Once they were suited up and in the pre-op room Sharon and Andy tried to be where Savannah could see them and they could hold her hand without being in the way. Savannah's screams were heard all through the hallway as a young nurse tried to put an IV port in.

Suddenly Patrice was there, she had scrubs on and she asked the nurse trying to get an IV port in Savannah unsuccessfully to step aside. She got it in on the first try, hooked her up and placed the meds in to the port. Both Sharon and Savannah calmed down immediately upon seeing Patrice, in her calm no nonsense nurse mode. Once that was done and Savannah was drifting to sleep, Patrice quickly and efficiently finished prepping her for surgery. Then she was ready to go to the operating room. "Mommy and Daddy will you be here when I come out?"

"Yes Punkin, we love you and we'll be here."

"Mommy, Daddy I love you once I love you twice, I love you more than beans and rice."

The doors of the operating room closed and Patrice showed them where to wait. "I'll be in and out of the operating room letting you know what's going on. I'll come get you as soon as Sophia is delivered, okay?"

Sharon nodded, trying to stem the tears, "thank you Patrice! I can't tell you how relieved I was when you came in and s...saved my baby from b...being tortured by that awful nurse!"

"She was young and inexperienced with fighters like Savannah. She'll learn, I think she was a bit unnerved by the screaming. Until she does learn I'll be the one taking care of our baby. Let me go back in and see what's going on, I'll be right back."

Andy sat down on one of the chairs and pulled Sharon into his lap. He kissed the top of her head. He could feel her trying to get her emotions under control. "Sharon, it's okay to cry. It's been a very emotional day."

"I know, but I always feel so wretched when I cry and I look worse."

"I'll love you no matter how wretched you look. Then he looked at her she looked at him, "I love you once I love you twice, I love you more than beans and Rice." They said in unison and then Sharon was able to give in to the tears.