11. More truths
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Desiree grabbed the phone and pushed some buttons before listening to the message.
When she heard Penelope's voice, she took an intake of breath.
Fran was really worried. Penelope wasn't in good shape to travel anywhere. She hoped that she was right and that she would find her at the airport.
She parked and rushed out of her car. She sighed deeply when she took a glimpse of some red hair near the airline company.
She sat beside her and took her hand.
"Where do you think you're going Penelope?"
"I wanted to go back to LA but I lost my wallet." She sobbed.
"I'm glad you lost it then." Fran said smiling.
"Why? I'm nothing but trouble…"
"I consider you like a daughter Penelope…"
"You have Tamara now."
"She's nothing compared to you. I don't know her enough for that… and I know she's not right for my son."
"He chose her."
"He was hurting, he's still hurting."
"I'm a bad person…"
"You're not; you thought well… it's just I can't understand why you didn't tell him the truth. It's not only about him choosing you over the baby right?"
Penelope sighed.
"No… I was so insecure. Tamara was constantly present in our lives and I doubted Derek. I saw them several times having a coffee together and I lost it.
Just before I decided to do all that, Tamara came to see me and she told me that she was confused because Derek had kissed her after admitting that things weren't great between us…"
"And you believed her?"
"I was confused, sad and upset. Things were really tense between Derek and me at that time and knowing that he was still seeing her despite how upset I was about it just made me think it was the truth. I didn't want to be humiliated, being the girl THE Derek Morgan dumped, I didn't him to stay with me because I was pregnant or dying so I invented this entire cheating story. I was convinced that it was the right thing to do… my entire plan crumbled when I lost the baby."
"Oh Penelope." I understand; you have to talk to Derek, please. He was coming to the hospital you know?"
"I already called him and explained all of it in a message."
"Oh. We should go back to the hospital; you have to begin the chemo after your surgery."
"Fran no…it's too late."
"It's never too late… just try please. You can't leave like that without a fight."
Penelope shut her eyes and nodded.
Fran smiled and led her outside.
Desiree was nearly crushing the phone in her hand while listening at Penelope tired voice.
"Derek, it's me Penelope. I know that by now you should know the truth; I just needed you to hear the truth from my mouth. First, know that I'm so sorry about what I've done. I never cheated on you and never planned to. I loved you too much for that.
Things weren't great when I learned that I was pregnant but at the same time I learned I had cancer, a breast cancer. I was destroyed because the doctor wanted me to abort, and then have a surgery and some chemo. I couldn't do that; I couldn't kill the life we had created.
Every time I wanted to tell you the truth, I just couldn't. I knew that you would tell me what the Doctor told me. I wasn't thinking straight then, I realize it now… things weren't great with Tamara and all… I just decided selfishly to leave you. I was so sure you wanted to be with her and I don'tblame you… she told me that you made a move on her and I believed her. I should have talked it with you… I don't know what happened, I was just telling you that I cheated on you… and all that was over…
I was persuaded that I could have the baby… I was so wrong. I lost her, you and my health in the process. I was so depressed that I didn't even think about having the necessary surgery and chemo… I just let life goes on… and here I am today dying. I don't ask you to forgive me but to understand why I did what I did. Sure we could have had other children but the abortion would have always stayed in my mind… it would havecrushed us some more.
I don't blame you for kissing Tamara or being with her right now. You deserve to be happy and that's all I wish for you. Just be happy for me Derek Morgan.
Goodbye my love."
Desiree was crying uncontrollably after hearing the message.
"Oh god." She whispered painfully.
"Yeah." Derek said crossing his arms other his chest.
"So what now?" she asked wiping her tears.
"I don't know… I can't face her…not like that. She's dying." He said tears in his eyes.
Desiree hugged him.
"You can be there for her. She will surely listen to you. She loves you."
"She loved me. She said so."
"She loves you… I know it. Let's call mom ok?"
Derek nodded and quickly wiped his tears. He was ready for a new challenge.
A/N: R&R! That will be all for today!
