A/N: Hey everyone I'm back! Thanks for all the wonderful reviews! They made me really happy! I didn't think my first Outsiders fic would get this many reviews in just a little over a month! Anyway, I know you're all anxious about what Darry, Sodapop and Ponyboy are up to so I'll leave you guys to it! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I wanna own the Outsiders so bad because I wanna own Sodapop! But I don't. They all belong to our beloved Suzy. :(
Darry POV: How could Ponyboy think that I loved Soda more than him? I mean sure, me and Soda do get along well. But that's because he uses his head more than Pony does. Well, maybe that's why he thought I loved Soda more! Because I never yelled at him! But Pone knows that I only push him because I want him to be the best he can be! I just explained all that to him!
And did I really not show up to any award assemblies or track meets of his anymore? Thinking back on it, I don't even remember the last time Pony told me he had a track meet. And even if he did tell me I wouldn't be able to go. My boss doesn't let me take off that easy and I have a whole lot of work to do daily. So did Sodapop if we wanted to keep our house in shape and the state off our backs.
Okay, I guess I understand why he says we never show up. But how can we? We're too busy! And how can he possibly say to me that I'll never be like dad! He doesn't know that I know that! I can never take the place of dad in his life no matter how hard I try to act as a parent and steer him in the right direction. I just want what's best for him, can't he see that?
But how, how did he convince himself that I can't stand him? That's the worst of it! I love him so much! He's my little baby and I never want anybody to hurt him! He's the light in my life! Without him everything would just be dark… meaningless. I just wondered… why did he push Sodapop away too?
I walked into Dally's room, and saw him sitting up and staring out his window. "Hey, Dal." I said. He looked up and grinned just a bit. "Hey, man! Dude, I can't wait to get outta this place! You know I can't be caged in, man!" I nodded and averted my eyes to the floor.
He spoke in a scared voice, "Is the kid, alright? He awake yet?" I nodded, "Yeah, Dallas he's awake. And we all fought."
Dallas groaned. "Aw god, was it about how you're always forgettin' about him and about Soda and Sandy and all that jazz?"
That was shocking. I thought nobody would know. "Yeah it was. How'd you know?"
He rolled his eyes at me. "I have magic powers!... c'mon man, he told me! And it was kinda obvious, ya know?"
I groaned and put my head in my hands. Was this animosity within Ponyboy somethin' everyone knew about except Soda and I?
Sodapop POV: Johnny was sitting up in his bed, looking like he just woke up because he rubbed his eyes sleepily and said, "Hey, Soda! What's up, man? How's Ponyboy?"
I smiled slightly and said, "He's good, Johnnycake. He woke up half an hour ago. And you look a heck of a lot better than before."
He grinned. "That's great! And thanks, I'm feelin' much better! I get outta this joint tomorrow mornin'! I just gotta stay on my meds and I should be alright! Hey, you okay Soda? Your eyes are all red and puffy?"
That's right, I cried in the hallway because of what Ponyboy said to me. I just can't believe he'd always felt that way and never said anything to Darry and I.
"Um, yeah Johnny it's okay. We just had a fight, that's all."
He smiled knowingly. "He told ya 'bout Sandy, didn't he?"
I nodded. "How did you know?"
"He told me and Dally. He's pretty ticked at y'all ain't he?"
"Yeah, he is. I never knew he felt that way 'bout me wanting to marry her! I'd never forget him! Not in a million years! He's my baby brother Johnny and I love him so much! I'll always protect him no matter what he thinks!"
Johnny sighed like he knew this was coming. "Well then, Sodapop… why don't you tell him that? He needs to know. He's felt forgotten ever since your folks passed away. He never told no one though. Just me."
Of course! Just like Pony to keep somethin' like that locked up like a zoo animal! He needed to know that I loved him! I know I've been caught up with Sandy lately but that's over now. She's gone. It was time to focus on my little brother and help him out a little bit. Give him advice and make him happy like mom and dad would've.
But most of all he needed to get better before he did anything else. I grinned at Johnny, ruffled his hair and said, "Thanks, Johnnycake. I'll go do that right now! You're right, man. He needs to know that."
He just smiled at me and I walked down to Ponyboy's room. He was alone. No nurses with him. It was just him and he was awake and reading a book. I smiled. Typical Ponyboy. He looked up and saw me. All he muttered was, "What is it Soda?"
Ouch. That stung. "Ponyboy… I really need to talk to you 'bout somethin'. It okay if I come in?"
He studied me for a moment then mumbled, "Sure, I guess."
A/N: Sorry I know you all hate cliffies but I'll update really soon I promise! But you guys gotta review! Love you all!
Thanks for Reading!
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