If I lose myself tonight,
It'll be by your side.
I lose myself tonight...
-One Republic
Evelyn's P.O.V
I was still sitting on the ground and I still had no idea where I was. And to be honest, I didn't care. I had never felt so worthless in my life, and even though my mom wasn't my real mom, I had always thought that she loved me deep down inside, but now I knew that she just hated me. I wasn't even hers. Everything made sense now.
It was getting cold and it was so dark that I could only see the street lights and the lights of the passing cars. I wrapped my arms around my legs to try and keep warm, I couldn't go home. I didn't belong there, and I realized that I had never belonged there ever since my father went to prison. I had no tears left, and just sat there staring at the road.
I heard a noise and it took me a while to realize that it was my cell phone. I pulled it up from my pocket and looked at the display. Seth. I answered it and pressed it against my ear without saying anything.
"Evelyn? Are you there? Where are you?" he was panicking. I couldn't find my voice but he could probably hear my breathing. "I was at your house but you weren't there. Are you ok? Are you hurt?"
I sighed. "I'll talk to you later Seth" I mumbled and hung up before he got a chance to answer. I just didn't want to talk to anyone right now, especially not Seth. I had never felt more ashamed about anything in my life. Even though I trusted him I just wanted to be alone.
I groaned in frustration and leaned back and lay down on the grass. Then an idea hit me and I stood up. This was all my dad's fault. Everything. I started walking but then I realized I would have to get a ride with someone, and the only ones I knew with a car were Seth and my brother, and I didn't want them to be involved. I wanted to do this alone.
I walked out on the road and waved at a car that stopped right next to me and opened the window. I stuck my head in.
"Could I get ride please?" I asked. I told the driver where I was going and she was kind enough to agree so I got inside and she started to drive.
The car ride lasted for a little over an hour and I knew that Seth was probably going crazy, not knowing where I was. I was about to tell the driver to stop few times but held my mouth shut. I was doing this. She pulled up outside of the prison and I thanked her and got out. I stared at the door and wasn't really sure if I would be able to actually do it. I had never been there before. I walked up to the door and prayed it would be open for visitors at night. It was. Well I had no idea what time it was, so I guess it wasn't that late. I went inside and saw a few guards and other people but it was almost empty. I walked up to a man and cleared my throat.
"I am here to visit someone" I said and he looked at me.
"At this time? Isn't it a little late for a kid to be out now, especially at a prison?" he said and I didn't answer. I just wanted him to lead me to my dad.
"Fine, who are you visiting?" he asked and started walking and I followed him. We walked through a door and in to a room with glass walls and chairs in front.
"Steve Nichols" I said and he nodded.
"Wait here" he said and pointed to one of the chairs. I sat down and stared at the glass in front of me. I knew that in a few minutes my father would be sitting on the other side, and I was nervous. I wondered how different he would look and if he would recognize me. After about ten minutes the man came back with another man behind him, wearing an orange jumpsuit, prisoner clothes. I swallowed as I recognized him. Dad. His eyes widened as got closer and saw me. I felt tears sting in my eyes and he was now standing right in front of me, on the other side of the glass. His hair was shaved and he looked a little older, it had only been five years but I guess that's what prison does to you. There were small holes in the glass so that we could be able to hear each other talk.
"Evelyn? Sweetie, what are you doing here?" he sounded shocked and I could see him get tears in his eyes. I couldn't hold my tears back, and they started running down my face.
"I'm here because I miss you, and because I'm angry" I said and wiped my tears away. He frowned.
"At me? Why is that?" he sounded confused, but he wouldn't be for long.
"Oh, so you're telling me that Sarah is my real mom and that you did not cheat on her and I am the result of that?" I said and couldn't keep the anger from my voice.
"Oh" he said and looked sad. "That"
"Yes, that" I said and more tears ran down my face. "You know, I always saw you as the best father ever, and now I'm not so sure anymore. You can rot in here" I said and stood up, ready to leave. I had said what I wanted to say. He stood up too and looked desperate.
"Honey please don't be mad at me. I can't stand being in here with you hating me out there, you're my daughter". He sounded so sad and I wanted to hug him. After all, I had missed him for so long.
"You can have this back" I said and pulled my lucky coin that he had given to me all those years ago, up from my pocket and threw it at the glass wall. He looked miserable, but I didn't care. He had brought this on himself.
I turned around and walked to the door we had come from and opened it, ignoring my father's voice calling my name. When I was outside again I took a deep breath of the cold night air and started to cry again. I didn't know what to do, except for one thing. Call Seth.
He picked up right away.
"Seth" I said and started to sob. I had to sit down on the ground to not fall, I was a wreck.
"Evelyn!" I had been right about him going crazy. I had been gone for hours now. "I've been looking for you everywhere! Where are you, I'm coming to pick you up, are you hurt?"
"I'm not hurt" I managed to get out through my sobs. "Please pick me up, I'm at the prison right outside the town" I said and clutched the phone in my hand.
"I'll be right there, don't go anywhere" he said and sounded relieved that he knew where I was. "I love you, ok?" he added.
"Love you more Seth, I'm waiting here"
We hang up and I sat there waiting for my werewolf to come pick me up from my own personal hell.
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