Author's Note: Hey guys, sorry it has taken me a few days to get this upload up. I have a few little things going on that I needed to get done. But I am hoping to be back to regular updates. So this is definitely a Literati story but I am seriously considering a Rogan story after I complete this one. I have an idea in mind and I think it's different to anything else I have read on here so let me know if you guys may be keen for that - especially you Droolia. I have an idea of where this story will go and I would say it will be about 5 more chapters. Will see how I go. So I hope you enjoy this chapter. Please don't be too mad and as always review, I love your feedback and ideas =)

The church was beautiful, with the high ceilings and the stained glass windows. It was full with people, dressed all in black. She slipped in the doors with only seconds to spare and sat in the very last pew. As the minister stood to the pulpit to begin the service and a hush fell over the room. He began by talking about angels in heaven and the lord awaiting the fallen son. She let her mind wander during this, knowing that none of it was genuine of the man they were here to farewell. She let silent tears fall down her cheeks as she listened to his sister perform his eulogy. She watched as his mother sobbed and his father sat in silence, with the shocked look on his face that remained from the moment they had been given the news. Before his casket was removed from the church, on the shoulders of his friends and family, she quietly stood and slipped from the side door.

Rory stood out in the sun, looking up at the perfect blue sky. She took a deep breath and wiped the tears from her cheeks. She slowly walked away from the church, letting go of the pain and perhaps, finally, letting go of Logan Elias Huntzburger.

Rory drove back to Stars Hollow after the service. She had taken the Wednesday to the Monday off of work and had decided to spend the time with her Mum. As she pulled her car into the front yard her mum came rushing out to greet her. Rory leapt from the car into her mothers waiting arms. She started to cry, a gentle stream of tears into her mothers shoulder.

"Oh Honey, I am so sorry." Lorelai soothed her, patting down Rory's hair. She led her inside their home.

"It was so sad Mum." Rory told her mother.

"Well, kid, funerals aren't exactly a barrel of laughs you know." Lorelai replied.

"I know Mum, but it was so impersonal. The only thing that seems genuinely like Logan was Honor's eulogy. It was so horrible and just not like Logan at all." Rory explained to her mum. "He deserved better then that, you know?"

"I understand honey. Aside from that was it ok? For you I mean? Were they nice to you?" Lorelai asked. She had been concerned for Rory entering the lions den so to speak.

"No one saw me. I slipped in at the beginning and slipped out at the end." Lorelai nodded at her daughters words.

"I just can't believe it. Logan is dead. I don't think I have actually said those words until now. I would see he had an accident or he passed away but I hadn't actually allowed myself those words. Dead. It just seems so weird. And I am worried that I am over reacting. Like I shouldn't care so much. But then I worry I am under reacting. Like I am not caring enough. And I don't want to talk about it too much to Jess in case he thinks it's more then it is or it bothers him." Lorelai sensed that Rory was working her way into a panic rant so she quickly cut in.

"I think what you are feeling is absolutely normal honey. Logan was a very big part of your life, you loved him very much. Just because that love changed over time doesn't mean that he stopped meaning anything to you at all. It is normal to be sad that he is gone. As far as the Jess stuff, I know he wants you to talk to him. He understands everything that I just said to you. He knows that Logan was a special person in your life and he just wants you to talk to him and open up to him."

"How do you know?" Rory asked her

"Well." Lorelai said guiltily, turning towards the arch leading into their kitchen. Rory turned to see what her mother was gesturing towards and there was Jess.

"What are you doing here?" Rory asked Jess in barely more then a whisper. She had felt her heart swell when she seen him, knowing he was exactly what she needed in this moment.

"I thought you might need me or something. I don't know. It was a stupid idea."

"It most certainly wasn't a stupid idea. It is wonderful and thoughtful and exactly what I needed." She told him as he walked towards her. Lorelai stood up to leave the two alone.

"I am going to find Luke. Dinner at 8?" She asked them.

"Sounds good." Jess replied as Rory nodded her consent. As Lorelai left the room Jess took her spot on the couch and turned to face Rory.

"So, are you ok?" He asked her. She began to nod, then shook her head before giving up and just shrugging.

"I don't know." She told him, "I feel weird."

"That's understandable. He was a big part of your life. You loved him." Jess told her gently. Rory looked down at her hands. She wasn't sure what to say, she didn't want to hurt Jess's feelings and she knew how he felt about Logan, but she couldn't deny what he said was true. As though he had read her mind Jess continued.

"Rory I know I didn't like the guy but I had an hour of experience with him. While I thought he was a pompous jerk I also know that there had to be some good about the guy. I mean he held onto you for three years. So aside from the obvious fact that he had great taste, I know you wouldn't waste three years on someone who was a complete waste of space. I also know that while you weren't still in love with him there will always be a part of you that holds love for him. That is ok, and I don't want you to feel like you have to hide that from me." Rory looked at Jess, almost unbelieving of the love that this man could have for her. She decided to share with him the one feeling she had been holding onto since she heard about the accident.

"It's my fault." She whispered to him.

"What? Rory, no, that's silly." Jess told her, cupping her face with his hands. He watched as the tears began to fill her eyes.

"I told him the truth about what happened. I told him that I never would have gone through with it. I hurt him so bad and then he was dead. I caused this."

"Rory, no." Jess told her. "This is not your fault. Logan was drunk and he drove that car."

"Which he wouldn't have done if I hadn't turned his world upside down." Rory interjected.

"Rory he was owed the truth. Maybe he did get drunk to try and forget some of his pain but he did not go out with the intent to kill himself and turn his best friend into a freaking turnip. It was an accident, a horrible accident. But you couldn't have changed that. So you can be sad and confused and angry at the situation but you don't get to be guilty. Do you hear me? You do not get to be guilty." He watched the sobs take her over, knowing she was finally releasing what she had held onto since she heard about the accident. He pulled her into him and just held her, letting her tears stain his shirt until she could cry no more.

Luke had told Jess over dinner that he and Rory were welcome to stay in the apartment over the diner for the rest of their stay, that way they had their own space and privacy. Jess was more grateful then he let on, knowing that while he desperately wanted Rory there was absolutely no way that he could ever touch her under Lorelai's roof. He opened the apartment door for her. He sat their bags down on the floor and turned to ask her if she wanted any pie from downstairs. Before he could say a word she was on him, her mouth pushed into his passionately. Her tongue was in his mouth massaging his own. His arms snaked around her back and his hands made their way up her spine, underneath her shirt. Goosebumps immediately arose all over her body.

"I need you." She breathed into his mouth as she dropped her hand and cupped his erection through his pants. He moaned into her mouth.

"Rory," He said struggling to communicate his thoughts to her while she did these things to him. "Rory… Wait… Rory today was a pretty emotional day… I will be ok if you just want to relax and watch TV." He told her with great difficulty considering the warm kisses she was placing all over his neck, her hands still rubbing along his manhood.

"The only thing I want and need right now is you. So if you really want me to I can stop but if not I suggest you find a better use for you mouth." She told him, smirking up at him. With her words spurring him on he pushed her back against the wall pulling her leg up to wrap around him. Her arms were wrapped around his neck, her hand pulled at the hair at the nape of his neck. One of his hands rested at her waist while the other worked its way up her jean clad leg and around to grab at her rear. She thrust her hips into him as they kissed wildly. Jess's hands wrapped into the hem of her shirt and he pulled the black sweater over her her head then grabbed his own shirt and pulled it from his body. Without wasting a second his hands dropped to unbutton her jeans and he peeled them away from legs, kissing every inch of her thighs as he removed them. He stood up and took a step back to admire her and her body. It never failed to amaze him that she was his. He took in every inch of her porcelain skin, her beautiful bust held by a soft yellow bra that accentuated her cleavage. His eyes lingered on her lace panties as he hungered for what lie beneath them. He moved forward again and took her mouth to his. His hand worked the lace panties to the side as he slid his fingers along her, feeling how wet she was only made his erection throb inside his pants. As he moved his thumb to rub her clit he eased two fingers inside of her. Her head thrown backwards at the blissful feelings he evoked in her. He worked her over until he felt her reaching her climax before he stopped short leaving her balancing on the edge of no return. He ripped his pants and boxers off before pulling them to the bed. She straddled over the top of his waiting member before slowly dropping herself on to him. They moaned in unison as she began to move on top of him. A steady rhythm that began to increase as they felt themselves nearing climax. Rory was the first to reach her orgasm and as she tightened around him he felt himself let go, releasing inside of her. Rory collapsed onto his chest, both of them panting, desperately trying to regain control of their breath. Rory looked up at Jess, kissing him deeply on the mouth.

"I love you." She told him, "I want this forever Jess. I am tired of being scared and always doing what's considered the right thing to every one else. I want you forever Jess, everything. The rings, the house and the kids. I want it all with you." She rolled down next to him, her head resting on his chest as she drifted off into a peaceful sleep. Jess lay in their bed staring at the ceiling and wondering if Rory had meant what she had just said.