A letter to my 13 year old me IV


Hello there, Ben!

Your mother is a great soldier in the army.

Your father is a great soldier in the army too.

Your sisters had the courage to leave behind everything, all the crap with wealth and so on.

Your best friend (who is incredibly cute when she's annoyed) can beat up a man who has twice her size without getting a single scratch.

So you may wonder how you fit in this gang of awesome people full of power and the courage to do whatever they please. But remember: you may not be the smartest boy in your class or the fastest runner. You may never be a good singer or a gifted artist. You will maybe never get a real girlfriend who loves you and not your money.

But there is still a really good reason why you fit in there. You are loyal to a fault. You would never leave anyone behind. You would run for miles and miles to help whose you love. You would die for the one you love the most yet aren't you ready yet to tell her. (Believe me; I know how intimidating she can be, so you won't tell her until you are fast enough to escape her sword.) You aren't as smart as your father. You aren't as bold as your mother. You aren't as scary as Olivier (and you will never be, sadly.) You don't have Elizabeth's or Jeanne's courage.

But you are you. You will always be Olivier's most trusted ally. You will always be the one she runs to when she hates the whole world (and you will never be part of the crowd she hates).

You wear your mother's name. It is a name that embodies great pride, loyalty and courage. You are a good boy, Bendix, and they love you. They really do. Never doubt that.

And … for your information: the best chance to get a first kiss would be next year after the ball. She may punch you but that's just because she will be surprised … and she will apologise.

So … don't worry your pretty little mind. She loves you too … she just needs more time than you to get it. And honestly … you are used to waiting by now, aren't you?

Love and Peace –

Bendix Llewellyn

PS: War is never fighting against someone. It's always fighting for the ones you love.


AN: I wasn't so happy with this one before but after some little changes, I am quite content with this. Bendix had a crush on his best friend all along…