What is Love Chapter Ten "I'm Here For You So Just Lean On Me"

Rachel's POV

I was pretty dissapointed that Quinn left. I didn't even get to say goodmorning or bye, but I did get a sweet note and phone number. Haha score! When I had turned my head to the clock I groaned it was already 3 o'clock. I had slept most of the day away. I pick up the phone and debate whether I should call Quinn or text her. If I call her I might not end up saying anything so I decide to text her.

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Quinn and I talked for a while back and forth texting. I couldn't wait to hear her sing her song. I couldn't wait to sing her my song. It was gonna be one I knew she would love.

I started practicing and had been for a couple of hours when I heard my daddy come up and tell me dinner was ready. He noticed how happy I looked and came in.

"Can I have a talk with you?" My daddy asked.

I chuckled "Dad I understood the talk when I was ten."

My daddy gave a hearty laugh and sat down on my bed. "Sweetheart do you...do you like Quinn?"

"You know daddy I actually wanted to talk to you about this." I say putting my guitar back on the stand.

"Okay I'm here now talk." He said smiling.

"Daddy ever since Quinn and I have become friends again I noticed everytime she would blush or stare at me. Even when she told me to forget her I would notice her stareing at me. I figured it was coincidence, but now that she's back in my life...I...I see her in a totally different light. At first I couldn't believe it, but now..I..I..I don't know." I struggled to get it out.

"You know I felt that same way about your father when we were your age. I'm not telling you to just tell her how you feel because I know you and your dad are the same way about your feelings,-" my daddy told me but I cut him off.

"I made a deal with her...I sing her a song if she sings one too...she's going first. I figured that singing it would be easier than talking." I smiled.

My daddy chuckled "I think that's perfect sweetie. Now come and eat while we watch a movie together."

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Once morning was here I got up at 6 and started my morning routine. I heard Quinn's car and hurried to the door so I wouldn't keep her waiting.

I was startled to see her standing by the door ready to knock.

"Hey Quinn." I grinned.

"Hi." She smiled.

Once we got in her car I said to her in a low voice "Sorry if I seemed in a hurry. I just didn't want to keep you..waiting." I turned to her to see her turn away to hide her now blushing face.

"No it's..okay. You don't ever have to hurry for me." She said

Once we got at school no one was really gawking anymore. "Well I have AP World History this way...sooo.." I say gesturing with my thumb.

"Oh wow haha I have cheerios this way." Quinn said to me laughing at how far apart we would be.

"Yeah...Quinn." I say. As I pulled her to the side where no one could hear.

"Yeah?" She looked at me concerned.

"I know that this is non of my bussiness and I have no right to throw in my two cents, but I really need to tell you this just in case." I ramble.

"It's okay Rae, what's up?" She asked.

"Well I...I'm just worried about you. What if you fall or hurt yourself. You and I both know coach Slyvester will push everyone till they get it perfect, but I just.." I sigh at my cheesyness "I just don't want you to get hurt." I say looking her in the eyes.

She formed a smile while her eyes were slightly hooded she said "Thank you...for being worried. I know at some point I will have to stop it's just-" I cut her off so she wouldn't cry.

"I understand...Cheerios is all you've ever really know. It makes you push yourself." I say.

"...Exactly...I will quit just not yet. I'm not ready." She said.

I nod "We better get going." I turn to leave but she calls to me.

"Your not mad are you?" She asked her face in a scarce.

I walk back towards her and pull her into a hug. At first I took her by surprise, but she held me back tightly.

"No I'm not mad. I promise." I say holding her. "You better get going I don't want you to have to run extra laps." I smile.

She doesn't say a thing just smiles and turns to leave.

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My next class was Algebra. Man did I hate math. It sucks I mean seriously how the fuck is it gonna help me when I go to Juliard? It's pointless and stupid. I met Quinn, S and B in the hall way on our way there. Quinn pretty much helped me through the entire class just like S helped B.

"Man I hate math." I sigh in frustration throwing my pencile on my desk.

"It's okay Rach I'll help you with when I'm done with mine. K." She smiled.

"I don't even think Albert Einsteine could." I laughed making her giggle.

"Rachel sweetheart what do you not get? Here I'll help you." our teacher said getting up and waldling over to my desk. Oh yeah did I forget to mention that she's pregnant? Yeah I probably did haha. Anyways she once she helped me with the first problem I could see Quinn in the corner of my eye glaring at 's back.

"Thank you ." I smile.

"No problem, but next time if you don't get it just tell me okay." She said. I nodded to her then went back to doing my homework. Once the bell rang it was time for AP english 2 I had that class with the three cheerios as well. Finn caught up with Quinn talking to her as S, B and I kept walking.

I noticed Santana give B a look and B just smiled back and trodded off inside the class. Santana stopped me from going in. I felt a little weird when it was just Santana and I.

"Look Berry I think me and you should hang out...alone. How about today?" Santana asked me.

"Umm uhh yeah sure alright." I stammer.

"Alright then after glee just follow me to my car." She said.

I nodded at her. She then turned and walked in the class just as Quinn came towards us.

"Hey...what was that about?" She asked.

"Nothing." I smiled holding the door open for her.

Now english is actually my faveorite class. It's supper easy for me. Even though our english teacher is very quirky and hyper most of the time, but she's actually a very nice person.

Once it's time for lunch. This time it was just us four, and no Finn. He didn't have this lunch. So we all actually got to talk this time.

When glee came around Noah took a seat by me, and Quinn took the other side of me and Finn sat next to Quinn. I felt extremly uncomfortable. Noah seemed so relaxed though. When it was time to do duets Finn got paired with me, but Noah stood up outraged.

"That's not fair Finn always gets to sing with Rachel! Why can't I sing with her?" Noah huffed.

Everyone looked very taken back.

"Oh I'm sorry Noah umm it's just that well..." didn't have the heart to tell him no.

"I can sing too you know!" he shouted.

"Alright Noah you can have Finn's part." sighed.

"What! NO! No way! He just wants this part so he can be with Rachel!" Finn yelled.

"Don't be jealous Finn just cause you can't be with her." Noah smirked. Finns whole face went red with jealousy.

"Guys enough. Noah, Finn you two will just spilt your part." said rubbing his temples.

I turned to Quinn and mouthed 'I'm sorry' She just smiled and shook her head. Even though I could tell she was jelouse. got a phone call, so while he was procupied I took Quinn's hand and led her to a corner.

"I'm so sorry I'll just tell I don't want the part." I say to her. She looked a little surprised.

"You would do that..for me?" She said softly.

I smiled and said chuckling "Of course I would."

"Well thank you, but no thank you. Your gonna blow us away with that song." She smiled.

"Oh do you want a ride home?" She asked me.

"Uhh no I don't actually, but thank you." her smile let loose a little, but she just nodded 'okay'.

"I can pick you up every morning, and after school if you want." She said.

"Yeah that would be cool. I just have something to do after glee today, but other then that I'm free." I smiled.

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After glee I started to walk over to Santana, but Noah stopped in front of me. I could see Quinn in the corner of my eye watching me out of the corner of her eye right before she walked out with Finn. I gave her a lopsided smile and sh gave me one back. It hurt me to see her that way. It hurt me to see that me talking to another guy made her feel that way.

"Yes, Noah." I say.

"Umm Rachel I was wondering if we could work on the song today?" he said smiling.

"Too late Pouckerman she's coming with me." Santana said taking my arm and dragging me out of glee.

"I'll come by later tonight!" he shouted to me before Santana and I turned the corner.

Santana and I quickly walked to her car. I got in with out a word and she drove out with out a word. She drove me over to the park where Quinn and I went and got out. I followed suit. We sat on a bench in front of the pond.

"I saw those scabs earlier today." Santana said bluntly.

'Fuck! I'm screwed! Lie Rachel lie your ass off!' I thought to myself.

"Yeah I was shooing away a cat and it scratched me." I said back.

Santana scoffed "Berry don't lie to me. You can't bullshit a bullshitter."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"It means your lies don't get by me." Santana crossed her arms and sighed. "Look you can talk to me...I know why you do it, and I know why it's too hard to stop."

I looked at her hesitatingly, and closed my eyes. No one has ever noticed.

"Why did you stop?" I asked looking at her.

"Yeah and it was hard, but when B got worried I stopped...why did you start was it because of the names and the slushies?" She asked me.

"Not at first...you promise me you'll never tell a soul not even Quinn or Brittney..especially Quinn?" I asked.

"I promise our talks our just between us no one else." She told me looking me staright in the eyes.

"I started back in 8th grade second semester...my dad started cheating on my daddy and they kept it hidden from me so when I needed to talk to Quinn, she said for me to forget her and forgot all about me..., and the slushies and the name calling I guess just helped with me cutting. Why did you start?" I asked.

"I started during freshmen year. I went to this party that some senior was hosting..., and some guy... slipped me a roofie and... raped me." I could hear her voice crack and saw tears forming. I quickly took her in a hug and she cried on my shoulder.

"I promise you Santana I will never let anyone hurt you again...I promise you...I promise I'll never tell." I say in hush tones.

"I was still a virgin...when it happened." She whispered.

I closed my eyes at her heartache. "What happened to..him." I grit.

Santana said nothing letting me know she didn't do anything to him. She started crying again. I pulled her into another hug holding her tightly. "I swear Santana if I ever find out who did this to you...I kick his ass so hard he won't be able to use his dick anymore." I said making Santana laugh as she whipped her eyes.

"Look Rach I know why you cut, but...you need to stop now. People really care about you. I know I do and the same goes for B and Q." She said as I looked away towards the pond.

"If I tell you something you promise you won't tell Q yet?" She said to me.

"I promise." I say.

"She really, really cares about you. More than you know. It killed her having to be a bitch to you...Do you...like her? I mean as in more than a friend?" She asked.

I laughed. "I do actually I finally admitted it to myself Saturday when she fell asleep in my arms, and I woke up from a..a dream." Santana smirked at me. "When I got up to take a shower I could hear her moaning my name like really loud." I said making Santana start laughing.

"Wow you both have it bad for eachother. When did you really start noticing?" She asked me still laughing.

"I think the day we became friends again, but then I started to think about all those times I've caught her staring and drawing hearts around drawn pictures of me." I said giggling.

Me and Santana just kept laughing and talking till she took me home.

Santana turned to me "You know you can come to me anytime you just want to talk. Here let me see your phone and take mine I'll program mine in here too."

After we put our numbers in our phones I said "Same goes to you, you know." She nodded.

"Thank you Santana. For not judging me." I said and turned to get out of the car.

"Bye Rae." She said to me.

"Bye San." I say waving. Wow I think it's safe to say me and Santana Lopez are friends. I smile heading up to my room. An hour later Noah showed up at my door step. I took him up to my room. We went through the song a couple times then stopped.

"My head hurts...you wanna make out?" he asked wiggling his eyebrows.

I laugh "No." and sit on my bed taking his guitar strumming it.

"Whoa...I didn't know you could play." he smiled. "That's really cool Rach."

"Thanks yeah I have a couple of my own." I say showing him mine.

"Wow..nice." he smiled.

"Thanks." I say back.

"So why don't you play in glee?" he asked.

"I don't know I guess it's just something I like to keep to my self." I say smiling handing his guitar back.

"I just wanted you to let you know I know Q told you, and I really appreciate you being there for her. It's really kind of you to be her friend again." He smiled at me.

"It's fine really. I never realized how much I need her." I said.

"Rachel will you go on a date with me?" he asked.

"Noah I think your a really good guy underneath all that male bravado, but I...I can't." I say to him.

"Sooo...you like Quinn back huh?" he said wiggling his eyebrows.

"How did you-" I say getting cut off by Noah.

"I alway's see how she looks at you, and today when she looked at me and Finn fighting over you she looked like she wanted to rip us to shreds." he laughed.

I laughed too "Then why did you ask me out?"

"Because I like you Rachel. Your a great girl I know I should probably leave you alone, but I don't know why I feel like I should I don't know date you protect you. I am attracted to you, and I'm not afraid to be that guy for you, but I see the way you and Q look at eachother, and it kind of makes me jealouse you know. Even the way Finn looks at you makes me jealouse. I know me you will never be because of Q, but I just wanted to let you know...I'm here too." he said leaning into me taking my lips in a kiss. He let me go and walked to my door and said "Remember I'm here if you ever need me." then left.