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deadlyXivy : thanks! yea, no problem. I'll put the translations at the bottom from now on. I didn't before just because I wanted the reader to feel as clueless as Bella.
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For the first time in years I woke up already smiling. Actually, I don't even know if I slept. I was just...there. My mind was asleep, but my dreams were realer than life. My body didn't move, but it was constantly buzzing with energy that I didn't know I had.
From the moment I closed my eyes a soft purring invaded my senses, and it stayed there until I opened them. Alice was still attached to me, the front of our bodies fitting together like a puzzle piece. Her hands never stopped moving. I felt them everywhere as goosebumps rose on my skin from her cold fingertips. My nostrils flared as her unique fragrance assaulted my nose. And just like that, it was as if a switch went off.
The venom had worn off, leaving me feeling nothing but pure bliss. This feeling...it was like the greatest high I've ever felt. Only I didn't feel all loopy...smashed, yes, impaired, no.
My eyes suddenly opened, and all I could see was her. Her scent was surrounding me, her body consuming my eye sight, and now...her blood pulsed with my own. Without a word I pushed her shoulder down and straddled her. It didn't even occur to me that I had just pushed her without any effort. I stared down at her and almost lost my breath. She looked...amazing. Her skin was almost glowing it was so pale, contrasting greatly with her ink black spiky tipped hair. I found myself gazing between her plump red lips to her muddied copper irises, trying to etch this sight into my mind.
There was a glint in her eye, "Well, you seem to be feeling fine." I don't know what came over me..but I just...ripped her shirt off. Her nostrils flared and her eyes darkened.
I've never felt this...strong before...or this horny. God..it was like my clit was going to fucking explode. This was beyond being just aroused..I was in fucking pain.
It looked like she gulped. "Bella...I know what you're feeling..but remember, we agreed to wait until-" I didn't let her finish. My mouth attached to the bare pale skin of her cleavage, licking and kissing in between her breasts. Fantastic breasts. Fantastic breasts that were bound by a sexy black laced bra. It was a fucking sexy bra...but it was in the way.
I grabbed the stitching in the middle of the bra, about to rip it off like I had done with her shirt, but she grabbed my hands.
"Bella, you know I want this as much as you do, but you're not thinking clearly..."
I pulled my hands from her grasp, and grabbed her wrists, pinning them over her head.
"Shut up."
My lips made their way up her chest. Feeling her writhe beneath me caused my stomach to do a flip, and a slick sensation to spread in between my legs. I raked my own teeth along her collarbone, biting it. She bucked her hips off the bed, and into me, a deep groan flowing from her own lip bitten mouth. Satisfied with this reaction, I did the same thing to the spot where she would have a pulse if she were human.
A deep vibrating growl rumbled in her throat, "Ah..Fuck.." She tilted her head to the side giving me easier access to her milky neck. I bit down harder, feeling her push herself into me. But just when my leg slipped in between hers, I felt her stiffen.
In a flash I was the one on my back, with my hands pinned above my head.
Alice bent her head down, her lips coming within centimeters of mine. "You might be strong, but you forget that I'm stronger." Her lips attached to mine and I found it hard to breath as her hands began to roam my body. With her pale hands and nimble fingers pausing to knead my breasts I pulled her into me, my hands roughly gripping into the curve of her ass.
Our voices became one as every touch and scrape and pinch and stroke caused the room to be anything but silent. The aching throb in my core continued to grow. I pushed myself against her thigh, trying to relive any of it..but she pushed herself off of me.
I laid there..dazed for a second before I quickly sat up. "What the hell?"
"Bella..I can't do this with you right now." She stood a few feet from the bed, her hair a mess, her lips swollen, her eyes..like coals. Her arms were wrapped around her torso, like she was trying to hold herself back from me.
"What? Why not?" I practically growled out.
"Because we both know this isn't how our first time together should be."
Grr...goddamnit why does she have to be right?
I sighed and let my body fall back into the bed. "I know..I know..god...I'm sorry Alice. I know this is hard for you..I just...I couldn't control myself? Can you blame me?"
"Of course not. But now you must know how it feels to be in my place." She ran her hand through her spiky hair while taking a moment to not breathe...I guess she's trying to calm herself down from all this...arousal in the air. How weird, even I could smell it...and it was..interesting.
"You feel like this all the time?" Oh god, I couldn't imagine being all worked up all the damn time. I'd fucking explode!
"Most of the time, yeah. I feel it more now since I have part of you in me...it's like I can feel everything doubled. I can feel not only my..want for you, but yours as well.." Now that you mention it...I also felt more...connected to her. Is that why I went crazy a moment ago? Because I can feel my passion as well as hers?
I'd like to keep thinking about this new connection we have...since it's pretty fucking important...but shit, I'm still horny as fuck. I guess she could feel how I did since we both visibly flinched after I felt that needing ache again.
So...how the hell do we resolve this situation?
Well...I have an idea.
My mind flooded with images of Alice talking dirty, standing over me, as I fucked myself in front of her.
Her eyes blanked out for a second before she covered her eyes with her hands. "Gah! I'm so going to get you back for that!"
I played coy. "For what?"
"You know what you did!" She sighed with the look of frustration on her face, but it still looked cute. I swear, she could be pissed at me and I'd still think she was the cutest thing. "Now, I really have to go hunt before I pounce you...And maybe jump in the lake a few times..not that it'll do much difference..."
She grabbed the door knob and sent me back a smile, I could just make out the bulge of her extended canines poking out from her lips. "I'll be back. Don't have too much fun without me." She sent my heart fluttering with a wink and left.
Soo...what do I do now? She gets to hunt to calm down, but I'm left here all worked up and wet as a flowing river. Literally.
I pushed myself up off of her bed and made my way around the house. Hmm..maybe I can wrestle Emmett or something since I feel like I could take down a fucking bear.
This whole...blood exchange was a weird thing. Even though Alice was probably miles away from me by now, I still felt like she was right beside me. Like she was in me..and I was in her. I wonder how it would feel if she turned me..then she's have practically all of me. I never thought about becoming one of them until now...But I think I already unconsciously made my decision when we had our first date and she told me that she would stick with me through anything. What did she say? That she wants to be there when it happens...when what happens? Me becoming a vampire? Or me being cured of my disease?
Not only was the exchange itself weird...but damn I have never felt this good in my life! Now that the drowsiness has worn off I can feel everything...My body felt as light as a feather, and when I walked it was like I was gliding. Every inch of my skin felt alive, my eyesight was the best it has ever been, I could hear everything around me, and I felt happy. Like full on happy. We're talking shit eating grin wearing, random giggling, dopamine charged happy.
I walked into the den where Edward and Jasper were sitting watching tv. And not breathing. That could only mean one thing. They could smell me. Fuck.
They turned to me as I stood in the doorway. Well...this is awkward.
"How are you feeling Bella?" Edward asked with a smirk. He might not be able to read my mind, but he could sure read my body language.
"Great. Amazing. Frustrated." I sat down on the love seat adjacent to them. "Is this how you guys feel all the time?"
Edward chuckled, "No not all the time. In the beginning it's very overwhelming, but you get used to it. Although I'm sure you're having a rough time with this based on your...frustration." He smirked.
"Ugh..are you making fun of me, Eddie?"
He furrowed his brows, "Don't call me that!"
I stuck my tongue out at him, "Then don't make fun of my...repressed state." Jasper coughed and moved in his seat. I guess I'm making him feel as sexually frustrated as I am. Ha.
"Well you could always change that.."
"Yeah, well, no."
"Why not?"
"That's another story for another time, Eddie." He was about to get on me again for calling him that but I interrupted him before he could.
"Hey Jasper, did you ever figure out what that black feather was about?" I had been wondering for a while if he had remembered anything. And even though we were kind of awkward around each other, why not ask when I'm feeling high? I mean, the best time to talk to someone you don't like or don't feel comfortable around is when you're drunk or high. You just don't give a fuck.
"Actually yes." He rigidly sat up in his chair, probably still feeling my emotions but trying not to. With this new ultra sight I could see loads of scars covering his body and face..hmm I never noticed those before. "I looked though some old photographs I had, and even from that book you gave me, and I was able to place where I thought I remembered it to somewhere near the Tennessee area."
"You didn't tell the rest of us this, Jasper." Edward commented. He seemed a little upset.
"Yes, well, I didn't want to say anything, or think about it, in case I was wrong. As I was saying, I remember meeting someone who used to have a feather like that. I didn't think anything of it at first, because it's just a simple feather. But after I thought long and hard, I remembered that it was a woman, I don't recall her name, but she was from one of the local Indian tribes near our camp. I remember that they hated us, not only because we were soldiers, but...they knew we were vampires. No one had told them, but they just knew."
He paused for a moment. "She wasn't like the rest of them, she wasn't afraid of us, even though she knew some of the men in my platoon wanted to kill her. I don't know what happened to her...but if that woman, Simone, gave this to you...then she must think I have something to do with her."
Edward asked, "Do you remember her from before? She must have known that woman rather well if she's looking for you."
Jasper wrinkled his brow, "No, I can't say that I do."
Hmm...so Simone, the vampire hanging around with James, thinks Jasper has something to do with someone he knew back in the Civil War? James sure knows how to pick his accomplices. I wonder if any more of his friends have some kind of vendetta against the rest of the Cullens.
Rosalie walked into the room, giving me a glare before sitting down beside Jasper. What's up her ass?
Jasper closed his eyes and slightly shook. Poor him. Too many strong emotions in the air. He took a pause then visibly relaxed, and so did the rest of us.
"Hey, Rosalie, where's Emmett? I feel like I could take him down." Again, best time to talk to someone that (slightly) intimidates you? When you're inebriated.
She clicked her tongue at me, "He's locked in our room."
"Locked? Why is he locked in your room?"
She crossed her arms over her chest, "Well after what you and Alice were, or weren't doing, the whole house was filled with your scent! He's been locked in the bathroom for an hour."
Oh.
I don't know whether to take that as a compliment or as kinda gross. I'll take it as a compliment. I mean, if I get someone hot, that means I'm hot then, right?
"Well, he has good taste."
Edward busted up laughing. I think that's the first time I've seen him laughing. This caused me to laugh. Jasper in turn started to chuckle which only further aggravated Rosalie. She huffed, rolled her eyes and walked out of the room mumbling something about us being children.
"Ah...You know, I didn't like not being able to read your mind at first, but it's great to be surprised for once."
"Aw, is this your way of telling me that you think I'm the shit?"
He laughed, "If that's what you'd like to call yourself then yes."
"What's going on in here? I thought I told you not to have fun without me." I grinned as Alice gracefully walked into the room, her eyes brighter than before, but still slightly copper.
"We're bonding." My grin grew as she sat down on my lap, pulling my arms around her small waist. I felt myself melt into her, and let my eyes close as I breathed in her unique scent. I always felt calmer with her around..but now I felt...complete. Like I was missing something before..and when she's here everything's fine.
"Are you sure you should be that close together? I don't want to have to pull you two off of each other." Oh, Edward, aren't you funny.
Alice threw a small pillow at him, which he caught without a flinch. "Easy, kid. I can handle myself fine, thank you very much."
"Kid?" I mumbled as I rested my chin on her shoulder.
Jasper laughed, "Yup, compared to Alice, Edward is just a child. Age wise that is. We all know mentally Alice is the child."
"Hey!" She threw several of the couch's pillows at him. "I am not a child!" She pouted and crossed her arms over her chest.
I chuckled, "Aww it's okay, babe. Even if you are like a kid I still think you're cute."
"Ugh," Edward scrunched up his face, "They're in that overly sweet and cute phase."
"It's okay, Edward, small and little things are cute at first, but you get over them soon enough." Jasper chimed in and they both snickered.
"You guys aren't funny."
I kissed the back of Alice's neck and felt her sigh, she quickly forgot that she was upset.
"Oh! I forgot to tell you, Esme went to the market to get you some human food. She should be back in 3 minutes to feed you." Feed me? I feel like a hamster.
"Why? She didn't need to do that."
"Because, silly, we can't have you passing out from lack of energy. You might think you're invincible at the moment, but once that wears off I have a feeling you're going to have a bad case of the munchies."
"Fine, fine. I'll eat." Why argue with her when I know she's right?
Edward coughed, "Whipped."
He laughed as I glared at him. "Since when did you become all funny and un-gloomy?"
"I'm back!" Esme walked into the room with a smile. "How are you feeling Bella? Are my children giving you a rough time?"
"Only Edward."
"Hey!"
Esme chucked, "Well, I just started to cook you some dinner, so whenever you're ready, it's in the kitchen."
"Thank you, Esme. You really didn't need to go out and buy food."
"Nonsense, you're family now. I'd do anything for you just like I'd do anything for any of my children." I felt my cheeks stretch in a huge smile and I felt like a little girl being told that her mommy's there for her. I haven't felt that in...years. Don't get me wrong, my mom loves me. She just doesn't show it that much..
"Uh..thank you."
She grinned before walked back into the kitchen.
Jasper stood up and looked between Alice and me before speaking. "I'm glad you're feeling well Bella. I can tell you that we were all afraid that you wouldn't have a good reaction to her blood, and to us, but I guess...Alice really is your mate. I apologize if I came off as rude or anything to you in the beginning, but I feel the same as Esme." He gave me an actual smile and then stretched.
"I'm going to hunt for a bit, would you like to join me Edward?"
"Sure, I could go for some moose." Edward got up and followed Jasper outside.
Alice turned around in my lap, now facing me with my arms still wrapped around her. She had a huge smile on her face. "I told you they'd all love you."
"You were right. You're always right."
She gave me a peck on the lips. "Ha! You better believe it! I'm going to record that so I can play it whenever you get stubborn and start whining." I frowned.
"I don't whine!"
"Yea, you do. But it's okay, I still like you anyway."
She poked my stomach, "Ready to eat?"
"Eh, nah. Not really...Oh my god." My stomach growled and I felt a blow to my gut. My eyes grew huge and it was like my stomach was trying to devour me from the inside. "Yes. I'm so...so fucking hungry." Intense high = intense munchies.
"I told you." She tapped her temple. "Never doubt the awesomeness that is Alice Cullen."
I rolled my eyes and sat up, still holding her close to me. She wrapped her legs around me as I walked to the door. I kinda like this new strength. "Alright alright, calm down. Your ego is stuffing up the room."
I walked us into the kitchen. The way she was attached to me reminded me of a koala. I snickered to myself as I set her down on the counter as I sat down on a chair.
Esme smiled at us both, having that 'mother-knows-everything-look' on her face. She laid out a huge buffet of edible goodness before taking a seat across from me.
"Here you go, Bella. I wasn't sure what you liked...so I made a lot of everything." I thanked Esme as I checked out all the food around me. Jesus...soo much food. I dug in.
Already a plate of tofu steak and salad down, I looked up from my empty dish. They both watched me with different expressions. Esme looked pleased that I was loving her cooking, whereas Alice looked like she was captivated by me eating.
I raised a brow at her, with my mouth full of vegetable curry and rice. "Whut 're you lookin' at?"
She giggled. "It's fun to watch you eat. Your face goes through so many expressions at once..." She grabbed a napkin from the counter and leaned over to wipe some curry that had dripped down my chin. Ugh, I've always been such a messy eater...heh. No! Now's not the time to be thinking like that, I just got over my raging libido!
"Plus," she continued, "I don't remember being human, so I don't remember eating either. I always wonder what it tastes like...but it smells so bad that I get over it."
I finally swallowed down my food, "It smells that bad? That's weird since you guys drink from animals...most human food is animals, just cooked." Esme took my plate, and replaced it with another. This woman is trying to kill me. Oh, yea, how did Bella die? She ate so much that her stomach exploded. Wow, what a fat ass.
"Yea, I don't know what it is that makes it so disgusting to us. It just is. But you know, your food doesn't smell that bad. Maybe because it's mostly plants, or made from plants."
"Well I'm glad you won't be too disgusted with me after I eat."
Esme came over again, taking another empty plate. "Like Alice could be disgusted with you, she can barely keep her hands let alone her eyes off of you."
"Mom!" Alice whined out. I chuckled.
"What? It's true, honey. You say that Bella's whipped but I think it's quite the opposite." Esme smirked at Alice as she pouted.
"I'm not whipped..."
"Oh?" I crossed my arms over my chest. "You're not?"
Our eyes met and she faltered. "Ah, alright. I am. But we both are..so it doesn't matter."
Noticing that my tummy was satisfied, Esme began to clear the counter and put the leftovers away. "Doesn't matter? That's just Alice's way of being stubborn and not wanting to lose the upper hand on this subject."
I laughed as Alice's pout grew. I grabbed her hand and kissed her palm, feeling that warmth from before consume me from the point where my lips touched her hand, and flowing throughout my body. She grinned from ear to ear. Everything around us faded away, it was just us, our connection...pulling us deeper into each other. I was reminded of how I woke up earlier, with my whole being fully concentrated on nothing but her.
We were definitely having a moment, but it was soon interrupted by her eyes glazing over, leaving her with blank faded eyes. I waited patiently for her to return to the present world.
After a couple seconds she blinked her eyes quickly. She looked at Esme, and then settled her gaze on me. I tried not to let her worried expression trouble me.
"We have company."
I decided to give Bella a break and not make Edward an obsessive douche. She already has enough crap with Jake to worry about anyway.
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