Dear Death Diary

X ~ Three Years Later ~ X

I was walking down the street, heading home when suddenly my phone rang. I took it out and answered it, assuming it was Sonic. "Hey," I said into the phone.
"Amy Rose?" an unfamiliar voice asked.
"Yeah, that's me. Who's this?"
"I'm from the hospital. We were told to call this number incase of an emergency. Eleanor Rose just got here in an ambulance. She's not well."
"What? I'll be there as soon as I can."
"You won't make it."
I froze. I wouldn't make it? ... She wasn't just not well, she was... dying.
Why... Why did I have to move away? I was so far. I didn't see her as much as I should have. She's gone, now... leaving. Why?
"Miss Rose? Are you there? Miss Rose?"
"Yeah," I said into the phone. "Thanks." I hung up the phone and slid it back in my pocket. I felt like a huge piece of me died along with her... if she was even dead, yet.
I looked around. There was a bar just a few feet away. I headed inside and ordered a beer.
It didn't take too long to drink the beer.
I ordered another... and another... and another.
Soon enough, I was wasted.
"That's a lot to drink, don't you think?" a familiar voice said.
I turned to see a familiar hedgehog sitting beside me. "Sonic!" I managed to squeal. I jumped onto his lap and began kissing him vigorously.
His hands were suddenly all over me, which was unusual, but I didn't object.
In desperate need of air, I pulled away, and looked him in the eyes.
"Let's take this somewhere more private," he suggested with a smug grin.
"Your eyes look different," I noted.
"Don't worry about that, you're drunk. Let's get out of here."
I nodded, believing that was a reasonable excuse. I allowed him to lead me out of the bar, taking me elsewhere.

X

"Where were you last night?" Sonic said as soon as I came in the house.
"I was with you," I rubbed my head as I sat down on the couch. My head was killing me.
"No you weren't."
"What? Yes I was. You came and got me at the bar."
"I didn't go to the bar."
I froze; my eyes widened. I was horrified, disgusted. "Shit... No. No, no, no. Shit, shit, shit!"
"What?"
"That wasn't you... that was your brother," I said unthinkingly, thinking aloud.
"My what? Amy, what happened?" the worry in his voice was suddenly gone, replaced with anger.
"Shit," was all I managed to say.
"Amy, tell me you didn't..." he trailed off, not wanting to finish the sentence.
I put my head in my hands, "I'm so sorry," I whispered.
I suddenly heard the door open. My head snapped up just in time to see Sonic standing in the doorway. "What are you doing?" I asked., standing up.
"Leaving," he snapped back.
"Why?"
"Why do you think, Amy? Don't you see what you've done? I can't believe you did this, again. This time you went too far."
"I was drunk!"
"You have an excuse for everything, don't you? I'm so tired of this!"
"Fine, then leave! See if I care!"
"Gladly," he said before leaving, slamming the door shut behind him.
I fell to my knees, crying as I watched the door, hoping he would come back.
Why did I do that? ... I just lost everything.

X ~ Seven Years Later ~ X

"Pick a number between one and twenty-eight," Shadow said as he came back into the living room, holding a new beer.
"Ten," I said, taking a sip of my own beer.
"Why?"
I shrugged, "I always pick ten."
"Whatever. What happened on this day ten years ago?"
I snorted, "you expect me to remember what happened ten years ago? I can't even remember last night," I paused. "What day is it?"
"The third."
"Of December?"
Shadow nodded.
"Shit, November flew by. Alright, let's see. December third... ten years ago..."

I swung the front door open, causing it to put a dent in the wall. I went straight to the kitchen and grabbed the sharpest knife in the house: a butcher knife. I stormed up the stairs, to my room and headed into my bathroom.
The thought of losing anyone else was... well it wouldn't effect me much, I was used to people leaving me. But Sonic... Losing Sonic. That was almost unbearable.
No, it was unbearable. I wasn't going to put up with that sort of pain. I didn't care if I was three days early, nothing mattered anymore.
"You said you'd never leave me alone, no matter what..." I whispered, holding the knife against my arm.
"Fuck that!" I yelled. I violently began cutting my arms, deeper than I ever have before. Moments later, I fell into a never ending pit of darkness, where I belonged.

"Amy? Hello?"
I wiped my eyes, not realizing I had just been crying. "Ten years ago... some stupid shit happened," I said, answering his question.
"What stupid shit?"
"I tried to kill myself."
"Why?"
"That wasn't part of your question," I got up off the couch and headed to front door.
"Where do you think you're going?"
"I need some fresh air."
Suddenly I was slammed against the wall. "What the fuck, Shadow?"
"You can't leave. We haven't even gotten to the fun part yet."
"You had enough fun yesterday."
He suddenly pushed his lips against mine. I tried shoving him off, but he had me cornered.

The hedgehog grabbed my hand and pulled me inside the house, kicking the door shut. He shoved me against the door and kissed me.
I was about to kiss him back when I noticed the alcohol and cigarette taste. This wasn't Sonic, it was his brother! I immediately tried to shove him off, with no avail. He was too strong.
Eventually, when he needed air and pulled away, I ducked under his arm, running straight to the kitchen. I grabbed the first thing I saw, which was, surprisingly, a broom. I held it up, defensively at Sonic's brother who followed close behind.
"Oh, that little thing won't keep me away from you, baby girl."
My eyes widened with disgust, and realization that he was right. What good would a broom do? He could easily grab it from me or use it against me. I needed something better; scarier. I quickly scanned the area, only finding knives. I calculated my chances of getting to the knives before he got to me, but they weren't very high. I was doomed...

"Get off of me!" I yelled. I managed to get one of my arms out to punch Shadow. He was stunned for just enough time for me to get away. I quickly ran out the door, and down the street, not knowing where exactly I was going.
I eventually ended up in a coffee shop. It was weird, I didn't even drink coffee. Ever. I stopped dead in my tracks at the sight of a familiar blue hedgehog.
"Sonic," I whispered.
He turned around, and dropped his coffee. Neither of us did anything about it; we just stared at each other.
"Amy," he finally said.
I mentally scolded myself. I shouldn't have said anything, I should have just ran back out. "Hi," I choked out, not knowing what else to say.
"Hi," he repeated.
"You have coffee all over your pants," I pointed out, looking at the coffee all over the floor.
"Oh, right. I'll, uh, deal with that later."
I nodded, "alright. So, um, how are you?"
"I'm good. I don't have long, I have to get to a meeting, but would you like to sit down?"
I nodded, "sure."
He led the way to a small table with two chairs, and sat down.
I sat down across from him, feeling very weird. Talking to him was so awkward.
I felt a pain in my chest, remembering how amazing we used to be. How easy it was to talk to him, about anything. We hadn't spoken in years. Things were very awkward.
"You look awful," he said with a frown upon his face.
"Thank you, I wish I could say the same about you," I said sarcastically. I looked down at what I was wearing: Shadow's old stained, dirty shirt with a few hole, along with Shadow's old ripped up pants.
He chuckled, "I'm sorry. You just look..."
"Awful, I got it."
"What happened to you?"
I shrugged, sighing, "there's just too much to sum up."
"I'm sorry."
"Me too."
He looked at his watch and sighed, "I need to get going. Here," he took out a piece of paper and scribbled something on it. "I live here. Come see me, sometime. If you want."
"Sure," I nodded. I knew he probably didn't mean it. If anything, he did that to be nice. Why would he want anything to do with me?
"Well, see you later."
"Bye," I forced a smile as I watched him leave.
When he was gone, I put my head in my hands and closed my eyes.

I leaned over, and kissed him. "Let's run away, together. Just you and me."
"What about - "
"We'll come back for them... later. Right now, I want you all to myself," I smiled seductively.
"No arguments from me," he revved the engine.
"Perfect," I laughed, kissing him again.
"I love you, Amy."
"I love you too, Sonic. More than you'll ever know."

Why did we have to end? I shook my head, and got up. I walked out of the coffee shop and began walking around, without the slightest of idea as to where I would be going.

X

"Amy!" an angry voice called after me.
I gasped, turning around me.
Shadow was running to catch up to me, which didn't take very long. "Do you know how long I've been looking for you?" he growled. Hie words were slurred. He was so wasted.
"I-I don't know," I took a step back. I was slightly afraid of Shadow when he was drunk. He got very violent. I hated being nothing more than just a worthless doll to him, but it was all I couldn't do anything about it.
He pulled me uncomfortably close to him, "don't run away this time." he crashed his lips onto mine once again.
I stood there, allowing him to kiss me, hoping that's all he would do.
Unfortunately, his hand went down and grabbed my ass.
I jumped, "No! You're not going that far, again."
"Try to stop me," he grinned.
Trying to find all the strength I've had from my abusive days when I was growing up, I threw my fist into Shadow's face, again. Shockingly, he fell flat on his ass. "Holy shit," I said, blown away that I could actually send him to the ground.
He let out a growl as he began to stand up.
I let out a slight scream and started running, again.

X

I knocked on the door a little more than a few times, and impatiently waited. I turned around to see if Shadow was anywhere out there. Of course, I couldn't see anything for the rain.
Suddenly the door behind me opened. "Amy?"
"I'm sorry," I said, out of breath as I turned around. "I didn't know where else to go."
"Come in," Sonic said, moving out the way.
"Thanks," I mumbled, stepping inside.
"Would you like some dry clothes, or something?"
I laughed, "you got a big shirt?"
"Yeah, hold on," he said before heading up the stairs.
I took off my shoes and walked around. There were expensive things everywhere. Crystal chandeliers, gorgeous wooden furniture, ugly paintings which were, for some reason, considered valuable. Everything he owned was probably worth a billion dollars.
"Here you go," Sonic said, handing me a big gray tee shirt.
"Thanks, so, when did you become a billionaire?"
He chuckled, "I don't have that much money, yet."
"Yet," I rolled my eyes. "So, bathroom, where is it?"
"Just down the hall, the first door on the right."
"Alright, thanks," I said as I left the room.
Inside the bathroom, was gorgeous. The floor was a white marble; everything else in the bathroom was just plain white. It was the whitest, prettiest white I had every seen. He had a huge shower, but the bathtub was even bigger, it looked more like a pool!
I shook my head, and got out of my wet clothes. I put Sonic's tee shirt on, which was, thankfully, long enough.
I folded up my clothes and brought them out with me, setting them by the front door. "I can't believe this place," I told Sonic as I sat down on the couch.
"Want those thrown in the dryer?"
I shook my head, "they won't take long to dry themselves."
"Alright. So what's with your arm?"
I looked at my arm, which was cut to pieces. I shrugged, "old habits die hard."
"What happened?"
"You've asked that a lot."
"Start from the beginning?"
I shook my head, "I don't want to waste your time with some stupid long story. It's just the same old thing, every time."
"What happened tonight, then?"
"Tonight, Shadow found me wondering around town. He was drunk and tried to..." I frowned.
"He tried to what?"
"A kiss wasn't enough," I said simply.
Sonic shook his head, but before he could say anything, I continued, "it's sort of my life, now."
"Why? Amy, you can do better. A lot better."
I shook my head, "no. You've done something with your life. You're successful in life. I've thrown mine away. Shadow is the best I can do right now. I have nothing except the clothes on my back... which happens to be yours right now."
"Wether you have nothing or everything... you can still do better."
"That's pretty doubtful. Besides, beer for breakfast, lunch and dinner is great," I said in a joking manner.
Sonic didn't find it funny, not that I blamed him, at all. "Amy," he sighed. "You really know how to worry a guy."
"Sorry... I should probably go.." I got up and headed towards the front door.
"Where?"
"I don't know. I'll find somewhere, I always do."
"What do you mean?"
"I can't stay with Shadow all the time. He's drunk and... disgusting."
Sonic shook his head. "What have you done to yourself?"
"It was bound to happen."
"Stay here."
"...Here?"
He nodded.
"Are you sure? I don't want to bother you."
"Amy, please. You're not bothering me. Come back over here."

"What are you doing?" I asked., standing up.
"Leaving," he snapped back.
"Why?"
"Why do you think, Amy? Don't you see what you've done? I can't believe you did this, again. This time you went too far."
"I was drunk!"
"You have an excuse for everything, don't you? I'm so tired of this!"
"Fine, then leave! See if I care!"
"Gladly," he said before leaving, slamming the door shut behind him.
I fell to my knees, crying as I watched the door, hoping he would come back.
Why did I do that? ... I just lost everything.

"Amy? Why are you crying?" Sonic asked, suddenly in front of me.
"I... I'm so sorry," I whispered.
He wrapped his arms around me, "it's alright."
I stayed close to him, crying more. There were no words to express how much I had missed being in his arms; my castle. The only place I was safe.
Suddenly Sonic's phone rang. He sighed as he pulled his phone out of his pocket and answered, keeping one arm around me. After a few minutes, he yelled "clear my schedule, then!" into the phone. I couldn't make out what whoever was on the other line was saying. "I don't care, do what you have to. I can't make it, today," he said firmly, before hanging up.
"I never asked... how did your meeting go?"
"I had to postpone it. I just cancelled it."
"Why did you postpone it?"
"I had a lot on my mind."
I looked up at him, "why did you cancel it?"
"I'm not leaving you, right now."
I smiled, returning to his arms. "Thank you."
"Anytime, Amy." He sounded sad; hurt.
I stepped out of his arms and swallowed my pride, not that I had much of it. "I'm so sorry for everything. Especially that day," I whispered, knowing he knew what I was talking about.
He opened his mouth, but no words came out.
I took his hand and led him to the couch. "I never properly explained myself. I don't want to give you another excuse... I just want you to know what happened." He frowned, obviously not wanting to talk about this subject. "Please? You need to know, regardless of wether it makes a difference or not. What you think happened isn't true. I wouldn't just do that."
"Alright," he sighed. "Fine."
I took in a deep breath before getting into my story. "Earlier that night, I got a phone call. Eleanor died."
"Amy, I -"
"Shh," I said, putting my index finger over his lips. "I felt like I had lost my mother... I was so upset. I thought I could drink away my pain. I couldn't have been more stupid," I rolled my eyes. "Your brother was at the bar. I was already drunk when he started talking to me. He looked so much like you. I took one look at him and... you know the rest of the story."
"You were all over him," he whispered, finishing it.
I nodded. " I knew something wasn't right, though. His eyes weren't yours... I thought it was just because I was drunk. I thought he was you until I got home. It really wasn't intentional. I was so upset and drunk, I wasn't paying attention. I'm sorry."
"I... I'm sorry."
"For what? Getting upset? Eleanor dying doesn't make it okay."
"It makes things better."
I frowned, "how?"
"I know how close you two were. After everything you've been through, I can't imagine..."
"It still doesn't make up for what I did."
"You had a reason."
"But -"
"All this time I tried to think of why you would do that.. How you could. I didn't understand. Now I do. After seven long years," he paused. "I thought about you every day, you know."
"You did? I... thought you hated me."
"I could never hate you, Amy... ever."
I smiled and put my head on his shoulder.
"That, juts then, was the first time I've ever seen you cry," he suddenly said, "and we were together for nearly four years."
"I hate crying. Especially in front of people."
"I've heard you cry."
I frowned, "when?"
"That day. I didn't leave right away. That was some... intense crying."
"I... hated the thought of you leaving."
"I'm sorry."
"Sonic, no, it's my fault. Don't apologize," I sighed. "Thank you for offering to let me stay, but I really shouldn't. I need to get back to Shadow..." The longer I was away, the more I would pay for what I've done.
"I'm not letting you go back to him, Amy. He's not good for you."
"I have to go now, before he gets too angry with me." I got up from the couch and headed towards the front door. I opened it, not wanting to leave.
"Ames, please."
I froze. Ames. "I haven't heard that in seven years."
"It's been seven years too long," he walked towards me, and closed the door behind me. He pulled me into his arms; his face only inches away. "Please don't go." His lips were suddenly crashing against mine.
I instinctively wrapped my arms around his neck His arms tightened around me, keeping me very close to him.
The kiss was so blissful... magical... I had forgotten what it felt like to be with someone special; what it felt like to be loved.
I had felt like I was dead for so long... I finally felt alive, again, almost like I meant something..
He was begging for entrance to my mouth, so gave it to him. Our tongues began battling for dominance.
Unfortunately, we started to need air. We parted, completely out of breath. "Alright," I said, smiling. "I'll stay."
"Promise me you'll go never go back there?"
I nodded, "I'll do whatever it takes, but you can't leave me, again."
"I won't," he smiled. "I've never missed anyone so much."
"Seven years..." I shook my head, "I was hoping you'd come back, sometime," I punched his arm. "You kept me waiting for seven years. Do you know how long seven years is? Especially when you're waiting for something," I rolled my eyes.
"I'm sorry. If you let me..." he trailed off, frowning.
"If I let you?"
"Come with me," he took my hand and led me up the stairs. He brought me to his bedroom.
"If I let you," I laughed.
He shook his head, and began searching through his dresser drawers.
"What are you looking for?"
He suddenly turned and looked at me. He smiled.
"What?"
"You're still wearing it."
"I'm still wearing what?"
He knelt in front of me and lifted up my left hand.
My mouth made an 'o' shape as I realized he was talking about the promise ring he gave me for my eighteenth birthday. "I, um..." I tried to come up with an excuse, but had nothing.
"If you let me," he repeated, taking out a small box.
I covered with my hands with my mouth, gasping.
He smiled, "Amy, I'd like to spend the rest of my life making up for leaving you. I love you, and I'm sorry. Please... make me the happiest, luckiest guy in the world?."
"Where... When did you... Why..." I sighed. All the questions I had just didn't seem important, so I nodded. "Yes," I jumped down on the floor, along with him, throwing my arms around him. "I'm the lucky one, though."
"I know I'm supposed to agree with everything you say... but you're wrong, Ames."
I shook my head, and kissed him, again. How I've missed his lips, his smile, his love... his everything.
"I love you, Amy. I'm never going to let you go again."
"I love you, too, Sonic," I smiled. "I'll never know what I did right to be so blessed with the opportunity to get to know you."
He shook his head, "I do believe it was I who did something right to get you." He took my left hand, and placed the engagement ring on my finger. My eyes widened as I saw the huge diamond on it. I had never seen a diamond so big! "Mrs. Amy the hedgehog."
"I can get used to that," I smiled, kissing him again.

A/N: This was... the hardest thing I think I ever written O.O
I re-wrote it, about... four or five BILLION times. I couldn't write anything I liked *sigh*
This is the first one I have actually finished, so I'm going to stick with it. I'll go insane if I try to write more ._. Sorry if it's... iffy.

Anyways, I hope this is decent enough, hehe. Oh, and my cat says hi. She tried to 'help' me write this...

~ I got a suggestion to re-write everything in Sonic's POV... what do you guys think of that? I'd gladly do it, if you wanted me to.

Anywaaays, review?
Heh.. Thank you all for the wonderful 109 reviews so far [':