I am currently pacing back and forth in my room. I haven't seen Paul in a few days and I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I still don't know how am I going to tell Paul about the pregnant thing. And I REALLY don't know what to say to Charlie about it. I've been avoiding him as much as possible.
Emily invited me over later today, apparently they're having a bon fire for two new wolves, but she didn't tell me who phased. Weird.
I'm nervous about seeing the others. What if I accidentally blurt out my 'news' in front of everyone and they all hate me?
I tried not to think as got dressed. I was going to drive to la Push in a hour or so. I spent forty five minutes getting ready, wouldn't have took so long if I wasn't so nervous. My hands were shaking and stomach was doing flips. I drove to la push extra slowly so I wouldn't crash into anything like a parked car.
After about twenty minutes I made it to Emily's house. I got out the car and of course being myself I tripped, I felt a pair of arms catch me. I knew those arms anywhere. I looked up and of course it was Paul. Despite my nervousness I could not help the smile that spread across my face when I saw him.
"Nice of you to drop by Bella" he chuckled and gave me a chaste kiss on the lips. The kiss was barely even a second long and I was already dizzy.
"ha ha very funny" I rolled my eyes and attempted to get out of his grip but he wouldn't let me.
"what? No 'I missed you Paul, I don't know how I could stand being away from your awesomeness for so long'"
I just rolled my eyes. "cocky much?"
He grinned, "you know it"
After a little kissing he finally let go of my waist, only to put his arm back around me and lead me to the others. Everyone said their greetings and things. I was surprised when I found out the two new wolves were Leah and Seth Clearwater. I didn't know girls could phase, and apparently Leah didn't like it. But I could feel her on that, she was the only girl stuck in a pack of immature boys, and her ex fiancé. That had to be tough. To anyone that didn't really look, would think she was just an angry witch, but if you look closely you could see the pain in her eyes. She's still hurt and she hasn't let Sam go yet. It has to be hard on Sam too. He still loves her but not as much as he loves Emily. It reminds me of me in a way, I was hurt by Edward, still love him but I've found another. I can only hope that Leah finds her other half one day. Even though I don't really know her, no girl should have to go through that much pain and suffering. She caught me staring at her and glared, I immediately looked away to find something to keep me occupied. I stared at the fire, listening to the stories.
As soon as the stories ended, some of the guys went to get more food. Surprisingly Paul didn't, he just kept his arm around me and pulled me closer to him.
"Can we take a walk?" I asked him. He looked down at me but I didn't look at him. "sure"
As soon as we were up he took my hand in his and started walking towards the beach. "Bella, what's up? You seemed a little off tonight"
So he did notice my weirdness. How do I tell him. "Paul, I- I need to tell you something. I just hope you wont hate me when I tell you this."
He stopped walking and turned to look at me. "What is it? You aren't leaving me, are you Bella I swear its anything I did I'm sorry." For a second I saw the real Paul, the one that was hidden under a mask of anger. He was nervous and paranoid, unsure of himself. When he noticed he was showing weakness he changed his expression, to blank again.
"No, no I'm not leaving you. Its- its something else." I choked out.
"What is it then?"
"I-I…. Paul I'm pregnant"
A/N: sorry it took so long. i've been busy and had writers block. please review and tell me what you think.. and be nice please :)
