In honor of the 69 reviews, I updated...with smut. Yeah that's right 'bout damn time i know. Well anyway. REVIEW!
Side note: I was told the ending to last chapter was awkward...um...how? I'd like to know so I can avoid that in future. Thanks.
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Chapter 11: Manipulated
Roy collapsed on the couch with a groan and Envy laughed as he walked into the living room, and leaned on the back of it next to him.
"You okay?" he asked and Roy shook his head miserably and Envy laughed again then moved behind the older male and started kneading his shoulders.
"Wow, did Miss Riza make you sign every piece of paper in the compound?" he asked and Roy grunted in affirmation, he laughed again and continued to rub his guardians shoulders who eventually started to relax.
"Uuuuhg never again..." Roy mumbled and Envy hummed in question. "She had me do all of my paperwork for this weekend because she wasn't going to let me come in, I don't know why," and Envy started laughing.
"I didn't think you'd have a problem with that and she said she was going to give us bonding time," he chuckled and shook his head before jumping over the back of the couch and landing gracefully next to Roy who looked at him amused.
"Bonding time?" he asked and Envy shrugged.
"I don't know, she told me that we needed it, did you tell her about the incident?" when Roy shook his head he shrugged, "but I'm not even sure how. I know girls bond over make up and stuffed animals and stuff...but yeah," and then he blushed and squirmed a little on the couch. Roy raised an eyebrow.
"You're not worried about it again, I hope," he said looking at the boy critically who blushed, and that told Roy that he had in fact been worried about his dual gendered body. Roy sighed.
"Envy you're not a freak, you're just..." he trailed off and Envy let his own eyebrow quirk sarcastically.
"Special?" he finished sardonically, and Roy rolled his eyes then pushed the boy away gently by the arm.
"You think about it too much," he said and Envy grunted, Roy looked sideways at him to see him fighting with the bottom of his shirt, which he usually did when he was nervous or uncomfortable.
"I couldn't help it...today while I was shopping a girl...she came up and talked with me. Then I realized she was flirting," he said his voice small, Roy was just glad the boy realized the girl was hitting on him, that made him proud in a way, "I thought she was nice and cute and we could get along fine, but then I thought...she probably doesn't want a boyfriend who has a vagina," he said and Roy tried not to show his surprise, and realized, the kid was right.
"Well you need to find someone who can accept you, all of you," Roy said but Envy shook his head.
"Easier said than done. Some people would be able to understand, but I don't think anyone could deal with it up front." he said then turned to Roy, "I remember the look on your face when I told you, you were disgusted," he mumbled and looked away. Roy tried not turn red in shame but his cheeks still went pink.
"Hey...I'm sorry. It doesn't disgust me," he said and the boy looked at him with a cynical raise of his eyebrow.
"Really? You're not disgusted that I have a dick and a cunt? I find that truly hard to believe," Envy said, his voice dripping with cynicism.
"I'm not," Roy said trying hard to believe himself, it wasn't really that the boy disgusted him, he didn't at all in fact, he was very easy to get along with and he took care of him, but it was kind of hard to deal with the fact that his house mate wasn't all male. Envy rolled his eyes then stood up and Roy could see Envy was still hurt by it, and that Roy should have said more. Now that he actually liked the young man for who he was now and not who he had been, he didn't like to see him hurt.
"Hey I'm really not, then I was focusing on you know the old you I saw that as an easier way for me to hate you I guess but now...I think that you're fine the way you are, so you're a different big deal, you're still human and anyone who thinks otherwise is a jerk," he said and Envy stopped and leaned against the recliner while crossing his arms and almost glaring at the older male.
"That's a very nice way of calling me a freak, thanks." he said sarcastically and Roy crossed his own arms and glared right back.
"I did not say that, you're different from everyone else but that doesn't make you a freak," Roy replied trying to keep his calm, but Envy scoffed, irritating Roy.
"Prove it. Let's just face the fact that I'm going to die alone and unloved, just like before only this time I'll be a fucking virgin. So why don't you just prove I'm not a goddamn freak!" he snapped and Roy sprang up.
"Envy-" he started but Envy whipped around and started to make way to his bedroom.
"Just forget it Roy," he said quietly and Roy knew that the teenager was crying as he went upstairs. The only real problem with Envy's extra body parts was that it was accompanied by extra hormones which made it easier to make Envy cry, much easier than most boys, and that's the only thing that bothered Roy: the tears, he didn't know how to handle them. But he didn't like the idea of the boy sitting in his room crying alone.
He walked up the stairs and to the room with a sigh and raised his fist to knock, he could here the small sobs on the other side of the door, and strengthened his resolve when he felt it try to weaken. He tapped on the door gently.
"Hey Envy I'm coming in," he said loud enough the boy could hear just as he put his hand on the knob and opened the door, he heard Envy scramble away from the door as it opened and Roy figured he'd been up against it and now his back was up against his bed, Roy crouched in front of him.
"Hey, you know I don't think of you like that, and no one else in the office or the Elric's, or Gracia does either, we all care about you, we most definitely don't think you're a freak," Roy said softly and Envy nodded but he wouldn't look at Roy in the eye.
Roy took his chin in one of his hands and forced the boy to look at him, there were tear tracks on his cheeks and still more spilling over, but his eyes didn't look convinced, and Roy remembered he had demanded for proof.
"You are not a freak," he said and before he could stop himself he kissed his young house mate, who gasped in surprise opening his mouth for the older man who took that to his advantage and plunged his tongue in. exploring the moist cavern, swallowing the small gasps and moans the boy was making. They broke apart a moment later Envy was gazing at him, like he couldn't believe that had happened.
"How's that for proof?" he asked a little winded himself, and Envy snorted and looked away blushing, putting his hands on Roy's shoulders to push him away.
"Any old bastard can kiss me, still doesn't mean he's not disgusted with the part that matters," he said and Roy's eyes narrowed then he stood up dragging the boy up along with him, then he pushed Envy on the bed who fell back with another gasp only to have the older man on him right as he did.
His mouth was invaded again, and then moments later his shirt was pulled off and hands were roaming over his chest and stomach, his skin broke out into goose flesh, he wiggled at the new sensations and gasped louder when a mouth took one of his overly sensitive nipples. The hands brushed over his stomach again before wandering lower squeezing a still clothed thigh, Envy let out a whoosh of air and tensed as the pleasurable feeling went straight to his groin, exciting both parts.
Roy inhaled quietly as he slowly opened the black pants, he knew if he was going to prove to Envy he wasn't a freak, he'd have to pleasure both parts, the only problem was he'd only ever been with women. He had of course pulled himself off more times than he could count, so why not just do what he knew?
He slipped his hands into the pants and realized the boy was still wearing briefs, he tried not to make himself look like a complete fool so he tentatively brushed against the boys member, and he moaned. Roy decided then he might as well finish it, so he pulled down the pants, tossed them off the bed and then pulled off the briefs, they joined the pants on the floor.
Roy looked at him for a moment, it wasn't terrible and it wasn't deformed, if no one saw him from underneath they wouldn't know he had an extra hole in his body, then he put his hand on the boys stomach again, running it down brushing over his member and then the clit. The boy whimpered and arched into his touch.
"P-please...please!" he cried and Roy complied he pushed a digit into the hole and thrusted it a few times before adding another and then bending his fingers, he pressed gently and the boy cried out, tossing his head to the side and clutching the sheets, Roy couldn't help but smirk, he always got a woman's g-spot on the first try. Now came the part he wasn't so used to, he wrapped his hand around the decent sized member and the boy cried out again, so Roy assumed he was good so far, then he started to pump and the boy arched into his hand moaning and gasping. Roy was proud of himself, he'd done this to the boy and he was going to do more.
He stopped pumping for a moment and Envy made a small whining sound in frustration, then Roy smirked and started working both, he pumped his hand at the same pace that he thrusted his fingers into the boy's vagina, making sure to hit that sweet spot. It didn't take that long until Envy arched and tensed and he came. Both parts spilling the white substance of Envy all over Roy's hands.
Then Envy fell back on his bed panting, his whole body shivering in the after waves of pleasure , there was a nice sheen of sweat covering his body and Roy was looking at him and feeling his adrenaline falling, and then he started feeling disgusted with himself. He shouldn't have done that, the boy was seventeen and he was 39, there was too much of an age gape, not to mention Envy was mostly a boy and Roy did prefer women, well at least when it came to sex. He did like Envy he liked him a lot, he cared for him and didn't want to see him hurt. But he still shouldn't have done that.
"I shouldn't have done that," he whispered and Envy looked at him in shock then he looked crushed, and Roy had to look away, he stood up and was about to leave when Envy grabbed his hand.
"N-no! Please don't blame yourself! I-I pushed you to do it, I'm sorry, you can blame me. Please...I..." and Envy looked down dropping Roy's hand the older man saw him start crying again. Stupid girl hormones...he shook that thought from his head.
"It's not your fault Envy, I shouldn't have done it because I'm 22 years your senior and I should have better control of myself, I shouldn't have done that...It makes me a pedophile." he said and Envy shook his head.
"No. No. It's...I did it. You... I've wanted you to touch me ever since I knew you were real, even before, I dreamt about you...I...I was in love with you before I even knew your name." Envy whispered and Roy's eyes widened and then Envy got on his knees and reached for Roy, "and then when I met you and got to know you, I fell harder, even when you hated me, even when you hurt me and yelled at me, I still loved you. And now when you're nice and laugh and smile, I thought...I thought maybe you could too. But I knew that you wouldn't...so I...I...I'm sorry...I..." and he fell back to the bed turning away from the man in shame. Roy walked forward then kneeled on the bed and took the boy's chin again.
"You manipulated me," he said and then Envy let out a small sob as he nodded, tears falling onto Roy's fingers. Roy knew that was because Envy had manipulated him and gotten away with it, just like the Envy from before. The only difference was that this Envy felt guilty.
"It shows just how much I care for you that you are able to get away with it," he said and another tear fell from Envy's eye, Roy's thumb came up and wiped it away.
"Please don't cry, I'm not going to kick you out or shun you or anything," he murmured and wiped another tear away. Envy gazed up at him hopefully and Roy sighed.
"I know this is probably going to end badly and I really don't want you to get hurt...but I really don't like you crying...so...I can try...being with you, okay?" Roy asked and he saw the way Envy's eyes lite up and knew this was a mistake, but hoped that it wasn't because that look was so much better than anything else that Roy had ever seen. And it made him feel happy, it made him hope that eventually this would work.
(NOTE: Real hermaphrodites...can't do that, they're pretty much sexually screwed, and not in a good way. :( sad for them I know.)
