Mood Music—Emmy Rossum and Dashboard Confessional
Extra #1
Jason' point of view
(Ally's significant other)
I sat down by her bed. Silent, and thoughtful.
Ever since Alex had….left. All I could think about was this girl. Wonderful and smart and beautiful. I could not stop thinking about her. And I am not ashamed of it. In fact…I do believe that I love her.
So what happens when you are more scared of life then you should be? What happens when you want to crawl back under your rock and never come back out? When you want to shed so many tears that you could fill a river and then the ocean?
What happens when the beautiful girl in front of you may never wake? And what happens when you love said girl?
When all you want is for time to slow down, or better yet…to stop altogether?
I took a deep breath…and looked at her face. So peaceful, and so painless… I just wish she didn't look so peaceful without me…I know I sound shallow and self-centered.
"Ally… I…I don't know what to say. All I want to do is cry. But I'm staying strong. Your family…they miss you. I-I miss you too. You can't possibly know how much. I wish that I knew a way to make you stay with me. All I can do is plead with you. Wake up. I...I don't know what to do without you here with me. I just want to die without you around." I said, and the tears started to flow. I lied. I do know what to say. I need to say that I love you. I need to say for you to stay. I need you….
"I-I don't know if I've ever said this before but if I don't now… I don't know if I ever will."I say and then I take a deep breath. I need to tell you…that I love you, that you're the only one for me and that I'll never meet any one like you…ever again.
"I love you," I breathe. "You are my world and I can't lose you. Please…I'm begging… please wake up. If not for me…then for your family. They love you too. And I-I J-j-just can't lose you. Please Ally…for me wake up." I whisper and I can't fight the tears any longer. My heart lays open as if it were going to die any second, which in all honesty….it just may. If Ally goes…then my heart goes with her and there is no stopping it. I stood, knowing that I need to get out of here…with her unable to speak…all it did is scare me into thinking things that I don't want to think.
"I love you," I say, as I kiss her cheek. My eyes closed as I savor the touch. I never want to pull away. I know my tears aren't going to stop until she's safely in my arms…. And I turn my head. I see her open eyes, and my breath catches.
"Ally?" I whisper, and I watch for a second to make sure that I wasn't imagining things, and then ever so lightly I place my lips on hers and then pull away.
"She's alive!!!" I yell, and then the doctors and nurses swarm. And I'm pushed away with one thought.
She's alive!
