Ain't no accident
I went to Bruma, on account of that contract. I made a strong paralysis poison on the way there. It would last a full minute. I visited the mages guild and learned a powerful enough lock opening spell. It cost me 400 gold.
I was ready. I snuck around the back, like Annie said. I pressed my hand against the lock. A yellow flash, and I was in. It was almost 10 PM. I crept as fast as I could and got to the crawlspace. I slashed the fastening. Thwack!
When I got back to Cheydinhal, and received my 500 gold, and Sufferthorn. I noticed the guild was almost empty. Gogron and Taelendril went out on a dual contract. Annie went out to get food supplies. Teinaava was going to the first edition to pick up an order. Ocheeva visited Lucien or something. Mraaj-Dar is a jerk, so I avoid him.
So I talked to Vicente. "Do you ever think about what your doing? When you murder someone?" He chuckled "Of course brother, but Sithis demands it." "Yeah, I know, it's just that whenever I think about what I've done, I just feel horrible. I ended peoples lives. Whenever I think about it I think about it from the other persons perspective. Imagine your life, ended, all of the sudden, oftentimes without your knowledge." "That kind of thinking is rare in the Dark Brotherhood. Oftentimes people in this guild feel no remorse for even their first murder." "I know, it's because I didn't set out to murder someone in the first place. It was spontaneous." "I never knew myself capable of the things I did after I became a vampire." "Does it get easier?" "Yes" I had felt no remorse as long as I had no time to think.
I practiced sword-fighting until Annie came back. She made a brunch/linner type thing because I hadn't been there for either. "Annie, can you make me a powerful fatigue poison so I can fall asleep?" "Why?" "I've been having nightmares" "Since when?" "Before I got here, and I just think that today it will be worse." "Okay." It was the same nightmare as before, but with the names of people I murdered, then the ground would open up and their bodies would come out and eat me. It used to be only three, but today it would be four.
