I know, I know, it's been a whole week. I apologize. I didn't have the inspiration to write. But it's back now & it's here to stay!
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That night she keeps replaying the scene in the kitchen over and over in her head. Was he really just about to kiss her before Damon walked in? Did he want to kiss her because he felt something? Was it pure instinct? There are so many questions running through her mind and she can't come up with any answers. She knows that she has to talk to him but she can't right now, she's just too confused.
Why does it feel like the universe loves to screw with her somehow?

"Elena, we need to talk"
Great, just what she needed. Stefan's looking at her expectantly.

She doesn't want to tell him to leave her alone but she's also not in the mood for talking "Careful Stefan, I'm in a mood and I don't really feel like talking" He walks inside her bedroom and plops down on her bed

"Too bad because we're going to. It's late and I can't sleep and I need to get this of my chest" That's just so typical Stefan. He's the insomniac so he decides to deprive her of her own sleep. Not that vampires need sleep but she wants to keep some sort of humanly routine.

"Hooray for me. You can't sleep so you decide to keep me awake too. Great!"

Stefan's smile falls and she feels sorry instantly
"You really are in a mood"

"Told ya"

She sits up and asks him to climb into bed next to her. If they're going to talk they can at least make themselves comfortable while doing so. He hesitantly climbs into bed with her and rests his head against the headboard.

"Great, now that we're comfortable. Talk"

She looks at him and he looks away and is that a blush she sees on his cheeks? She checks again and sure enough it is.

"Stefan? Seriously. If you want to talk, talk, otherwise I'm going back to sleep" She makes an effort to deliberately touch him while turning around and fluffing up her pillow. Just when she's about to rest her head on it he starts talking

"What happened in the kitchen tonight?" Why is he asking her that? Wasn't he there himself? He was the one who looked like he was about to kiss her.

"I don't know, you tell me, you where there"

He chuckles and if he wasn't blushing before he sure is now "I think I wanted to kiss you"
He thinks he wanted to kiss her? He thinks? What kind of lame answer is that?

"You think?" If he's trying to tell her that he's not interested and that it was a mistake he should just say so

"No, I know. I just don't know why I would want to kiss you"

Ouch, that hurt. She doesn't understand where he's going with this

"Well geez thanks that's really flattering Stefan. Wow"

"I don't mean it like that. I just mean that I don't know where it came from. It's not like I have any active feelings for you right now"

Okay, this is obviously not going anywhere. He's making a nice effort in making her feel like shit, that's for sure.
"Great. This is going really great. If you're trying to tear my self esteem apart it's working perfectly"

He bolts upright all of a sudden and takes her face in his hands. He's looking at her with his beautiful green eyes and she has to swallow real hard. She tries to look away but he has a strong hold on her head

"No, no. I'm doing this all wrong. Look, you are a very attractive beautiful girl and I wanted to kiss you in the kitchen but I don't know where that feeling came from"

She understands that. That magnetic pull they seem to have. Even when he doesn't remember their history, there seems to be something that keeps him coming back to her.

"What are you saying? That you wanted to kiss me but you can't?"

"No, I'm saying I want to kiss you and I'm going to right now" before she gets the chance to protest he presses his lips onto hers lightly and she gets all tingly and lightheaded inside. But right when she's about to really get into it he pulls back

"I'm sorry" He makes a move to get up but she pulls him back down to her and presses her lips against his. This time he opens up his mouth and she slips her tongue inside and they duel for dominance.

When they're lying loosely tangled together ten minutes later with her head on his chest and he's playing with her hair, it feels like paradise. She knows that Stefan still doesn't remember much and this kiss might not change a lot but it's a step forward and at this point she'll take whatever she can get.

"You know, we used to lie like this for hours at night. Nights were kind of our thing. We would talk for hours and hours or we would just lie like this after making love, just being content with each other"

"What would we talk about?"

"Everything. Nothing. Love, life, forever" She can hear his breathing slow down and she knows he's probably tired. A part of her wants him to stay with her tonight but she knows that she's in no position to ask him that so she just takes a deep breath and closes her eyes for a second to savor these last minutes with him.

"Elena?" She tilts her head towards him and he places a kiss on her forehead

"If you think I'm being to forward just say so but do you think I could stay here, with you, tonight?"

She just smiles at him and curls herself into his arms a little further

"I would love that, Stefan"

He places another kiss on her forehead and makes himself comfortable in her bed

"Goodnight Stefan"

"Night, Elena"

That night she has the best rest she's had in a long time and somehow she knows it's all because she's in Stefan's arms again. It doesn't matter that it's not like she always imagined and that he doesn't remember their love. If they can rebuild like this, she'll take it.


When she wakes up the next morning she sees Stefan looking at her with his green eyes blazing with love. For a minute there she thinks that she just got him back.

"Good morning, Elena. You are a very beautiful sleeper, you know"

"So I've been told" She thinks about how he could process that statement.

"I mean, you used to tell me all the time" She quickly corrects but he doesn't respond. He just hops out of bed and looks around for his shirt

"Do you mind if I use your shower?"

An image of them showering together comes into her mind but she quickly pushes it away "No, go ahead but don't use up all of the hot water"

"Or, you could just join me?" Did he seriously just say that? She has to stifle a laugh because that would be something Stefan would suggest.

"Thanks but I think I'm going to make breakfast first"

He makes a funny face at her and she has to resist the urge to actually hop in the shower with him

"I still don't understand why you eat breakfast when you can survive on blood"

She knows he doesn't get it and she's okay with that. Maybe, someday, she'll be able to tell him all of the things she learned when he was away but not right now. Right now, she wants to relish in the fact that he's standing in her room partially undressed looking at her like she has all the answers in the world

"I told you, it's because I want to live a normal human life as a vampire"

He chuckles and when she watches him walk back to the bathroom she can hear him say "That still sounds like some cheesy movie title but whatever"

Just when she's about to walk out the door she hears him scream her name and she tentatively opens up the bathroom and peaks her head inside

"Yes,Stefan?" she asks.

He pulls away the upper half of the shower curtain exposing his torso dripping with water but he just looks at her and smiles "Bacon and eggs with pancakes on the side, please"

She can't help but laugh "You think I don't know what your favorite breakfast is?" She has to resist the urge to tell him that she isn't the one with memory loss but she doesn't know if he would see it as a joke or not and she just can't take that risk right now. Not with everything going so great, she doesn't want to do anything that can jinx it.

"Oh, I forgot. I'm the one with memory loss not you" He winks at her and sticks out his tongue before pulling the shower curtain back.

When he starts humming the tune to one of her favorite songs she feels it, this flutterling in her stomach and that great magnetic pull.
Jep, maybe he doesn't know it himself but the Stefan she knows is silently trying to push his way through and hopefully it's only going to be a matter of time before he's back to the person she knows he can be. The person she knows,her love, her life, her world.


There you go, a little bit of Stelena fluff because you deserved it. It's been a rocky ride and you've all been so extremely patient with me and I just wanted to give something in return. But, be warned this is in no way going to turn into a sappy romantic story. There's still a whole journey they need to take (together & apart) so it's going to remain rocky!

Until next time!

Xx