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Katniss139
The next morning I can't take it anymore. I grab all my stuff and return back to the Cullens.
I need to talk to Carlisle or I'll be going crazy. I just hope he won't judge me but actually I don't give a damn if he does. He doesn't have a right to do so.
The run to Forks helps me clear my mind.
I know sleeping with Alec was totally wrong but it was just amazing.
Sure being with Caius or Demetri or whoever was great too but something about the way Alec made me feel was so different. He made me not only feel loved and desired like my other lovers but whole as well.
Once I arrive in Canada, Alice already awaits me on the front porch.
"Carlisle is still at work", she informs me. "He knows you are coming."
I nod quickly and without another word I run to the hospital where Carlisle works.
The doctor is already expecting me when I enter his office.
"Hello Jane", he smiles at me, kindly.
I just take a seat across from him. "We need to talk!"
The last thing I wanted when I learned about my mission in Forks was to be anywhere near the Cullens and especially Carlisle.
My dislike for the 'Cullen kids' and Esme has almost vanished completely but I still hate Carlisle.
"Of course", he says when he leans back in his seat. "What would you like to talk about?"
"Don't play stupid", I hiss at him angry, slamming my hand down on the table. "You know exactly what I want to know!"
It took me all my self control to not break the table or torture him. I hate how Carlisle pretends to not know me, considering our past.
"Jane, my sweet little Jane", he sighs sadly. "I tried to explain why I left so many times but you were never willing to listen."
"I don't want to talk about you being a terrible father", I get up frustrated, pacing around the room. "I am confused. I had like memories coming back to me yesterday about Alec and me and Fynn."
"So you finally found out?", Carlisle lets out a relived sigh.
"Found out what?", I stop to stare at him.
"The truth about Alec and you", he explains.
Now I am utterly confused what does he mean with the truth about Alec and me. Could it be true that Alec was my husband?
"We are not twins, are we?", I mutter as I sit back down on the chair again.
"No, I don't know how you came to believe it", Carlisle tells me. "I mean you remember and children."
If these flashbacks I have are really showing me the truth, Alec was or rather still is my husband.
Now I feel even worse than when I thought I had slept with my brother. If Alec is my husband that would mean I cheated on him the whole time.
Right now I wish I could cry. I mean what I did with Caius was always different to me. He was the cheating one, not me. It was Caius who chose to be selfish and willingly risked his marriage just to have some fun. Sure I was the one he was unfaithful with but if it hadn't been me, he would have done it with someone else. I didn't really care about it much since I have barely ever seen Athendora and don't like her at all but now I feel horrible.
Alec probably still thinks we are twins but than again he never approved of my affairs. Now that I think about it, he always seemed jealous when I was with another man. The only good thing is that he probably slept with others over the years as well. So it doesn't really count what happened the last two thousand years.
"Why did I think we were twins?", I ask Carlisle confused.
Right now I was totally overwhelmed by all these memories that came floating back to me like a damm within my head had broken.
I try my best to hold them back and focus on my conversation with Carlisle.
"I don't know Jane", he tells me slightly worried. "I have a theory but -"
"Tell me", I interrupt him, harshly.
"I think it could be the influence of a power", he was not even faced by my outburst. "Jane I think it could have something to do with Caius."
"That's ridiculous", I shake my head almost laughing. "He has no power."
"Please hear me out, dear", Carlisle says stressed. "I think it's his pwer to alter the memory of people." He lifts his hand to stop me when I am about to disrupt his speech again. "I mean you remember your children but not your husband? That is impossible especially since you have been together forever. Someone must have messed with your memories."
I have to admit, his theory isn't so ridiculous after all.
"If it were true and Carlisle had an ability like this", I start confused. "Why would he want to keep it a secret?"
"I think it's all because of you", Carlisle says so slowly as if he was scared, I'd kill him. "Caius had an eye on you long before you were changed."
"Now you've finally lost your mind", I burst out laughing loudly.
This time Carlisle really looks offended by my reaction. This is probably the first time someone doubted his intelligence.
"Jane Elizabeth Cullen-Bennet", he calls out angry. "I am trying to help you. I expect you to show me some respect."
It's been so long since anybody called me by my full and real name. People just call me cruel nicknames or by my first name.
"I only show respect to those who deserve it", I reply as I get up calmly. "If you'D excuse me now please."
I leave a baffled Carlisle behind as I walk out of the hospital gracefully with my head held high.
Okay, I take a deep unnecessary breath to sort my thoughts. I'll first talk to Caius than Alec or better the other way around. If Caius really did it, I can't assure anything.
I quickly run off into the woods before sitting on a cliff and looking down at a sea.
Right now, I just need to be alone and progress everything that happened. My talk with Carlisle actually made me doubt Caius. It is ridiculous that he did it because he wants me but the rest... It would make sense if he had a power like that.
I am not sure how long I sat there but when it got dark outside I walk back home to the Cullens place.
