I promised I would do my best to update. Also, thanks for the reassurance rudybluey. You are seriously an awesome person :), it really means a lot to me. I found out what's been going on with me, a major depressive episode. Yeah, they aren't fun. I'm slowly getting better though, which is good. I guess. Anyways! I'm sorry if I've made any of you depressed now. Also, as a heads up, this chapter is pretty much just porn. Yep. It's also my first time writing anything like this and I want to know how I did. I'm sorry to those of you who don't read sex stuff.
Summary-His life had been ripped from his heart right then and there. The second he saw the love of his life fall to the floor, his whole world shattered. But let's start at the beginning, shall we? Where the first hopes of love started blossoming, becoming real instead of dreams. Back to that case where it all began, where it all ended. Right before their eyes.
Relationships- Reid/Morgan, JJ/Will, Garcia/Kevin, pretty much all the canon relationships (except for R/M).
Rated: M, just to be safe
WARNING: THERE IS DETAILS ABOUT SELF HARM, MINOR DETAILS ABOUT RAPE, TORTURE, ABUSE, ADULT LANGUAGE, AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!
Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds!
Chapter 10: Long Night
"The journey of a thousand miles starts with one step."
~Lao Tzu
When they get to the house they sit in the car for a few minutes, trying to prepare themselves for the night. Reid was beyond nervous, his hands shaking as he looks around, unable to focus on one thing for very long. Morgan was better, though Reid could clearly tell that he was just as nervous, probably trying to think of a way to not bring back painful flashbacks for Reid.
"Spencer," Morgan says after a minute of silence. Reid jumps and instantly slaps himself for feeling so scared. He just couldn't help but think about James. Despite that, Reid forces himself to look over at Morgan. "I promise I won't do anything to hurt you, okay? I would never, in a million years, hurt you. We don't have to even do anything if you don't want me to, we can just fake it."
"I know," Reid whispers as he looks down at his lap. He seriously wanted to have the real thing instead of just faking it with Morgan, but he's scared that things wouldn't go well. What if Morgan didn't listen? What if he was too rough? What if he was exactly like James is in bed? What then? And then the sudden need to get James off of him washes throughout his body. He wants to replace James with something, someone better. To replace James with Morgan with every touch, kiss, smell, everything.
Without thinking, Reid looks up and leans forwards, swiftly pressing his lips against Morgan's. He can feel Morgan tense slightly at the kiss, but only for a second before the other takes part in the kiss. Morgan gently pulls Reid closer to him, holding the back of Reid's head with his hand as he gently gets his fingers tangled in the soft curls of Reid's hair.
Morgan sucks on Reid's bottom lip, feeling heat spread throughout himself at the soft moan that comes from Reid as he opens his mouth. Morgan allows his tongue to slip into Reid's mouth, exploring every inch and taste. He feels Reid's arms wrap around his neck as the younger lets out another moan.
The two break the kiss a few minutes later, resting their foreheads against one another as they pant. Reid's cheeks are a deep red but Morgan doesn't care, it actually makes him look cute, adorable.
"So, do you want this for real?" Morgan asks after a moment, the two staring into each other's eyes.
"Yeah," Reid breathes as the two part. Reid looks down at his lap, fiddling with the hem of his shirt. "I-I do, Derek. I...I know you probably think it's not a good idea so soon after James, but I just...I can't be feeling him anymore. Every touch I just...it reminds me of him. I want it to remind me of you, and I want an experience other than forced pain."
"Okay baby boy," Morgan smiles as they get out of the vehicle. "If that's what you want."
Morgan locks the doors and the two meet at the front of the vehicle again, instantly locking lips. Morgan wraps his arms possessively around Spencer's waist, pulling their bodies against each other. He hears Reid moan as his slender arms wrap around his back, fingers gripping at Morgan's shirt as he rubs his arousal against Morgan's own.
They make it to the front door through their deep kisses and moans. Morgan's sure that the neighbors probably hate them, but he doesn't care. All that matters is that Spencer is putting his trust in him, and he has to prove to him that he's not James. And that's exactly what he's going to do.
Morgan manages to get the door open and the two stumble inside the house. Morgan takes the keys out of the doorknob and throws them on a nearby table, shutting the door behind him. He then turns around and pushes Reid up against the door as they continue making out.
His hand is holding the back of Reid's head again, the other resting on his hip. Spencer's own arms are wrapped tightly around Morgan as he practically whimpers, begging Morgan to take it further. Morgan only chuckles as he breaks the kiss, smirking at the little whine followed soon after from Spencer.
"Easy pretty boy," Morgan whispers, noticing the disappointed look on Spencer's face, but the lust is still obviously there in his eyes. "We don't want to take this too fast."
"I know," Reid replies with a small smile as he leans forwards, resting his face against Morgan's neck, which he soon starts nuzzling. Morgan only chuckles and shakes his head, hugging Reid.
"Let's take this to the bedroom," Morgan says as he leans his head down, growling in Spencer's ear. Spencer only moans in response, nodding eagerly. Without any warning Morgan swiftly picks up Reid bridal style, earning a surprised yip from the young genius as he makes his way down the hall to the bedroom, kissing Spencer once more.
Morgan nudges the door open with his foot and walks into the room, not even bothering with the light as he lays Spencer down on the bed. Morgan then climbs ontop of his love, the two continuing their intense make out session with one another. Morgan is laying in between Spencer's spread legs and he can feel his arousal against his own, making him moan softly.
Spencer slowly turns his head, giving Morgan free access to his neck. Which he puts to good use. Morgan instantly leans down and starts to slowly suck on Spencer's neck, earning a loud moan from the younger as he slightly twitches underneath Morgan with anticipation, his hands gripping the blankets.
His back slightly arches off the bed when he feels Morgan' tongue lick over the tender flesh of his neck as Morgan is still sucking on his neck, sending soft shivers down his spine, despite the fact that he doesn't feel cold. In fact, he feels hot. Really, really hot. But he doesn't care because it's the cause from his arousal, from the intensity of the lust he is feeling for Morgan.
"Please," Spencer breathes as he moves his hands to the bottom of Morgan's shirt. He tugs upwards, telling Morgan to take his shirt off. Morgan only smiles against Reid's neck as he slips his hands under Reid's own shirt. He carefully lets his hands slide over Spencer's soft skin, being mindful of the bruises and healing cuts from James. From what Spencer had told him, James liked playing around with a knife.
"Slowly pretty boy," Morgan says as he feels Spencer moan at the touch. He gently trails kisses up and down Spencer's neck and jaw, over his cheeks and forehead. Spencer thrusts his hips forwards, panting as Morgan sucks on his neck once more.
Morgan's hands are still roaming his torso, but they come to a stop at his chest, hands cupping both sides over his nipples. Reid lets out a whimper, throwing his head back to give Morgan a completely free access to his whole neck. Morgan instantly takes this opportunity to strike, quickly moving his lips over Spencer's skin until his mouth is right above the front of his neck.
He swiftly opens his mouth and gently bites down on Reid's adam's apple, which earns a loud moan from Reid as his back instantly arches off the bed. He was getting tired of Morgan teasing him like this, just wanting to have Morgan already.
"Please M-Morgan," Reid breathes out, eyes closed with bliss as his hands slip under Morgan's shirt, fingers exploring all the toned muscles of Morgan's abdomen. He felt another flash of heat through his body at the thought of how long Morgan could probably go, only making him even more excited.
"Alright fine," Morgan chuckles as he gently takes Reid's shirt off to show his beautiful pale skin. Despite all of the bruises, Morgan still sees the true beauty that is his genius. His genius and no one else's.
It doesn't take long for their clothes to be littered across the floor. Both of them are already hard as they continue with kissing, though Reid is mostly receiving. Morgan is gently trailing kisses down Reid's torso, gently sucking on each bruise and cut he comes across. Reid whines as he slightly arches his back once more, panting.
Morgan comes to a stop just above Reid's manhood, letting his tongue dart out to lick at the tender skin. Reid sucks in a gasp, eyes widening as his whole body twitches, eager for whatever Morgan had planned for the night. He was just feeling too much pleasure to think about the fact that they are probably being watched by a killer, and most likely being watched by Garcia.
"Alright, we're going to take this nice and slow, alright?" Morgan asks as he looks back up to Reid, who can't even trust his words to reply. He only nods his head, forcing himself to relax as he feels Morgan's hand brush the inside of his thigh. Just the thought of Morgan's face being so close to his manhood got his heart racing with anticipation.
"Please," Reid breaths, spreading his legs even more. Morgan only chuckles as he takes Reid's hardened member in his strong hand. Reid lets out a sharp breath, leg twitching at the touch as Morgan slowly starts moving his hand up and down, already making Reid want to climax.
"Not yet Spencer," Morgan breaths as he looks back to Reid's red cheeks. Reid only whines when he feels Morgan pull his hand away. Morgan then leans down, opened his mouth, and wrapped his lips around Reid's more than ready member. Reid lets out a drawn out moan, mouth open as his breathing hitches.
Reid's back slightly arches as he feels Morgan's tongue swirling around his member, eyes closed in pure bliss. His hands reach down and grip both Morgan's shoulders, though he tries not to dig his fingernails into Morgan's skin. He can feel Morgan smile and he lets out another quiet moan, throwing his head back when he feels himself closer to climaxing.
"Jesus," Reid breathes, slightly writhing as he feels Morgan speed up his head bobbing. The unsub would probably be furious that the blanket wasn't pulled away, but they could care less. They're doing it mostly for themselves, forgetting completely about the case and the team, which could potentially be watching.
Morgan pulls his mouth away from Reid's throbbing member, a smirk on his face when he sees the flushed cheeks of Reid. "Hey Spencer, you ready baby?"
"Yes, yes please," Reid begs, opening his eyes to look at Morgan's smirking face. Morgan then wraps his hand around Reid's now slick member and starts to roughly move his hand up and down, while at the same time he leans down and sucks on the inside of his thigh.
That does it, as Reid throws back his head. He opens his mouth and lets out a loud moan, his back arching off the bed, his hands gripping the blanket tightly as he feels himself orgasm. His whole body shakes and slightly writhes as he feels himself climax onto Morgan's hand.
"God Spencer, you're so beautiful when you do that," Morgan whispers after Reid slightly relaxes, panting heavily. Reid only lets out a breathless chuckle, his back easing onto the bed. He suddenly felt tired, but he didn't want to stop. He wanted more, and he's sure that Morgan is more than willing to give him just that.
"M...Morgan," Reid breathes, holding out his hand. Morgan instantly takes Reid's hand, smiling. "M...more, please."
"So suddenly?" Morgan asks with a chuckle as he shakes his head. "If you say so. Are you ready for the penetration?"
"Yes, please," Reid begged as he quickly nodded his head. Morgan chuckles once more and sits up. He repositions himself and reaches over to the nightstand, opening the drawer. He pulls out a condom pack and the lube, shutting the drawer soon after. He opens the condom and quickly slips it over himself, then he grabs the lube.
"Fingers or straight to the point?"
"T-to the...the point." Reid breathes, panting. The whole room feels suffocating from how how he feels, but it doesn't matter.
Morgan nods as he slicks himself up with the lube, as well as slicking Reid's entrance up. Reid sucks in a breath and grips the blanket again, already feeling himself start to slowly build up to the orgasm again. He felt the tip of Morgan's member as he lines himself up, pressing a hand to Reid's shoulder to keep him laying down.
"Ready?" Morgan asks as he looks to Reid's face. Reid's eyes are closed and he is panting through his open mouth, his face sweaty. Reid only nods, not even bothering to open his mouth.
Slowly, Morgan moves his manhood into Reid's abused hole. Reid lets out a loud moan, eyes being thrown open. His back arches as Morgan is completely in Reid, slowly thrusting.
"Oh god!" Reid cries as he throws his head back, mouth open with another moan of pleasure as Morgan slowly advances in speed. Morgan only smiles as he leans forwards and bites down on Reid's adam's apple, using a hand to rub up and down on Reid's own throbbing member.
"You already there baby?" Morgan asks, taking a break from his biting.
"Yes!" Reid replies, quickly followed by another moan as his back arches. Morgan bites down again and he feels Reid's whole body tense as he cries out with another climax.
Reid's whole body trembles once more, his back arching off the bed to press against Morgan's own torso, his legs wrapping around Morgan's waist. Morgan smiles as he is quick to reach out and hold Reid's hand, smirking when he feels Reid squeeze his hand with the painful pleasure of the orgasm.
He collapses a few seconds later, panting and sweaty, legs dropping from Morgan. His grip on Morgan's hand lessens and Morgan stops biting Reid's neck to look at his sweaty face, smiling.
"You're so fucking beautiful," Morgan whispers as he gently kisses Reid. Reid returns the kiss though they have to pull away a few seconds later so Reid could breathe, having not yet got his breath back from the orgasm. "You wanna keep going?"
"I can," Reid pants as he reaches up and brushes his hand over Morgan's cheek. "Now hurry up and climax so we can sleep, I'm tired."
"I can tell," Morgan chuckles as he presses his hands against the bed. "You ready? I'm gonna go fast."
"Ye-yes," Reid pants, nodding. He lets out a cry of pleasure as Morgan, true to his word, starts thrusting into Reid faster than before. His body movies according to the thrusts, his hands clenching at the blankets. He can feel Morgan's body stiffen a few minutes later before Morgan himself climaxes with a moan, collapsing on top of Reid, panting.
"Ready for one last orgasm?" Morgan asks, noticing the tension in Reid's member. Reid nods quickly, desperate to feel the guilty pleasure of the orgasm once more, something James hadn't ever let him feel.
Morgan instantly sits up and pulls out of Reid. He takes the condom off and throws it away in the trash near the nightstand. He then takes his manhood in his hand and quickly starts rubbing. Within minutes Reid is crying out once more, back arching, hands gripping at the blankets as the orgasm seemed to rip through his entire body causing fierce tremors throughout his muscles.
Reid collapses a few seconds later, panting. Morgan moves and lays down on his side beside Reid, who had rolled over to face Morgan, still panting. His cheeks are red though he's smiling as Morgan gently pulls him closer, their bodies pressed up close against each other.
"Jesus christ you really know what you're doing," Reid breathes after a minute of silence as he snuggles close against Morgan's warm body. "I love you."
"I love you to pretty boy," Derek chuckles as he gently runs his fingers through Reid's hair. "Now get some sleep, okay? It's been a long night."
"Always go with the choice that scares you the most, because that is the one that is going to help you grow."
~Caroline Myss
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