I love you guys all so much! You are reviewing constantly! Hope you like this chapter! It's base a year later, and Alice STILL Hasn't returned, which measns Jasper hasn't either. Renesmee looks thirteen, but she's really only a year old! He he!

E.P.O.V

"But why can't I go daddy?" Renesmee asked, her face twisted in that sad little face she always made. It broke my heart to have to say no to her.

"Because, sweetheart, I don't want you getting hurt. You can stay here with Jacob. You'll have fun, I'm sure."

She smiled slightly. Ever since we had found out that he had imprinted on her , they were an unbreakable match, practically joined at the hip. "No baby." I said, kissing her cheek. "Next time, I promise. Stay with Jacob tonight."

"Will you come back with Alice?" She asked.

I sighed. "I don't know. Her scent trail is all over the place…"

"I can help!" She sqealed. "I really, really can! I have a really good sense of smell!"

"No." I said, finalizing it.

She crossed her arms over her chest. "It's either that or YOU stay home! I want to be with YOU daddy."

How was she ever going to move on? After really getting to understand about her mother, she didn't want me to ever leave her. Of course, my family had made it worse by telling her that every day I wished myself dead. "Honey…"

"Forget it Edward." Emmett said, a smile on his face. "We'll go. I doubt you'll miss any action anyway. Alice has led trails all over the place. We won't find her."

I sighed and placed my hand on my forehead. Damn Alice! She came and went here as she pleased, leaving her trails but nothing else. At times I thought she went crazy. She would sometimes, to my greates displeasure and heart break, would leave a piece of Bella's clothing on her path. I hated her, and I cursed the day I would come face to face with her again. I constantly wondered what she was trying to get at.

"Fine." I huffed. "How can I leave you, Nessie?"

"Don't call me that!" She hissed, before running off, no doubt, to find Jacob.

"She's growing up well." Carlisle said.

I nodded. "She looks a lot like her mother."

He nodded. "I'm sure we'll find Alice. I don't know what she's doing, leaving Bella's stuff around."

"Can a vampire go crazy like that? I mean…"

"I'm not sure. But what stumps me the most is that Jasper's scent is involved as well. Jasper isn't that kind of person. We just need to be there at the right time…"

"I know. I'll stay with Nessie today, but tomorrow I must go. I need to figure all this out. Why Alice is doing all this."

He placed his hand on my shoulder. "All in good time my son. All in good time."

I walked back to the living room to find Nessie and Jake cuddled up on the couch. Jacob had become a constant visitor after Bella died. I didn't mind, as long as he didn't do anything bad to my baby girl.

We brought in furniture gallore for Renesmee and him. They always sat in the living room and played silly games.

"Daddy!" Nessie shrieked. "You stayed!"

I nodded. I looked at Jacob. His eyes were always somber, only lighting up when he was with Nessie. But once we found Bella's articles of clothing, he and I both broke again, reaching a state of horror and misery.

I could still see Bella's face, lit up by the fear of death. I hoped that Angles had taken her into their wings, and that she was happy now, knowing that I lived for her wish.

Renesmee was beaming in Jacob's arms. I wanted that, to love again. But I wouldn't let myself even think about other women. Whether Bella was alive or dead, she was my life, my love, and even my little lamb. No force could tear us apart.

Nessie looked up at me. "What's wrong daddy?" She asked. "Are you alright? Your starting to worry me with these constant black out scenes."

"I'm fine Nessie. No problems. I'm just…proccupied. That's all."

"Is it mom again?" She asked, her voice dropping to a whisper and she straightened herself up in Jacob's arms. "We can talk about it if you want?"

I looked down. I was already broken, beaten, and burned on the inside. Talking about it would hurt worse. But at the same time, maybe it would heal some of the cuts that were still bleeding after all of this time. Maybe it would sting, but maybe it woul heal.

"Do you miss her?" She asked. I could tell Jacob was unconfortable, shifting every minute as we talked.

I described Bella in great detail to Nessie, who smiled the whole time, soaking it all in. "She must have been beautiful."

I nodded. "She was like an ancient godess."

She glanced quickly at Jacob. I knew she loved him. IN her mind I could hear, He loved mom. I wish I could of gotten to know her more. All I have left is that one memory she gave me. Full of so much love and passion. I wonder if Jacob and I wll ever have that strong a connection. If we would ever love like that…