AN: WOW! What a better response than I had even imagined to receive on the last chapter! The reviews surprised me and I have taken them all into consideration. This first chapter will be from Winry's POV and it will be short, the second will be from Ed's and the third will be from Al's...and then after that there may be one or two more chapters to tie up some loose ends. I will do my best to give you guys another double update today. Your reviews have motivated me more than I can even say! All will become clear soon! HUGE THANKS TO: Le Confidant, RuKkA, Mikigotagun, Joker Oak, AnimeGodess14, canagg and AnimeControl for your reviews! All of your input has been more appreciated than you know!
Disclaimer: No rights to FMA or there would have been a make out scene in the end of Brotherhood hehe.
I spent the best years of my life,
Waiting on the best years of my life.
So what's there to write about?
What have I done?
What have I done?
So is this my destiny?
From starlight into eternity.
The gods must be laughing down at me.
Ha ha ha.
Cursive - "What Have I Done?"
Kissing Alphonse was a completely different experience from kissing his brother. As their tongues moved against each other she felt herself giving away a piece of herself that she hadn't even known she had to give. With Alphonse it wasn't the out of control need that she felt with HIM but a slow sort of warming that seemed to bring heat to her chilled soul. She was curiously trying to to become familiar with every inch of his inviting mouth. Running her hands greedily over his hard chest and smooth skin, she tried to wipe the memory of the elder Elric from her mind by learning every dip and muscle of Al. If she was going to marry this man, her friend, it was only right that explore him fully, she tried reasoning with herself even though she knew she lying to herself. She had been developing an attraction to Al that she couldn't seem to understand. Maybe it was that he looked so much like his brother, maybe it was just that with him she knew where she stood. Either way the feelings were there even if they weren't the right ones. Perhaps Al was right, maybe in time she would grow to love him the way any wife would love their husband. Or maybe that was the line she was trying so hard to force feed her heart, and there in that moment entwined with Alphonse, she let herself picture that HIS hands were on her and that HIS mouth was pressed to hers. Abruptly the image of the golden eyed man shattered her illusions and she broke away from Al, breathing heavily. She watched as the younger alchemist took a dazed step away from her as he attempted to collect himself. After a few minutes, he seemed to return to the situation.
"Well, uh... we should get ready to go to Liore so I can speak with Brother about everything. If we pack today we can catch a train tomorrow and be there by the end of the week." Clearing his throat, he noticed that she hadn't responded and continued. "Of course if you don't feel well enough to come with me, or you would rather stay here that is fine too." Looking at her briefly, his face flushed as he focused on anything but her. Maybe he was worried that she wouldn't want to go for unease of being so close to his brother.
"No I will be fine Al, I'll pack in a little bit and ride with you in the morning. But right now I'm starving so I'm going to make us some food." She gave him the brightest smile she could muster, really she was hoping he would excuse himself so that she could have a minute to take everything in by herself. He must have picked up on that as well from his next words.
"That sounds great Winry, I'm pretty hungry as well. I'll just go take a shower and be down in a while." This time when she smiled at him, it wasn't forced and she wondered just how he was able to understand what she wanted without having to ask him but either way she was grateful.
As soon as he left the kitchen, she stood up from the chair she had been sitting in and walked into the spare parts room, closing the door softly. Bumping into the wall, she couldn't even force herself to remain standing and slumped slowly to the floor. She could actually hear her conscious screaming at her, 'WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING, ROCKBELL!?' as she replayed the last twenty minutes of her life back in her mind. Once again the older brother's face flashed in her mind, knocking the wind from her lungs. Pressing her face into her palms, she tried and failed to stop the flow of tears that had sprung painfully to her eyes. Shaking from head to toe, she clenched her hands into fists and opened her mouth to scream soundlessly. 'WHAT HAVE I DONE!?' How was she supposed to carry his child within her and not be with him? How was she supposed to explain to the child that she had married their parent's brother? Could they just never tell the child? Of course they would, she had to. She could attempt to live one lie, but two? No, that was impossible. This whole scenario was impossible and completely unfair to Alphonse. Dropping one of her balled fists to her stomach, she caressed the place where the new life was inside her and spoke with a wavering voice, "No matter what, we just have to keep moving forward. At least that is what your dad would say if he were here right now." Closing her eyes, she tried to calm her erratic breathing. This kind of emotional turmoil would not be good for the baby, even if she felt like her world was ending she needed to pull herself together. Standing awkwardly, she turned to face the mirror that hung on the wall. Her eyes were red rimmed and raw, it seemed all she had done the last few weeks was cry. Half of the reason that she now knew, could be from the pregnancy while the other was from the weight of picking up the pieces of her life after being left again. Looking at her shell shocked and haggard reflection, she winced at the woman in the glass.
When she was young, she had thought if she was just patient and waited, good things would come her way, however now that she was older she wondered what new lie she would replace the previous with. The sound of the shower squeaking startled her, causing her to come back to reality. She needed to let Garfiel know that she would leaving. Cringing, she thought about telling him about the pregnancy and her engagement but then decided to wait until they got back from Liore to shock the shit out of him. She knew he was the one person she could be honest with about everything that was going on and not face judgment from. At that thought she figured she should make him something to eat as well since he probably hadn't eaten either given the flow of people that had shown up when she was throwing up earlier.
Taking a deep breath, she wiped her eyes and combed her hair back into place with her fingers before leaving the storage room. When she got into the kitchen she rinsed her tear tracks off with water and set to making lunch, it was going to be a long day and they would all need the energy to get through it.
AN: Alright guys as you see this was a short chapter giving some insight to Winry's feelings and just segueing into the next one which will follow Ed as he receives the news about everything that is happening in Rush Valley. It will be a bit crazy but I personally can't wait to write the chapter after that. Hope you guys like everything and please let me know what you think!
