I laugh, "Thanks. You're definitely an eye catcher yourself."
She laughs and turns a brighter shade red, "Thanks, I think we should get back to work." She stands up.
I smile and shake my head at her, "You're so cute."
She looks at me while smiling, "Thank you."
I grab all of our stuff then walk over to the trash to throw it away. I walk back over to Erika, "I'm ready." She nods and we walk back to the store. On the way to the store I find out more information about her and she finds out more information about me, it's a mutual exchange.
We finish up our work while making eyes at each other. After our shifts are over we lock up then everyone says goodbye then head to their cars. I walk her to her car, "So I'll see you tomorrow?"
Erika smiles as she gets into her car, "Yeah, I have to work tomorrow."
I nod and smile, "All right, see ya." I wink at her then walk over to my car.
When I get in my car all I think about is Erika. She's pretty cool, well, after about eight hours together I think she's pretty cool. She's pretty damn cute. She wants snakebites, she says she's totally jealous of mine, I think she looks fine without them.
I arrive at my house around eleven and my family isn't home… I have no clue where they went, they tell me nothing. I walk into my house and into my room to find a note… why couldn't someone have called me on the cell phone. It says: 'Grandma Julia is in the hospital; we figured you wouldn't wanna go. I'll call you and tell you what's up when we figure it out. Love you, Rach.'
I crumble the paper up and throw it my trashcan. I sigh, Grandma Julia is Satan; she hates me. She was the one that gave my mom the idea that I should go to that stupid camp. I loved her at the beginning years of my life but then I guess she sensed I was kinda screwed up or I was gonna be a screw up before I did and she just hated me. I'm not kidding. When she gave out Christmas presents everyone else would always get five presents and I always got something relating to the bible… and maybe a jacket… from Pac Sun. I love Pac Sun but what about some money.
But when she finally found out that I was gay she tried to do an exorcism on me. She brought a priest, holy water, the whole she-bang… and my parents had to let her do it. That's my mom's mom so she was all like 'go ahead, do whatever to your grandkid.'
I roll my eyes and sit on my bed and right when I do the doorbell rings. I get back up and walk down the stairs to the front door. I move the curtain back to see Kyla and Spencer waiting on my doorstep. I open the door, "Hey, working girl." Kyla says walking into my house, right past me.
Spencer clunks in behind her, "How was work?"
I close the door behind them and lock it. I turn on my heel to look at them and they're just smiling, "Um, good."
Kyla smiles and nods, "Meet anyone?"
I shake my head slowly; confused, "No, well, my co-workers."
"Ooh, co-workers, I bet it feels good to say that." Kyla and Spencer chuckle.
I shake my head smiling, "Yeah, it does. So what are y'all doing here at eleven something at night?"
"We wanted to stay the night." Kyla says.
"Yeah, we figured you might need some cheering up after the day you've had." Spencer smiles.
I know Kyla told Spencer about Lily, "Because of my job or because my ex is in the hospital?" I ask.
Kyla sighs, "Both?" she says asking a question and making a statement.
I laugh, "Good, because I do need some cheering up."
Spencer smiles, "Well, let's go upstairs and have girl time. All right!" Spencer runs up the stairs.
I take a step up the stairs and Kyla stops me, "You're not mad at me are you? I mean I only told her."
I shake my head, "No, that's fine, I don't care. I'm kinda glad y'all are here."
Kyla smiles, "And I'm glad we're here."
I roll my eyes playfully and I walk up the stairs as Kyla follows behind me. Spencer's already in my bed and I can hear my computer playing a song. I walk up to the computer and look at the screen, "Hilary Duff's Fly?" I ask then look at Spencer.
She just sits there and smiles, "Yes!" Kyla smiles at Spencer and sits right next to her.
I shake my head and put my hand on the mouse, "Uh, not for long." I click a song, "This is better."
The song starts to play and Spencer makes a face, "Who's this?"
I sit on the floor in front of the bed, "Do you know, Ky?"
Kyla bites her lip, "This is… the last something that meant anything by Mayday Parade."
I smile big and smile at Kyla then snap my fingers, "Yes, you're awesome!"
She smiles and sticks her tongue out at Spencer, "In your face."
Spencer smiles, "Whatever, that just means you've been hanging out with her too much."
I shake my head and laugh, "Then that means you need to hang out with me more."
Spencer laughs, "I guess so."
We laugh and talk about random things. School, things that happen in Ohio and California until Spencer started talking about Ashley, "She's so clingy lately."
By this time we had all ventured downstairs to get some snacks to eat. Kyla's gnawing on a pretzel stick, "What do you mean?"
"Okay, last night I spent the night with her," she looks directly at me, "We didn't do anything."
I show her my palms, "I didn't say anything," I put my palms down, "Is that why Ashley was in her underwear this morning?" I ask.
Spencer looks down, "She likes to sleep in her underwear, I didn't tell her to."
Kyla nods, "Continue."
"Okay," Spencer pauses, "So we slept together last night and I told her that I just wanted to be friends tonight meaning no touching. She said okay but she kept saying the sweetest things and I felt like the worst person in the world."
"What kinda stuff was she saying?" Kyla asks as I swallow some of my sprite.
"She said that her heart never felt so broken and torn. And that she never stops thinking about me. Oh, and every time she goes somewhere she always wishes I was there with her and I just feel really bad. I mean, yes, I do miss her and I wish we were together but… I do like Carmen." Spencer says sadly.
"You like Carmen?" Kyla asks surprised.
Spencer nods and smiles weakly at Kyla, "Yeah. She's just so nice and down to earth. Ashley is, too, but she makes it hard to be with her. Everyone's always around her and flirting with her and I still don't trust Aiden…" she trails off.
I nod, "Understandable."
Spencer continues talking, "I love Ashley, I really do but I was hurt so bad, I'm just so afraid to be with her again."
Kyla smiles and nods, "That's totally understandable. If you're meant to be with her then you will. Maybe you both just need time to realize some things."
Spencer smiles at Kyla, "Yeah, I think that's it."
They smile at each other, "Okay so what are you gonna do about Carmen?"
"Well, we kissed, again, yesterday. I like her, she's someone different. She said she wants to go on an actual date with me instead of just little kisses her and there… she said she wants to be with me." Spencer smiles big.
I laugh, "So she wants you to be her girlfriend, right?" Spencer nods her head, "Then why aren't you together?"
"I feel like I'm cheating on Ashley. I know that we aren't together anymore but my heart is still with her."
Kyla nods, "And Carmen still wants to go out with you even though she knows you're still in love with Ashley?"
"Um, I told her that Ashley and I went out but she never really asked any questions about it. I don't think she actually cares." Spencer says.
"Well, she's a keeper if she doesn't care about your past." I say smiling.
"Why do say that? Personal experience?" Spencer asks interested.
I nod, "I guess you can say that."
"Lily?" Spencer and Kyla say together.
I laugh then nod, "Yep, she never got over the fact that I've been with other girls and guys."
"Why?"
I shrug, "I don't know I guess she wanted us both to be total virgins but me being me… I was far from it." I laugh.
"So she was jealous all the time?" Spencer asks.
"Not all the time. If I saw an ex somewhere and she was with me, she made it a point to hold my hand or touch me or something. And it kinda ticked me off because she wouldn't do that kinda stuff in school, I guess the mall is a different story."
"So why'd y'all break up again?" Kyla asks.
I sigh, "Supposedly, I kept her a secret from everyone here and I was keeping my options open because I don't love her whatsoever. I mean I'm not gonna make it a point to tell someone if they don't ask. It's like if someone is talking to me about the history homework I won't say 'oh yeah, you know what's not history? Me and my girlfriend.' That's just stupid, if they really wanted to know they'd ask."
Kyla looks away, "Sure."
I roll my eyes, "What's that Kyla?"
She clears her throat, "Well, I think she has a little bit of a right to be insecure about you being here."
Spencer nods, "Maybe."
"Why?" I ask.
"You have to understand that you're an attractive girl… a very attractive girl-"
"Gay much Kyla?" I say smiling.
