So. As it said in the A/N that was up earlier the competition about the new glee club's name is closed and finished. I have PM'd everyone who applied and told them either good or bad news. And so… the one who got the good news was….
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... and now it's time for commercial…
No I'm just kidding….
"drumroll"….
LocalXmusicXjellybeanX "applause" congratulations. I hope I do it well
And what name it was will come out in the chapter
Benjamin POV
When the last lesson ended I had to run through the roads to Mady's kindergarten three blocks away and get her from there. Then, to do it as fast as possible I lifted her up to sit on my back and sprinted down the road as fast as I could with her there, still missing the bus home with only a few meters.
"Oh damn." I let Mady down onto the asphalt again. "Well… next goes in an hour. Do you want to go to my school instead and we can sit there and play go fish until the bus is here?" Mady nodded, she didn't seem sad that we had missed it. Knowing her right I could guess that she was only happy that I had suggested go fish.
I took Mady's hand and walked with her over the parking lot and into my school. "See Mady? This is where I go to school now!" I had switched schools over the summer because of some rumors spreading about me and my family. In May we had moved to a new house in a new part of Lima, mum had to travel three hours a day to get to work and I and Mady didn't go to school in the same building anymore but it was better than going around hearing stuff about what my parents were or didn't were at least.
I got the card game in my locker and then sat down on a bench in the hallway where I could spread out the cards in between us and passed out the cards giving us five each. I lost track of time sitting there. As usual over and over again losing to my sister- there was absolutely nothing fair in how lucky she was in card games.
"Hello!" After a little while I heard the glee club coming out of the choir room behind me and Dakota came and greeted us. "Hey Mady. What gives us the pleasure for this royal visit?" Mady laughed at Dakota's words and I explained to him. "Oh, okay. I can't help you but if you want you can come home to mine again and wait there you can."
"Thank you but no thank you." I replied. "We've only got about half of the time to wait left anyway. I smiled when I saw Mady pull out for cards from her hands and added it to her group of points. "And I actually enjoy just spending time with Mady like this." Dakota nodded, said goodbye and then walked down the hallway while Mady beat me in go fish- again!
"Oh. I'm not so sure I want to play with you anymore when you just win all the time." I joked. "What are you looking at Mady?" Mady was leaning to the side looking at something behind my back. When I turned around and watched I noticed the door to the choir room. "That's the choir room I believe. It's where the new glee club have their meetings. There wasn't anything in there for several years I think before now when this guy from the library put up a new sing and dance club."
"There's a piano in there Benny!" She said, she didn't say it out loud but with the way she was saying it and the way she looked at me with those blue eyes I knew that she wanted me to take her, go in there and play for her. I hesitated- I wasn't so sure you were actually allowed to just go in there and play if you weren't a part of the glee club.
"Can you play me the song about that I'm beautiful?" Mady asked with her best please- do- that- for- me- voice. "Pretty please Benny." She pushed out her bottom lip and laid her head to the side, with her best puppy eyes and there probably wasn't any chance for me to tell her no, and even though I knew that I didn't gave her a straight answer yet. But when I saw the look in her eyes behind the puppy- eyes I knew what this was about.
"Mady?" I twisted a tress of her hair around my fingers and pulled it behind her ear for it not to get in her eyes. "Did someone at school call you something bad again? Did they call you ugly?" Mady didn't react for a few seconds before she nodded and now tears were shining in her eyes- I hated whoever had caused that.
"Come on then." I lifted Mady up on my hip. "I'll play to you. But don't listen to those bad guys okay? You are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out and outside and in. And you know I love you, and so does mum and dad." I felt the usual feeling as if someone had stabbed my heart at mentioning dad to Mady.
I sat down on the piano chair and lifted Mady down to sit next to me lifting the lock of the piano and lying my hands on the keys. "You're insecure…." I started playing. I had my slow, acoustic version of a song we both liked it. It was Mady's favorite band, I was not as obsessed with them as her but they were okay.
While I played I didn't notice that someone came into the room and stood behind us. I just continued playing the whole song with Mady sitting next to me and my voice echoing through the room along with the tones of the piano.
"Wow…" I jumped when someone behind me spoke and clapped his hands when I was done. "That was really good…" He sat down on a rolling chair and kicked himself over to sit by the piano and talk to me and Mady. "You love singing I can see!" I nodded. "I'm sorry for just barging in like this but… I would need another member in the glee club to make it an even number for you know- duets and stuff… would you consider joining it?"
"I'm very happy that you would think that Mr. But… I've already got enough on my plate without that."
"But Benny." Mady spoke up. "You should be in the glee club, you love singing and dancing and you always talk about that you wish you could do it more. And you would be the best on a stage." I sighed. "Come on Benny. You want to I know it." I sighed.
"I need to get my sister after school every day I told the guy who told me his name was Blaine and I was free to call him that. "I'm not so sure about this…" I should have known Mady would find a way to talk me into it.
"Can't I be here with you? Can't I Mr. Blaine?" Blaine nodded and assured me that she would be able to do that as long as she didn't interrupt our rehearsals. "And I won't do that. Please Benny, I'll be proud of you, and mum and dad will be so proud of you… And Benny… the boy you have got a crush on is in the glee club" I sighed- okay- she had done it again!
"Well" I began. "Why not give it a try? I can have some coloring books and toys in my locker at day that you will be able to play with if you're here okay? Would that be my audition what I just did or do you want me to do it again?" Blaine grimaced slightly and seemed to be wondering about how to do this.
It turned out to be so that everyone needed to audition in front of at least four people. And in some way it was decided that I and Mady would go with him home so I could audition in front of him, his husband and his parents like most of the others had done.
"Hello." When we stepped over the threshold a woman- possibly in her fifties came out in the hallway. "What's gives us the pleasure of this visit?" Blaine explained to her what was going and she kneeled in front of my sister first. "Hello honey, what is your name?" Mady seemed a bit shy and hide behind my leg.
"Hey, what's up with you?" I asked and patted her back. "You're never shy!" That actually wasn't true- even Mady was shy at first sometimes. "Well… do you want me to tell her your name?" Mady nodded towards my leg. "Well ma'am. I'm Benjamin Heedie, this is my sister Mady. Blaine brought us here so I could do a rule- right audition for the glee club."
"Oh, honey please just call me Carole. People calling me ma'am makes me feel older than my own grandmother- which I almost am by the way." I smiled, but as usual as for bad jokes Mady laughed so she almost choke and I stroke her hair and walked into a living room where Blaine showed me into and then went off to get his father in law and husband.
"Whoa." In the living room we were barely into the room when we were greeted by a brown fur- ball that came jumping up first on me then on Mady. I pushed her away but Mady was smaller and the dog was almost as tall as her standing on her back legs and stretching her front paws up she scratched Mady in the face with her claws.
"OW." Mady jumped away and hid behind me. I lifted her up and pushed away the dog. "Benny the dog hurt me." She whimpered, almost crying again. There was a long, red mark on the side of her face but as I checked it nothing seemed to be bleeding and the dog had been forced into the kitchen.
"I'm so sorry honey. Alice is so happy, she just wants to play with you." Mady nodded and leaned her head against my shoulder. "Did she hurt you much?" Mady shook her head just as the kitchen door opened and a man- probably as well somewhere in his fifties came into the room by the dog jumping and running and wanting attention. Carole sighed.
"Alice… calm down." She said strictly. "Here Mady, do you want to try and play with her? Mady nodded and took the toy Carole reached, when Alice started pulling I had to hold onto Mady when Alice started pulling the toy, and didn't realize that Carole had gotten up her cellphone and shot a photo of us three.
"Okay, so let's get to the audition." Blaine said coming into the room with another man about the same age with pale skin and chestnut colored hair. "Do you want to start Benjamin, here Mady, do you want to come and sit with us in the sofa?" Mady nodded and climbed up in the sofa next to Carole. "Oh I like your bracelet."
"I like my bracelet too" Mady studied the rainbow- colored bracelet she had made out of loom bands. "I can make one for you too. Benny's got one too because he's happy and some people doesn't want him to be happy" It was confusing for Mady when one thing meant two or more things- for her- gay meant happy.
"Oh you can?" Blaine asked and Mady nodded happily. "I would love one! What do you make them with?" Mady pulled off her Disney princesses backpack and pulled out a box with loombands. "Oh that's really fascinating"
"Don't open that box in here Mady. And I'm Gay Mady, gay… Oh well… I'm happy too." I sat down on the piano chair and saw the new girl from school come and sit down in the stairs just as I started with the first few notes, playing the same song as before- for the same person as before.
When I was playing, no matter for who it was, whether if I was playing guitar or the piano like this or just singing to the radio or by myself. I would get this feeling that I couldn't get doing anything else. And it was not what others was talking about that every problems seemed to disappear. It was more about that the problems were there, every time in my life when I had been singing for an important reason.
Singing with my dad and his friends, them drinking what I used to call bad drinks, and me drinking cola. Singing to my new- born sister to let her know that she was perfect even if the doctors said there was something wrong with her. In the hospital a year ago when dad was in a coma and no one knew what else to do.
They didn't actually make sense, but music gave me a chance to go through them all in a way that wasn't as hard as when I wasn't fixing with my music. And it just felt great, as if I was closer to it all- including closer to my dad than I was at other times.
"That is really good." Blaine said when I had let the last tone rang out. "Benjamin whatever your middle name is Heedie. Welcome to the glee club with no name yet." I smiled and laughed. Then looked to Mady who was sitting scratching the inside of Alice's ears at both side as Burt Hummel showed her to do and laughed slightly at her excitement for it.
"Benjamin." I turned around when I heard Carole's voice. "Would you two like to stay for dinner? It turns out I have made too much food for just the five of us again so it's either that or we will be eating chicken pie for every meal for days." I laughed, but hesitated about what to answer.
"I wouldn't want to be a burd…"
"Shush honey, you're not a burden. And if you were I wouldn't have brought it up." I scratched my neck- I couldn't help but feel that it would be nice to have a home- cooked meal for once for dinner instead of eggs, oatmeal or Portillo's as usual.
"Benny!" Mady started. "I think you should say yes, if I have to eat another egg for dinner then I will scream out loud. Is there a bathroom here somewhere?" Blaine got up and took her hand to show her to the bathroom. "Benny… I will scream!" I laughed- wasn't she cute my sister anyway?
"Well if you're sure. Then why not?"
"Benny?" Mady began when we were eating. "Will mummy be home when we come home?" I looked away and tried to seem like I didn't actually care about her questions- I knew which one was coming next and it ripped my heart out and stomped on it every time she asked- and I absolutely hated the answer I had to give my sister.
"No Mads, she have to work."
"Will daddy be home then?" I almost chocked on a piece of chicken.
"No Mady. Daddy's away on a long trip remember?" Mady nodded and hung her head, I hated the way I almost felt like I had to say more, before she asked me when he would come home and I wouldn't know what to answer.
Because how was I supposed to look my sister in the eyes and tell her that daddy wasn't going to come back?
Keagan POV
"SERIOUSLY?" I and Bradon heard Lea- Marie Hale who stood with Mr. Blaine outside the choir room on Friday afternoon. "Okay, the only thing that would have been worse than being like a nerd doing a duet with a teacher was Horrid Heedie, that son of the flipping stripper or whatever she is- come on. Rumors about him are all over town, if I do it with him they're going to find things about me as well."
"Poor guy." I continued walking with Bradon. "I don't get why she have to act like that to everyone. Can't she just be like everyone else and be happy with whatever she gets. And besides, I know that Benjamin a little- and I'd have it with him a hundred times rather than I would have it with her once."
"Well. She for sure is really spoilt." Bradon put his book in his bag. "Sorry… I wasn't listening really… Well… we've been back in school for a little while so how is it going?" I wondered for a bit, well. Most of it were going well. But there was that one essay!
"So we have one more week to work on that assignment Mr. Jackson gave us." I turned around to walk backwards and look at my best friend Bradon while we were talking. "And it's been several days and I still have no idea about what to write about. It's so annoying, my creativity is just standing still…. Don't laugh Bradon, it's not you who wants to write this stupid essay." I pouted like a little child.
"Why don't just write about what it's like living like a transgender in today's community?" Bradon raised an eyebrow at me. Ugh Bradon's so boring sometimes. Writing about that would be what everyone expected of me- I just wanted to do something else and something that they didn't expect. And that's what I told Bradon.
"We need to pass town going home." I told Bradon when we left the school. "I haven't bought candy for tonight yet." Bradon laughed again. "What, there's nothing funny with my movie- and- loads- of- candy- Friday- night- tradition." I turned around again and walked next to Bradon instead of in front of him, scared of walking into something if I continued walking backwards.
"I gotta pick something up at the post for my mum first." I nodded at Bradon. "We can walk there first right? I think it closes soon." I nodded, and walked up at the street. "Or wait. You go that way, I'll go this way, and then we'll meet here in fifteen minutes." I nodded, and jogged down the road towards the supermarket.
Passing around the corner I saw a truck standing on the side of the road. I didn't care much for it, but almost right away I saw a pair of legs. Right at the pavement there was a stair up to the supermarket and the books' store. But that was always there so I didn't care for that- no what I cared about was what I could see behind the truck.
I first though there was someone sitting on the stair because I only saw the legs, the rest of the body of the person was hidden behind the truck. Then I realized that if the person was just sitting- she or he was sitting in a real uncomfortable way.
I started walking a little faster to come there sooner and when I was close enough to look past the truck's back I could see it was a woman, possible around seventy years old, she laid with her arm at the highest stair, holding her body up and with her legs down on the lowest and the ground below. I looked up and watched people just passing by- how long had she been lying here?
I looked to the woman- she obviously had fallen. I looked around, why was no one helping her? She must have been lying here before I came up on the main street and God knows how long before that. I looked up again. There were people passing by, glancing at the old woman that silently laid looking around her. Maybe she was just sitting like that…
I looked at her, she met my eyes and continued meeting them all the while, while I walked by. "Maybe someone else is going to help" I thought almost walking by. "Oh come on Keagan, don't just leave it be. You're not better than anyone else just walking by. What's the worst that could happen? Worse than you beating yourself up for not doing anything?"
At last, almost having walked past her I turned around and bent down by her. "Is everything alright?"
"I don't know."
"Do you need help?"
"Oh… you shall not help me. You who are such a handsome young man." I couldn't help but smile.
"Does it hurt anywhere?" I asked and pulled the backpack over both of my shoulders. I was trying to decide if it would be the best to call an ambulance, maybe she was seriously hurt!
"I'm not so sure. I've fallen."
"Do you think you can get up if I'm helping you." The woman didn't look as if she was sure about that. "Well it's worth a try isn't it? Come on." I stepped up on the stairs to get behind her and get a good grip under her arms so I could support her.
"Do you guys need some help?" Just as the woman turned around a group of three people came from the resturant on the other side of the road. I looked to the woman, she answered them no. They walked away but I saw them turn around and glance at us while they walked down the road as if they wanted to check if they should help or not.
"So are you alright then?" I asked when she was up and she nodded. "Okay…" I looked to my watch- Bradon would already be waiting for me now but I had something else on my mind and ran down the street and to the corner where Bradon was waiting. "Bradon, Bradon. Can I come home with you at first? I have got an idea for this essay and I need to write it as soon as possible before I've forgotten about it again."
Bradon barely had the time to answer me yes before I grabbed his shirt and started running down the street. Bradon lived closer to town than what I did but it still felt like ages before I and Bradon- him more out of breath than what I was ran up on the Fredericks' driveway and up to their house. Bradon headed for the showers but I threw myself down by the desk in Bradon's room and grabbed the first empty paper and pen I found and started writing.
I loved these moments of just… when I didn't even had to think about what I was writing and all the arguments just seemed to get on the paper by themselves, Bradon had to sit waiting for a long while after coming out from the shower but still it only felt like ten minutes before I wrote the ending and I eyed through it
Today I was out on town. I came up on the main street by the bus station. And almost right away something caught my eye. Behind a truck, there is someone sitting or lying on the porch steps outside the supermarket.
When I came closer can see the person is a woman, she's old. About seventy- something. She is lyin with her legs on the pavement under the stairs and is holding herself up with her arm towards the highest stair. She wasn't able to get up by herself and I- like any other person with a conscience and a bit of common sense, walked over there and asked her if she needed help.
During the few minutes I stood there and helped her there came a group on three people and wondered if we needed help. When the woman said it wasn't needed they still stood right by and kept an eye on us. But the rest of all people then? Because as I said this was happening on the main street- it cannot be empty can it?
Yeah, the rest of all of the people they pass by. Barely even look at me and the woman and if they do they are probably staring. They pretend not to hear, keep on hurrying towards one for me unknown goal. They have obviously been both blind and deaf for people's need of help and suffering of the influence of today's community. And are pretending as if they neither see nor hear.
During the time I started helping this woman. She said in the hoarse tone that old people often has that- "You shall not help me. You who are such handsome man." I'm mentioning this not because I want someone to agree or not. But it is by these kind of compliments that you kind of get that what you're doing actually means something.
And wouldn't you want to feel that what you just did actually meant something. For one single person. Instead of just acting so damaged by today's community and only concentrate on yourself and your goal, you can do a small, fast but oh so meaningful act. I know what I would choose
What will you choose?
I looked up and handed it to Bradon. He read through it and then looked up at me. "You know Keags… this is actually good. Did you really do this by the way? I mean helping that woman?" I nodded. "So that's why you didn't have any Friday candy when we met!" I nodded and now when the essay was written I hung my head and acted as if I was really sad over that.
"Bradon… I'm ordering Chinese for dinner. Look at the menu and decide what you want. Oh hey Keagan." I greeted her. "Do you want to stay for dinner too?" I didn't have the time to answer- or even make up my mind before she continued. "You could ask your dad to come too. The more the merrier and after all it's only Friday dinner one time a week."
"Okay…" I said at last. "But I'm paying for my own food. I'll call my dad." Alma would do for a couple of extra hours before I came to take care of her for today. "Oh hey dad…" I started talking to my dad watching Bradon riffling through the menu. Even though we probably both knew already what he was going to choose- he always chose the same thing.
"And, surprise, surprise… I'm going to go with fried chicken." He handed me the menu and eyed through the menu while I said goodbye to my dad. "I suppose, that as usual you will be a bit more daring than me and go with something new?" I nodded and continued reading one crazy thing after the other out loud to Bradon.
"Hello Princess." Alex came into the room and I sighed at his usual nickname for me- and I absolutely hated the nickname. "Have you changed your body yet?" I sighed- I must have explained a thousand times that one, I was going to do it but two, I'd have to turn eighteen first. So instead of saying it again I sighed and continued reading the menu and didn't even look up when Alex left the room.
"So, Bradon…" I looked up when he had left. "Maybe I'll go with something completely crazy like fried octopus!"
Sharon POV
"Alex. I need to talk to you." I said, not being able to stop walking back and forth. "Do you remember… what we did? Well. It was a mistake. And usually, mistakes have consequences, well. This one have a huge consequence. I think you can guess what thinking about what we did that night. But I need to tell you, there is no way to tell you that will be easier than the other. So I'm just going to say it… I'm pre… UGH"
I threw myself down on my bed and stared up in the ceiling, pulling my beanie off and then my hand through my short, red hair. I wasn't sure for how long I laid like that, glancing up at the numbers which the digital alarm clock lit up in the ceiling, it was Friday afternoon and even though I mostly would be spending my Friday afternoons with loads of crisps, nice dinner with mum and my aunt and a movie. I didn't really feel like doing that anyway- which was good since this was the only time this week Dakota Lopez had the time to rehearse- and we needed to rehearse both this week and next if we were going to have a duet ready in time.
I sighed, mum came into the room and wondered if I wanted to call the doctor's myself for a checkup just to be sure that I actually was pregnant and it wasn't just some scare with a messed up test. I shook my head- she could call, she was better with talking on the phone than what I was- I'd only lose my thread and get stressed out and then mess it all up anyways. So it was probably the best she did it.
The clock kept on going, I heard mum talking out in the kitchen, the clock passed five and the time that Dakota had said he would come. It passed ten minutes past, twenty. And at last at half past five I heard a knock on the door. Mum was still talking on the phone and for some reason she sounded annoyed, so I pushed myself up and walked out in the hallway.
"Hey." Dakota stood out on the porch steps. "I know I'm late, not a big deal. Can we just get on with this now?" I nodded and stepped away from the door so he could step inside. I knew that the cardigan I wore was slouchy and that didn't actually matter because the fact that I was pregnant wasn't showing yet- at least not to anyone who didn't know already.
But I still couldn't help to make sure that the shirt was hanging on my shoulders in the just right way so even if I would have gotten bigger so much it was actually visible even if people didn't actually know… it would all be covered by the over- sized cardigan. Dakota had come in and stood in the hallway looking around.
"So are we just going to stand out here in the hallway or?" He asked quite rudely. I shook my head and showed him down the hallway and into my room where I sat down on my bed and showed Dakota to sit down in my desk chair where he sat down and put his backpack on the floor next the chair.
"I…" I began talking, but was interrupted when the door to my room opened and mum came in without knocking. "Mum…" I tried telling her not to just start talking because I could guess what it was but she didn't listen and started talking straight away.
"Ugh, the doctor have got some guy who is at a work experience at his. And I tried to tell him that we would rather have it just being him. But he just wouldn't let him and told that his student… some guy named Diego Lopez… and so you will be going to him no matter how much I tried to convince the doctor that he should take…"
"MUM" I shouted and stood up, spinning her around so she saw Dakota who sat by my desk. His mouth had dropped open and he sat and looked from me, to mum, to me, to mum, to me… and by the look in his eyes he was thinking really hard and even though none of us had mentioned why I was going to the doctors'… I might still be able to fix this.
Of course it hadn't crossed my mind that the doctor's student had the same last name as Dakota. "Mum… out!" Without another word I forced mum to spin around again and pushed her outside throwing my door closed after her. "It… it's just for a checkup." I stuttered. "I have been having a bit of these headaches lately and we just want to check it up so it's nothing serious."
"Diego Lopez is my brother." Dakota looked… well in fact he almost looked disgusted. "And he's on a work experience… to become and OBGYN. Oh Holey F*CK" He seemed to realize something and stood up and looked out my window with hands behind his head. "Mrs. Fischer... is there any chance you could leave me and Sharon alone for a moment. I need to talk to her alone!"
Mum squeezed my hand with hers and then walked out of my room. "Her name is Daniels. Fischer is my dad's name." I said, mostly to just have anything to talk about and because it was a habit. "Dakota…. What are you doing?" He had kneeled down and opened his backpack, pouring out what was in it over my bedroom floor.
"I found… I found a pregnancy test. It's positive and I found it in school." He grabbed a rolled up plastic bag. "It's yours isn't it?" I thought back to looking for if the corner. I nodded and he handed me the bag that I felt had the test in it. I didn't exactly know what to do with it. So I put it in one of the drawers of my desk and pushed it as far in as possible.
"Who's the father?" Dakota asked. I hesitated. I barely knew this guy he didn't really have anything to do with who I had had sex and ended up like this with! "Okay… okay… you don't have to tell me! Does he know?" I hesitated again, then shook my head just slightly at his question. "How do you think he's going to react?" I shrugged, then slumped down on my bed and answered for real.
"I don't know. I'm pretty sure that he'll just cut contact and not want anything to do with it." I wasn't so sure why I told him. But as usual I freaking spoke before I thought. "That's why I'm so nervous of telling him, and besides I didn't know myself until just a few days ago." The room fell silent for a while, then Dakota spoke again.
"I want to know how he reacts." I frowned and looked up at him- he didn't really have anything to do with this. "And if it's so that he doesn't want anything to do with this. Then I'll be here… and I will care for this baby, and for you of course. As if I was the father and the baby was mine." I frowned again- well he was a bit creepy wasn't he?
"I know you think I'm creepy for doing this when we barely know each other. But I grew up in a household with one parent. And even if I have had an awesome childhood and I love my dad and all of my brothers. Every child needs one male and one female "Adult" at least to turn to when it's needed." I couldn't help but smile. Say what you want about Dakota- but he could be sweet couldn't he?
I heard a slight knock on the door and mum opened it. "I know this is a bad time, but dinner's finished and we need to eat before it's gotten cold. Dakota would you like to stay? We're having salmon!" Dakota suddenly looked afraid and looked up at my mum grabbing his backpack and throwing things into it again.
"I'm really sorry Mrs. Fisch… Daniels… But I'm very, very, very allergic to fish. And I need to leave now before my throat starts closing up from smelling it. Goodbye." He hurried out of my room and then ran down the hallway.
"Well… at least we're lucky I told him…" Mum said and came down to sit by me and took my hand. "I heard what he said. He's a good guy. But be careful okay honey? Until you know him better at least? And you also need to tell Alex. Because he is not a good guy and it will only get worse the longer you tell him."
Carole POV
"…And here." I handed Blaine the money. "And seriously, don't forget the bread for Christie. And do not try and buy some other kind which is cheaper or whatever. Because now when Christie's living here we need that even though it's quite expensive to actually be able to feed her dinner" I gave him the grocery list. "Are you sure it's okay. Shouldn't I come with you anyway?" Blaine shook his head and grabbed his jacket.
"I'm fine!" Blaine moaned about me. "I'll call if I've got some questions or anything. Don't worry! Bye." I backed towards the kitchen door when Blaine left and then just walked back into the kitchen. I knew the boys were sometimes by it. But with both Kurt, Blaine and now also Christie in the house it was kind of nice to have someone to fuss over again.
"Oh good morning honey." I greeted when Kurt came into the kitchen. "Are you okay? It's not like you to sleep in, especially since I've already had the time to send off Blaine to the grocery store." Kurt nodded and opened the cupboard to get what he needed for his breakfast. "Which he definitely shouldn't be back for already- and especially not without those groceries!"
I continued- mostly jokily when Blaine came walking down the driveway which must have been barely five minutes since he left. "Carole." He stated when he came in and he had a weird expression. "Yes, yes, I know. I'm sorry I'll go back to the store and get those thing but… I met Bradon and his mum outside the grocery store and we started talking and…"
"And what?" Blaine hadn't finished the sentence.
"And it came out that I'm still wondering about the name for the glee club and Bradon… he came up with one and it's just… It's just perfect and…. Wow! But… But I want your approval to it." I frowned- why would he need that? And that's what I asked him. "Well… Bradon had come up with the idea with someone who… I'd like to call it Finn's Army"
"Honey." I said calmly to Blaine who seemed nervous as if I would get angry at him for this. "That sounds like a wonderful name for your glee club but are you sure? After all this glee club is yours and not his." Christie stood by the table and had been standing with her back against us but now turned around and looked first to me and then to Blaine.
"I don't think it should be called Finn's army!" She said callously.
"Why not?" Blaine asked a bit confused. "I think it sounds like a wonderful name and after all. Finn is a big part as of why I am doing this." Christie hesitated and I walked closer and looked her into the eyes- it was hard- it broke my heart how much they looked like Finn's- and my dad's.
"Well, everyone are always going on about Finn and how he was such an amazing person and everything. But the thing was he did loads of things that weren't that much of an amazing person, you know he did things that weren't amazing."
I felt anger boiling up inside of me… it would have if anyone was saying anything bad about Finn. But Christie- she and Finn had been best friends. "He wasn't always a good person that everyone are remembering."
"Christie… I can see there's something…" I tried, because I knew the look on her face- it was exactly the one Finn would have when there was something he had tried to keep a secret. God- why did they have to look so much alike?
"Okay… well… Finn he always told me…" Christie silent and then she looked up and looked me sternly into the eyes. Hers had gone almost black. "He promised he'd be there. He promised he would be there until in the end and then he just left…"
"He couldn't control that and you know that."
"HE LEFT CAROLE. HE LEFT YOU. HE LEFT US. HE LEFT ME WHEN HE PROMISED HE WOULD BE THERE. A GOOD PERSON DOESN'T DO THAT. TELL ME ONE THING IN THAT WOULD HAVE MADE HIM A GOOD PERSON BECAUSE THAT IS NOT WHAT A GOOD PERSON DOES THEY DON'T JUST LEAVE!"
I wasn't exactly sure what I was doing. I acted with everything had gone black because I just couldn't think straight at all. Then the sound seemed to echoing between the walls and woke me up. My palm burned and Christie had stepped away, the angry almost black look in her eyes- had turned into a scared and somewhat ashamed expression.
What had I done?
So, what Keagan wrote for the essay. I actually wrote that- almost all of that, on Facebook after helping an old man getting on his feet out at town and what Keagan does and thinks and what the woman does is all based on what happened to me this summer, only difference is that I helped an old man and he called me a beautiful woman not a handsome man… if he had called me that I probably wouldn't helped him anymore! Oh, and the fact that I wrote it on Facebook while Keags used it for that essay.
