Hey Everyone!
Okay, so after a two-part Faith POV, here's the other half.
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P.S. Only own dem Rossdales.
Paul POV
Whoever said anybody has the right to give up?
Maria Wright Edelman
Sam's couch became uncomfortable. Not just because it was small, because it reminded me too much of last Saturday, how my asshole of a dad sent me here. To make everything worse Emily started to bake muffins out of the blue. So I decided to stay at Jake's. But it was no point, since I didn't sleep. The sound of Faith's cries for help were always in the back of my head and creeping on me when my eyes would close. To keep my mind occupied, I've been taking almost everyone's shift. But even when I'm out there my mind is still thinking about Faith. It's really hard to think of something else besides your center of gravity.
I've been looking for my heart daily. I'd circle around her house, hoping for a glimpse of her in her kitchen or living room. But she never came down. I never knew why she didn't come down, but I just wanted her to. I'd sit on the front lawn facing her balcony, and just wait. Wait for her to open her balcony doors, climb down the tree and meet me at our spot, or even hitch a ride. But her door never opened. It never budged. But it's not like she's been ignoring me. She cries in her sleep, and chants my name. It would have made my day, but it's in fear. "Paul, save me," was basically what she said. It varied, but the message was across. Did it kill me? Yes. It hurt to my core. Apparently, she didn't know what was going on, or she knew as much as I knew. But I don't care about what's going on. I just want to hold her, and wash all her tears away. Stroke her buttermilk cheeks, and watch her cute little nose twitch when she focused on something really hard.
Dude, that's my sister.
Bo.
Yep. Still waiting for her?
I kept my mind blank. Like I wanted to talk to him.
Come on, Paul. Talk to me.
Silence.
He mentally exhaled, Paul, listen. It's not like I don't want to tell you, it's just that I'm not allowed to. You know how it was when you were a werewolf. You were isolated from everyone.
I gasped, Faith's a werewolf?!
He was uneasy, Well-
Did you know each of the suits on a deck of cards represents the four major pillars of the economy in the middle ages? Heart represented the Church, spades represented the military, clubs represented agriculture, and diamonds represented the merchant class.
Bo huffed, You're an ass Ace.
It's not my fault. Nico told me to, and since we haven't officially joined the La Push pack, Nico is still Alpha.
I sighed, Whatever. When you guys start to give a shit about hurting your sister, give me a call, will ya?
I ignored them, and phased behind a tree. I slipped on my shorts and made my way to Jacob's home. God, if I only knew what the hell was going on with Faith. The one thing that scared the hell out of me was knowing that Faith was in pain. I didn't know how much, but I knew her staying away from me was tearing her up inside. It also was tearing me up inside too. I have never cried this much in my life. Probably the only time I cried in my life before I met Faith was when I was just born. Even then, I was still a quiet baby, my mom said. But after I imprinted on her, my life did a complete 180. I was from bad tempered Paul, to soft Paul. Now I'm just 'get-the-fuck-out-of-my-way-or-I'll-shank-you' Paul. Well, I've got Nico to thank for that.
Jacob's house came into view, with him on the porch. I almost slipped on the mud in front of the house, and he laughed.
"Aren't you supposed to have perfect balance Paul? I believe we are werewolves..."
I snorted, "I wasn't focused on that, Jake."
He nodded knowingly, "Sorry, I know it's hard on you. I've been through it too, longer than you. But it doesn't change the way it feels to not see your imprint."
I shook my head, "No Jake. The situations are completely different. We at least knew what the fuck was going on."
He sighed, "Your right. Sorry for trying to make you feel better."
"Thanks for thinking though, man. You got guts to at least try."
He pounded his chest, "I'm like a lion man. Courageous."
I chuckled, and he smiled. I'm thinking that was what he was going for.
He softened up, "But seriously. You're my family man. It hurts to see you like this."
I nodded, "I'll stop hurting when I've got Faith. Now move, I want sleep."
He laughed, "You really going to sleep?"
"No. But I've got to try sometime."
I walked into Jacob's house and plopped myself on the couch. Jacob's house always felt like home to me, and so was Sam's house. But Faith's house was more of a home to me. I used to feel like I belonged apart of that family. But now, not so much. I heard Jacob on the phone and I tried to tune him out by shoving a pillow on top of my left ear, sandwiching my head between the pillow and sofa.
I heard the screen door shut, and Jacob smacked my back and started to walk away to the kitchen while saying, "Stop moping. You're making my girlfriend worry."
I rolled my eyes, "Izzy worries about everything, man. Did you see how sad she was when her flowers died?"
He threw something at me. It kind of hurt.
"She's a sensitive person. You should try it sometime."
"Let me go ask God for some new traits, and I'll get back to you."
He laughed as Embry walked through the door, "Hey guys."
"Hey Embry."
He came over and smacked my back. Twice in one day. "Paulie boy, what's up?"
I got up from my position and growled.
He put his hands up, "Whoa! What's eating you?"
He realized his mistake and apologized, "Sorry man. I forgot Faith was the only one to call you Paulie."
I nodded, "It's okay."
To be honest, I haven't been called Paulie in a while. Even if someone else said it, it would never amount to the way it rolled off of Faith's lips. Her beautiful plump and large lips that were on the lower half of her perfectly oval face. And her prominent cheek bones, accenting her gray crystals that were her eyes. I went into panic mode about Faith, and the room seemed to be getting claustrophobic, "I need air. I'll be back."
I walked outside and was going to prepare for a run, but I realized I've been running for the past week. So I just sat on the porch and put my elbows on my knees, taking deep breaths in and out. This wasn't relaxing me at all. I never felt relax anymore. I was angry all the time lately. But it was just a mask, because I knew that I was cowering away from the reality of the situation.
Embry sat right beside me. I huffed, "Get the fuck away, Embry."
He was eating a sandwich, and with a full mouth he answered, "Nope."
Jacob was standing behind me, "Em, something is off about today. Paul's more pissed, if that's even possible. Leave him alone."
Embry nudged me, "Why so serious?"
I rubbed my forehead, "Faith's birthday is tomorrow."
Embry stopped mid-bite while Jacob stiffened.
"Oh," was all Jacob could say.
I continued, "I bought her a necklace. The most perfect necklace you could find. It matched her ring, you know, the one she always wears? I saw it and instantly thought of her," I was rambling, but I still continued, "I won't be able to spend her birthday with her. And by the looks of things, her brother's won't spend time with her on her birthday to. She's going to be alone on her birthday. Her fucking 17th birthday. So yea, sorry if I'm just a little bit serious, but the love of my life is going to be alone on her birthday."
Embry put his sandwich down, "Sorry bro. Didn't mean it like that. You're free do beat the living shit out of me."
I laughed, "Maybe later."
Embry and Jacob started laughing as we heard Izzy's truck pull into the driveway.
Angela got out behind Izzy, and Iz shouted, "Paul! I found something for you while I was in Port Angeles."
This girl worries too much. She really didn't need to buy me anything. "What did you buy?"
She got cocky, "I didn't say I bought it. I found it."
The other door on her car opened, and two small baby blue Converses plopped onto the ground. The same ones Faith has.
No. It can't be.
The door shut, and I saw my goddess. Her red and brown hair was more luscious than normal, and her skin was richer. But she was skinny. She was always really skinny, but I could see her cheek bones, and she was scary skinny. Faith wasn't eating? I was a little mad that she wasn't eating, but when my eyes met those gray crystals my heart just about died. But was she really her or is this my imagination?
Her voice reached as high as it could go, "Paul!"
She was here. No imagining it.
I'd have to thank Bella later.
Fae started to run towards me. I thought her little legs would break if she moved them. I hadn't realized it, but I got off Jake's porch and started to run towards her. When there was about a foot between us, she jumped into my arms. I could feel the pain in my heart cease when I inhaled her scent. But something was a little off about her scent. Yes, it was still the sweet pea smell with the acai berries, but she smelled a little... ashen? Like a hint of campfire. I didn't understand, nor was I going to, because I was holding her. Something I've wanted to do for the past week.
She pulled away and took inventory of my face, "You haven't been sleeping."
Stupid profiling. I rebutted with a "You haven't been eating."
She did the cute mouth in a ball, off to the side thing I adore. That suckered me into apologizing.
"Sorry," we both muttered. Then we started to laugh. The sound of her laugh made it impossible for me to be mad at her.
She softened up, and suddenly, she uttered the words I'd thought I'd never hear.
"I love you."
My heart dropped twenty feet. I could feel Faith just make her way into my life more. I didn't know it was possible to, but it just was. The only person in my life to make me at my worst just by a few little words. My parents never said I love you, and the pack isn't the one to share their emotions besides their imprints. And my other girlfriends never said I love you to me.
This was the first time anyone has said those words directed to me.
I kissed her there and then, with no hesitation. All the pain and suffering drained into the kiss, causing it to be rough. As she put her soft, delicate hands on my shoulders, the agony was there no more. It was just passion. Raw and untamed. I was never going to let her go. My hands will never leave her perfect little body. I am not going to sleep unless she's sleeping in my arms. Nothing and no one is going to keep us apart again. I've lost her once, and I wouldn't dare losing my miracle again.
I pulled away from this kiss, and whispered the words I believed.
"I love you too."
I could hear her screaming in her head as she kissed me again. I wanted to sing.
I pulled away from the kiss too soon, knowing if I continued it, I'd probably take her there and then.
Faith didn't like that at all, and she pouted.
I laughed. She was so adorable when she did that.
"Don't worry; we'll do more of that later."
From behind me Jacob shouted, "Paul! You coming to?"
I heard that they were going to cliff dive. I'm sure Faith would love it.
I hugged her tightly, "Yea. We'll meet you there."
I hooked my arm around her and motioned her to my truck.
She was curious, "So, where are we meeting Jake and the gang?"
"At First Beach."
"We're swimming?"
She sat in the passenger seat and buckled in. "Nope. We're going cliff diving."
She seemed to be jumpy. "You guys Cliff-dive?!"
I smiled, "Yep. We're going to go to your house to pick up a bathing suit, if you don't mind."
She was literally on edge, "I can't wait to dive. It's been so long since I have."
She's dived before? "You've done it before?"
She nodded, "I was the best diver back home."
I looked at her, "Seriously?"
She seemed to laugh laughed, "Yea, I used to do it with Glenn all the time."
Crap. Glenn again.
"So, this Glenn. Are you guys close?"
For some strange reason, she smiled, "Yea. We are. But not as close as me and you."
I looked at her then, and knew I couldn't love her more. I put my arm around her and she snuggled to my chest. I was enjoying this moment. We were literally like Romeo and Juliet. We were meant to be together, but everything was keeping us apart. But we are going to have our happily ever after. If I have to face her family, then I will have the courage to do it. I'm not going to take shit from her family. They know I treat her right. They know-
"Stop."
Faith pulled me out of my thoughts, and obeying my master, I stopped. "Faith? What's wrong?"
She shushed me, and closed her eyes, focusing on something. She got out of the car, and was still focusing on whatever that thing was. I realized that she had me at every command. I'm her puppy. Literally.
She finally let out some air and said, "It's nothing."
I silently nodded and went to turn on the car. I put the key in the ignition and turned, but the engine didn't completely roar to life.
Oh, fuck!
I kept trying, "Come on, not today baby. Come on." I turned the ignition again, and it didn't even crank. I walked around to the hood and popped it open. I checked everywhere, and finally found out the problem. The timing belt just failed on me, and I was in no position to fix it. My truck died on me when I needed it the most.
Faith thought this was her fault, "Paul, I'm sorry I made you stop."
Why would she think that? "Never apologize to me. You did nothing wrong."
She nodded. I regretted taking my motorcycle out of the bed of the truck, and muttered it under my breath.
All of a sudden, Faith said, "Wait here Paul."
She ran without giving me an explanation. I was anxious now, because I didn't know what the hell she was doing. Well, she probably was changing. But I really didn't want to wait. The last few words I thought brought something up. Why was I waiting to tell Faith about me being a werewolf? Her brothers were werewolves, so she should know about them, right? Just then, I heard an engine coming close to my ears. I followed the engine's sound until it was at the turn. When it did turn, it was the most amazing sight I would ever get to see.
Faith was on the Harley Davidson I saw a week ago, wearing short shorts and a tank top, having her hair blow in the wind.
Oh, God. She was a sex machine.
She pulled up to me then. And with a smug face she said, "You like?"
I probably looked like an idiot catching flies, so I said, "I like the bike. But the sexiest thing I've seen and will ever see is you on that bike."
She laughed and got off the bike, "Too bad, you're driving."
She tossed me the keys.
Was she serious?
I looked at the bike again, and thought I've seen it before. I realized I've seen it in wolf form, in Nico's mind.
I'm not riding Nico's bike! "Nuh-uh. No way. Nico will castrate me."
She approached me, pressing her body against mine, "I'll bake your favourite chocolate chip muffins…"
The fabric of her t-shirt was really thin and that would have done me in. It was just a plus that she was going to bake her amazing muffins.
With a peck on her lips, I got on the bike, and she was tightening her arms around me. I go pretty fast on the bike, and she's wearing nothing but skin.
"Wait," I said. I got off the bike and made my way towards my truck, picking up my leather jacket that I've had since...forever, and offering it to her, "Please Faith?"
She shook her head, "I'll be fine Paul. Really, I've done this before."
She is really a stubborn girl, "Please?"
It looked like she had a dilemma with herself, but apparently got over it, because she threw the leather jacket on, "Happy?"
I smiled and kissed her, "Extremely."
I got back on the bike and said, "Hold tight."
I revved up the engine, and took a deep breath before letting go of the clutch.
I've never been on a Harley-Davidson. But man, they are fucking fast.
I swivelled in and out of traffic, and took a forest path. The sun made an appearance, and I thought that nothing could be more beautiful. Except for Faith. I risked a look at her, and when I did, I died. She was smiling. Truly smiling, from a happy memory, or she was enjoying the sun. Either way, it lifted my heart. It gave me a bit of courage to finally tell her what I am.
When we arrived to the beach, everyone was there. Even Claire.
I parked, and Quil stuttered out, "Dude, that's a sweet ride."
As I turned off the bike, Faith jumped off, "It's Nico's bike."
I could see the whites of Embry's eyes, "You know he's going to kill you, right?"
Faith put the blame on me, "Hey! Paul was the one who was driving it!"
I put my hands on my hips, "Excuse me? You persuaded me with your evil muffins!"
She smiled, "First of all, my muffins aren't evil. Second, I don't need no stinkin' pastry to persuade you."
I purred, "You want to make a bet on that?"
She played with my chest, "I don't do bets, because it wouldn't be fair to you."
I chuckled, "That's what you think."
Seth came to ruin our moment, "Come on, we're going up now."
She looked at the cliffs and was sad instantly, "They're so small. Can we go on the big one?"
Was she serious?! "Really? You want to jump off the top?"
She nodded.
My woman is psychotic, "We'll warm up first."
She did her cute little pout I was subjected to, but I wasn't going to lose this time. I walked up to her and trailed kisses everywhere.
I finished, and she seemed in a daze, "Okay, we'll warm up first."
I smiled, "You foolish little girl." Faith wanted to wait for Angela and Bella, so I just started making my way up the hill.
Sam came beside me, "I see you've got Faith again."
I smiled, "Yea."
He was curious, "Her brothers let you?"
I bit my lip, "I'm not really sure. She actually came to me. Or actually, Bella found her and gave her to me. So, actually, I don't really know why she was let out of her house."
Sam laughed, "You may actually be right."
I hung my head. I'm turning into a chick.
But he continued, "Paul, you have to respect their wishes."
"What do you mean?"
He sighed, "If they don't want Faith around you, you have to accept it. Now, it's not an order. But if you want to have her in the future, I suggest you co-operate with her parents and her brothers."
I was getting mad, "Sam! Are you serious?!"
"Paul, calm down. Now you know I want Faith to be with you. Do you think I like you moping on my couch? But if they say no, then accept it. That way, at least you know you have a chance, Paul."
Sam was right. Keeping Faith away from her family wasn't right. If they let me be with her, I will treat her like a queen. But if they don't, I can't keep her. It would make everything worse.
I can't tell her. Not yet.
We were at the top, and Seth, Lizzy, Collin, and Brady flew off the cliff.
Iz, Angela, and Faith just came then, and I enveloped Faith in my arms. We just stood there, in each other's arms as we watched Jacob and Izzy jump.
Embry clapped his hands together, "Who's going next?"
No one offered to go. Except for Faith.
"I'll go."
I tightened my hold on her, "You sure you don't want me to go with you?"
She smiled at me, "Trust me, you won't regret it."
She started to take off her clothes, and I could hear Quil whistling at her. I silenced him with just a look.
But that didn't stop him from being a dick, "Nice ass, Fairy."
I was going to say something, but Faith said, "Thanks. Want to see it at a different angle?"
What the hell does she mean? Before I could register anything, she started making her way to the edge of the cliff. She jumped forwards, but did a back flip. She did a couple more, and then plunged into the water, toes first.
Everyone had their jaws dropped. Including me.
Embry stuck his hand out, "I told you. Twenty bucks princess."
Quil whined, "After man. Paul, why didn't you tell me Faith was a secret gymnastic guru?!"
I laughed, "She forgot to mention that."
I jumped in after her, going head first. When I hit the water, I opened my eyes and searched for her. She was almost at the beach as I peddled towards her. When I got off the beach, she was already there, trying to catch her breath. I went up behind her and wrapped my arms around her, pushing her back to my front.
I purred into her ear, "You're crazy woman."
She laughed, "Well, would you want me 'normal'?"
I kissed her temple, "I guess not."
She turned and latched onto my neck, "So, what do you want to do? Because I really don't feel like being in the mood to go jumping off cliffs."
Feeling her soft skin on my hand, it made me smile.
"Hmmm, I could really go for a-"
"Faith!"
I am so ready to kill this person.
My eyes moved away from Faith, to look at her extremely shocked brothers.
Well, not if they kill me first.
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Xoxo N.
