BELLAPOV
The next day came so fast, before I knew it I was on the phone with the school's principal. He didn't ask me for any information, no transcripts or talking to a guardian. He spent over half the time just talking to me as a friend would, asked more about my likes and dislikes, what I did in spare time, how come I moved and where I came from. It's almost creepy that they'd let anyone in that school, almost as if they're desperate to get more students which makes sense. The more students they have the more money they can make. I think that they'd just be excited someone new is coming, and in this case it's two new people. I remember when I first came here, everyone was obsessed with me just because I was new. Nonetheless, the man was super nice and I picked the same subjects I was doing when I was changed. Jake gave me the list of courses he wanted to do too. By the looks of it we had a great chance of being together in all our classes with the exception that I took Biology and Jake took Chemistry.
I hung up the phone as Sam walked through the door and he smiled warmly at me. Last night I transferred a small amount of money in his account to take care of the house while having a fair amount of money left over. It didn't at all dent any savings I had; it made me feel good that I could do something for him, to help him considering he is giving Jake and myself the one thing that we needed.
"It seems I have come into some money. And by some money, I mean more than twice of what I had." He shook his head, looking at me.
"That's what happens when you have forever to live anywhere, not having to sleep, not having to buy anything." I winked at him, hoping he isn't mad at me. I search his face and he doesn't seem mad which is good.
"Bella, you know I can't accept all that. I'll give you back whatever is left over after the house is bought."
"No, no way. It's a thank you gift for doing this for us. Besides, we're not even sure what the house looks like on the inside. And we're going to need bedding, furniture, everything else. Keep it, please." My eyes were pleading, it was the only thing I could give him. And money didn't mean a thing to me, not a thing. And it was true what I was saying even though I was making it up as I was going. We will need new furniture and will probably have to fix up the house, new paint maybe. Just to put a touch of us in it, to make more memories.
"Thank you Bella. I really mean it. Everything went smooth though, she wants to meet me again at one to make everything legal and then it's ours." His smile was huge, he looked so happy that we were both here. Since Jake was no where to be seen I had a chance to ask him what I needed. There was something I herd a long time ago but I never felt comfortable asking Jake about it and I knew Sam would tell me and would keep it to himself that I asked.
"Sam, can I ask you a question? It's kind of personal..." I let my voice drift, clearly embarrassed and he sat down on a chair in the dining room and nodded. Sometimes Sam intimidated me, he was just so wise and I felt small by him. I cleared my throat and stared down at the table. It was now or never to get the answers I desperately needed.
"How come Emily knew about the pack?" I expected Sam to tense up, to be hurt to hear her name or have to remember her like I did when I remembered things but he never. He had a light smile on his lips, he liked to remember; that was clear. He obviously didn't want to forget her, maybe I should talk about her more. That's the thing with loved ones that passed, they stay alive in memories. However, in my case, I wish I was able to forget.
"Has Jake told you about imprinting?" Sam asked me, leaning closer to me. I shook my head, that's exactly what I needed to know.
"It's another magical thing about wolves. Imprinting is such a strong bond between two people, it's more than love, it's much stronger than love. I imprinted on Emily. It happens the minute you see them, in a way it's like love at first sight. That's the only way to describe it. It's no longer gravity that holds you to the Earth, it's her. You would do and be anything for her, she's your soul-mate. And since the bond and love is so intense, we're allowed to tell them about the pack. It makes things easier. It's the best gift in the world, the bond is unbreakable, nothing else matters as much as she does. You have no choice in it though which is the only downfall some see about it, but when you imprint choice doesn't matter." Sam's voice was warming, his face was glowing.
"What if you're already in love with someone, or at least with someone else." My voice was no more than a whisper and Sam knew why I wanted to know.
"It doesn't matter Bella. I was in love with Leah before I met Emily, but when I met her... There was nothing I could do." Sam's eyes went dark, it was obvious how hurt that made him that he had to leave Leah. I tried to hide my expression, I didn't want Sam knowing how I felt. It always felt like Jake loved me but that it could change. And now I knew why it felt like that, what if he imprinted on someone? I'm positive he didn't imprint on me, but I don't want him to imprint on anyone else. I loved Jake and I didn't want to lose him, I could barley think about him being with someone else; it would devastate me and I don't think I could be around him. I could hear Jake coming closer to the house and the conversation had to be ended.
"Sam, can you keep this between us?" I whispered and he nodded, I always knew I could trust him. I kept hearing Jake get closer and closer and then he was through the door. He came over and gave me a kiss on the cheek and I shuffled a little bit away from him, I don't know why but I wanted to get a bit of distance from him. I felt like I was suffocating, the news about imprinting really struck a nerve with me and I didn't know what to do. Jake loves me, I'm sure but he can imprint on anyone so easily and then I'm just left behind. Another used toy. I wanted to keep Jake but if he's destined to be with someone else ... I don't know what I'd do without Jake, he's the only reason I am where I am. He's my best friend, he's everything I have. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to be without him. Maybe that's just my destiny, to be alone for eternity. I could feel that too familiar hole starting to open in my chest and I needed to go, to clear my head. I looked at the time and Sam would be leaving soon. I had to leave, I had to get out of here; I didn't want to be around Jake right now.
"Sam, can I come with you?" I asked, my voice sounded funny and Jake noticed. His brows went together while trying to get a look at my face; I knew if he seen me it would give everything away, he'd knew I was upset and I really didn't want that conversation. I don't want to talk to him about it, I don't want to talk to him at all right now actually. I kept my back to him and I begged Sam with my eyes, with a look at me and Jake he nodded. I could have jumped in his arms, it was such a relief.
"I'm leaving now, come on." He grabbed his coat and walked out the door, I followed grabbing my coat. I was almost out the door when Jake put his hand on my shoulder, I brushed him off and followed Sam to his car and got in, keeping my head down. If there was ever a time that I wanted to cry, that I wanted to feel the tears drown me, it was now.
"Bella, imprinting doesn't happen to everyone in the pack. Quil and Embry haven't imprinted, it's not a hundred percent." Sam knew how upset I was, honestly a toddler could see it.
"I don't know Sam, I just got a bad feeling." I peeked up at him and his face was grim, his hands tightened around the wheel. He nodded, a secret in his eyes.
"Me too." He answered me.
After that we drove in silence to the house, my old house. I like silence, but now it was too hard. My thoughts were going in every direction, thinking about what secret Sam could be keeping from me, about going to the house where there was just so many memories and about Jake imprinting. The lady was outside and she looked very friendly. She was on the phone and hung up as soon as we pulled in the driveway. For some reason I half expected Charlie's cruiser to be in the driveway with my truck next to it. But that was so long ago, it would never be like that. She waved at Sam and I could see her hold her breath when she seen me. It was the same reaction I got every time I met someone; the beauty was outstanding to them. If they only knew why I looked so good and what I had to go through. It was a punishment really, all this beauty with a dead heart. Having to live and have everyone you know die, having to move every so many years because you never age. I shook off the thoughts as I got out of the car with Sam and put on my coat, wanting to seem normal. Sam shook her hand and she turned to shake mine, damn. It was obvious she could feel how cold I was and she was staring at me as goosebumps went up her arm.
"Sorry, I'm perished. I'm not use to the cooler weather." I rubbed my hands together trying to seem like I was warming them up and pulled the coat around me, I even faked a little cough. I could have been a damn actress!
"Not to worry dear, it's not always this bad. You'll get use to it real quick." She flashed me a huge smile and I hope she bought it, I thought it was pretty good myself. She turned around and unlocked the door. Sam winked at me and put a thumbs up. Hah, that was a pretty good cover then. The house looked exactly the same as when I left. We walked into the porch and I held my breath. The kitchen was still yellow with the cupboards redone but still looking the same. It nearly knocked me over, the memories flooded my brain and it hurt. I could still picture Charlie sitting at the table, or Edward sitting at the table next to Charlie. I felt a tugging at me, as if someone was behind me pushing me while someone in front was guiding me.
"Sam, I just need to go over these papers with you and have you to sign a few things then if there's no problems this house is yours." Her voice was friendly and I suspected she had a little crush on Sam. She brushed his hand as she set out the papers and they dove into it.
"I'm going to take a look around." I said and not waiting for a reply I went up the stairs. There was something pulling me up there, pulling me to my room. I stood at the doorway and just stared. Every memory was kicking at me, punching my stomach, pulling my hair. The nightmares I had about Edward, Edward coming in my room to watch me sleep, when I looked out the window and seen Edward standing outside his car for the first time to pick me up... I realized one thing, I really missed him. I wanted to see him, so badly. I wanted an explanation of why he left me, why I had to become a vampire and be in this messed up world. Why he just tossed me aside when he got bored, why he took his entire family away from me too without even saying goodbye.
The last time I was in this room I gave Charlie a letter... It was when me and Jake was running away and it felt like yesterday for me, everything was just too real for me. I stepped into the room and held my breath. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed a board on the floor that was slightly off, not even noticeable to humans but it caught my eye. I looked behind me and I felt like someone was watching me but there was nobody here, I could hear Sam and the lady downstairs, there was nobody else here. Without thinking I floated to the board and gently lifted it. It came up with a bit more effort than it should have but it did come up. I felt like I was in a movie and this was the climax, all we needed was bad music and a crowd. There was something deep in the floor and I reached in, grabbing it. It felt like paper, extremely worn, and I opened it up being extremely gentle. It was yellowed but still was in good condition, I guess since it was under the floor for God knows how long, probably not even touched since Charlie lived here or before that.. A pain hit me in the stomach as I opened one piece of the paper, it was my note. My last words to Charlie and It was folded many of times, Charlie must have kept reading it. I sank down to my knees and opened the second piece of paper. It was a letter from Charlie.
Bella, if you come back I hope you get to read this letter. I love you so much Bella, I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you! The note you left me gave me more strength than you could have known, it's the reason I'm still living. Please find peace Bella, I'll be there with you some day. I love you Bells, always.
The letter was scribbled in pen, obvious tear drops smudged the words. My note gave him peace of mind and strength, my exact reason for leaving it. I squeezed my eyes shut, putting the letter to my dead heart and cried as best as I could without the tears. I herd that they were concluding everything downstairs; I clutched the paper and shoved it in my pocket and put the board in the floor back, smacking it lightly so it would fit perfectly in place. Who needs a hammer when you have a vampire? I went downstairs as Sam and the lady was finishing and shaking hands. She handed him the keys with smiling at me and Sam she left, closing the door behind her. I had to compose myself, I put on my best happy face and smiled at Sam.
"It's official, this is ours!" Sam was so excited. I wish I shared his energy, but to be truthful I had a feeling that this was just the beginning of one messed up year.
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