Chapter 11

(TEGAN'S POV)

"Shit, What is mum Doing here?"

I do my best to fix up my hair and put some clothes on as quickly as possible. "Fuck, why did she have to come now." I whisper to myself.

I hear the shower go on, indicating that Sara is washing away any sign that we had done what we had done. That we had been all over each other, that my lips had inhabited her beautiful soft pale skin.

"Fuck!" I need to stop. I really need to get to the door.

I quickly make my way to the front door almost tripping over sara's shoes. Fuck! I forgot to pick up Sara's clothes off the bedroom floor. The room practically screamed Sex!

I quickly pick up Sara's Shoes, pants and ... Her panties. Her cute black thin layered panties. Jesus! I'm slowing myself down here.

"Tegan, are you okay honey!"

I hear my mums knocking quicken and harden.

"Coming mum!"

I quickly throw Sara's clothes under the bed and make my way to our mothers worried knocking.

"Mum hey!" I say as I open the door to an impatient looking Sonia.

"Tegan Quin!" she rushes by me and inside.

"Why In Canada's name wouldn't you open your door? You had me worried?"

I look at her momentarily trying to come up With a quick reasonable lie.

Yes Lie, I Tegan Quin am about to lie to my mother. My wonderful loving mother.

The mother in which I tell everything to.
Including snitching on Sara a couple of times in High school.

Ugh.

I look at her suddenly and say the first thing that comes to mind.

" It was Sara's fault!"

"Sara?" she looks at me quizzically.

"Yeah she...umm... She couldn't figure out how to work the warm water in the shower."

"No, I mean Sara is here?" she smiles lovingly.

"oh yeah that, she flew in last night..." I respond slightly relieved that she seemed to have forgotten about my hold up.

"Why didn't you tell me she was coming to visit? You know I love it when you two are actually in the same city at the same time." she responds.

"Sorry mum, it was a last minute thing... Sara just wanted to show me some new material she came up with." I say trying to sound as believable as possible.
Geez there's no new material. Not even close. Sara and I have been... Well... Yeah...

"It's okay Tegan, I'm just glad I caught you two today." she responds.

"YOU CAUGHT US?" I say suddenly. Completely misinterpreting what she just said.

"Yes Tegan, I came by to drop off some childhood photos of you and Sara I stumbled across at your aunts house. Who would of thought I'd catch both of you here and surprise you both."

"Yeah, you definitely surprised us." I hear Sara say as she walks out of the room fully dressed in a white T shirt of mine and a pair of her extra Tight black pants.

"Sara honey!" my mum walks over and gives her a tight hug.

"Hey Mum!" Sara responds with one of her heart warming smiles.

Mum looks happy for a moment... Then...

"Why dint you tell me you'd be here Sara?" mum asks.

Then turns to look at me.

"Tegan?" she asks with a tint of disappointment.
"Mum, mum relax, no need to worry... I just thought I'd pay Tegan a visit and I was just so tired when I arrived I forgot to call." Sara responds.

"Yeah mum, like I told you... Sara was just so psyched to come work on some new material. I mean especially since we've taken a year off and need all the material we can get!" I look at mum reassuringly.

She looks at the ground for a quick moment. Taking in the information we've given her. The false information we've given her.

She shakes her head as if to clear her thoughts and looks at Sara and I.

"Oh dear, I'm so sorry you two." she let's out a breath of air.

"I never did quite understand your music career." she says smiling. Giving us that look.
The I'll let it slide look.

I can understand though. I can understand why mum acted the way she did. We've always told her every little thing. From tours to vacations, and this thing about not calling... Really isn't us.

Then again we really didn't even know the real us.

Mum pulled us both in for a famous Sonia Clement hug and handed us an envelope.

"Well I'd really love to stay, but I really just came to drop these pictures off... I'm sure you two would love to see these!" she says cheerfully.

"Sara how long will you be visiting honey?" she ask with hope in her voice.

"I'll be here for another 3 weeks mum." she responds nervously.

"Wow... 3 weeks after a tour!" she asks excitedly.

"Yup..." Sara replies awkwardly.

"Ah! My two babies are finally getting along." she comes in for another hug.

"Well okay girls your mother needs to go run some arens, I will be back for a real visit soon." she says grabbing her messenger bag and waving her goodbye.

We both blink at the sound of the door being shut closed.

I then hear Sara's light footsteps come towards me and wrap her arms around me securely.

"Tegan." she whispers behind my ear.

"Are you okay Tee Tee?" her arms tighten around my waist.

She knows how I feel about lying to mum. How could she not.
I'm sure she feels it too.

We've always had this unbreakable, honest connection with her.

"Sara ... " I whisper on the brink of tears.

"Shh, shh, don't worry Tee I get it." I can hear her voice wavering.

"Sara can we just... Sleep?" I ask pleadingly.

Sleep always reduced our worries. Wether it was work or relationships.

"I was thinking the same thing." she says gentley pulling me to my room.

We lay on the bed cuddling, despite sara's 10 minute limit... She's humming a Madonna song that's all to familiar.

"So you liked the song?" I ask momentarily forgetting our problems.

she slightly blushes.

"What? Justify My Love?" she almost squeals.

"Yeah, that one." I say grinning widely.

"I never thought I would, but after you told me what you told me, I can't get it out of my head... And I don't ever want to. She says lovingly.

"Gosh! I played it for 2 months straight, trying to see if just maybe you'd catch on... Never did." I say with a cheesy grin on my face.

I let out a relieving breath.

"But now that everything is.. well out. I had to tell you what that song meant to me." I say in a whisper.

"Tee Tee for fuck sakes I love that song and I love you." she says pulling me in and kissing me fiercely.

We lay there, just being together.

We lay there, our arms entangled in one another.

I lay there looking at Sara's soft breathing escape her soft lips.

I lay there, wondering if I'll ever be able to kiss her outside these closed doors.

I lay there thinking what kind of excuse will there be next time?

Next time, there will definitely be a next time. Wether it's mum, friends, or our fans.

"Sasa?" I whisper.

"Mmmm?" she mumbles slowly giving in to sleep.

"Will we always hide this love?" I ask groggily.

All i hear is silence. I get no response.

I slowly look at Sara and realize that she's fallen asleep.

I let a tear slide down my cheek as I pull a sleeping Sara closer to me.

As I slowly drift to sleep I can't help but whisper part of Madonna's lyrics.

"Waiting for you to justify my love."