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Oh my goodness I'm so sorry I haven't updated in so long! I thought I'd have more time during the holidays but I didn't plan on having so much studying...

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Deaths Kiss

Chapter 10: Discoveries

Guilt: n. 1. the fact or state of having commited an offense, crime, violation or wrong. Especially against moral or peneal law 2. A feeling of responsibility or remorse

I felt my throat go dry and my eyes widen. This man…this….THING was L! THE L. Considering the shock of the situation, I think I did a very good job hiding my disgust, but if Ryuzaki saw anything suspicious in my expression he didn't show it. He sat there, in that unusual position of his and smirked at my facial expression that would have probably resembled a goldfish. Trying to get my emotions under control, I thought of something I could say in return that was equally ball busting since the silence that had set upon the courtyard was anything but comfortable.

"Does this surprise you, Yagami Kun, surely I wasn't the last person you suspected of being L?"

Ryuzaki sighed and let his bottom lip jut out slightly, mumling to himself something along the lines of 'is my disguise really that deceiving…'

I was too busy trying to concoct some bullshit story to mask my panic to notice my headmasters sudden talkative mood. Either, L had deduced that I was Kira and was simply confident that exposing himself would either result in a confession or his death, or….

He trusted me

I began to think about how, if that was the case, I could manipulate L's trust to benefit my situation. The attraction he had shown towards me was still playing in the back of my mind. The most perfect situation I could have would be L madly in love with me, giving me information whenever I requested, even letting me join the investigation team. Then finally, giving me his real name so that I could kill the one person who apposed my operation.

Wishing I could come up with a plan that didn't involve me second guessing my options, I decided to act on impulse. Thinking that maybe the situation wasn't completely at loss and that maybe I could drop the act for just a little while, you can't blame a guy for being curious.

"Sir….Y-Your L?"

I leaned into the table, locking my eyes to his and waiting for an expression to flash through his eyes, if I could read him a little better it would be easier to relate to him and worm my way into his heart. But again he showed no emotion to tell me I had hit a nerve of pride or resentment or anything!

"Yes, Yagami Kun, I have been since I was sixteen years old."

That sentence stopped my plotting entirely. Sixteen, that's younger than any graduating student in Japan. I wondered if perhaps I hadn't found that notebook, maybe I could have been in the running to be this mans predecessor.

"Moving off the subject, since it's desperately boring to discuss my past and my occupation. I told you this in full confidence that I would be able to talk to you about a greater matter. That matter being Kira"

My interest was at it's peak now, maybe, my plan wouldn't have to involve me romantically with this disgusting excuse for a genius.

"Then…you were involved in the fist Kira case?"

A flash of something went through his emotionless mask, that same look he'd gotten before admitting he was L…perhaps his past effected him more than he wanted to admit.

"…Light Kun, did I not just say the past isn't important"

I smirked inwardly, weakspot!

"B-But, L? I'd love to hear how you finally solved the unsolvable, there are so many questions I'd like to ask you, it's just that Kira interests me greatly, apparently h-"

"The last Kira almost ruined me mentally Light, had it not been for pure luck and impulse I would never have figured out that Kira was operating…right under my nose"

I leaned onto the table, glancing at his downcast face, the first Kira had left more of a scar than I would have expected, well, it never hurt to open old wounds right? Plus it was rather comforting to know that L had almost been outwitted by the last Kira, right under his nose did he say? I smirked, maybe my freedom wouldn't be shortlived after all...

"Sir, what did Kira face? Was justice served in the end"

I grinned at him, my fear vanishing completely, I'd worked myself into a complete state of denial about the situation, maybe for just a few moments, I could forget I was a mass murderer to win him over…

But L did not speak for a long time, he poked at the glass on top of the wooden table and closed his eyes. After a few minutes, I saw his lip tremble slightly before he brushed a hesitant thumb past it to pick at his teeth.

"….Light Kun, I would like you to consider joining my investigation team"

My heart leapt into my throat, that was easier than I thought!

What made him change his mind? Hiding my suspicion under well improvised shock I let a hesitant smile creep onto my face.

"What?...L thank you-"

"Please, there's no need for Yagami Kun to answer right away, think it over, it will be a big decision and you will be surveyed almost constantly, of course, this is because we suspect students as well as anyone else."

"Wait but I-"

"I'll take my leave now, I hope you have a pleasant sleep Yagami Kun"

He tilted slightly to the right and let his legs fall out of their precarious position and slumped back into his horrible posture. As he shuffled off, my curiosity got the better of me.

"Why did you take this case again, if you were almost broken the first time?"

He stopped in his tracks, and I saw his fists clench, he was my enemy now, and it was my job to make him as miserable as possible, obviously the Kira case hit close to home for him and I would do everything I could to make sure he never forgot why it hurt so much, no matter what the reason was.

"Yagami Kun would do well to realise that the past is something that cannot be changed and should therefore not be looked at once events occur, Kira was a tragedy that could have been prevented and I feel it my duty to solve the second Kira case even stronger than it was the first time. Goodnight Yagami Kun"

With that, he took off at an amazing pace, and I found it rather amusing that a man like Ryuuzaki could be ruined over a simple question, maybe the great L wasn't so untouchable after all...


I dashed back towards my office, more memories flashing before me, my emotions were finally getting the better of me and it made me furious that I showed any sign of melancholy when in the presence of my biggest suspect, if he picked up on any sign of weakness, and knowing his intelligence he would have, I would probably be put in many awkward situations where I'd have to answer countless questions about the subject that effected me most.

It was just that…

Ryuuzaki!! W-what are they doing, WHY ARE THEY TAKING ME!

I clutched the side of my head, scratching it slightly with my nails.

Not again…

Ryuuzaki! I DIDN"T DO IT PLEASE L, DON'T LET THEM

I bit my lip. why did it still hurt? Hadn't I put all this behind me? After all, memories are only painful to reminisce about, that's why I must always look forward to a positive future, a future I saw in this job and teaching these students.

I loved you

I was bombarded by questions from Yagami San and the other Kira investigators about what Light's answer was to my offer, I brushed them all off and went to my office and quickly locked the door.

What's going to happen to me Ryuuzaki…please, just…tell me, no lies

I slumped against the door and closed my eyes, who was I fooling? It had always hurt, it had been four long years, I was just 18 when it happened, it was puppy love….

But….I

You're all I have…I thought I was all you had too…

Tears pricked around my eyes, all these memories that just wouldn't stay down, all sparked by that one boy and his internal fire and brilliance…all it did was remind me of what I'd done…if it repeated again, I was sure I wouldn't survive through it.

Obviously I was wrong wasn't I…I would have died for you L

I tasted salt in my mouth and licked at my tears hesitantly, brushing my fingers against the skin of my wrist, tracing over the faint white lines I'd left years ago.

Please…

'I could have saved you couldn't I?'

Not really thinking anymore, I ambled over to my desk and opened at draw of case notes, pulling out a knife that Watari usually used to cut my slices of cake…

Just sharp enough for a reminder, not sharp enough to cause major injuries.

You promised me…I'd be with you forever, but your going to let them kill me aren't you?

I scratched experimentally at the scar with the slender knife, glancing hesitantly at the locked door, I willed myself to pull it together, this was a stupid childish way of dealing with repressed emotions. I could not solve my problems with self harm.

I admitted it…I killed them L…it was an amazing feeling, like, I suddenly had power I'd never felt before, but…

I smashed my head against the draws

'It couldn't have been helped! Kira was mad, Kira had to be stopped, you did the world a great service.'

"I lost everything"

L…please, you've been so kind to me, just…I need you to do me one last favour.

'I made a huge mistake'

Kill.Me.Law-

The feeling of the iron ripping through my skin gave me an overwhelming sense of relief, I bled, the human hadn't been sucked out of me. I was alive, I was real and everything was as it should be, but for once, the guilt didn't go away. I gazed up at the ceiling, only four years ago I'd been in this exact same position, seeing and hearing things I'd placed behind in painful memories, only now the hallucinations had stop, all I heard was a voice

Why didn't you try and help me? I could have died happy L, you could have saved my child...

Because when I looked at Light Yagami, my memories would control my emotions. The boy was doomed, I would always be suspicious of him because, no matter how hard I tried, all I ever saw when I looked at him was Kira, the only person I'd felt something towards, wether it pity, anger or love. It was something

And all I wanted, was to feel that way again…


When I woke up the next morning, I was rather unnerved to find the headmaster sitting in my room staring fixatedly at me.

"SHI-Ryuuzaki! What the hell are you doing in my room!"

I glared at the pale emotionless face in front of me and in my sleep deprived state, I was almost convinced that a ghost was poking at my furniture and going through my draws…

Oh dear god the book.

If he found it, my cover would be completely blown! Why didn't I think ahead! This was a situation of interrogation that I had to be prepared for at the drop of a hat…then again I didn't really expect the head of the Kira investigation team to be searching through my room at 5 am in the morning with my sister snoring right beside me.

I looked desperately around the room and tried to remember where exactly I'd put the book last. Before heading into he courtyard yesterday…it was right on the desk. Before I knew it I was panicking, what if he found it? If he saw the notebook, he certainly would remember it from the first case because it didn't take a scientist to realise that the original Kira had indeed used the very same notebook.

I tried to think about how I could distract him, fiddling with my hands and twisting the bed covers underneath me. 'Come on Light! You thrive in these types of situations! Just…come on! Try and stall him!'

I finally came up with something, though it wasn't the most dignified plan in the world, but hopefully it would give me a couple of extra crucial minutes to deal with this stupid man.

I let the covers fall off my body and shivered slightly as the cool air brushed against my chest. Stretching my arms above me I let out a long yawn and half lidded my eyes, fixing them onto the frozen headmaster. A smile crept onto my face as I looked at his awestruck expression.

'Definitely virgin…'

"Ryuuzaki, what are you doing in my room?"

I brushed my hair out of my eyes only to have copper locks fall back into my face and mouth, taking the loose strands off my lips, I let my tongue lick tantalizingly slow over the dry pink flesh and bit into my bottom lip. I had to admire this mans self control, he was turning rather pink in the face and I was pleased to see that he had stopped his search on my desk and was rather focused on my lips, licking his own as he drank in the sight of me.

I couldn't help but find the situation hilarious and I wished that suddenly I could read thoughts, seeing as I was pretty sure that any thought going through this perverts mind was anything but pure…


'Shitshitshitshitshitshitshit'

I found my logical reasoning packing up and going on holiday as my libido rared into action. There was the boy of my every dream, both sinful and….well sinful, half naked in bed with mused up hair and bedroom eyes, licking his lips and staring right at me.

I was lucky I had enough self respect and practice to still my emotions because otherwise, I was pretty sure I'd be squealing on the floor like a teenaged girl. Realising that he had asked me a question, I put down the pencil case I was examining before hand to answer him.

"I'm simply looking through your possessions, Light Kun, if you are to join my investigation team, it's rather important that you have nothing to hide, speaking of which, do you have any mobile phones, PDA's, Ipods?"

Light scratched his head and turning his gaze to his bag underneath his bed, and I felt myself begging him to set his beautiful hazel eyes on me again, though I was very fortunate that I had a couple of seconds to control my breathing rate again and will myself to calm the fuck down.

Mumbling incoherent nothings underneath his breath, Light got out of bed and bent down to retrieve the beg slowly, slowly bending down and giving me just the right angle to…

Oh my god


I was very greatful that my face was concealed at this point, it gave me a chance to laugh quietly as I searched for my Ipod and PDA under the bed. After retrieving them I was pleased to say that my headmasters usually pale face could now have easily been mistaken for a tomato with eyes.

I walked over to him, still smirking and trying my best to make him melt into a puddle under my gaze. Even though he had turned a spectacular shade of scarlet, he seemed to be completely unaffected by my advances so I decided to up the act a bit. Realising that this was probably getting out of hand, I tried talking my sense into my sleep fogged brain.

Too bad the only thought going through my mind was beat this asshole at his own game. My one flaw in my almost perfect mind, was that I was a complete child when it came to winning anything, and it just so happened that not winning this particular round meant that I would probably be found out and convicted of mass murder, seeing as L was sitting millimetres away from my secret weapon.

Handing him the two pieces of technology, making sure that I brushed my fingers over his, I tried to meet his gaze but he seemed more interested in examining my PDA and looking through my contacts than looking at my eyes that were basically screaming sex.

"Thank you, Yagami Kun, it's just a precaution but we will need to install a few extra programmes so that we can check your location if needed, also we will make is so that you will be able to access the Kira files."

I had to get him out of here, he'd soon be back to turning my room upside down, and soon enough, he'd find the one thing that would ruin me. Desperate times called for desperate measures, I wanted L out of here so that I could rethink of a place to store my weapon, and I wanted him out fast.

I slammed both my hands onto the chair he was sitting on and leaned in so close I could see the very faint freckles on his still flushed skin. I felt my chain of thought stop slightly as his eyes connected with mine. A strange spark crept through my body and set my nerves on fire, even if he was a dirty rotten pervert, L sure did have pretty eyes…

Shaking my head slightly I narrowed my own eyes slightly and focused my gaze on his slightly trembling lips.

"It's no problem, Headmaster…"

I ran my hands up his sides and was surprised to see him mouth the word please. It was rather unnerving to see such a headstrong man melt under my touch, though to be honest, NOTHING turned me on more.

"Y-Yagami Kun?"

I smirked at him, letting my fingers brush lightly against the veins in his neck, loving the way he trembled and let out a slight whimper.

"Yes, Ryuuzaki?"

I could barely keep myself from laughing, it had been ages since I toyed with this guy, and I made myself promise I'd do it more often from now on.

Leaning in so that I could feel his breath touching my lips, I let my tongue give an experimental swipe at his bottom lip, rather surprised when I tasted a beautiful sweetness that reminded me of chocolate and lollipops…

I was so close…just a little further…

"Oh dear god what am I doing!"

I was rather surprised when the flaming red headmaster pushed me off his lap to wipe at his mouth.

"Yagami Kun, I have already told you that it is completely inappropriate for me to have relations of an unprofessional maner with any of my students!"

L stood up on shaky legs, and took a moment to give me a rather filthy look, if I wasn't so worried for this emotionless mans total outburst, I'd be applauding myself for making him so uncomfortable.

It took him a single moment to regain his composure and he ran a hand through his unruly ebony locks.

"…Thank you for your co-operation, Yagami Kun. Once your classes have finished I would very much appreciate it if you would come to my office so that I could brief you on all the details of Kira's murders."

I smiled to myself and gave him a last lust-filled gaze before agreeing to meet him after school had finished. As I showed L out of my room, I couldn't help noticing that he had something on his fore lip.

"Sir, you have something on your…"

L brushed at his mouth and his eyes widened.

"Oh, it seems I've been bleeding slightly, thank you for telling me"

He left my company in quite a hurry, leaving me to stand in my now quiet room.

I felt a stupid grin make it's way onto my face

I just dodged getting found out, had a rather nice awakening AND to top it all off, I gave the headmaster of Wammy a nosebleed.

Could this day get any better?


HAH! I really enjoyed writing the second half of this chapter, I'm almost regretting making the plot line so angsty...

Also I must apologize for L's emoness at the start...but it's more a case of him trying to deal with repressed emotions and letting them out in the most dramatic way possible

Anyway please review! I'd love to hear from more people...anybody?

...I have Misa hostage...I can kill her if you guys talk more?

I need suggesestions on how to advance the plot since I'm having a terrible time with writers block..

(Sniffs)

Anyway! Hope you enjoyed it...

Till next time,

Loveless Stranger