Thanks for all the review so far!And the favs and follows
Oh in the last 2 chapters,I revealed one thing;Austin and Ally dated...to find the next one...listen close...keep reading though I made it pretty obvious for some people in the last couple of chapters ;)
"Mom!?"I was beyond woman I haven't seen in like seven years is standing in my house.I just want to jump into her arms but part of me keeps my feet firmly planted on the ground.
"Yes,I missed you!"she sequels smiling.I broke out a smile too and ran into her dad silently watched from the she starts bombarding me with questions...
"Oh,Ally,I'm so glad you decided to actually talk to me!Your dad said you hated me,and now you know the truth so it's both our fault and I hope you forgive me."she pleads.
"Of course I do,"I said still blinking my eyes to see if this was just laughed at my actions,
"You're just like me!When your dad showed up at my front door I was like,'is this real?'"she said intimidating my actions.I laughed along with her and my father silently joined us.
"What are you doing here?"I asked her.
"Well,to see my baby girl?"she said as though it was obvious.
"Thanks,I missed you"I said curling up to her side.
"Me too,"she said
"So,did you have sex with him or not?"my mom asked me.
We were up in my room,dad was downstairs making dinner and I just finished telling her my story with Austin and summer and my dad.
"Well,yeah,"I said looking anywhere but at to her was easier though,I felt as though I was talking to a friend.
"That's awesome,how did it feel?"she asked.I looked at her strangely
"Um...awesome?"I said not sure what was the correct answer.
"That's good,"she said,"But isn't he the guy who you dated summer and he-"she started but I cut her off...
"Yes,he is the guy and I don't want to talk about it,"I said firmly
"Okay,"she said dropping the topic.
"Ally,time to go to school,"a soft voice woke me up.
"No,dad.I have a school talk...and Spanish,"I wined.
"Ha Spanish isn't so bad and talks would save you time from school and I'm your mother,not a guy and you get to see Austin,"she teased.
Ever since I told her about Austin she won't stop humbugging me and it's getting on my nerves.
"Mooooooom,"I wined again.
She smacked my ass playfully but hard.I gasped and was suddenly awake,"Get up,"she said simply before walking out.
"Uggggh!"I groaned."Life is hard shit!"I complained getting out of bed.
"Complaining isn't gonna help!"my mom scolds from the hallways.
"Okay class,today we have a very important person coming to talk to us about... suicide,"the teacher said.
Suicide was not a topic teens wanted to talk about.
"Good Morning students,My name is Lynn Phillips,but you can just call me Doctor or ,"she said.
"Class what do we say?"the teacher scolded.
"Good morning Doctor,"was something that everyone grumbled sounded like.
"Well today,as you know,I'm here to talk about suicide."
"So,what is suicide?"
"Suicide is the act of intentionally causing one's own death. Suicide is often committed out of despair, the cause of which can be attributed to a mental disorder such as depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia,alcoholism, or drug abuse. Stress factors such as financial difficulties or troubles with relationships often play a significant role."
"Over 2 million people die each year from suicide in the US,276,000 of these are teenagers just like only 5000 succeed. "
"These teen killings are mostly caused by bullying, unstable relationship with parents and significant other,abuse,rape,loss of family member or someone special and social interaction failures and failure at studies."
"Male teens are more likely to use handguns or hanging to end their lives and females resort to pills overdose."
"Teens should talk to parents and school counsellors about their problems or call up the help lines, to ease their problems. Schools and families must keep a close look-out for teenagers who are depressed or create violence, as these are some of the symptoms. All must realize it is a great tragedy when any teenager commits suicide-great loss at such a young age."
"Consequences of this are:Your family are will always look at them at being horrible parents are also that you did not come to them before making such a drastic many people would say it was their fault you killed yourself and they might end up committing suicide is also the fact that the life f people would not go on would be for would take a while for this to clear up and your parents could be jailed."
"Now there are many other consequences but we don't have much time so here are some hand-outs on the warnings of people who are thinking of committing this,"she said before bidding us goodbye.(1)
I was in the library reading this book on suicide and since the talk this morning,I couldn't get my mind off it.I kept zoning out in classes and thinking about this.I stated doodling this in my notebooks too.
I just finished reading the last chapter of the hit book 13 reasons why(2). It was an awesome book.I mean Hannah did that and everyone moved on.I wonder if it would be the same with me?I quickly shook the thought out of my head.I took out the hand-out and read it.
Always talking or thinking about death
Clinical depression - deep sadness, loss of interest, trouble sleeping and eating - that gets worse
Having a "death wish," tempting fate by taking risks that could lead to death, such as driving fast or running red lights
Losing interest in things one used to care aboutMaking comments about being hopeless, helpless, or worthlessPutting affairs in order, tying up loose ends, changing a will
Saying things like "it would be better if I wasn't here" or "I want out"Sudden, unexpected switch from being very sad to being very calm or appearing to be happy
Talking about suicide or killing one's selfVisiting or calling people to say goodbye
Sudden change of appearance
Um...how many factors do I do?Let's see:
Always talking or thinking about death:No,wait sometimes
Clinical depression - deep sadness, loss of interest, trouble sleeping and eating - that gets worse:Well yeah
Having a "death wish," tempting fate by taking risks that could lead to death, such as driving fast or running red lights:No,I take driving serious.I don't want anything happening to my baby.
Losing interest in things one used to care about:YesMaking comments about being hopeless, helpless, or worthless:No,but sometimes I think it
Putting affairs in order, tying up loose ends, changing a will:Guilty
Saying things like "it would be better if I wasn't here" or "I want out":No
Sudden, unexpected switch from being very sad to being very calm or appearing to be happy:sometimes
Talking about suicide or killing one's self:Just thinking it not saying itVisiting or calling people to say goodbye:No
Sudden change of appearance:Hell yes!
Well that's eight out of eleven is that good?
"Hey Ally,"I hear a voice.I look up and see Austin.
"Thinking about today's talk?"he askes.
"No?"I try to say but it comes out like a question.
"Yes,you 're reading the hand-out and earlier you were researching suicide."
I narrowed my eyes at him,"What are you? Stalking me?"I asked.
"No,I was just concerned that-"he started.
"Look,Austin,I'm strong thanks for helping but I gotta go,"I said walking out from the scene.
I walked out of the building. Life is too hard. I just want it to stop, like I want my world to stop.
I turned to my right.I saw a lake. Maybe now's the time to do it ...
I walk over and took one last glance around the world that I'm soon leaving.
I smile,I don't care about the consequences.I just want life to end!
Well another chapter!Thanks for all the people who submitted their... info!You really helped.
So I'll give you a hint...Ally's not gonna die.
(1)I'm not good at writing those things,so bear with me.
(2)I don't own the book,but it's a pretty damn awesome book!
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HAPPY 14 MORE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!
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