"You look beautiful tonight Spencer Carlin."
"Thanks Gwen, honestly you look beautiful as well."
"Not as beautiful as you babe."
"I'm honestly happy you invited me tonight. Things haven't been so good since me and Ashley had that fight. And now she won't even talk to me. I guess I didn't mean as much to her as I thought."
"It happens that way sometimes Spence. Hey if she can't accept you for who you are then forget her. Let's just focus on tonight baby."
"You're absolutely right. If Ash can't handle that I'm gay, then fuck her!"
"Focus on us tonight baby."
Spencer did her best to put her best friend out of her mind. She refused to say ex-best friend because she knew that it couldn't be the end for them. They had too much history together. Spencer was hurt by Ashley's actions, but she truly believed things would work out in the end, they had to. Spencer tried to focus on the moment, she was with the girl she was starting to develop feelings for and she was seeing Tegan and Sara, she loved them and their new album was amazing! She listened as they sang Faint of Heart, it was one of Spencer's favorite songs.
"Feel your breath on the back of my neck This love ain't made for the faint of heart Hear them words in the back of my mind
Back of my neck
Feel your heart beating outta your chest
Outta your chest
Everyone will say
It's dangerous to take this path
Everyone will tell us
Apart that we are more intact
Everyone will say that we're crazy
And that we won't last
Everyone will tell us
Alone that we are better off
When it's love, it's tough
This love ain't made for the faint of heart
Real love is tough
Back of my mind
Hear them thoughts flooding into our lives
Into our lives
Anyone could say that
We're dangerous to take this chance
Anyone could make us sound like
We don't really have a plan
Anyone could say that
It's chemical and it won't last
Anyone could make
Us seem reckless, tell us we will crash."
Spencer was really getting into the song. Suddenly she felt someone grab her arm. She spun around and there was Ashley. Ashley pulled Spencer through the crowd. What the hell was Ashley doing here? How did she even know Spencer was here? Ashley took her outside the venue where they could be alone.
"Ash what the fuck?"
"I need to talk to you Spence."
"This couldn't have waited?"
"No it couldn't Spencer."
"I have to tell you the truth about why I was avoiding you."
"Honestly you can just save your breath Ashley, I already know where this is going."
"You don't know though Spence. I've recently discovered something and it scared me. I didn't want to risk our friendship over it, but after everything that's happened, I have to tell you."
"Save it Ash. Clearly you have a problem with me being gay and you know what, if you can't handle it then it's whatever."
"Oh my god Spencer, that's not even it!"
"Then what the fuck is it Ash? Tell me!"
Suddenly Ashley's lips were on Spencer's. Ashley's lips felt amazing, Spencer's own lips melted against Ashley's. Ashley moved her hand to Spencer's face and pulled her in to deepen the kiss. Their lips were moving in sync. Finally Ashley pulled away, her eyes looking right into Spencer's.
"There you are baby, I looked back and you were gone."
Spencer and Ashley turned to look at Gwen.
"Yeah Ashley was here and we needed to talk."
"I should go Spencer."
"No Ashley don't go."
"I'll talk to you later."
"Ash wait!"
Before Spencer could do anything Ashley was gone and Spencer was left there still in shock. Her best friend had kissed her. All this time Ashley was sharing the same feelings for Spencer that Spencer was feeling for Ashley.
"Did you guys make up?"
"I don't know. I think I need to go Gwen."
"What why? Did something happen between you and Ashley?"
"Honestly I think you're a great girl and I love the time we have spent together these past few weeks."
"But?"
"But I think my heart belongs to someone else. It always has."
"Ashley?"
"Yes. I'm sorry, I never wanted to hurt you or lead you on."
"It's fine Spencer, I get it. You love Ashley."
"I'm so sorry Gwen."
"Don't be Spence. Sometimes we can't help who we fall for, it just happens. Go do what you need to do. I'm just going to get back to the show."
"Think we can still be friends."
"Yeah I guess Spence. Just remember, you owe me a concert sometime."
"Deal!"
"I'll hold you to it. See you around Spence."
She watched as Gwen went back into the building. It sucked hurting Gwen, but Spencer knew there was only one girl she truly wanted to be with. She had to find Ashley before it was too late. Gwen had driven Spencer to the concert so there was only one person she knew that would be willing to drop everything to come and get her. She got out her phone and dialed her brother.
"Clay, I really need a ride right now."
"On my way. Tell me where you are."
It didn't take long for Clay to get there. He and Chelsea were out having dinner close by.
"Spencer is everything okay?
"Can you take me to Ashley's house, it's really important."
"Sure no problem. So where is Gwen?"
"She is back at the concert. I had to leave. Something happened tonight."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not yet Clay. I have some things to figure out. I just really need to talk to Ashley right now."
Clay dropped Spencer off. It didn't even look like Ashley was home. It didn't matter though, Spencer was willing to wait. She waited this long, what was a few more hours. She rang the doorbell and Kyla quickly opened the door.
"Hey Spencer!"
"Hey Kyla."
"Ashley isn't home yet."
"I know, I'm just going to wait for her if that's okay?"
"Yeah of course! Make yourself at home."
"Thanks Ky. What are you up to?"
"I just have some friends over, we're watching movies in the living room. Want to join us?"
"No thanks, I'm going to wait in Ashley's room if that's okay."
"Yeah sure of course Spence. The offer is still on the table if you change your mind."
"Thanks."
…
Ashley was driving around everywhere and nowhere. What was she thinking kissing Spencer like that? Of course Spencer didn't feel that way about Ashley. She was on a date with Gwen, she wanted Gwen. What if Ashley completely fucked up her friendship with Spencer? Finally Ashley decided to go home so she could spend the rest of the night crying and eating some ice cream. Great, she forgot Kyla had her friends over tonight, it was definitely going to be a great night, not. She tried to be quiet coming in, but unfortunately Kyla had excellent hearing.
"Ash, thank god your home!"
"I just want to be alone Kyla."
"But Ashley Spencer..."
"I really don't want to talk about Spencer right now Kyla."
"But Ash!"
"We'll talk in the morning."
Ashley went into her room and closed the door. She leaned her forehead and rested it on her door. Finally she took a deep breath and sighed.
"About time you got home, it's almost two in the morning."
"Spence what the fuck."
Spencer was just sitting on the edge of Ashley's bed looking at her.
"When did you get here Spence?"
"Where have you been Ashley?"
"I asked you first Spence."
"I've been here for a while waiting for you to get home. You can't just kiss me and take off like that Ash."
"I had to. Gwen was there and you had a deer in the headlights look on your face. I had no choice but to leave."
"Ash listen."
"No hang on Spencer, I have something to say."
Ashley sat next to Spencer on her bed.
"What I did wasn't right. You have a girlfriend and it was way out of line and it shouldn't have happened and it was wrong of me to kiss you. In fact we can just forget it ever happened."
"Ash listen."
"Spencer I'm the worst best friend ever and I will understand if you hate me."
"Are you finished Ashley?"
"No I can't even begin to apologize for..."
Suddenly Spencer lips were pressed against Ashley's. Ashley stopped talking and kissed Spencer back. This time their kiss was more passionate. It was a long time coming and Ashley knew that this is what was meant to be, this is what she truly wanted….
