The Heart of a Lion
Chapter 11: Hurt Feelings
The glimmer of his eyes, the flicker of movement I thought I saw at the Gathering… "It was you. You were spying on me!"
Breezepelt's face scrunched with anger. "I had to, didn't I? It was for good reason. What I don't understand though is why. Why did you betray WindClan?"
His antagonizing words made me breathless. "I…I had no choice. You would not understand," I said.
His claws dug into the earth. "Try me."
"I didn't mean for it to happen. It was an accident; the kits."
"You were with Lionblaze, something you never should've done. Lionblaze is just so perfect that he was worth breaking the warrior code for. You disgust me. Once, I thought we could have something. I had feelings for you, but now after all this, I am truly dishonored."
"You have no right to judge me," I spluttered. "I love him. That is how it was always meant to be."
"Things could have turned out differently. We would have been happy together, you know. Nothing I did ever seemed to impress you. No one does." Breezepelt barely finished his sentence and looked off past me like I wasn't worth looking at. Through his anger, I saw hurt in his amber eyes, a shattering that reminded me of lightning splitting the sky. "My own father doesn't even like me, and now you betrayed me as well for that ThunderClan mangepelt."
I wanted badly to defend Lionblaze, but there was nothing I could say. "Breezepelt, you are my friend. You do not need to act like this."
"Don't I? You don't care about me at all. Ever since you met Lionblaze, he is all you care about. I mean no more to you than a dead snake," he shot back.
"We can still make this work. I never meant to hurt you. It was just never meant to be," I said gently. "Please try to understand."
"I understand, all right. We can never be friends, and I never want to see you again. As far as you are concerned, I am dead. You did this to me, and I will make sure Onestar knows."
I gasped. "You can't do that. Don't tell anyone!" I pleaded.
"Should I listen to you?" Breezepelt sliced a blade of grass in his claws. "Why would I do that after all you've done?"
"No one can know. I will do anything!" What would Onestar do when he found out? He would banish me for sure, leaving me to take care of my three kits off Clan territory, away from the moorland. I couldn't let that happen. I pictured my three kits in my head and imagined what would happen to them in the harsh world of a loner.
"Yes, you will or I will tell. You are going to tell Lionblaze it is over, and that you can't see him anymore. I will tend to that personally," he said.
My breathing stopped altogether. "No, you can't do that!" I begged.
"It is that or I am telling the whole Clan of your treachery. We will find Lionblaze and tell him. I will come to make sure you tell him everything," Breezepelt demanded. "Your choice."
I shuddered, feeling like I was trapped by a fox. What could I do? I had no choice but to give in to his demands for the sake of my kits but for the expense of my only true love. My heart was breaking. With a defeated sigh, I said, "I will do what you want. I hope you know you are breaking my heart."
He brushed past me on his way back to camp. "I know."
