I was tossing and turning I thought I was sleeping peacefully but I wasn't. The next thing I knew I was sitting up in bed but my surroundings were different I wasn't where I thought I was I was home. The home I shared with john.

I got up out of bed and walked over to the bed room door and opened it. I went into the hallway and the first thing I smelled was fresh brewed coffee. It made me smile. I went down stairs and that's when I saw him.

It was John he was sitting on the couch reading his newspaper just like he did every Sunday morning.

"John."

"Well good morning sleepy head."

I couldn't believe it. I went over the couch, sat down and touched his face. I smiled he was really sitting there.

"Oh my god John I can't believe it. Your alive."

I pulled john into my arms.

"Honey of course I'm alive. Are you alright."

"Yes I'm fine I'm better then fine. I'm so glad your ok."

John smiled and kissed me. He got up and walked away but when I went to follow him he was gone. When I turned around I was back at the funeral home looking at a casket and inside was john holding the white rose I had placed in his hands.

All I wanted to do was scream my whole body started shaking once again I shot up in bed and let out a scream.

"No John."

I screamed so loud. I felt like I was running through a fog. I could hear voices but I couldn't make out who's voices they were.

"Lisa hey Lisa wake up."

"Phil what's wrong with her."

"I don't know Dean. Her eyes are open it's like she's in some kind of a trance. Lisa honey it's Phil wake up."

When I heard someone call my name asking me to wake up all I could hear was John's voice. When I looked I saw John sitting in front of me.

"John oh baby I knew it wasn't a dream I knew your were alive." I said grabbing john's hands.

"Phil why is she calling you john."

"Dean get liz she's outside with seth and aj."

"Oh baby I was so scared I lost you. Please don't ever leave me again."

"Lisa honey you need to wake up."

"I am awake. Please kiss me baby I miss you so much."

I saw john smile and lean in and kiss me. His lips felt so soft.

When I pulled away from John I turned and saw liz.

"Liz look. It's john he's here he came back to me."

I saw liz kneeled down in front of me with a concerned look on her face.

"Honey that's not john sweetie that's phil. Remember John passed away."

"No liz your wrong he's right here don't you see him."

"Lisa you have to wake up. Come on wake up."

I felt my eyes close and my head got heavy the next thing I see is Liz, Dean, Aj, Seth and phil standing in front of me concerned.

"Liz what's going on."

"Honey do you remember anything."

"I was sleeping and I had a dream that I was home with john. Why what happened."

"Lisa you thought, you thought Phil was john."

"Oh my god. Phil I'm so sorry." I said feeling the tears well up in my eyes.

"Shh it's ok. I understand. Listen why don't I leave you here with liz ok."

Liz held me as I cried. I can't believe this happened.

"It's okay honey."

"Liz what did I do."

"Well you thought phil was john and when I came in here you were kissing him."

I put my head in my hands.

"Oh my god he must think I'm so kind of freak."

"No honey he doesn't he's just worried about you we all are."

After about an hour of talking to liz about what happened I asked her to get phil.

"Hey."

"Hi."

"Liz said you wanted to see me."

"Yeah I wanted to apologize for what I did and what happened."

"Hey no it's ok I understand. Listen you need to get some sleep ok so I'm gonna go."

"Phil."

"Yeah."

"Will you stay with me I just don't wanna be alone tonight."

"Sure slide over I like the right side of the bed."

I smiled and slide over and let phil get comfortable. He put his arms around me and I placed my head on his chest. I felt myself relax and drift off to sleep. The sound of his heart beat was soothing. Being in phil's arms made me feel, it made me feel amazing.

All I could feel were butterflies in my stomach it was the first time since john that I was feeling this way. And honestly I liked it. And I wanted more. A lot more.