Ch elevennnn(: im dedicating this chapter to my friend whos always wanted a wedding to happen this wayy:P freakin weirdo! xD

I studied my face in the mirror he brought me, neither of us discussing the whole sex thing that happened only a few days ago. and between those few days, he seemed busy. my face held a grainy charm,as if i had a million freckles everywhere. my face seemed different. the face i seen in the mirror had golden locks running over the empty hazel eyes. the million freckles were ugly, the lips, scowling and pale. its cheeks were hollow. he stood behind me, handing me a towel and a razor."Take a quick shower. ill leave your special outfit on the bed. please dont get it the big day." the big day? special outfit? i mumbled these words under my breath as he led me to a metal bathroom and metal shower filled with shampoos, conditioners, perfumes, shaving cremes, hair gels, ect. after showering and shaving, washing away all the dirt and ringing the tub, i got out and looked in the medicine cabnet mirror. my face was clean and freckle free with barely alive eyes and vibrant blonde hair. i walked into the bedroom and seen the "special outfit." it was a long strapless white ballgown, black and white striped high heels, white lace fingerless gloves, a white carnivol hat headband, and a long star pendant necklace. i slipped the outfit on, and began to walk back to the striped corridoor, to see a yellow sticky note on the door. it was from BB(duh!) saying to pin up my hair and throw some makeup on, i had to "look special." i pinned up my hair,and carefully placed on mascara,eyeliner,and pink lipstick. the deep shade of pink made me think of matts red hair. my heart hurt thinking of him, for i really liked him,and my dress reminded me of near. a few tears slid from my eyes but brushed them away quickly. soon the sobs followed and i fell against the wall and held back screaming cries of held in pain. i cried for my much missed friends, for my freedom, for my heart, for my physical pain, but mostly for my family. i missed them, and now i considered near,matt, L,Watari, and (even) mello my new family that had suddenly been snatched from me. after redoing my makeup, i stepped into the striped to see a waiting BB, wearing a black suit and top hat, on one knee with a golden ring squished between two fingers.

Cause when im with him, i am thinking of you! thinking of you! and what you would do if, you were the one who was spending the night, oh i wish that i,was looking into your eyes...

I knew this wasnt fate, but a cruel twist of sick irony. I told my father a million times i would marry an asian, and well, look where it got me. he placed the ring on my finger, and at that moment, i could feel the bond between us. i hated it. the meer thought of it made me sick to my stomache, but it also lured me."I, Beyond Birthday, take you, Amarah to be my lawfully wedded wife, for better and for worse, till death do us part." i dronelessly repeated, my mind numb. he seemed pleased and continued his rolled down my face as he pulled me into him for a wedding embrace. obnoxiously, he said,"And if you object, speak now, or forever hold your peace." after a few moments of silence he pulled my lips to his and said," i now pronounce you man and wi-" the words stopped and he was no longer holding me, but ontop of me, red eyes wide, and clutching his stomache. we fell clumsily to the floor, and as i pushed him off next to me, i seen the bright vibrance of blood,his blood, staining the white of the dress. i screamed and looked around to see a raven haired hero standing above me. he grabbed the bleeding boy next to me by his collar and shoved him against the wall. "Hes hurt!" i screamed pointing to his stomache which still oozed blood. he waved off my remark and continued his silent beatings. BB held his bloody hands to his mouth and licked seductively, starring at me. i stared back, a sad smile on my face. He just wanted someone to love,and that happened to be me. i walked up to L and placed my hand on the one that held BB to the wall. "." he stared at me in shock and slowly let him out of the hold. a sudden flash of glinting silver and BB held a knife to my throat."Shes not going with you." BB blurted, his voice angry. my heart beat skipped. no. BB,no! he lowered the knife abit."And why is that?" L asked, his hands slightly raised. "because, the only place shes going is to hell, with me."

my eyes widened, a sharp excrutiating pain entering my stomache. oh BB, no... my eyes went blurry from pain and i looked down, to see the the feint smudges of my blood running coldly through my pale thin fingers. i blinked,and fell to my knees, my chin covered in a mouthful of red, splattering the floor. i became top heavy, my brain pulsing so heavy i thought it would explode and i fell to the floor."Amarah!" L screamed, running for me. i curled into a ball and whisper sang to him,"To have her please just one day wake. to have her please just one day wake." the lyrics to gaetas lament from battlestar gelactica. he seemed to understand, and held my hand, my skin growing cold."Tell matt, i love him...tell mello,i care for him...tell Watari i thank him...words cant describe my gratefulness to you," i said, cupping his face with my bloody palm, smearing his skin with deep red."And tell near,hes always been my best friend." then moments after that, i fell into a world that held nothing but black.