The Reconstruction of Rome: Mark from the Beginning

By: M14Mouse

Summary: Sam tells Castiel the news about Dean. Cas does some reflecting.

Disclaimer: Don't own them.

Dean is a demon.

Castiel's mind tried to progress that thought over and over again. It wasn't just a demon. Dean is a demon.

There isn't a demon inside of him. The Mark turned him into a demon, Cas.

Dear god…

Some part of him wanted to rage against it. It wasn't fair but…

He knew that it was a possible. Cain himself was turned into a demon. He always thought that it was Lucifer's influence and power. Maybe, it was both. Lucifer was a fallen angel bend on the destruction of man. Lucifer wouldn't limit himself to just torture. He had other means.

He felt a slight shiver run through his body. He had Sam's memories of his time in the cage. It was nothing like Dean's memories.

When he rescued Dean from hell, he touched his memories of his time there. While Dean's memories were a give and take, there were long moments of torture on the rack. Those memories were followed by Dean being the torturer. He would get flashes of knives, whips, and chains. There were memories that he dare never to speak to Dean about. Dean knew that he knew. It was an unspoken agreement that they wouldn't talk about it with him or Sam.

He respected that.

Sam's memories were much like puzzles of torture, hallucinations, and mind games. He had no idea how Sam was able to move and think when the wall came down. In his arrogance, he really thought that he would stop Sam and Dean. He made a mistake of their will and their drive. Now…looking back on it, it left him awe. Dean for his will to fight and Sam will to give…to stand up. Those times left him with much regret and guilt about Sam's soul. Sam didn't deserve it. He made his excuses many times for his behavior back then. He said that he was doing it for them…to protect them.

He was such a fool.

While Dean had trouble with those times, Sam didn't. Sam just stared at him and said that he has been in his shoes. Dean carried him away from that edge…he said he tried to do the same for him. He did. He heard his prayers over the millions. Never angry…foolishly hopeful. Sam has forgiven him for his actions but sometimes, he couldn't.

He remembered what he done to his brothers and sisters…to his friends…to the countless souls. He remembered a quote once that he read…no, he put into his head. Or maybe, he did read it.

From the body of one guilty deed a thousand ghostly fears and haunting thoughts proceed.

He sighed as he shook his head.

He had to get his head together. He knew that Sam needed him. He couldn't let Sam face Dean alone especially in his condition. The demon would take Sam apart. He would not allow that to happen.

He won't.

He won't lose another friend.

He won't allow it.

End of Mark from the Beginning

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