This chapter stressed me out a bit even though I had an idea for it already…mostly it was because I want to write it good enough to make the emotions in this one feel real. Here is chapter 11 back into Ruby's perspective. :)
That's what Weiss said about me…I deserved to be dead even though I was there for her when she needed it. "If I see her face…I don't even want to know what I'll do if I see her at all." I said to myself in angst. I felt a sense of betrayal just from hearing what Yang said to me, making my way to the team JNPR dorm, I heard sobs in the girl's bathroom "Hello?" I called out as I went inside.
"Go away Ruby! I've done enough damage already!" A familiar voice replied in depression, the voice belonged to Weiss.
"What?! Like what you told Yang about me?!"
"How did you know?"
My fist tightened and it landed on the first stall, making a loud smack noise "How could you say something like that?! I was there for you when you needed someone to comfort you!"
Blood marked the third stall due to my fist landing on the door bloody, every loud smack scared Weiss "I didn't mean what I said about you! Don't be mad Ruby." She begged as the smacks got closer.
Finally, the very last stall opened up to a scared and depressed looking Weiss "You didn't mean it?! Everything I heard from Yang hurt my feelings…what would you do if I killed myself?!" I heard more sobs and tears flowed out of her eyes "Even though I never saw you cry, it's not going to work…I trusted you, cared about you, cried when something bad happened to you and that's what you do in return!?"
I raised my fist in the air, ready to land a killing blow on Weiss…rage blinded me but I didn't care, why should I "Don't hurt me Ruby! I'm sorry ok! Please, don't!"
"Sorry isn't going to work Weiss, you betrayed me…did you even care about anyone!? You just wanted that leader title didn't you?!" She didn't look up to even reply to me, I shouted at her "LOOK AT ME!"
Her face was filled with tears but it didn't affect me at all…nothing did "No! It was never about me…I only snapped because of the danger you put us in."
I put my fist in motion but before it connected to her cheek, it stopped and I was pulled away from her, it was Yang "What's wrong with you!? Were you about to kill Weiss?" She asked in angst. I didn't respond to her which infuriated her more, just like what happened in the forest on the day suicide was an option, she grabbed me by the front of my chest and slammed me into the wall but it was more painful than before "What's it going to take Ruby!? All you do is just get depressed; anything that happens to you now makes you sad or fearful of the world! Open your eyes! We always try to make you think positive but nothing ever works, we go through so much pain because of you…YOUR JUST A LOST CAUSE!"
She dropped me into the ground and I looked up at the wall and saw blood on it but it wasn't from my knuckles whatsoever…it was from her force. Is that what everyone thinks about me, a lost cause? My mouth finally spoke "Is that what you guys really think of me, just a person that just doesn't care anymore…a girl that can't find happiness at all? I died Yang…that was a wakeup call for me, now I'm sitting here, thinking that everything I fought for was for nothing."
Yang was confused by what I said "What?"
"It's just isn't enough for you guys…I put a smile but deep inside, I feel loneliness, pain, sadness. You guys can mind your days like nothing is going to happen to us but I take the hits, dying was horrifying and none of y'all experienced it at all. Anything bad I hear about me makes me think that trying to become a huntress won't do anything. Yeah, your right…I am a lost cause and I'm sorry."
"Ruby…I-"
She's trying to act sweet to me again but I know her true feelings "JUST STOP ACTING YANG! I know how you feel…just never talk to me again, never!" I shouted and stormed out of the bathroom despite the pain at the back of my head and made my way to the team JNPR dorm.
A few minutes later….
The door swung open to the cheerful voices of team JNPR, this angered me "Just don't guys! I just want to be left alone and asleep." I shouted and made my way to the mattress they laid out for team RWBY…my team. As I made my way to the mattress, Jaune, Ren, Nora, and Pyrrha looked at me with depressed expressions they hate putting up with me, I know it! I thought angrily and fell asleep. Isolation and Hate were my best friends right now…nobody truly cared for me and I don't care now. Might as well try not to stop Roman, even if It might kill all of us…he said that my end will be slower and more painful than everyone else's. Who cares…I'm already suffering already.
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