The rest of the week in Rivendell went by smoothly and relatively fast. Thorin agreed to show Lord Elrond the map, then the next night was set for a grand counsel.
While Thorin was showing Lord Elrond the map, I felt a strange presence in my head.
"Lady Liliyavanna, I have been waiting a thousand years to meet you." The soft voice in my head said. I shot up in bed and looked around.
"Who are you?" I asked quickly.
"I am Lady Galadriel, I think, my dear, the more important question you should ask, is who you are." The voice spoke. I raised my eyebrows.
"And who am I?" I asked hesitantly.
"You are not just any ordinary girl, deposited in this world after death. You are the daughter of Aule and Yavanna, fated to help bring peace to Middle Earth. Greed has overcome the race of Dwarves and will be their downfall. You have seen what will happen shall greed overcome the head of the Line of Durin. Only you and your fated ones have the power to change that fate."
"And how am I supposed to do that?" I asked curiously.
"The reason you grew up in a different world, a world filled with greed and hatred, was so that you could show the others, my dear. You have more power than you know, for you are a daughter of the Valar. Let it guide you."
"What do you mean?" I asked, but it was too late, she was gone. I fell back asleep with hundreds of questions swirling through my mind. I was the daughter of Aule and Yavanna?
I already knew that the company was planning to leave in the night during the counsel, but what I didn't expect was that they didn't tell me.
They were planning on leaving me behind, even Fili and Kili. I couldn't believe that they would do that to me. The night they were planning to leave, I packed my things and kissed them both on the forehead before leaving a note.
It read: Gandalf requested my presence at the counsel, see you soon.
It wasn't the truth of course, besides the 'see you soon' part. To say that I was beyond angry would have been an understatement. I was fuming.
I set out after dark towards the path to the wild. I was already miles away when I felt the two wake up, riddled with guilt.
I decided to wait for the group at the borders of the Valley and the wild. I cleared my conscious so that they wouldn't expect anything and I sat against the rock face, waiting.
It was a good two hours before the company reached my hiding spot and I could hear Thorin talking.
"I suggest you keep up, Master Baggins." I heard him say from around the corner. "We are about to step into the wild, Balin, you know these paths, lead on."
"This way everyone." Balin said as they moved closer to me. When they were right below my hiding spot, I jumped down in front of Thorin, Fili, and Kili. The look of shock on their faces couldn't even come close to matching the anger on mine.
"Lili..." Fili said with his eyes wide.
"You really think you could leave me behind? After everything?" I asked more hurt than anything. They looked down.
"Lili, we just wanted to protect-" Fili reached out to me but I smacked his hand away quickly.
"No. You were going to leave me behind. Plain and simple." I said coldly.
"You would have been safer there." Thorin told me pointedly. I stood face to face with him, glaring.
"After saving your life, I thought I deserved a little more respect than that, apparently I was wrong." I said with malice then turned back to Fili and Kili sending them a push of emotions, showing them just how badly they hurt me.
"Lili, please-" Kili reached out to grab my hand and I pulled free from his grasp.
"No. Just don't. Don't talk to me, don't look at me, don't touch me, nothing. Not anytime soon at least. I at least thought you both loved me more than that." As I spat the words, I could feel the pain of them in my heart. I turned to walk towards the front of the group away from them motioning for Balin to continue on.
We walked silently for days. I stayed my distance from Fili and Kili who had both tried numerous times to apologize. I slept on my own, away from the others, though there was no sleep that came. The pain in my chest never dulled, if anything it got worse as the days passed.
As I sat awake for the fifth day straight, I could feel my head spinning from the drowsiness. My body needed sleep but it wouldn't come without one or both of the boys at my side.
"Are you alright, Lili?" Bilbo asked me as he sat down next to me.
"Yeah... yeah I'm, I'm.. fine." I muttered almost incoherently.
"Thorin!" I heard Bilbo shout, but I was too weak to do anything about it.
"What is it, Master Baggins?" Thorin asked tiredly.
"It's Lili, something's wrong." Bilbo replied, I could feel Fili and Kili snap awake at that but I couldn't even open my mouth in protest.
I felt Thorin come over to me quickly and start speaking to me.
"Lili, when is the last you slept?" Thorin asked quickly. I looked at him through dizzy eyes.
"R-rivendell." I muttered. "C-can't."
"Fili, Kili, over here, NOW!" Thorin yelled. I was too far gone to tell him no. I could feel both of them getting closer to me. "She needs you, quickly."
"What's wrong? Uncle what's wrong with her?" Kili asked quickly as he approached. I felt myself drifting off as soon as I felt warm arms wrapping around me.
Had to add some drama in there after all that fluff, so here it is! Hope you enjoy! Please review, darlings.
Bex
