p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"The next show was close to Shane's house so Alex stayed there instead of a hotel. She got up for her morning run, noticing the house was quiet. It paid to get up early, seeing the world before all the hustle and bustle. Nice and peaceful. The only sound she would hear is Linkin Park in her ears. She ran around the neighborhood for awhile and went back home. Shane just woke up./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Morning." /p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hi." Shane said as he yawned and stretched. "Up and at em' early like usual."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Yep, had to get my run on. You know, the usual."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They went about their day separately. Night fell and Shane wondered where Alex was. He called her phone, but got no answer. It was 1am when she finally came back. Shane was asleep on the couch with the tv on. He woke up when she walked in./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Sorry to wake you." Alex quietly said./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're fine. I'm a light sleeper."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex turned to the stairs to head up to her room. Shane heard her sobbing quietly./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hey, what's wrong?"/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm good. I'm just really tired."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You sure? If you need to talk I'm here."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She stood halfway up the steps for a second. "I don't want to be alone. My anxiety is pretty high right now."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Ok, what can I do to help?"/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Just talk to me."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She turned around and walked back down the steps and buried her head in Shane's chest./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Come on." Shane led her to the couch and turned off the tv. There was a faint glow from the lamp on the far end of the room. She sat with her head on his shoulder and cried./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm so sorry to be like this." She said in between breaths./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hey, it's ok. I need for you to breathe though." He put his arm around her and rubbed her arm./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex continued to cry. No words were spoken between them. They sat for a few minutes like this./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Shhhhh. Breathe in, hold it for a second, now breathe out." Shane quietly said./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Please just keep talking, I don't care what about, just talk please."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Breathe in, hold it, let it go." Shane repeated. He kept saying it quietly. Alex did as he said and eventually her breathing slowed down. She continued to cry as she laid her head on his lap. Shane began to stroke her hair. "Breathe in, hold it, let it go." He said once again./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Do you want to talk about anything?" He asked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She nodded her head. Shane felt a stirring in his pants when she nodded her head. He knew it was the worst possible time to feel anything sexually. He continued to stroke her hair./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""A few years ago I was in a bad relationship. He was verbally, mentally, and physically abusive. And I took it. On this day he raped me because I said no to him. I never dealt with it, even though I'm dealing with everything else, I refused to deal with that. It just came back to slap me in the face. I've avoided it all day, but it just finally came to a head and my mind became consumed with it. Every single thought and feeling from that moment came to hit me. I never felt so worthless before. After I got out of the relationship I thought I'd be free, but I'm really not. Because I can't get it out of my head. And because it's in my head I feel completely worthless and helpless."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're not worthless Alex. You're not helpless. You're a strong woman who is invaluable in more ways than one. I'm sorry that you endured that. You didn't deserve it and you don't deserve to deal with the feelings from it now. You didn't do anything wrong, none of that was your fault. Some people are just bad and we try so hard to stick by them trying to find the good in them, hoping they will change. The only thing you had control over was yourself and you got out of the relationship, which was the right thing to do."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm sorry."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Stop apologizing. It's ok."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They sat quietly while Alex continued to cry. She slowly got up and looked at Shane. They sat staring at each other for a few moments. Shane pushed some hair out of her face and wiped a tear from her cheek. They leaned in to each other and gently kissed. Alex put her arms around Shane and he put his hands on the sides of her face. Alex opened her mouth to allow his tongue access and she moaned quietly in to his mouth. Soon their hands were exploring each other's bodies. Shane stood up and held out his hand. Alex took his hand and he led her upstairs to his bedroom./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They embraced and kissed again. Shane slowly slid Alex's jacket off, letting it fall to the floor. Alex peeled Shane's shirt off and they continued to kiss. Shane got Alex down to her bra and panties and laid her on the bed. He was down to his boxers./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Are you ok? Are you sure about this?" Shane asked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex nodded her head. He slowly unhooked her bra and took it off, then he slid her panties off. He stopped to look at her./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're so beautiful." He whispered./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"He leaned down and began kissing her neck. Shane slowly made his way down to her breasts. Cupping one while kissing the other. He took her throbbing nipple in his mouth and swirled his tongue around it. Alex arched her back in response. His free hand slowly made it's way down to her hips. He ran his hand back up to her breast. He kissed his way down her stomach, around her belly button, and down to her pelvis. He kissed her thighs, slowly opened her legs, and kissed her inner thighs. His mouth found it's way to her and she moaned in response. He put two fingers inside her and twisted in and out while he licked and sucked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex grabbed his hair and thrust in to him, matching his thrusts in and out. He looked up at her as she arched her back and moaned. Shane brought her to climax and he kept working on her./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Please stop." Alex whimpered repeatedly as she shook./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Shane came back up and kissed her. "You taste good." He said. As they kissed, Alex slid his boxers off and sat up. She made her way down to his penis and took him in her mouth. She swirled her tongue around his shaft as she bobbed her head up and down. Shane gently grabbed her hair and looked down at her as she looked up at him. He thrust his hips in time with her mouth. Shane felt he was close so he stopped her and brought her up to kiss her. They kissed for a few minutes before he picked her up and put her back against the wall. He entered her and she hissed. He filled her up. He slowly thrust in and out as they kissed. She moaned softly in to his mouth. His pace quickened and then he stopped. He carried Alex back to the bed and laid her down. Shane used his knee to open her legs and once again entered her. He gently thrust in and out, taking his time. Alex wrapped her arms and legs around him as she kissed him. She thrust in to him matching his pace. Shane quickened his pace and she moaned in to his mouth. Alex then threw her head back and arched her back. Shane kissed her neck and soon Alex came. He could feel her drench his cock with her juices. Soon after Shane came and buried his head in her neck. Their breathing was ragged and they clung to each other./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I love you." He said as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in to him./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I love you too." Alex said breathlessly./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Morning." /p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hi." Shane said as he yawned and stretched. "Up and at em' early like usual."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Yep, had to get my run on. You know, the usual."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They went about their day separately. Night fell and Shane wondered where Alex was. He called her phone, but got no answer. It was 1am when she finally came back. Shane was asleep on the couch with the tv on. He woke up when she walked in./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Sorry to wake you." Alex quietly said./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're fine. I'm a light sleeper."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex turned to the stairs to head up to her room. Shane heard her sobbing quietly./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hey, what's wrong?"/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm good. I'm just really tired."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You sure? If you need to talk I'm here."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She stood halfway up the steps for a second. "I don't want to be alone. My anxiety is pretty high right now."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Ok, what can I do to help?"/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Just talk to me."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She turned around and walked back down the steps and buried her head in Shane's chest./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Come on." Shane led her to the couch and turned off the tv. There was a faint glow from the lamp on the far end of the room. She sat with her head on his shoulder and cried./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm so sorry to be like this." She said in between breaths./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Hey, it's ok. I need for you to breathe though." He put his arm around her and rubbed her arm./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex continued to cry. No words were spoken between them. They sat for a few minutes like this./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Shhhhh. Breathe in, hold it for a second, now breathe out." Shane quietly said./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Please just keep talking, I don't care what about, just talk please."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Breathe in, hold it, let it go." Shane repeated. He kept saying it quietly. Alex did as he said and eventually her breathing slowed down. She continued to cry as she laid her head on his lap. Shane began to stroke her hair. "Breathe in, hold it, let it go." He said once again./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Do you want to talk about anything?" He asked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"She nodded her head. Shane felt a stirring in his pants when she nodded her head. He knew it was the worst possible time to feel anything sexually. He continued to stroke her hair./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""A few years ago I was in a bad relationship. He was verbally, mentally, and physically abusive. And I took it. On this day he raped me because I said no to him. I never dealt with it, even though I'm dealing with everything else, I refused to deal with that. It just came back to slap me in the face. I've avoided it all day, but it just finally came to a head and my mind became consumed with it. Every single thought and feeling from that moment came to hit me. I never felt so worthless before. After I got out of the relationship I thought I'd be free, but I'm really not. Because I can't get it out of my head. And because it's in my head I feel completely worthless and helpless."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're not worthless Alex. You're not helpless. You're a strong woman who is invaluable in more ways than one. I'm sorry that you endured that. You didn't deserve it and you don't deserve to deal with the feelings from it now. You didn't do anything wrong, none of that was your fault. Some people are just bad and we try so hard to stick by them trying to find the good in them, hoping they will change. The only thing you had control over was yourself and you got out of the relationship, which was the right thing to do."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I'm sorry."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Stop apologizing. It's ok."/p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They sat quietly while Alex continued to cry. She slowly got up and looked at Shane. They sat staring at each other for a few moments. Shane pushed some hair out of her face and wiped a tear from her cheek. They leaned in to each other and gently kissed. Alex put her arms around Shane and he put his hands on the sides of her face. Alex opened her mouth to allow his tongue access and she moaned quietly in to his mouth. Soon their hands were exploring each other's bodies. Shane stood up and held out his hand. Alex took his hand and he led her upstairs to his bedroom./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"They embraced and kissed again. Shane slowly slid Alex's jacket off, letting it fall to the floor. Alex peeled Shane's shirt off and they continued to kiss. Shane got Alex down to her bra and panties and laid her on the bed. He was down to his boxers./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Are you ok? Are you sure about this?" Shane asked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex nodded her head. He slowly unhooked her bra and took it off, then he slid her panties off. He stopped to look at her./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""You're so beautiful." He whispered./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"He leaned down and began kissing her neck. Shane slowly made his way down to her breasts. Cupping one while kissing the other. He took her throbbing nipple in his mouth and swirled his tongue around it. Alex arched her back in response. His free hand slowly made it's way down to her hips. He ran his hand back up to her breast. He kissed his way down her stomach, around her belly button, and down to her pelvis. He kissed her thighs, slowly opened her legs, and kissed her inner thighs. His mouth found it's way to her and she moaned in response. He put two fingers inside her and twisted in and out while he licked and sucked./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Alex grabbed his hair and thrust in to him, matching his thrusts in and out. He looked up at her as she arched her back and moaned. Shane brought her to climax and he kept working on her./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""Please stop." Alex whimpered repeatedly as she shook./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;"Shane came back up and kissed her. "You taste good." He said. As they kissed, Alex slid his boxers off and sat up. She made her way down to his penis and took him in her mouth. She swirled her tongue around his shaft as she bobbed her head up and down. Shane gently grabbed her hair and looked down at her as she looked up at him. He thrust his hips in time with her mouth. Shane felt he was close so he stopped her and brought her up to kiss her. They kissed for a few minutes before he picked her up and put her back against the wall. He entered her and she hissed. He filled her up. He slowly thrust in and out as they kissed. She moaned softly in to his mouth. His pace quickened and then he stopped. He carried Alex back to the bed and laid her down. Shane used his knee to open her legs and once again entered her. He gently thrust in and out, taking his time. Alex wrapped her arms and legs around him as she kissed him. She thrust in to him matching his pace. Shane quickened his pace and she moaned in to his mouth. Alex then threw her head back and arched her back. Shane kissed her neck and soon Alex came. He could feel her drench his cock with her juices. Soon after Shane came and buried his head in her neck. Their breathing was ragged and they clung to each other./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I love you." He said as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in to him./p
p style="margin-bottom: 0in; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal;""I love you too." Alex said breathlessly./p
