Chapter Eleven

Don't I Deserve To Be Happy?
Nahuel


When I wake up I feel something soft under me. I feel tired but at the same time wonderful, because she is asleep in the bed next to mine. She is smiling in her sleep and I fight the impulse to wrap my arms around her, but she mutters something and I give in. She is so beautiful and when I lay beside her she snuggles into me, without any of the self consiousness that both of us would feel if we were awake. She is so young and so old at the same time, when I am with her I feel as though everything is perfect in the world. She looks older then she did before around nineteen maybe twenty but at the same time she looks younger then that.

She mutters something again and I realize that it is my name upon her dreaming lips. I smile as I watch her sleep, her hair is cascading down her back like an avalanche of dark coppery curls. She is smiling in her sleep and I draw her in closer to me smelling her wonderful scent. She slowly opens her eyes looking at me in that way that makes my heart feel light. "Good morning Nahuel." She says and gives the most adorable yawn.

""Morning Nessie, your so beautiful." I say in truth her beauty has robbed me of breath on more then one occasion. I smile down at her getting closer until her lips touch, oh be still my traitorous heart but hers is just as loud. We both laugh at our foolishness, besotted love struck half vampires that we are. I think she feels the same way and I couldn't know for sure short of asking. I realize that the last thing I remember from last night was Alex as he fell asleep. "I don't remember getting in bed last night, just seeing Alex."

She blushes those wonderful cheeks coloring slightly. "I tried to wake you for a little while but then I decided to carry you to the bed instead." I cannot believe that anyone would care enough to do something like that for me. I feel warm all over and I must look silly but I don't care.

"Thank you, you are the only person I know that would care enough to do so." I tell her something about her wants me to be honest, the way she cares for the world and her family is wonderful. I hear a slight sound and see that my nephew has become tired of waiting for us to get up. He's hanging onto the bars of his cradle smiling at both of us.

"Ess'i." He says, he loves her as much if not more then I do. She gets up from the bed to pick him up smiling at him.

"Hey little guy looks like someone needs a diaper change." She says and he laughs delightedly. She goes over to the other bed and I watch her carefully. She undoes the dirty diaper and holding his feet wipes him carefully before putting down a fresh one. She then makes me do the process and shows me which end is the right one on the diaper and which end is the wrong one I can't help but smile she is so beautiful. I attach the straps and Alex smiles at us.

"Mo'i." Alex says and she nods winking slightly as I finish.

"You Mr. are turning into a disney junkie, it happens to a lot of little kids eventually." Alex laughs delighted as Nessie picks him up. I cannot help but revel in how good she is with kids, I want her to have mine someday.

"Mo'i." He repeats his eyes becoming pleading, the little rogue. He knows no one can resist his cuteness and he exploits it.

"Lets get you some food and then we will see." She tells him and he seems to think it over for a moment before nodding.

"Irs'i." I smile its amazing how he can ask for what he wants now. She always smiles at him and I badly want to have more children with her, I think that she would love taking care of them. I would love watching her do it, of that I have no doubt and she would make a wonderful mother.

"Thirsty?"She asks him and he nods. "Are you hungry?" He shakes his head and she smiles such a wonderful smile I have to remind myself to breath. "Alright then I believe it is time for the Blood Mobil to leave the station." She tells him and he laughs as she scoops him up. We walk together into the main house, she stops and I see the banner smiling, I have already gotten her something, I didn't realize that today was her birthday. Nether did she apparently.

"Happy birthday sweetie." Her mother says and I smile. Now it was time for her to know what I had been looking forward to for several days, because it would make her happy. "We know how you wanted to go to high school and now that you stopped aging you can! We enrolled you with Nahuel, if you don't like it you can just test out." She smiles and hugs Bella. It would be a new experience for both of us, I have never been to high school either, unlike Nessie however I never had a desire to go.

"Thanks Mom, I need some more half human experiences." Half human experiences? That doesn't make any sense but Bella laughs and I suppose that its an inside joke.

"Hi little monstrosity." Emmett said and jumps over the couch. "You've grown and you look hot!" I try not to growl at him, he has absolutely no right to call my future wife hot after insulting her. However a beautiful blond haired woman who if I remember correctly is named Rosemary beats me to it and whacks him on the head.

"More tough love?" Nessie asks and they both laugh.

"Of course." The blond woman says. "Your almost as beautiful as me, almost but not quite." Ugh vain much? Just a little. My Nessie however laughs and punches her lightly on the arm as Edward steps over, I haven't quite yet forgiven him for that thought reading conversation but even now all I think about is how much I love Nessie and how I would never hurt her. He starts to shake and I could tell that he would be crying if he could.

"What's wrong Daddy?" She asks her voice full of concern and he smiles at her.

"My little girl has grown up." He says and her face lights up in the most wonderful of grins. Her family surrounds her and I feel sort of left out. I stand behind the couch, I have never seen so much love in one house and it makes me slightly uncomfortable.

"The big 07 eh, maybe they will let us wrestle now." Emmett says and I note how he is careful to be far away from both Rosalie and Nessie.

"No thanks I like the amount of life I have in my body, I don't need it getting beat out of me by uncles." She replies and Emmett takes his life into his hands by running forward and clapping her on the back.

"I hope your hungry." Edward says smiling. "Because I made chocolate chip pancakes and someone has to eat them." Pancakes what is a pancake? For that matter what are chocolate chips, but Nessie smiles at Alex and taking my hand we go into the dining room.

She sits down and there seems to be something circular in the middle of the table. She grabs one and passes it to me before grabbing another, they look big. She takes out a serving dish of blood and pours it over the pancake, at her incouragement I do the same. "Would you like a little of this Alex?" She asks and he nods she carefully cuts a portion into tiny pieces, I can't believe how beautiful she is and I will be repeating it to myself until the day I die. She gives him a bite and his eyes widen I suppose I should try this if he likes it that much. He levatates the fork while its still in Nessie's hand, she smiles down at him. "Wait a minute Alex." She tells him and I watch her feed him as I eat my own breakfast, eventually he is full and content to sit on her lap as she eats.

"Som'i!" Alex shouts suddenly. "Owie! No cow'in, no mama." Nessie beautiful Nessie curses I can't hear what she says but it doesn't sound that nice.

"She wandered off into the woods." Edward said. "A log fell and her she is trapped under it, she hears something in the distance and she's afraid to howl in case it comes closer." Nessie practically jumps to her feet and runs out the door I start to fallow her.

"She needs to do this on her own." Edward tells me and I nod sitting back down, Alex is very upset and I take him into my arms.

"Hey little guy lets watch a movie." I tell him and put on something called Monster's Inc. The fuzzy creatures on the screen look like none of the monsters I usually see, but Alex is enchanted by them and thats good enough for me. I switch DVD's and watch another movie with him, I smile looking down at him as he looks about the room. The rest of the family is also gathered around waiting to hear from Nessie through Alex's bond.

"Som'i, Ess'i aw'ight." He says smiling. "Som'i ochie." He stops for a while and I can tell he's listening to something. "Som'i sweepy, Cow'in, Som'i papa aw'ight. Som'i Sweepy." He says and I smile its a bit hard to understand and I think that he's stopped when suddenly I hear him speak again. "Ess'i." He says and I stare at him. "Essy ere." Ess'i had used her talent to speak with Alex? "Car'ile go! Som'i Papa say." Carlisle smiles and nods leaving with his medical kit. Alex yawns and relaxes against me obviously tired from the strain of communicating he soon starts to snore soft babish snores. I gently pull down the blanket and wrap him in it as he sleeps in my arms. Emmett puts on a fighting tape and we watch it together.

"What is this called?"

"UFC." Emmett replies cheering on someone or another. I watch it with him as it gets darker worried about Nessie. Eventually though the pack arrive and I have other things to worry about. No matter how much Nessie protests that they are just friends I have trouble beliving it. He glares at me and I stare back but then I hear the sound of a car pulling up the driveway and I forget about Jacob when Nessie comes in. He beautiful face is marred by scratch marks I notice a second before everybody yells "SUPRISE." It startles me out of staring at her.

"Wow thank you for coming." She says and I smile at her that's my Nessie.

"Anytime little sister." One of the muscly men says. "So what's it feel like to be an adult, I don't notice any difference except that your much hotter." I feel myself roaring inside but I don't let it escape he was just joking I tell myself. Jacob however growls warningly at him.

"But I'll never be as hot as you guys." She says and they all laugh I don't get what is so funny but I join in because maybe I can make Nessie laugh longer if I am lucky. She stands up and grabs a bottle of lemonade, I do the same because I think our tastes are simular. I hear classical music and after finishing the drink I take Nessie's hand and we dance together. She is radiant and I smile at her and she smiles back at me I feel her eyes so warm and inviting staring into mine and I feel for the first time in my life a sense of peace.

"Present time!" Alice practically shouts. "Then the pizza will arrive." The pack cheer and it hurts my ears. "I hope fourteen larges is enough."

You got fourteen larges?" One of the guys asks. "I love you!" Well at least that's one less person I have to worry about trying to take Nessie away from me

"Afraid she's already taken." Jasper says and kisses Alice bending her backward.

"Go Jasp!" Nessie says laughing..

"Hey Nessie, can I talk to you in private?" Jake asks and she nods. Just then the phone rings and I go to answer it.

"Cullen Residence." I say. "Nahuel speaking."

"Hi Nana." My sister says and I stare at the phone.

"Get back here Abigale your tearing up Embry." I say.

"I can't, I am not his imprint, you know my talent right?"

"To see into one person's best possible future and what their hopes and dreams are. What they want most out of life." I replied nodding.

"Well I am not Embry's imprint." She says.

"What do you mean your not?"

"He wanted one and when he saw me he developed a crush nothing more, your child yours and Nessie's will be his imprint." Woah an unborn child destand to have a werewolf lover? Sorry but that was just too weird.

"Forgive me if I have trouble believing you." I practically shout and Alice turns in my direction, I mouth sorry and she nods.

"Would I ever lie to you? There is more, Jacob imprinted on Nessie, when I heard that I switched my gift over. The best possible outcome is for you to have a child and then leave her to be with Jacob." She says no way was I leaving Nessie alone to raise two children, older sisters and their talents be damed.

"I don't think you would lie about this but its so mine blowing."

"Nessie wants you as much as you want her, however a part of her also wants Jacob. I don't think that your relationship will be as meaningful if you don't let her go for a few years."

"A few years?" I demand. "Just leave her with no explanation, there is no way I am going to do that!" Nessie enters the room she looks upset.

"Oh you will tell her before you leave, keep in touch with her, no matter what Jacob's future ends in about ninety years."

"Why are you telling me this? Do you want me to be miserable?"

"No its simply best for everyone if you leave, including Alex you need to leave him behind with Nessie."

"I am not leaving Alex behind he is my nephew and therefore my responsibility." I feel myself start to shake, how could I ever leave her? How could my sister ask this of me.

"You have to Nahuel." She says and then the phone cut off. I go over to where Nessie is sitting on the couch.

"That was Abigale." I tell her "She isn't going to come back." She puts her arm around me and starts to stroke my hair I lie against her, after a while faining sleep trying to decide which path to take, the one that was honorable or the one that I wanted to. Someone comes over and she teases him lightly. "Done with your glut?" she asks and then she moves slightly I open one eye part way to see Embry with his head against her shoulder. I go back to thinking, should I be self serving or self sacrificing? It doesn't help much that Embry is snoring loudly in my ear, and I am surprised that Nessie doesn't see through my fained sleep really who could sleep with that racket.

Her head nods and rests against mine and I feel something soft lowered over me. "Are you alright?" Alice asks coming over.

"I'm comfortable." Nessie replies and rests her head on top of mine falling asleep. Sleep however eludes me despite how tired I feel, I finally manage to fall into my dreams with my Nessie sleeping soundly above me.