Rating M only because of strong language. Also a big thanks to my beta DancingFireStar who made a wonderful job to correct my mistakes.
Chapter 10: Misery
Natsuki was sitting in a Gay bar named Hime; she slid back onto the barstool and signaled for another beer from the bartender.
"I searched for you; it seems this became your new home." A teasing voice asked.
"Nao, what are you doing here?" Kuga said without looking at the red headed woman who sat next to her.
"I simply want to help my friend; I don't want her to make more mistakes. You are drunk. Just in case, I will drive you safely to your home."
"No kidding! You're obviously a clever girl! You aren't a psychologist for nothing. Oh wait, did you say we are friends? Since when?" The blunette growled tiredly.
"I'm always surprised, but since college." Nao responded counting mentally the years.
"We are so old."
"Speak for yourself. I'm one year younger than you and don't have many wrinkles like you in your forehead."
"WHAT! I don't have any wrinkles fatass!" Kuga muttered touching her forehead nervously.
"Yeah…Look at you, again drinking alone.''
''Now yes…but after I will not be alone in my apartment. '' In that moment, a beer appeared in front of Natsuki. She glanced up at the waitress who showed her a beautiful customer.
"It's from the blonde at the bar…6 o'clock."
Kuga peered in that direction to see the said woman who was waving at her, the blunette smile seductively. "See?"
"Yeah, a real womanizer. Always sad and alone."Added Zhang ironically.
''Tell her thanks." Kuga said to the waitress.
''So…"
"So?"
"What are you going to do?" Nao asked fidgeting her fingers.
"What…what do you mean? Fuck her so hard that she will scream my name all night?" Natsuki poured another whiskey. Nao snatched the bottle from her.
"OH NO! Damn it! Urg! I didn't speak about that you idiot! Pervert! And stop drinking or you will be very ill, and say nonsense. I don't want you to puke in my car. Also you know what I mean. The chestnut goddess with bloody eyes you have wet dreams about all night. You tried to evacuate your frustration with all the blonde women in the city and soon another one." Natsuki froze and breathed deeply.
"I don't…know…what you are talking about…" The green eyed woman responds with an obvious lie.
"You have to tell her, you can't live like this. It's burning you, I'm afraid…''
''Of what? Tell her what?'' Natsuki groaned a bit tipsy. She drank rapidly another glass of whiskey. She didn't count how many she already had.
"Come on, you know what, your feelings." Zhang was fed up with this horrible situation, she knew Natsuki was more fragile than people can imagine.
"I don't know what you are talking about."
"Don't play dumb with me, I'm not Shizuru, you can smile, play a role but I know you. And the main problem is I'm not your best friend contrary to that Fujino."
''I know you dislike her, but don't talk shit about her!" The blunette snapped furiously.
"I don't care if you are angry against me! It's the reality! Your reality, even if you try to deny it! Damn it! I will become crazy with all this drama. Yeah she is fantastic, beautiful, clever, rich and selfish, also arrogant and stupid with you! She left you behind to stay with her fiancé Reito…and you like a nice little puppy, you…you wag your tail happily."
"Stop it Nao or I will punch you so hard in your face that you will remember the rest of your life and surgery can't do anything for you!" Kuga growled angrily.
"No it's her that needs to stop. This relationship you have both have…if I can recall, is killing you. You don't even notice yourself! She uses you, she makes you hope for something that will never happen. She seduces you only for fun and you think it's normal? No it's not. And one day you will realize it's too late and then what will you do? Drink, have sex and what? You will be alone and your 'bestie' will have a nice little family with her prince! Tell her before you made an irreparable mistake."
"There is no way it will happen...I don't want her to discover I'm a freak." Kuga snarled exhausted. She also had enough, why her life can't be a little simpler? Why did she fall in love with her best friend? Why does Shizuru have to marry Kanzaki? She never imagined their story will be this serious.
"You are not. It's not a shame to be a lesbian. And I know she didn't care."
"Yes I am a shame. Why would I destroy her happiness?" The veterinary barked frustrated. She always wanted to tell her feelings but it's too late. Also she can't tell her friend that Shizuru didn't talk to her for a week, even if she tried her best to reach her.
"Because it's breaking you to stay away from her, to lie, and loving her in secret."
"And she loves another person, not me! She will marry that person. The perfect gentlemen, you didn't see the way she talk about her fiancé…It's her dream to be with him! I won't tell her my love. Never, I warn you neither will you."
"It's stupid to be so stubborn, you don't even try."
"I know I'm stupid, but she doesn't have to know."
"And you? You can barely smile, I don't know if she blind, but to be her Maid of Honor it's the worst idea she have never had. I thought she was clever but no, you are like her. And accepted it was simple suicidal for your sanity." Nao closed her eyes for a moment, how many times they had the same conversation? Too much time…
"Stay away from my business they aren't yours."
"Yes they are. You are my business. I care about you, a lot."
"Thanks for you declaration of love, so now will you ask me for marriage?" The dark haired woman answered sarcastically not loving the turn of their conversation; she already knows all of this craps. Rubbing the truth in makes her more pathetic.
"You changed a lot Natsuki…"
"I know…I'm sorry okay? But she deserved to be happy."
"And not you?"
"Some people have happiness; and others have the rest."
"I see…so you are the rest," Zhang rubbed Natsuki's forearm gently who escaped abruptly.
"Stop it now!"
"What? Telling the truth because you don't want to hear it? Not a chance! This woman will make you crazy, and not only with love, aren't you afraid of what will happen to you?"
"Of course I am, "
"Tell her you can't help her anymore with her wedding."
"For what reason? Because I'm in love with her? It's killing me and I don't want her to marry toothpaste smile. I would prefer if she chose me instead. I'm not a monster." Kuga laughed coolly
"No you're only human with feelings and beautiful heart." Nao remarked gently.
"It's you who is crazy."
"So what? I don't care."
"It's hurt so badly."
"I know, I already know come here." Nao said taking her friend in her arms that stiffed but relaxed a little in her embrace.
"Please…I just don't want to talk about this. Just take me home." The bluenette pinched the bridge of her nose tiredly. She stumbled as she tried to get up. Her friend tried to help before her fall.
"Is that an invitation?"
"If you want to warm my bed, I have no objection." Deep, dark circles sat heavily underneath Natsuki's eyes, she lost a lot of weight her friend noticed. Why did you always inflict yourself with so much pain Natsuki?
Kuga yawned and shook her head as if she was able to clear all of her problems. But they will always remain there, in her heart.
''You are not my type. The last time I checked, you don't have a penis down there.'' The read head woman winked.
''Oh that's gross. I want to puke!'' Kuga cringed disgusting.
''Only for a lesbian who only love a vagina.'' Nao winked.
"No I made a mistake; it's you who are gross."
"But you love me."
"Fuck you." Natsuki barked in an annoyed tone.
"Sorry, but again you aren't my type. The line that goes to your bed is too long of wait, even for me."
"You are so mean!" Kuga pouted.
"And you like it."
"I'm not a masochist. Even if I like slapping woman ass and I found it arousing when she moaned my name."
"Who's gross now?" Both friends watched each others and laughed freely. Zhang watched tenderly the lone wolf and was happy she finally forgot about Fujino. Even if it's just for a moment.
"So…Can you stay...with...me tonight?" Natsuki asked shyly with a burning face. Even if she won't tell openly, she didn't to stay alone tonight.
"You won't do anything funny right?"
"Of course not! I'm not an slut."
"Since when?"
"Shut up!"
"Ok for your bed, but if you try something; I will break both of your hands and fingers. And you can't use them anymore with anybody else. "
"…I will be a gentleman! I promise!" Kuga said rapidly while a sweat drop running down her neck.
Shizuru was sitting alone in her kitchen, totally depressed. Her life is a real mess. She heard her phone ring; she changed to a new one a few days ago. She didn't know why, but Reito wanted to talk, but she didn't. Their relationship is already over, what's the point of talking? And she didn't want to see him again, even if she hadn't a choice, because some of her stuff are at Kanzaki's home.
Drinking a glass of vodka, Shizuru take some pills in her hands, in front of her, there was a lot of them. Anti depressant, sleeping drug. She knew it wasn't good idea to add a lot of medication and alcohol. But it didn't matter anymore. She wanted to end everything…
She almost took them when she heard a knock at her door, she hesitated a moment, she knew who dare to bother her again. Angry, she opened the door and shouted:
"Ahn I had enough of you! I warn you if you continue I will call…what-" Not able to finish her sentence, the chestnut haired beauty was stopped by a burning kiss.
